> Innocence Lost > by TWhylight > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Prologue > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Prologue There have been many delays today, and many tasks left to complete, so why was Spike choosing now to interrupt my schedule? "C'mon Twilight, we have to get there soon!" he ordered, while sprinting ahead. I lagged behind my athletic familiar trying to think. I didn't see what the big deal was or why we had to hurry. He wasn't panicking so it couldn't be trouble, nor was he overly excited. He just wanted for me to go. Why? He ran back from behind the corner to get me. "Why are you so slow c'mon, c'mon!" Before I could say anything he was gone. Well it must be important somehow if he wanted me to follow this badly. I broke out into a trot, moving a little faster to see what the silly fuss is about. As I caught up to Spike, who was standing still waiting for me, I asked what he was on about. "Why the rush Spike. Can't you te-" "No time, we’re nearly there!" I sighed heavily and followed once more. We walked around the corner and into an open area, with the only notable landmark being the library, my house. "We're here." He smiled folding his arms together. "And why are we here?" I questioned, as I felt my frustration grow. "You could have told me we were going home." He just glanced at me with a sly smile. "It wouldn't be as good without me..." "What wouldn't be as good? Why did you drag me away from my schedule?" His sly grin stretched his cheeks, "We'll let's find out shall we?" He definitely implied something, something like a surprise? My aching legs could certainly use a rest right now. I looked at the large hollow tree. The shutters on the windows were closed preventing the light from shining outside. That’s funny, I don't remember closing the shutters. Well I guess I'll find out when we open the door. "SURPRISE!" My heart skipped a beat as the lights suddenly blinded me. "Wha, what is the meaning of this?!" The pony responsible for most parties rushed out in front of the crowd bouncing around happily. "It's a surprise party for you!" She smiled gleefully. "Were you surprised, huh?!" I gave her a queried look while biting my bottom lip. "Yes thoroughly. Is there a reason for this party Pinkie?" I smiled and giggled from my next remark. "Is it for 'scaring little Twilight out of her mind party'?" "No silly!" She continued to bounce as if she was attached to a string. The other four sentimental mares appeared out of the crowd all smiling cheerfully and wearing party hats. "Oh sugar-cube, don't tell us you forgot your own birthday." Applejack laughed. Wait, my birthday? As in it was today? As in my special day is today! I quickly checked my calendar on the wall, it confirmed that they were right. Why wasn't this in my schedule, why did I forget? Was I really that forgetful of important dates? Sweet Celestia I was a silly filly sometimes. Pushing all my questions aside I turned back to the mass of ponies all mingling and dancing to the booming and hypnotic music playing. Everypony was here: Bon-Bon & Lyra, Ditzy Doo, Golden Harvest, Berry Punch, Vinyl Scratch, Octavia, and pretty much all of Ponyville. But most importantly my friends were here. "Well this is a definite surprise. I can't believe I forgot it was today." "Pinkie did the party preparations of course, and I helped with the decor." Rarity gestured her hoof to all the ribbons and such around the bookshelves. "I helped with brunch," Applejack added. She reached her hoof over to the table and grabbed a pastry. "Would you care for an apple fritter?" When she mentioned food, I realised I hadn't eaten since breakfast. Celestia I forgot lunch as well? I levitated the pastry over to me, indulging on the sweet apple taste. I tried to thank her but my mouth was stuffed. Only muffles and crumbs made it out, which they didn't seem to care about. "Um, Twilight?" The little timid voice sparked my interest. "Happy birthday, I would of got you a present but-" "Oh Fluttershy you don't need to worry, you being here is all that matters." "Oh ok, thank you." The pegasus sneaked off before a blur appeared seemingly from nowhere. "Are you enjoying the party?" the pink pony exclaimed jumping directly up in front of me. I stepped back slightly chuckling on the sudden appearance. "Yes I am Pinkie, thanks for this." She sheepishly smiled in response before bouncing off into the crowd. I didn't know what she was going to do but that's Pinkie for you. "So Twilight, reached the age haven't we?" said Rainbow Dash approaching me, probably too give birthday punches. "Twenty-one years old, that is a milestone and a half." Wow. I'm Twenty-one, I didn't even realise. I guess I can't believe it. Finally... Whoa, that's strange. The sound echoed around but nopony else noticed. "You are now a fully mature mare..." Rainbow continued. Shaking off the previous chill I responded. "Yes indeed." The three eventually walked off one by one to mingle with the other guests. I didn't know how Pinkie got everypony inside, it seemed rather impossible. I walked through the crowd and got every second ponys congratulations or a wave. As I walked, Spike approached from the punch fountain on the table of delicious looking food. "Enjoying the party yet?" "Yes. I’m still in shock. You guys really surprised me." "We'll at least you’re having fun." Not yet... There it was again. Goosebumps writhed over me. I must be so exhausted from today I'm now hearing things. "You are having fun right?" It took me a few seconds of silence to realise that Spike was asking a question. "Oh, uhh... yes Spike everything's fine." I sure hope it was. Spike rolled his eyes, sensing that he wasn’t going to get a straight answer from me. He walked off into the crowd waving a goodbye. "We'll ok then Twi." "C'mon everypony it's time to sing Happy Birthday!" It had been a whole year since I've heard this tune. Every time I heard it, I felt like my life is going in the right direction. "Happy Birthday to you..." Another year of experiences added to my life. "Happy birthday...to...you." Something was off; the voices were slowly becoming muffled as they continued to sing. "Happy... Birthday... dear... Twi-light." The voices were gradually drowned out, warping as they slowed in speed. The disorienting noises were finally gone until only one voice remained. And we're going to have so much fun together... The crowd was blurry, all the sound around me had been silenced. Only a white high pitch noise echoed and continued as they cheered hooray. The whole ordeal was disorienting and forced me into a drowsy state. I simply waved back at them as a sudden headache struck me, making me dizzy and light headed. I stumbled slightly over to the table, stabilising myself in time before I fell over. I was not feeling too well, I might just go upstairs. I was approached by one of my friends, which one I didn't know. Her speech was drowsy and low, barely audible. I muttered out that I was fine and needed some sleep. At least that's what I think I said. Avoiding eye contact with the other guest, which was nearly impossible, I made my way up the steps. I could hear every hoof impact, it echoed in my mind as if I was in slow motion. My vision blurred like I was staring through a translucent glass pane. The striking headache increased drastically, scratching and throbbing inside my skull. Soon... Out of all the things I could hear in my dozy state I heard a voice clear as day. Soon Twilight... The seductive voice resonated in my head. Every time I heard it my coat tingled. A cold, sinister