> Where We Go Forward
>  by leaha
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> Chapter 1
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As the radiant hues of the setting sun painted the sky, Sunset Shimmer stood on the edge of a grassy hill overlooking the school where she spent her most formative years, her heart heavy with a lingering sense of loneliness. The vibrant colors mirrored the turbulent emotions swirling within her, reflecting a poignant reminder of her solitude. She wasn't lonely, per se, but rather engulfed in a never-ending feeling of not belonging. Sunset Shimmer could effortlessly blend into social circles, donning a facade of confidence and charm that masked her inner turmoil. Yet, beneath the surface, she remained an enigma, always aware of an intangible void within her. It seemed as though no matter how many friendships she formed or what accomplishments she achieved, there was a persistent sense of being on the outskirts, forever grasping at a sense of true belonging that slipped through her fingers like sand. The world around her seemed to move effortlessly, while she struggled to find her place in it, forever yearning for a connection that would mend her fragmented sense of self.
She knew she'd be graduating soon, but that still didn't feel real to her. While her friends eagerly discussed future plans and career prospects, she found herself adrift in a sea of indecision. The path ahead seemed shrouded in an impenetrable fog, which begged the question; should she return to Equestria?

The thought lingered in Sunset Shimmer's mind, tempting her with the familiarity and comfort of the magical realm she once called home. As she weighed the pros and cons, her heart was divided between two worlds. The human world, with its bustling cities and endless possibilities, offered a chance to forge her path, to discover her purpose beyond the halls of academia. Yet, it also carried the weight of past mistakes and the ever-present reminders of her transformation from a power-hungry she-demon to a redeemed, close friend.
'Whatever, I don't have to decide now anyway...' said to herself.

Sunset Shimmer made her way to her apartment, the weight of uncertainty tugging at her every step. Opening the door, she was greeted by the familiar sight of her humble abode—a space that had become a sanctuary amidst the whirlwind of her existence. The walls were adorned with photographs of cherished memories, reminders of friendships forged, and challenges she overcame.

With a sigh, Sunset Shimmer reached for her journal, the familiar pages filled with her heartfelt letters to Princess Twilight Sparkle. It had become a ritual, pouring her thoughts onto paper, seeking solace in the act of sharing her deepest fears and desires with her best friend. But right now, what she needed was a distraction. Maybe she could ask her to come over and spend the weekend with her.

''Dear Princess Twilight,
How is everything in Equestria? Any more cool adventures I should know about?
I know it's been a while since we last spoke. I'm really sorry about that, you know how high school is, all the exams and the late-night studies for the exams. Not to mention all the crazy magic surges we're dealing with on a weekly basis. But anyway, that's not why I wanted to talk to you. We are graduating in a week! Can you believe it? I don't have any classes tomorrow so I thought maybe you could come over and we could celebrate, if you can that is. Hope I hear from you soon.
Your friend, Sunset Shimmer''
'Now we wait' she said to no one in particular. And boy did the wait feel like an eternity, every passing moment magnifying her uncertainty. However, as she sat there, her heart pounding, a soft buzz sounded from the journal, signaling a new message. Wasting no time, she opened the latest entry which read;
''Dear Sunset Shimmer,
Oh my gosh! I am so happy for you girls! And I am so so sorry I haven't been able to write to you. Things have been HECTIC here. Princess Celestia and Princess Luna are retiring! And they want ME and my friends to take over Equestria! And I've kinda been busy 'Twilighting' (which Pinkie Pie made a verb apparently) so I never had the time to check up on you. And honestly, an away day feels very much needed right now, so I'll meet you guys at the portal tomorrow.''

''WHAT? What do you mean THE Princesses are retiring!? I can't even imagine the 'twilighting' you're going through right now. (I am totally using this word as well.) Well, I think a verbose discussion is needed for this tomorrow. Oh, and forgot to mention, is it okay if it's just the two of us? There are some things I need your advice on and I'd rather not worry the girls about it.''

''Of course. Though, I should make some arrangements for one-on-one time. Goodnight Sunset, take care of yourself.
Your friend, Twilight Sparkle''

Sunset Shimmer closed her journal, a smile playing on her lips as she felt a sense of contentment wash over her. She had spent the night pouring her thoughts and feelings onto the pages, relishing in the cathartic release that journaling always provided. Sunset imagined the moment when she would see Twilight again—the tight embrace, the genuine smiles, and the shared laughter that seemed to fill every second they spent together. The deep conversations they would have, and the unbreakable bond they shared it was all waiting for them just around the corner. As she continued to ponder her upcoming reunion with Princess Twilight, a flicker of uncertainty danced across her thoughts. She couldn't deny the truth that lay buried beneath the surface of their deep friendship. Her feelings for Twilight went beyond the realms of platonic affection. She had grown to realize that what she felt for the princess was something more, something that tugged at her heart in a different way. Admitting these feelings to herself was not an easy task. Sunset had always been cautious about matters of the heart, having experienced the consequences of her actions in the past. And in her mind, fake dating a popular guy to get what she wanted didn't qualify as ''actually dating''.

