The Feeling Of Peace

by TimeRarity64

First published

A series of poems based on Rainbow Dash's Suicide.

'Death is peaceful; it grants you numbness from all the pain and allows you to forever sleep in your dreams. But it is not merciful and it is not your friend. It is your reminder...that you will die soon, and no one are treated as exceptions.'

Far within the depths, one life tortured by pressure and many becomes too weak and decides to build the strength to finally sink into the arms of death. Was it all worth it?

I Cannot Go Through This Again

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Far Beyond Her Depths

The heavy weight pushing down on me is too much bear.
My mind is drifting off into another part of the abstract,
Slowly and becoming something more than I can ever believe.
My body is weak, my vision is obscure,
And all that comes out of my mouth are incoherent gibberish,
I’m muffled from the choking waters of the sea.
I was going to find her—save her from the depths that continue to deny me to letting her go.
All will be lost if I let her slip away, and be all alone in the dark depths of the decay.

I Cannot Go Through This Again

The air feels so amazing,
While I’m staring into the star, slowly
Gazing deep into the soul of the dark.
Wondering how long will I have to embark?
They should already know that I am too smart,
That I was capable in seeing the truth the lied
Deep within the places I have been.
This is a place where I should have never got myself in.
From the words that shivers my spine.
How can I keep myself alive?
How long does it take for me to finally decide?
The tears that drips down from these eyes
Are flowing upward as I sink downward,
Into the cold depths of the sea
Slowly slipping away as planned.
And now I am losing the sense to understand
Where I stand in this world!
I just want to be free, finally free from this pain.
I cannot do this again.
I cannot do this anymore.
I cannot deal with this pain that I have to endure.
May death be out there to save me?
May death be out there to set me free?
Just let me sink…

Everything Is Beginning To Fade Away

Courage was never my strongest suit,
As I watch her slip far down into the darkness.
And I did try to save her and tried to let her know she was no black sheep.
Variety of sadness and weakness caused me to fail and watch her sink to the ground.
Every single bit of strength that I had
Became pointless in catching up with her.
How could I show my face to the others?
And how can I even bring the news to her mother.
Today was no special day.
Everypony caused her to sink down and fade away.
You were so better than that Rainbow Dash.
Oh how could you go away and have your memories turn into ash?
Under the night of Luna, you made sure the water keep your body stash.
I can't bring myself to tell Twilight,
Knowing that she wouldn't be alright.
You should have understood that we all love you.
Oh what else could we do?
Under the blue I hope the darkness understood to.
For everything that we once cherished faded away.
And we just watched and had nothing else to say.
Don't take it offensive, Dash, we mourn for you on that day.
Everypony did as you were force to portray.
Suffering, as you lost and was humiliated on that day.
And as you go away into the afterlife.
We or I will be haunted and tormented by eternal strife.
And as you go away into the afterlife.
Your name and memories that we all shared will still be by our side.

The Twilight Begins To Split

Where are you my friend?
Have you flown off to North or South Poles end?
You’re late once again.
Are you somewhere in the stars?
Remembering about that previous event, I'm sure it left you covered in scars.
Everypony loses and never gets very far.
You just have to get through it, that's all.
Out of everything, we watched you trying in your hardest, that's what we saw.
Under that cloud of sadness you should get up and not crawl.
Remember Rainbow Dash, we are your friends.
Everypony is, all the way to the end.
And I, Applejack, and the others are to if you forgot again.
Don't even Princess Celestia is your friend; I bet you thought it was a game she loved to pretend.
I think that maybe you need to rest, Rainbow.
Not just because if you continue to let that pain grow.
Nothing can stop the venom of misery to permit its toll.
Tonight, I will see if Pinkie Pie could set up a party for you.
Heck, everypony would not mind joining to.
I am sure that will let you stay.
So, how about it, will you not go away?

While We Could Have Been (Inspired from Nine inch Nails-While I'm Still Here)

The gloom in the air is raining down,
Looks like you really chose the other route.
The fire in the sky is glowing black,
Looks like you really chose that dreadful route.
No one’s left alone to see,
Looks like you chose the “lost” route.
There’s no time to mourn right now,
Looks like everything going out.

Does everything have to die?
Is there an explanation to tell us why?

The clarity
Is choking me.
I face the closure,
But I hate it still.
But I have to care
When no one’s there,
Why’d you have to…?
Leave me in this way?

The fur is wet and the heart is gone!
It’s okay if you need to run.
For all the things you could’ve done!
It’s okay if you can’t run.
For the dreams you sewn and unloose apart!
It’s okay if you want to run.
God, why would you break my heart~?
Sorry, there’s nowhere else left to run.

The clarity,
Inside of me,
Forcing the closure
To entrap me.
But I have to care,
When no one’s there,
Even when everything
Fades away and...
If I could back then,
At least remember when
We could have,
But even then and…
Please stay with me,
Hold me near,
Keep me safe here.
We could have been.