tingle. It was a mare’s voice with a very sly and romantic tone to it, like whoever was saying it was smiling deviously. I made it to my bed before my vision failed. I collapsed helplessly onto the mattress with only that voice laughing away my consciousness. Soon... *** The sunlight pierced my dreamscape past my eyes, slowly lifting me from my sleepy state. My eyes watered as the brightness of the outside world burned my sight. I waved my hoof in front of me trying to stop it. When that didn’t work, I thought to roll over, backside to the window. I rolled and the pain struck. My mind shook and throbbed making me cringe. I growled in pain, clutching my head between my fore hooves. Awaken... Then the pain was gone. It left as fast as it came relieving me of the extreme feeling. I sighed with relief. Now I could relax. Maybe now I could finally get some sleep. My eyelids slipped down making me rock back into my dreams. Wait, its daytime, what time is it? I perked my ears as I scanned around the room for the clock. Through the slight blur I made out the hands in the distance, and it was nearly twelve. "Sweet Celestia I'm late!" Oh no no no no no no, this was bad. I'm behind schedule! Everything is out of order. What was I supposed to do anyway, oh no I've forgotten. I sprung to my hooves and accelerated down the stairs looking for my schedule. "Spike, Spiiiiiike." I looked for my dragon assistant who didn't seem to be in earshot. "Do you know where my schedule is?" Silence. In fact, I couldn't even hear the outside world for that matter. If there was one thing that Ponyville doesn't lack, it is peaceful background ambience, and there was a severe shortage of that right now. I looked around and noticed how the walls were bleak and less vibrant with fog emanating from the outside window. Without the background noise it painted a grim, bleak scene. No pony was in sight for as far as I could see. The fog clung to the ground smothering what colour it could. This couldn't be real, why is everypony gone? How? When? "Oh questions Twilight, why must you question everything?" The sudden cold shivers took hold once again. The seductive voice echoed slightly, reminiscent of the Royal Canterlot Voice only slightly quieter. I looked back, sure that it was coming from behind me. To my surprise there was nothing. "Who's there?" "Someone who has been waiting for a while Twilight Sparkle." The voice seemed to come from everywhere. I felt this strange presence pass behind me causing me to reactively turn around. Back and forth I turned to try and see it, to try and find the voice. "It's time for you to move on and begin anew." "What do you mean, Where am I?" I was breathing intensely, inhaling and exhaling hard and fast. My heart was beating rapidly, sending surges of adrenaline through me. My ear twitched from every little sound, either sudden passes of wind or hoof steps on the wooden floor. "Who are you?" "Take a look..." A shadow crept from the corner of my eye approaching me. I turned, only for my heart to leap into my throat and cut my breath. It was coated in smoke that was slowly dissipating. Once gone, the pony became visible. It looked sickly and horrible, its coat was almost grey and its mane and tail were a tangled mess. But it was the eyes and sinister grin staring directly at me that was most disturbing. The eyes were a bright green with long slits splitting down the iris, much like a cat or dragon. "What is this?" The figure chuckled slowly, making me step backwards slightly. I was about to ask again before it suddenly moved. It lunged forward at me, pressing its lips against mine. The creature had just kissed me. Its lips were cold and wet as they pushed against mine. Even though I was thoroughly repulsed and scared, a weird feeling creep up from inside me, which felt alien to any other sensation before. Before it could pierce me with its tongue I pushed it back. I couldn't make sense of this. Before I could gather my thoughts though, I stepped back, dropping me into oblivion. > Awakening > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 1 'Awakening' 'A pony must find their true self before she can truly live.' It was everywhere. It was all through my coat and seeping into the sheets. I hate it when this happens, Sweat. I had kicked my covers off my bed during my erratic dreaming. Even without them on I was still incredibly warm. I laid on my mattress trying to piece together what I could remember from my dream and only one thing came to my mind. Awaken... Trying to correlate what that meant would be the death of me. What will awaken? These questions were still unanswered and were driving me crazy. I slowly rose from my bed examining my soaking mattress beneath. By Celestia that dream must have been horrible for me to sweat so profusely. I caught a glimpse of something rather peculiar down below. My vagina was wet. Had I urinated in the bed last night? I examined further into the moist lips and noticed something even more peculiar. It wasn't the normal excrement that was there; this fluid had a strange smell to it. It was enticing, tangy and like nothing I had smelled before. It posed a rather interesting question. What was happening? I reached down a hoof to examine my marehood, brushing past the lips with the lightest touch. My body recoiled suddenly, convulsed as my hoof made contact with the skin. A wave of a lovely feeling rushed through me starting from my thighs and went all the way up my fore hooves. It was an alien feeling of 'pleasure'. I started breathing heavily as my hooves quivered slightly. With that feeling at the one touch, I sampled again. Slowly caressing my hoof in the fold I stroked its warm embrace. The pleasurable feeling returned igniting a spark inside my nethers which made a long moan of ecstasy ring through my room. My hard breathing slowed in exchange for long deep breaths. My hind legs twitched and turned as I slowly ruffled my vagina. I fell forward bracing myself with my other fore hoof. Slowly and moderately deeper I pushed, delving deep into this undiscovered valley. The continuous moaning and rushes of bliss riveted through me before my forehoof lowered me into the mattress. I pushed my haunches towards the ceiling, feeling my thighs pull apart. As I pressed my hoof slowly across, my knees collapsed as the feeling made my hind legs give way. What am I doing, was this-? This feeling, this pleasurable experience was beyond anything I had ever imagined. This sense stimulated me into erratic thoughts and questions. As I pressed my hoof deeper and faster, my breathing became inconsistent and hard again. It was making my coat stand on ends as trickling sweat seeped from my unkempt mane and into my coat. Not to mention the fluids dribbling from my marehood, that soaked my thighs and the bed in lubricant. Why was this so good? I couldn't contain my moans from loudly erupting. What if someone heard me? What would they think? But as I pushed harder and deeper I tossed reason aside. What I was doing was all I cared for right now. As the rhythm of my hoof increased, I felt the pressure building up. My stomach caught fire and sent heat throbbing through me as my loins became raging torrents, with each stroke pushing myself further and further into insanity. My heart raced, I could feel it like it was going to burst from my chest. I moaned and muttered to myself from what air I could gather, "Dear Sweet Celestia!" I rolled to my back keeping my fore hoof pressed hard against my nethers rubbing vigorously. I could feel it, this rushing sensation rising from the depths