With a gentle smile, Sunset Shimmer realized that it was time to put her thoughts to rest and prepare for the exciting day that awaited her. She changed into her pajamas, slipped under the covers of her bed, and closed her eyes.
The next day arrived, and Sunset Shimmer found herself standing in front of the portal, her heart pounding with anticipation. She had arrived early, unable to contain her excitement for the long-awaited reunion with Princess Twilight. As she waited, her anxiety was not rooted in doubt or fear, but rather in the sheer eagerness to see her best friend again. Moments ticked by, and then, with a shimmering glow, the portal came to life. Sunset's eyes widened with delight as Princess Twilight emerged from the other side. The radiant smile that adorned her face mirrored the joy that filled Sunset's heart.
Unable to contain herself any longer, Sunset rushed forward, arms outstretched in an exuberant embrace. Twilight mirrored her enthusiasm, and they found themselves locked in a tight hug, a cherished moment of connection after months apart. As they separated, their smiles and hands remained, and Sunset took a step back, her eyes shining with a mix of happiness and affection. She marveled at the sight of her best friend, taking in every detail—the sparkle in Twilight's eyes, the warmth of her presence, and the familiar cadence of her voice.

''Princess Twilight'' Sunset exclaimed, ''How I missed you so!''

Twilight Sparkle beamed back at her, her voice laced with warmth and genuine happiness. ''Sunset, it's so good to see you! It feels like forever since we last saw each other."

As Sunset Shimmer remembered her friend's hand within her own, a sudden warmth rushed to her cheeks. She became acutely aware of the intimate gesture and the lingering touch. Her heart skipped a beat, and she found herself momentarily lost in the sensation.

Blushing furiously, Sunset quickly withdrew her hand, a mixture of surprise and embarrassment washing over her. She hoped that Twilight hadn't noticed her reaction, but from the slight quirk of Twilight's eyebrow, it was evident that she had.
A sheepish smile crossed Sunset's face as she stammered, ''S-so, Twilight, what do you feel like doing first? I thought we could catch up over coffee and get some pastries maybe? If that's okay with you of course! I mean, I am kinda hungry so yeah''
Sunset Shimmer couldn't help but feel a wave of embarrassment wash over her as her words tumbled out in a rushed and awkward manner. She cringed inwardly at her self-consciousness, aware that she may have come across as overly eager or even creepy. She quickly reminded herself that she was simply excited to spend time with her just best friend.
Twilight Sparkle, however, raised her eyebrows, her eyes filled with understanding and amusement. "Coffee and pastries sound perfect, Sunset. I am hungry too."

Relief flooded through Sunset as she exhaled softly, grateful for Twilight's gracious response. Gathering her composure, Sunset's sheepish smile transformed into a brighter one. "Great! Let me take you to one of my favorite cafés, and no it's not going to be Sugarcube Corner this time.''
''Take me away Sunny!'' she giggled, her voice mimicking a princess in distress.
Sunset Shimmer's eyes sparkled with excitement as she embraced the playful banter with Twilight. She couldn't help but blush at the nickname "sunny" that Twilight had given her, finding it endearing yet slightly embarrassing. Determined not to let it show, she matched Twilight's energy and enthusiasm, ready to embark on their café adventure.
With an animated gesture and a mischievous grin, Sunset pointed in the direction of the café and exclaimed, "To the café, indeed! Follow me, Twi!"

Sunset Shimmer led Twilight Sparkle through the bustling streets of the town, their excitement palpable in the air. The sun was shining brightly, casting a warm glow on the colorful buildings and cheerful passersby. Sunset couldn't help but steal a few glances at the girl next to her. And as they arrived at the café, Twilight was immediately captivated by the café's ambiance. Soft, warm lights bathed the interior, casting a serene glow across the room. The aroma of freshly brewed tea and freshly baked pastries wafted through the air, inviting their senses to indulge.
Sunset guided Twilight to a cozy corner adorned with plush cushions and bookshelves filled with a diverse array of literature. They settled down, their excitement mounting as they perused the menu filled with tantalizing tea blends and delectable treats.

