Sleepless in Seattle
Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl
She was absolutely perfect in an imperfect world
Forever saw promise, it’s more than just a word
They meant it to each other of that they were sure
Forever…
I had loved Rainbow Dash since flight school. She was just so perfect. From her colorful mane to her bright cerise eyes. She was so fiery and passionate. Willing to stand up for anypony. Maybe that’s why I picked on her all the time. ‘Rainbow Crash’ was just an affectionate nickname, but at one time was a barb aimed directly at her. Maybe I just wanted to get her angry. To have some control of her feelings. Maybe I did it just so she would talk to me. She was an amazing flyer, soaring through the clouds like wind its self.
She was perfect in a world of imperfections. The sun in the sky of storm clouds. And I was lucky to have her. She once asked me in a sad voice how long I planned on staying with her. I shook my head disapprovingly. “Forever, Crash” I replied. I meant it. How easy the words came from me. She smiled genuinely and promised me the same thing. We would never be apart. No matter what. Because forever is a promise. Bigger than ‘I love you’ and ‘for a life time’. Forever was forever, and I wanted to spend it with her.
He came home to her crying at the top of the stairs
He asked “baby what’s the matter” as he pushed back her hair
She said “Honey, I’m sick. What the hell did I do?”
And with pain in his heart he screamed at the moon
4 months…
But then one day. Everything went wrong. I came to home to her crying. And instantly knew something was wrong. She never cried. I flew to her side in less than a heartbeat and gently comforted her with my words as pushed some of her beautiful mane from out of her eyes.
“Shush. It will be okay, Crash” I told her gently. But she responded with a shudder and a shake of her head.
“I’m dying, Hoops” I didn’t say a word. I just held her, and cried with her. This couldn’t be happening. We were happy. She had just joined the Wonderbolts. We were supposed to be with each other forever… We had everything planned.
“No, Dashie… You’ll be okay. We promised remember? Forever. You told me you wanted seven colts and fillies. One for each color of the rainbow. They with your wild mane and my green eyes. Remember it, Dashie” I was crying now.
“It’s no use. The doctor told me the sickness is attacking my wings. I-I can’t fly anymore. He can’t do anything… It’s going to spread, Hoops… To my lungs, to my spine, to my heart!”
“Forever, Rainbow… Forever”
“Even forever has an end, Hoops… And the ending is four months”
She fell asleep that night. Still crying. I couldn’t fall asleep with her. Not like this. I flew into the night to clear my thoughts. Our promise was falling apart around us. Her entire life was her wings.. If she couldn’t fly… I didn’t want to think about it. I couldn’t.
‘Why?’ I asked myself. Why her!
Please don’t take her away from me
She truly is everything that I have left
As selfish as it may seem I need you here with me
3 months…
She is my everything… What could I do without her? She is my day and night. My sky. And the sky is life for a Pegasus.
I took her from doctor to doctor… All said the same thing. She was dying. And there was nothing they could do, nothing I could do to save her.
One even told me it was selfish to try to keep her. Even if we could save her, her wings would be permanently damaged. She would never fly, and a grounded Pegasus would be better off dead than to be flightless for the rest of her life. I didn’t want to believe it. She would want to be with me. Forever… But when I look at her, I know without her wings, she feels lost.
Day after day he stood by her side
While Sleepless in Seattle played through his mind
Forever seems longer when you’ve got your whole life
But forever is forgotten where the end draws the line
She said “Honey just listen, listen to me, we should be together In a boat on the sea.”
He held back his tears and spoke quietly
“When I picture forever, it’s you here with me.”
2 months…
This morning she asked me to take her to the ocean. She wanted to fly with me over the sea. Like she had forgotten she was to never fly again. Or she was trying to forget. I held back the tears as I buried my face into her neck.
“Forever,” I whisper to her.
“Your forever, not mine.”
“The only forever I want is with you…”
“That’s not going to happen” I had never seen her so sad… So broken. It wasn’t her. It wasn’t my Rainbow. And that’s what hurt the most.
Please don’t take her away from me
She truly is everything that I have left
As selfish as it may seem I need you here with me
And please just let her go painlessly
Let her drift off in her dreams
Just don’t make her feel a thing
Just try and get some sleep
This angel deserves her wings
1 month…
I now realize there is nothing I can do to save her, as much as it pains me. What’s worse is watching her go through so much pain. I hear her crying when she doesn’t think I’m listening. I see her limping and forcing one hoof in front of the other.
As horrible as it is. I wish that the angels would take her. It hurts so much for her to struggle every day… She deserves more than this! She deserves to fly. I swore to myself never to fly with her around. It wouldn’t be fair. But I catch her dreamily looking at the skies where other Pegasus are flying. I also notice the tars that spring into her eyes and the shadow of pain now permanently etched onto her face. I can’t take it.
As leaves fall from the trees
She became a memory to a man who lost everything
Forever doesn’t mean anything
Just a promise that we came but there’s hope for you and me
She looked to the sky and with one final breath said
“Take this heart from out of my chest.
Carry it far with the love you possess. I’m sorry my boy.
But I tried my best….”
Gone…
It’s fall. She was nothing but a memory to hold onto to and cherish.
And that I would. orever… What a beautiful lie to its horrible truth. Forever is a fairytale.
I remember her final words… She asked for her heart to soar with the clouds, and for me to carry her love in my heart. She apologized for our forever ending so abruptly.
But once again...
Forever doesn’t exist.