of me and raging towards my moist lips. Heat built up all over rushing from my loins to my head. This alien feeling came on the verge when I pushed deeper than ever, releasing its crushing force. My hind legs convulsed as liquid ruptured from between my hind legs, soaking my fore hoof and anything in the range of the spurt. I spasmed, letting the nectar flow freely from my marehood. As my orgasm made its way out and onto my bed I let out an intense moan of satisfaction. I was suddenly relived beyond all thought. I felt truly alive, and nothing else compared to that feeling. I was, for lack of another word, in heaven. The convulsions slowed and the liquid halted, still my hind legs quivering relentlessly. It was one thing to be relieved, but it felt like I was empty. Like whatever that liquid was finally made its way out of me. Why did it stop? I clarified myself and calmed down as thoughts returned to me. Glancing down I examined the state of myself. What did I just do? My mane was messed beyond repair; my legs and mattress were soaking and smelled enthralling. Looking at my hooves I had a reality check to see if I was dreaming. I wasn't. The dirtiest smirk spread over my muzzle as I stared at the cum on my hooves. What on my hooves? Recollecting on what that was, I realised that I just pleasured myself. I just experienced my sex drive go into overcharge. This was what sexual intercourse must feel like. I've read about this intimacy between ponies and how the feelings are magnificent, but I didn't think that would be it. It was the best feeling I have ever experienced. Even for all the positives I just undergone, something else hung in my mind; the question was like an itch that couldn't be satisfied. Should I do this to myself? I leapt from my bed and onto my four hooves, looking away from the mess I caused. One thing ran through my mind, I needed a bath. Sniffing my coat near my thighs I cringed slightly. The enthralling smells were now all musky and not as engrossing as before. When I made it to the bathroom door I glanced back at my bed. "And I need to clean my bed as well..." My hooves clopped on the stylised wooden tiles towards my bath. 'Clean yourself you dirty mare...' I shook my head as the voice echoed. But what was weird that it sounded so familiar. My telekinesis turned the hot water handle, beginning the stream of water into the ceramic bowl. As the hot and cold water mixed to the perfect temperature I waited in silence, contemplating. It was right for me to question this right? This was a normal thing mares do, right? I lowered myself into the tub letting the warm embrace of the water engulf me, sending the stimulating feeling of relief all across my body. Or was there something wrong with me? *** It was around midday before I actually descended down the stairs after that satisfying hot bath. With a fresh sheet on my bed and with a presentable coat & mane I trotted over into the kitchen feeling slightly peckish. The rooms downstairs were half trashed, party streamers, loose cups, crumbs of food, even a wrecked speaker was on the floor. The party must have really taken off as I left; I slept through all that noise? Wow. Before I could reach the cupboard Spike caught my attention. "Hey Twilight, how are you feeling?" I stopped and turned my head to him, himself munching on a sizable ruby. "I'm f-feeling fine, why do you ask?" I wonder if he heard me... "Well you left the party pretty quickly and were in bed for a long time." He took another chunk from the crystal, his speech became muffled. "I left to do my chores while you slept, sounded like a restless night." I darted my eyes around as a small drop of sweat dripped from my mane. Or was it water? "When was that?" I queried levitating over a plate from the draws. "That was like an hour ago, you were in the bath when I got back and I just thought you didn't need to be disturbed." I sighed to myself. It would have been embarrassing to explain it to him. Turning my haunches to him I levitated out my stash of daisies and bread. "I think you should clean this up before anypony sees this." "I did a bit of cleaning, and will finish after I eat." I prepared my sandwich, trying to piece together what has happened to me, starting from last afternoon. I turned twenty one yesterday, it was an enjoyable party which looked like buckets of fun but during the party heard a mysterious voice. From what I can remember it was a mare or something. I went to sleep after a massive headache and terrible sickness. During that sleep I had a dream which I can't quite recall. Then I woke in a sweat and then... The thoughts made my nethers warm and tingly, making me stop biting my sandwich. Its feeling crept up on me suddenly making me sexually aroused. I kept my cool around Spike though, trying not to draw attention to myself as I readjusted myself on the cushion. I shouldn't think about that, I would easily get distracted from what I have to do. I kept on eating, diving into the bread and ripping a delicious chunk of vegetation. As I chewed, my fore hooves quivered with the unshakable feeling creeping up from my stomach. It kept rising and rising until I cringed and closed my eyes. I slipped forward, releasing a small aroused moan. When I looked up, Spike had stopped chewing his snack and glared at me with his large green eyes. His gaze sparked my memory, only for a moment. The figure in the dream, it had them. But as the thought passed I unintentionally touched myself with my left hoof. "Twilight, are you ok?" Spike questioned sounding slightly concerned. I opened my eyes and blinked them seductively at the dragon. I wonder what his cock would feel like. Whoa, What! What am I thinking! Eyes wide with shock I pulled myself together, lifting my hoof from my marehood and galloped upstairs and back into the bathroom. My exit was fast, knocking over the plate and sandwich I was eating. I could hear Spike clambering after me and knocking the door in a panic. His cries of worries were muffled behind the wood, questioning my well-being. But I filtered the cries as I stared at myself in the mirror, having a self-reflection to examine my thoughts. Do it Twilight. The voice echoed again, making my pussy moist and making my hind legs give way. Forcing out my voice from the extensive moaning, "I can't do it again..." Pushing my hoof back into my moist lips, it made me squeal slightly in pain. That changed relatively quickly to strikes of ecstasy. I rolled to my back and stared at my thighs, seeing some sex spill onto the floor. I smirked at the sight, licking my lips. The dragon continued to knock frantically but I didn't listen, I had to please myself. Oh shut up Spike, I'm busy. The raging fires ignited, growing as each movement stroked my ego, releasing sparks of intense feeling riffling through my body. My sensible mind knew to stop but the slut inside me back hoofed her into place and forced me to push harder. "Yes!" My lower body moved in rhythm with my strokes, sweat seeped in between the strands of fur. I looked to the sink above me, continuing my movements scanning for something. Anything would do now, as long as it could go inside me. My eyes fell upon the brush, eyeballing the handle. The magic wrapped around it and levitated it in turn, the item flickering as my concentration fell elsewhere. I lowered it to my legs and released my hoof from its work slowly inhaling and exhaling heavily from the break in the feeling. I smelt the delicious cum coating me which I breathed in deeply, bringing a smile to my muzzle. I teased it with some slow strokes with