The café's friendly staff approached their table, and Sunset recommended her favorite tea blend while Twilight opted for a herbal infusion. They ordered a variety of pastries, Twilight not making the mistake of trying to order something with oat this time.

As they waited for their order, Sunset decided to break the silence.

''So, the Princess of all of Equestria, huh? I didn't want to bring it up so early since I can't even imagine what kind of pressure that must put you under right now but, I have to ask, Twi. How in the name of Celestia are you handling this?''

''Oh, I am definitely not, but my friends are doing their best to reassure me, and I'm trying to convince myself that I'm past my 'freakout-until-I-pass-out-from-hyperventilating' phase. But that doesn't seem to be working that well, honestly.''

''Twilight,'' Sunset said gently, placing her hand on top of Twilight's, giving it a gentle squeeze. ''It's an insanely big change, and it's completely natural to feel overwhelmed,''

''It's more than just overwhelming, Sunny. I feel like I'm suffocating.''

Sunset's expression softened, her voice filled with empathy. "I'm here for you, Twi. Remember, you don't have to face this alone. It's okay to feel suffocated and overwhelmed. Sometimes, acknowledging those feelings is the first step towards finding a way to cope."

Twilight's eyes welled up with tears, a mixture of vulnerability and relief. "I... I know, Sunset. But it's just so hard. Everything is changing, and I feel like I'm losing control. I don't know how to handle it."

Sunset leaned closer, her voice gentle and soothing. "It's okay not to have all the answers right now. We all have moments when life seems to spin out of our grasp. But remember, you're strong Twi. You've faced countless challenges before, and each time, you've come out even stronger."

Twilight took a deep breath, absorbing Sunset's words. "You're right. I know you are, I just don't know when I'll fully accept it and be ready.''

Sunset Shimmer found herself lost in thought. As she listened to Twilight express her fears and concerns, something within her stirred. She couldn't help but reflect on her own journey and the parallels that existed between their situations.
Twilight's vulnerability had touched a chord within Sunset, reminding her of her own struggles with acceptance and embracing the unknown. She pondered over the countless times she had hesitated, waiting for the perfect moment, for the right conditions to align before taking action. And yet, those moments of readiness had often eluded her, and her ending up asking her friend for answers.

It was in this introspective moment that a realization washed over Sunset. Maybe readiness wasn't a destination but a continuous process, a dance with an uncertainty that accompanied every step of growth. She understood that sometimes waiting for the right time might mean waiting forever, and that was okay.

''Maybe'' she started softly,''Maybe you'll never be ready. And maybe that's okay too.'' Sunset Shimmer's gaze softened, her eyes meeting Twilight's glistening ones with a newfound understanding. She had always held Twilight in high regard, often seeking her wisdom and relying on her for answers. Sunset couldn't help but chuckle, her laughter bubbling up from within. She had been offering words of reassurance and guidance to Twilight, unknowingly speaking the advice she needed to hear herself. Life's ever-changing nature had a way of bringing them face-to-face with their own fears and uncertainties.

''You know...I was going to ask you what I should do after graduation. I mean, it's nowhere as serious as moving to Canterlot and ruling a whole country but,'' Sunset took a deep breath. ''It's all going to be different now. Fluttershy, Rarity, and Twilight all are going to different cities to study, Rainbow has all these college teams trying to recruit her, and Pinkie is going to culinary school here but it's a really intense program and I don't know just how often I'll see her. And well, Applejack's going to be taking care of the farm full time.'' Sunset looked up, her eyes meeting Twilight's with a mix of gratitude and uncertainty. "But my situation is a little more complicated. All my documentation, my identity, it's all fake. Colleges do thorough research, and I don't think I'll be as lucky as I am right now"

Twilight took a moment to gather her thoughts, understanding the gravity of the situation. She knew that Sunset had forged her own path and struggled to navigate a world where her past choices had consequences. But she also knew that Sunset had resilience and determination.

"Sunset, I won't pretend that the road ahead won't be challenging and I'll support your journey all the way" Twilight responded, her voice calm yet resolute. ''But I have to ask, why not just come back to Equestria with me?'' Sunset's cheeks flushed at Twilight's question. I mean, of course, she considered it, but hearing it phrased that way made her heart flutter.
''I've been thinking about that for a long time actually. Equestria will always hold a special place in my heart, but I don't know how I feel about leaving behind all the progress I've made here. I mean, all these memories I've made with the girls. It feels wrong...''

