Goodness, it has been a little while since I've last posted anything in general. I have just been busy trying to get my life together academically and emotionally. There were just a lot of things going on all at once that feels like I was laying in my own pile of emotions and work as it was burning and saying that everything was fine. A lot has happened throughout the years with hardships filled with anguish and a whole lot of changing through these moments and through problems of

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Can anybody hear me?
Does anybody care to listen to me?
Who actually understands the brain trapped inside the broken head

Who cares to even listen to you?
They only like to see you suffer
The consequences that torture the kindness out of a innocent heart

Does anybody understand an introvert?
Who dares to hear my words?
Who wants to understand the fear resided deep in the heart
A heart that screams everyday for someone to say I understand you...

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So, recently I have been thinking about doing like a youtube series, or so I call it, called Crystal Talks or like an extension of Crystal Feather Myths. I will be using my wolf OC character as the pictures I use cause particularly I don't feel comfortable showing my actual face on camera for various reason which I won't go into much detail for (picture of her is below.) Basically the things I would talk about would be like stories based on my real life, rants if you want or if I need to,

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I wish I could think of a video to explain how much I feel so happy right now. For the past four months if you haven't been watching or know anything that has been going on with me, I had a best friend named Alex of whom I had made a mistake on and couldn't come to terms to forgive myself, soon causing me to be very depressed and a little in thoughts of suicidal. And I thought that her and I were done, but I continued to pray for her and I together, and hoped that one day that something would

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For the past three months I have been depressed, thinking that there was no other way out of the pain that resided deep in my heart, causing me constant pain and sadness. This was me then, here I am now with the pain not bothering me anymore. I have finally decided that I needed to grow up and let go of the problem that was bothering me for far too long. I decided not to post it on YouTube because I didn't really want some people that I follow to know what was really wrong with me and then get

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I used to be so happy when you were around
The touch of your kindred spirit that resided only deep within your body would just bring me joy.
The amazing gift you were given
And I knew for damn sure before you told me that you were special, a gift from God

A broken angel because of her angered past that could never leave her mind.
Your perfect friend prayers had been answered, you told me the day that I told you that I was happy.
The pain of this tattered, broken heart

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Wow, it's only three days until my birthday... To me, my birthday normally isn't a day where I turn up like other people at my school would do. No... I look at it more like I have lived another year and survived to continue to try and make my mark on the world. Right now as an update, I am working on here trying to pony-fy my recent story called Invisible. First of all I dedicate it to my friend Alexandria who I know I have done wrong to and her and I are slowly trying to regain our trusts

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You didn't think I'd be gone fro long didn't you! I gave this account up too early as I had gotten myself wrapped up in someone who is bound to make my life a living hell. For the past few weeks, in about three days would make it a month, I was filled with depression and becoming a little suicidal nothing serious at all, because of the fact that I had failed "my perfect friend." Last Friday she had decided to start ignoring me all because I was thinking about a situation that had happened.

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I have been working on this one for a little while, along with other stories in the mix of it all. This one story is close to my heart and I hope that you all can understand why it is. It hasn't been submitted yet, but I plan on releasing it on December 22, 2014. BTW, that was the day in my life when I went back to that church and joined them all when it was a Sunday. All of these people have made an impact in my life so far and I know my journey is not alone.

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