the end of the brush, rubbing the sweet spot just near the entrance. I chuckled as I lowered the brush for a shot at my insides. With a loud moan and intense pleasure pulsating from my dirty pussy as the handle drilled deeply. I rolled it, pulled it in and out and explored every area of my untouched vagina. It stimulated all my senses driving me mad. I moaned my feeling too all of Equestria. "Fuck me harder! Fuck me until I cum!" My wish was granted, as one final push from the brush into me opened the floodgates. The juices ruptured from inside and out the only exit it could. The feeling from my nethers pushed itself up my body, forcing my breast upward. With each ejaculation of glorious cum I thrust my lower body into the air forcing the mucus into the outside world. The feeling rolled over me again. With the release of my pleasure I drew breath relentlessly. My body trembling, shaking uncontrollably as the sex dribbled from me, I was spent once again. I opened my eyes and recollected what I just did. I can't seem to stop myself from doing this. The brush hung out of me slightly, still leaving a section of the handle buried inside. Oh Celestia, Why was I doing this? As I pulled the tainted brush free and stumbled to my hooves the voice echoed. Twilight, look to the mirror... This can't be natural. I knew that hearing voices was a sign of insanity and I shouldn't listen to them but in this case, I had to. She was there in the reflection, the creature from my dream, Me. > Confronting Demons > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 2 'Confronting Demons' 'A pony must satisfy their inner self before she can truly live.' Me. I was staring it dead in the face, the creature from my dream. I couldn't put the figure together before; I couldn't see what the true image was. It was me. Now I remembered the figure well. Under its grey overtone its coat was violet, like mine. From her unkempt mane it had a highlighted streak, like mine. Her body, her cutie mark, it was all me. What was different though were the green dragon-like eyes. But how could this reflection be me. "Oh Twilight why must you question everything?" The figure spoke from beyond the mirror veil. I took a few steps towards it, still unsteady from the act I performed just before. I moved and the reflection didn't move as if it had a mind of its own. "It's because I sort of do." It said answering my thoughts. It kept its devious smile and lustful voice, moaning and laughing slightly under its breath. It bit its lower lip as it seemed to examine me while I examined it. Now the question right now is if this is me, how is it me? "That's easy to answer isn't it...?” The reflection turned its back to me and wandered around in the void of the mirror. I stared blankly at it intrigued by the talking mirage. "I am your inner self, your 'soul' as one would put it." My soul, so this thing is a part of me? "A dormant part of you, just waiting to hatch out." My tongue was dry from panting and I was slightly embarrassed by the fluids dribbling down my thighs. In my voice I finally made an actual noise. "What did you do?" It glanced at me, those emerald eyes reflecting my image. She, it chuckled through its pointed teeth giving me the strangest feeling crawling up my back. "You have been doing it; you have been pleasing yourself I see." So it was her, it. This thing was doing this to me. No wonder I didn't feel in control of myself. It wasn't me doing it. I knew it wasn't me, I knew it wasn't normal. Oh thank Celestia for this news. The truth was relaxing and soothing, giving me courage that I wasn't some slut. I mean... "No it was you, I just 'showed the door'..." Her face was on the window now staring directly at me. "You’re the one who opened it, I merely started it." No. I am not accepting this, this manipulative mare that is controlling me somehow. This, this bitch! She is doing this to me. She is the one changing my life, not me! How could this be me I'm not a manipulative, whore! I just couldn't contain my rage, by the time I threw the brush at the mirror the adrenaline kick was wearing off. It can't be... Oh it is Twilight... The mirage was gone, returned did my true image in the reflective material... but something else was back. The voice inside my head, echoing her thoughts into mine. The ghostly presence emanated from everywhere, sewing its seeds of corruption directly into my thought patterns. I had to stop this before it took control. It was lying, it was lying, it...was ...lying, she was lying… I...I was... I was lying to myself. --- As per a usual Saturday it was bright out, the morning breeze now being replaced with the warmness of the afternoon. Since Rainbow Dash cleared the skies of any clouds no rain was due till Tuesday. The streets were crowded as usual with the populace of our village and they were going out their daily businesses. I on the other hoof broke the routine of my usual Saturday to go see one of the older ponies of our group, Rarity. It was about my... issue. After my 'episode' I told Spike to clean the library as I went for a stroll to get the sickness out of my system. He worried and asked questions about what happened to me, I said that everything is alright and he doesn't need to worry. I felt bad for not fully explaining the truth, but he is young and it doesn't concern him in a way. As long as I keep this secret from him it's going to be fine. Seeing Rarity felt like the correct path to pursue, I had to find out why my body is doing this to me and if it happened to her. Even if she is a lady, maybe she does...do that thing I was doing. Twilight Sparkle, seeking advice from Rarity? That's different. I damned the voice to eternity of fires in the underworld. I don't know if this voice I was hearing was telling the truth, maybe it's just my imagination. Hopefully Rarity would be able to shed some light on this predicament I am in. Sure she will, she really is a cum hungry slut! I cringed as her words struck deep; it was a vulgar thing to say and downright disgusting. Why does she have to say such awful things about my friends, is it just my mind going through a period of change? Am I in... heat or something? That could be the explanation for this, I read that mares go through a period of attraction so stallions know they are ready to mate, it's just I imagine it wasn't this aggressive. The book I read did say something about smell... I sniffed the air around my coat and only smelt the various shampoos and soaps I used before to clean my stained thighs and mane. With this scent I don't think I'll be attracting any attention. I trotted towards Rarity's large boutique, the shining white gem in the middle of the straw-roofed houses of Ponyville. A beacon and torch to fashion in Equestria, sounds like something Rarity would say. Maybe she might have some little tips in dealing with my problem. You call pleasuring yourself a problem, what is wrong with you? Her seductive voice made my coat tingle with the message echoing slightly after she said it. What was wrong with me indeed? The bell rang to signal my entrance, the metal shook as the door opened to reveal my presence. As per usual, the boutique atrium was relatively clean of fabrics and such on the floors. Normal Rarity weekends were times to remove backlog in her things to do list, mainly being orders she had to complete before the start of the week. Even as I made my entrance I couldn't see the unicorn, she would normally be working on something. As I stepped forward, on queue a roll of fabrics sped down the stairs and onto the main floor, covering