''You sound like it'll all be gone if you leave here, Sunset. The memories you've made with your friends will live on as long as you live on.'' Twilight started gently, ''Moving to Canterlot, I'll also be leaving my friends in a way, but I know our friendship is so much stronger than the distance between us.''
Sunset looked up to face Twilight, her eyes reflecting a mixture of gratitude and contemplation. Twilight's words resonated deeply within her, the potential of their friendship transcending physical distance made sense, in a way.
''I guess it's an opportunity for growth, huh?'' Sunset was smirking at her now, Twilight reminded her of her old teacher at that very moment.

''Exactly!'' Twilight's smile widened, a twinkle of excitement dancing in her eyes. ''Besides, I'll be right here, cheering you on every step of the way. So, don't think you're getting rid of me that easily'' Twilight playfully punched Sunset's arm, a mischievous glint in her eyes.

"Hey, watch it!" Sunset exclaimed with a mock expression of surprise, rubbing her arm where Twilight's playful punch had landed. Sunset feigned shock, her hand dramatically pressed against her chest as she spoke with a playful tone. "Oh, but of course, dear Princess of Friendship. Your violent tendencies are truly scandalous!" She exaggerated a gasp and widened her eyes for added effect.

Twilight smirked, playing along with Sunset's theatrics. "Well, I'll have you know, I did my fair share of kicking butt!" she replied, her voice filled with amusement. "But fear not, my dear friend. The scandalous act of my playful punch is but a mere blip in the grand tapestry of friendship."
Sunset couldn't help but burst into laughter, her melodramatic expression melting into genuine amusement. ''I don't even know what that means.'' Their laughter echoed through the air. Any worries or uncertainties were pushed aside at that moment.
As their laughter slowly subsided, Sunset and Twilight found themselves gazing at each other with warm smiles. The playful energy of their exchange lingered in the air, creating a sense of comfort and ease between them. Yet, within Sunset's mind, a different thought had started to take shape, one that she couldn't help but share.

Sunset took a deep breath, her smile softening as she looked into Twilight's eyes. "Twilight, there's something else on my mind that I wanted to talk to you about," she began, her voice filled with sincerity.

Twilight's expression shifted slightly, her curiosity was evident as she leaned in attentively. "Of course, Sunset. Shoot away.''

Sunset's words stumbled out, her voice tinged with a hint of nervousness. She took a deep breath, gathered her courage, and continued,

"There's something I've been feeling, well, more like a growing realization, since the Battle of the Bands. And it's been on my mind ever since." Sunset met Twilight's gaze, her eyes holding a mix of vulnerability and determination. "After everything we've been through, your guide towards friendship to me, our late night talks, and maybe many more smaller but not insignificant things... I've come to realize just how much you mean to me, Twilight. And, wow, it feels so weird to finally even say it to myself,'' Sunset diverted her eyes, a mixture of relief and anxiety washing over her but nonetheless continued. ''It's more than just friendship. It's something deeper and for the longest time, it felt so terrifying to even have these feelings. And, I'm not saying they aren't right now but,'' Sunset took a deep breath. ''I love you, Twilight. More than you can ever imagine. And feeling these feelings and having all these thoughts inside me felt so suffocating. I must have planned this confession in my head like a thousand times and it never felt right. But today you made me realize that it's okay to not have it all figured out. But right now, in this very moment, it never felt more right.''

Twilight gazed back at Sunset, her eyes filled with a mix of emotions. She took a moment to process Sunset's words, her mind racing as she tried to make sense of her own feelings. The weight of the moment hung in the air, both of them aware that their friendship could be forever changed by this revelation.

After a few moments of silence that felt like an eternity, Twilight's lips curled into a gentle smile.
As Twilight's smile grew wider, she moved closer to Sunset, their faces only inches apart. Sunset's heart raced with anticipation, her eyes locked on Twilight's every movement. With gentle hands, Twilight cupped Sunset's cheeks, her touch sending a wave of warmth through Sunset's entire being.

And after what felt like forever, their lips finally met in a tender kiss. It was soft and sweet, filled with a mixture of longing and reassurance. Time seemed to stand still as they lost themselves in the embrace, their connection deepening with every passing second.
Sunset's mind buzzed with a whirlwind of emotions, the softness of Twilight's lips against hers melting away any doubts or fears. It felt as if a missing piece of the puzzle had finally fallen into place, and the world around them faded into insignificance.
''I...Wow, I kinda always took you for someone who uses their words but, I mean, I am not complaining.''
''How am I supposed to say anything after that, Sunny!''
And with that, their chuckles filled the air as they finally felt every worry wash away.