it in the red material. Right on behind was Rarity chasing down the escaped material from her clutches of work. "Ooohhh, come back here!" I wondered why she didn't use her magic to catch it; she must be caught up in her work concentrating on such refined arts. "Hey Rarity, I see you’re as busy as usual." I finally said leaning onto one of the tables nearby. "Oh..." She stopped and turned to me, letting the fabric roll and stop on a mannequin. "Twilight, what a delight to see you." I smiled reactively and responded in kind. We exchanged pleasantries, the minor hug, a little conversation, something to brighten the mood before the question on my mind finally came out, the real reason for this meeting. "Rarity, we need to talk." I said. "It's about something personal..." "Oh Twilight, my door is always open for talking." She answered looking over her glasses. "Whatever is the matter?" I just sat still on the cushion, staring through her contemplating on what to say. My mind was in disarray with questions that need answering, and that primitive voice calling me back. Every time she spoke a word, a small tingle would ruffle my nethers which would make me adjust slightly to the awkward wave through my stomach. I had to ask her, but what question? What would be the right words for this... Just say that you are a horny bitch needing to be satisfied... Probably not my first choice of words. If this really was me where did I learn such foul language? I have read and seen them before but only briefly and I was always told they were very crude and despicable words that are used to describe vulgar actions and to call something names. I guess that’s what mum told me about foul language out there, what ponies say to others if they were angry or something. That random thought aside I asked plain and simple. "Have you ever masturbated before?" I knew that word from a book I just read, I had to do 'some' research before confronting one of my friends. It means 'to stimulate one’s self to give sexual pleasure.' Now if that is in a book it must be normal for ponies to do. I just can't shake the feeling that how I act is normal or not. The major concern is the voice. Oh, what did I do wrong? You know well and truly... "Oh, well that's an odd question for you to ask Twilight." She looked at me with a confound look. "Why in Equestria would you ask me that?" "Because I want to know if it is normal to do." She just looked at me with this queer look, her mouth slightly opened with a little bit of teeth. She looked shocked and confused by my question; well it is sort of a personal question to ask another mare. What am I even doing here, I shouldn't ask such questions to my friends it's...its... What, not normal? I felt the urge to just up and leave right there and then which I later tried to pursue as she sat and thought. "I'm sorry Rarity for asking such a question, I'll leave now." "No no, stay Twilight." She laid her hoof on my foreleg, making me want to sit back down. "It is a strange question to ask, but you are a fully grown mare now and haven't discovered this new part of life." She said it so casual, like it was 'normal', like what I did was alright to do. That was reassuring to know, but like I said before, that's not what's really bothering me. I sat down again as she begun to explain how she could. "We'll Twilight, touching yourself, even if it is very urggh, is a normal thing mares do to feel better. It is a feeling of great pleasure which is a good 'stress ball'." She went on and on about how normal it was, she explained it as if she was ashamed to admit doing it. Well it is quite a private thing for yourself and your very special somepony. Every time she mention a term close to... Sex! I felt myself get the riffle through my stomach again and again which made my vagina tingly and slightly... moist. But the more she explained, the more I felt normal, but the more I thought of it, the more I wondered if the voice was normal. "Rarity, do you have a..." Please don't sound weird. "Do you have a voice which tells you to do such things?" She stopped and looked slightly more confused than before. That wasn't a good sign at all. She looked down tapping her fore hooves together contemplating on my question. "I guess you could call it a voice." She slowly said, sounding not sure how to word her sentences. "The feeling creeps up on you and you feel you need to do it, even in the most obscure times." I sat and listened, piecing together her information. She was blabbering on and correcting most of her sentences trying to convey the answer across to me. After a few moments of awkward explanation, she finally said something which perked my ears in interest. "We all have our dormant sides inside us just ready to come out. A personality locked away inside which is only unlocked as age comes around. Some ponies may not like what they find in there." It was odd to hear such wise words from her. I'll hand it to Rarity, when she really thinks about something; she can really say some memorable things. "Ponies, such as myself have learnt to control these impulses which drive that feeling forward." Imagine how she would feel if you just licked her pussy. Stop it mind, Stop it! No she is my friend and that is not what friends do. Friends with benefits... "Does that answer your question?" I shook my head to get the voice out and finally spoke. "Yes I guess." Rarity just smiled and pulled me in close for a hug. She shuffled over and extended her hoof around my shoulders, comforting me in her warm embrace. "I know it can be scary but it’s nothing to fear, everything is alright." I smiled as she closed the gap, "Thankyou Rarity that was very helpful." "That's ok darling." She paused before mentioning, "Now can we never speak of this ever again." There was something which I felt in my mind, like everything about my life was about to change or has changed. But the main thing is that I felt that with everything explained, it would be just as Rarity said, everything is going to be alright. Everything will be ok alright. I hope it's going to be fine at least. --- I fought temptation and the voice for days each of them feeling like a week. The strong feeling tried to pull me back but I strove through and rejected it, but the voice was always there scratching at the base of my mind. I always told myself that I didn't need it, even if it was normal I felt different and dirty doing it. But the voice couldn't be stopped. She was devious, trying to provoke me when I slept. Lucky for me I practiced in the art of lucid dreaming. When I slept I did several reality checks to see if I was dreaming, if I was I would force myself awake before she influenced the dreamscape anymore. It was my only tool against this creature. That and perseverance, it wasn't much but enough to keep my thoughts in line. After my talk with Rarity, I just felt I needed some time to myself to gather my thoughts, so I told Spike that I was sick and needed some time at home. I didn't tell him or explain the story though. He is so gullible sometimes... Damn it... C'mon Twi, that's a bit harsh to think? Every now and again she would break through my mental barriers and corrupt my thoughts, making me say terrible, hatful things against my friends. J-just go fuck yourself. Being alone use to be my escape from others; seclusion was my tool to concentrate and study. Now when I want to get out, something now holds me back. That's right, wind yourself up. Let go and let me in. Why did this happen to me... --- > The Sickness > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 3 ‘The Sickness’ ‘A pony must let herself go before she can truly live.’ I woke in a cold sweat, panting and shaking. It was another one of those dreams, the ones which she created to stimulate me. Those dreams would leave me with a wet sheet and that glaring feeling to satisfy my body. Maybe just one touch, that couldn't hurt right. I mean it’s ok to do, what I am scared about. Yes... Oh, that's what. The darkness of the night filled the room, concealing its contents within its shadow. What moonlight made through the curtains only illuminated a small crack on the floor. In the darkness it was silent, until I began to expel air violently from my body. I coughed with a large rock in my throat. It felt as if my neck was going to rip as I tried to draw breath. The headache was back and nearly as bad as before, throbbing with pain. It was weird, this sickness didn’t just creep up on me, it just appeared from nothing. The infection just materialised itself inside me. Even so, I was hot and sweating profusely. It must have been from the sickness for I didn't 'feel' my urges like before. Oh great now I feel like... Stop yourself. Oh come on! Just one stroke... I cursed her with polluting me with such thoughts. The figurative rock came up again making me splurge out the loud throaty sounds of a cough. I must go to the bathroom, before I vomit or something. It was in the pit of my stomach; this sickness had impeded most of my movements and brought my head into a seizure of pain. I slowly made my way across the floor of my bedroom towards the refuge of the bathroom, avoiding all the pillows and dragons on the ground. Was this what I get for lying to Spike about being sick? My legs struggled to keep up my weight, tossing my body around with twitches and sporadic movements. When I reached the inside of the room, I scurried for the candle. I needed light to see what I was doing. Or to see yourself... I struck the waxy stick with a spark from my horn, letting the fire give light in the situation. I looked up into the mirror for inspection. I certainly looked sick, lots of symptoms were present. Drowsiness, restlessness, dry cough, green eyes... Green eyes? Green eyes! Oh god what happened!? Why are they green!? How is that possible!? Before I screamed I realised that it was the middle of the night and that probably wasn't a good idea. I tried to regain a regular breathing pattern as my new eyes darted around the mirror. It was impossible... And yet possible... They were similar to hers, excluding the large slit instead of a round pupil. How can she be doing this to me? It's simple, you’re becoming me... My breath was still in disarray, "W-what are you?" What am I, I'm you... It started, the tears finally came after many days of suppression and misinformation fed to myself. I was not a normal unicorn. All the occurrences over the past few days since my birthday have pointed to this ridiculous theory which seems to be correct. They rolled down my face and onto the table and floor, my essence of myself slowly leaking from this corrupt body. I, myself didn't hold the answer, maybe the other me did. Maybe this voice will answer this mares question about her future. With a few sniffs trying to suck it up I asked, "What am I then?" She giggled maniacally, making me cry a little more. You aren't a pony at all Twilight! Disheartened at the news and I welled up even more. I struggled to breathe as more and more tears streamed down my face. The more I cried, the more influential she got, I was now a fragile glass statue and all she needed to do was push me over. I could feel her claw her way from the recesses of myself and onto the exterior of my body. Before I stopped moping, I was already lost to her. It was the strangest feeling, I could feel everything, I could perceive everything around me, I could see right in front of me but I didn’t have any control. My hooves were away from the reigns as somepony else took control. I knew who it was and who to blame. She had become the master and I the voice inside 'her' head. She, the corrupted slut in my head was now in control of my body. I tried to scream and move but it was impossible. I could hear myself but I felt my body not move an inch. I had stopped crying at least. I just stared at the floor not making a sound. It wasn't long before I started to laugh softly to myself. My head jerked upwards facing the mirror, her… my emerald eyes staring right back at me, but it wasn't me. I could feel the grin but I wasn't pulling it. The reflection wasn't showing how I felt; my features didn't represent how I felt inside. Only her emotions showed, ones of lust. "You enjoy being in the back seat now Twi, Mommy is going to have some fun." Oh no... She laid myself back, slowly splitting her hind legs apart. I could see my body reacting, my soft, wet pussy was taunting me. I tried to close my legs but to no avail. The more I stared, the more I wanted to look away but she stared. The more she stared, the more aroused the body became. Suddenly I was feeling horny. No! Stop this right now, I c-can’t control myself. "Oh, just cause you asked nicely you think I would respond..." She laughed under her breath, "You should enjoy this." I knew not to, even so she disobeyed me. She touched it, prodded my privates into a minor surge. The feeling was sooooo gooood... It quivered my body, longing to touch again. No! Sss-stop! That damn slut responded with another touch, lingering that much longer lining the folds with my hoof ever so slightly. It was ticklish, I could feel my mouth salivating and trembling from the ecstasy speeding up my nerves. I tried to shake the feeling, to stop it before I lost myself to her. My hooves, all four were quivering again and again as she stimulated me more. Please? Sto- Just one more touch sent me over the edge. I could feel a lost for breath, my hoof pushing inside slowly releasing more excrement from below. Please, More! That all she needed I guess as she started to rub vigorously. I moaned but my body didn't. Inside my mind I could be as loud as I wanted without any cares in the world. I moaned alright, I moaned so loud as all of the built up tension and stress just flew from me. My pleasure flowed as I screamed for more. Starting to lose control... Must stop... "That's right Twilight, succumb to yourself, give in to me..." She didn't seem to react; it only moved its, my hoof all over my pussy in such erotic ways. Yet I, inside my own mind, seem to be the one experiencing every moment of pure pleasure. She just chuckled to feel me have the time of my life. She pushed again and again, heat rising, waves coming in, pleasure overwhelming, someone fucking Open the Fucking Flood Gates!!! Then she stopped. All the waves receded just as they were about to break. Oh Fuck Celestia! Why did it stop! "You'll see Twi..." If I could control my body, I would finish the job. This feeling was so close that when it didn't finish, I nearly felt like exploding. She is the one controlling me, Why the fuck doesn't she finish it! "Getting a little aggressive aren't we Twi..." Whoa... Why am I like this...? She is right... I must be a dirty little slut... Just waiting to be ripped in half by some raging cock that... FUCK!!! As I raged inside, trying to finish it so these thoughts would pass, she had a plan. I could feel my head focus in one direction, my horn igniting with magic, this warm sinister feeling rising from the pits of myself and towards my head. She smiled with her sinister grin, chuckling, laughing at the entity she was creating. I could sense through my drugged mind she was creating something not of this world. Just before she cast the spell, she welled up and exhaled deeply. The magic leapt from my horn and onto the ground not far away. The green, blackish power warped and grew into something. Something pony shaped, something Stallion shaped, something with a large... Oh yes... Thank Celestia for this creation. I can finally be pleased. The mirage completed itself, it was ever moving shadows, no features just the basic shape. But that's what I didn't care about; it was that thing between its legs, the shaft ready to penetrate me. I wanted it to drill me deep inside and thrust until my brains were fucked out. "Where did this Twilight come from...?” She said to me. "I really like it." Shut up and tell it to mount yourself, I want this feeling returned. Now! The body seemed to obey now that it got what it wanted, I waved my hoof gesturing the figure to come forward. The voice conjured this thing for the sole purpose of pleasure, exactly what I want. The creature stepped its fore hooves over me. Towering over was this hunk of a demon pony. Even if it didn't have any features I felt this instant attraction to it which made me want it more. It lowered its lower body slowly down ever closer to the opening. Its ram prodded the gates which felt, ohhhhh... I just need it now, now now! I got what I wished as the cock forced its way into me. It must of ripped something as the girth stretched the sides of me making me growl in pain. I could feel the tears, but the pain quickly changed to something I needed, pure pleasure. It receded and then thrust back in, spiking pain and pleasure in unison. Oh I just felt the hard rod rub every bit of my pussy in this thrilling way. It must be something about a warm cock which rubs me the right way. My heat rushed, feelings were overwhelming, pleasure exceeding safe boundaries. I was yelling and screaming inside just taking in every thrust of my body. My hind legs kicked in rapid succession as the wave finally rose again. With this figure fucking me I could feel a different feeling. It thrust faster and faster forcing me further back. I could feel this warm rush run from the base of his body right up the tube and into... The nectar ruptured from his tip and all through me, the white hot substance hitting every note and every nerve. Oh that feeling broke the wave, broke the tidal wave which came crashing down on top of me. My body, me locked in my head, we all moaned. We both in unison felt the build-up rush from us and out all over the smoke demon. Our orgasm was fantastic. Ooohhh... My moans of satisfaction were long overdue. I could feel my eyes closed. My heavy breathing lifted me up and down like bobbing over the waves at the beach. I just didn't care about anything; all the thoughts and issues were gone for at least two minutes, just reminiscing over that session. By the time I opened my eyes the demon was gone, only the warm feeling of its cum lining my insides were left. Why did I not want to do this? "Equestria to Twilight. Are you there?" My breaths were slowly returning to normal, as my other faculties did as well. What is it? !!! Wait, I'm still here? "You’re locked up in here now; you’re not getting out anytime soon." Wait you can't take control of my body no! "Too late, I'm already moving." My body rolled over, feeling my legs trying to recover from their spasms. They finally carried my weight lifting me to the mirror. She looked forcing me to see our image. My eyes were back to normal, no more emerald colour was present. "No one will know..." Oh Celestia, please help me... --- Spike rose from his little bed basket, wondering what that commotion was all about. All he heard was smashing of items and loud yells of... He couldn't describe it. He looked around looking for Twilight, nowhere to be seen. "Twilight?" He got up and dawdled to the balcony looking over the fence and down below. He could see his caretaker opening the door and walking out into the night. "Twilight, what are you doing?" he queried in his tired state. "It’s really early..." She stopped and turned to him, grinning widely and chuckling to herself. "Call me Eclipse." --- > Uncontrollable Nature > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 4 'Uncontrollable Nature' 'A pony must trust herself before she can truly live.' She was unstoppable. I tried all I could to regain my composure, but my body was determined. She trotted through Ponyville forcing me along for the ride. I was constantly barging at her gates to let myself back in, to retake the reins. As if I was an invading army I was pushed back by her impeccable defence. After my mental attacks failed, I realized that I was powerless. With all that was happening it was nice out at least, and Eclipse would glance up for brief moments to admire the specks in the sky. I could see but do nothing, her will was not my own. She seemed determined to say little, Eclipse moved as if she had a purpose. Speaking without a mouth was a weird feeling to say the least. Eclipse, is that your name? "Your name..." She corrected. But I'm me and you’re, something else. She of course chose to ignore my voice and continued down the dark alley. As she round the corner I finally saw what she wanted. My friends. The boutique was ominous at night, and due to its size, it was much more imposing than the other buildings. My body had begun to swell in heat as Eclipse made her moves towards the door. I knew what she wanted and I couldn't stop it. I just closed my figurative eyes and thought of myself, thought long and hard about my physical form. Just like that my whole body soon materialised. *** Inside the dark reaches of my mind I sat and waited. I examined my condition to see I was fully formed with hooves, body, tail and mane. All together in the right places. Thank Celestia I performed those lucid dreams, otherwise I could've been anything, any shape. Thankfully I was me. Inside my empty mind though all I could do was think. I thought of my friends, my dear friends that this creature is going to meet. They won't know that it isn't Twilight acting, just another puppeteer pulling the strings. My eyes clenched hard as the imaginative tear welled up and weighed on my cheek. "How did this happen to me..." *** Eclipse slid the door open and inside she stepped, trying hard not to make much noise. She was here somewhere, the dirty mare she yearned for. Oh, her body always wanted it. She always wanted to feel her tongue inside her pussy. Her body shivered at the thought, the fantasy soon to be reality. Creeping up the stairs creaking the floorboards as she stepped. Eclipse couldn't hold her voice in as she chuckled in her seductive tone. "Oh how I'm going to enjoy this..." Reaching out a hoof, she opened the door to Rarity's bedroom, almost star truck as she saw her prize sleeping comfortably in the luxurious bed. Before Eclipse could continue she needed her spectator, her conscious to watch every action done to the unicorn. Almost as if she was summoning something she reached inside herself and brought Twilight to her eyes once again. *** As if I was physically ripped apart I regained conscience, seeing through my real eyes again. It took only a few seconds to recognise my surroundings, noticing the large stylised bed in front of me, with a very familiar pony sleeping in its embrace. Rarity looked so peaceful, completely silent in her breathing. Eclipse pulled one hoof forward towards her prey, I tried once again to stop. She kept moving forward. I felt the soft mattress take my weight as I pressed my hoof onto the covers. I clawed myself on top like a cat silently moving through the shadows. There I curled at the base of her bed just below her, waiting for her move. A wide grin stretched across my face. Rarity moved her hind legs causing the sheets to shift revealing the hidden gem concealed inside. My eyes lit up in delight at the sight, mouth open with my slithering tongue lapping against my muzzle. Her taste was just one lick away. Eclipse... We can't do this to our friends. It's not acceptable. Again she chuckled, "Does it look like I care about such social norms Twi?" I pulled my hoof closer to her lifting the purple tail out of sight. As my muzzle came closer the more I could smell a very mild aroma, enticing my body into its own swelling. I let my body relax into its mood opening my slit up. As I made contact with flesh Rarity's body instinctively recoiled slightly to a slow relaxation as I begun. The feeling swept through me, I wanted this mare so badly it was painful. Eclipse obviously had her way with me and I couldn't stop. There was simply nothing I could do. Except enjoy. I rose my fore hooves up and slowly peeled her pussy apart making room for more of my face and tongue. I was soft and slow making sure to keep my client sleeping. She moaned under her breath as I pushed my mouth deeper into her. I could imagine her dream was changing rapidly to accommodate the changes in her physiology. With my eyes closed I quickly lapped inside her and tasted the fluids she produced, a crude combination of salty juices mixed with ecstasy filled liquid. It wasn't long before I was eating her out. My whole mouth opened and closed tensing her lips around mine. I pushed my body into the bed as the heat began to release itself from my pussy. My mouth lost connection as a moan of relief rifled through me, I was quick to react to my state as my fore hoof quickly dived down to press against it. The first press I indulged in, letting my slow stroke fill me with the energy and excitement to finish my mate. I pressed again letting my head dip, lining my horn ready to penetrate. My buck was slow to say the least, entering her cavern ever so slightly. As it convulsed around my horn I felt her flesh wrap around my hard limb. The strangest feeling of excitement was tipping as it pressed against my hair, lubricating a few of the strands. I muffled into the mattress and sheets as I pressed my hoof again to my clit, rewarding myself for a new technique. Rarity suddenly tensed up as she pulled herself into a ball almost spilling out my vibrant horn from below. She let out a loud moan and quivered in anticipation. Me curious I lifted my head up to see a wide unconscious grin shake itself over her muzzle. "She loves us, we shall give her more." I again pressed my muzzle into her pussy letting my tongue dive once again. It was much easier this time with the amount of lubricant she was producing. Swiftly I forced my muzzle inside her, pressing further in with more ferocity. She will wake to quite the surprise. I winced as my hoof pressed deeper than before peeling my own lips apart. My breaths were inconsistent trying to match Rarity's rising breathing pattern. I was hot all over stemming from my wincing slut up to my sweaty mane, I loved the feeling. The unicorn suddenly adjusted pulling her hind leg over my head. Both of them now flanked my face and soon her head rose from its slumber. Under her heavy eyelids she tried to make out who it was pleasuring her. I must of been like a blur to her, and she was completely oblivious to who I was. My head lurched forward forcing her whole body back, head going limp with a loud animalistic moan. Before she could realize where she was, I weaver another spell from the aether. She glanced again with wide eyes surprised to such a sight and feeling. I could see her react to my spell, conscious Rarity would immediately deny what was happening. Unconscious Rarity accepts all that happens in her dream. "Oh Twilight..." Did this mare really like me or was this a spur of the moment reaction? Her hind legs were opening again and my cunt was yearning for more. Pulling my mouth away again I sat up with my lower moist lips salivating at the thought of another mares touch. I pulled myself closer to her letting my fur rub against Rarity's. She embraced me, pulling in tight before she started to lick my horn. She pulled tighter as our pussy's met together, grinding against one another as Rarity tasted herself. All I could do was moan and grind, this feeling I adored. The heat we produced between us was invigorating, truly giving me the energy to continue my acts. The more my hips moved the more erotic I became in my thoughts. Have I always wanted Rarity this bad? Another press in my clit lifted my chest high letting saliva run down my horn onto my face and neck. She soon engulfed it with her maw. Her luscious lips ran across and stroked my magic, sending an increased rush of pleasure down below. My horn hummed with energy almost wanting to burst itself. I coddled her body with my forearms, clawing at the back of her head. Her sweat was flowing from her hair, giving the warm wet feeling rush through my hooves. Her intoxicating scent drove me into ecstasy bringing my magic to a bright light. Our hips bound together pulling our sensitive cunts together was reaching its turning point. With the extra stimulation from my horn I could feel the burning release almost reach its final climax. I wanted to finish her first so I tensed, holding my satisfaction at bay to let herself finish into me. My heavy breaths was expanding my chest pressing against her more. I could feel her breaths against my soaked hair, they were warm and hard. It was rather intoxicating the aroma we were producing, this hot sex was driving me insane. Before I finally let myself go, she screamed into her orgasm. I pressed my corrupt lips against hers. I pierced her quickly sealing the deal we had struck tonight. Like a sudden rush Rarity pulled her head free and moaned to the sky, letting her shivering body convulse as her cum began to torrent. The squirts I felt against me was enough, as the nectar reached my body I was too squealing into my orgasm. Eyes drugged and mind completely blank, I reviled in my conquest. I did it, Eclipse had made her first victim all hers. Eclipse... I mean... Rarity fell back to her mattress rolling in her lubricant, she was slow to talk and finally spurted out her response. "Oh Darling... That was too good..." Letting my rush leak from myself I again tried to regain composure. With my tank empty I was sure this would be the end and control would be mine again. This was not the case as Eclipse pulled her satisfied body of the bed leaving poor mindless Rarity to her release. I could feel the evil wide smile across my muzzle. "We hunger for more." As we exited the room, the erotic aroma began to fade as clarity came to me, somehow I could not control this beast. This horny, lust filled beast. The feelings would begin and I could feel my mind slip almost instantaneously, my mind wanders to all reaches of my mind. To the locked fantasies I try to hide from. Like a crushing wave I would be swept away and pulled down, almost drowning in the pleasure. My body gets a hold, my conscience, me. I can't deny what it wants. And it wants... "We want them all!" Rarity's quiet mindless moans were distant as we exited the boutique, now throwing caution to the wind. Celestia was making her rise as we walked to another destination. I could not infiltrate her thought process, all I could do was wait. Wait and think... Escape myself...