> A Notebook Found In An Abandoned Apartment Complex > by The Ancestor > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Monday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- DO NOT LOOK AT THE SKY Whatever you do, do not look at the sky. I have no clue what's going on, the TV is all static, and my fucking neighbour threw himself out of the Sun damned window. My window is in the west side of the building, and this morning I tried getting some fresh air, hell of a night yesterday. I pulled the blinds apart, opened the window and smiled as I noticed Fire Axis, doing the same thing. She focused on me at first, but something grabbed her attention and she looked upwards, somewhere above my apartment building. She had this vacant look on her face, like she wasn't there anymore. She smiled harder than I've ever seen her smile, harder than was possible for a pony. She opened the window and- Fuck She just stepped out of the window. She didn't jump or stumble, nopony pushed her from what I could see. She just stepped out. I didn't look down, just stood there, not knowing what to do. That's when the others followed. Dozens of ponies falling past me, all with those vacant, smiling expressions. I don't open the blinds anymore. The kitchen windows are still open, but they're on the other side of my apartment, and I'm not risking it. This has to be a dream, right? I've tried pinching, biting and slapping myself, but I nothing works I'll go to sleep, maybe then I'll wake up > Tuesday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I woke up to the sound of static and complete silence from outside of my apartment. No angry neighbours waking me up early, no traffic accident ruining my morning, just silence. I filled the bath with tap water, better save than sorry. I looked out of my apartment window today, looked down, mind you. I don't know why I did it, maybe to see If it was all a dream or not, maybe to make sure it wasn't. In any case, I knew what I was supposed to see there. But I didn't. There was nopony there! Nothing can survive a fall like that, I'm sure of it. I checked my door lock anyway. What the fuck is going on, where are the Princesses? I have enough food in the fridge for a few days, a week if I'm careful. I'll try to stay up late today, draw the kitchen blinds. > Wednesday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's not the sky. I've caught a peek of the sky this night while drawing the blinds, not intentionally, mind you. A water hydrant near my apartment broke down, flooding the adjacent road, forming a large puddle. The moon was very bright at the time, and I couldn't help but look at it for a few moments, being cooped up in my apartment really isn't doing me any good. I'm not sure what Fire Axis felt when she stepped out of the window, and by Celestia I hope I'll never know. But whatever it was, I'm fairly certain it's not the sky, or the moon. I'm still alive, after all. There's been a break in the static, an emergency message of sorts. "Don't look at the sun. Stay indoors during the day. Help is on its way." It's still there, the same message looping over and over again. In turned the volume down, just barely enough to be heard. I really hope I won't have to wait long. It's getting a little lonely. > Thursday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- THEY'RE HUMMING OUTSIDE MY WINDOW FUCK I woke up around 4 in the morning to this weird humming coming from my window- I thought it was safe to open Fire is there, floating With that same Sun damned vacant expression She's not smiling anymore, but her lips are moving She's chanting something, or humming or singing or doing who knows what I can't make a lick of sense of what she's saying, and I don't want to I've drawn the blinds, but I still have the feeling she's watching me The broadcast's still the same, which brings the question, is this happening everywhere? Why aren't the Princess' doing anything about it? Can they do anything about it? Tap water's out, gotta concerve what I have Wish I didn't drink all the booze last sunday > Friday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I looked her in the eyes today. There's nothing left behind them, just words and melodic humming. Her wings twitch from time to time, but she's not using them, not consciously, anyway. It's been awhile since she's eaten last, but she's sure not showing it. I've tried listening to her babble, but all I've got from that is a headache and a damned word salad, something about holes, waves and earworms. What a collosal waste of time. The broadcast changed again, adding a "don't listen to the affected individuals". Right on time, as usual. Where are the Princesses? Celestia moves the sun, why doesn't she halt it for a time? Food's running out, despite my best efforts of rationing it. I'll try going to the nearest store tonight, hopefully it hasn't been looted yet. > Saturday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Finally got out of my apartment tonight, it's worse than I thought. The hallways and stairwells are empty, not a soul in sight. Some of the doors are open, but I decided against checking them for now, I don't want to see any familiar faces if they ended up like Fire. When I finally reached the streets, I stood frozen for a good few minutes, just taking in the sights. I knew it was probably bad, but I didn't know just how bad it was. Dozens, hundreds of ponies floated high above the ground, all humming, all looking upwards. From what I saw none of them were looking at me, but it sure did feel like it. Their voices were impossible to ignore. The way to the store was straightforward enough, even if it felt like I was being watched along the way. To my surprise, the store was intact, a cashier levitating under the ceiling. I stocked up on non perishables, as well as some strong drinks to boot. I got out of there and back home before sunrise, the humming following me wherever I went. I'm in bed now, all my windows are closed shut, just like my bedroom door. So why do I still hear them? > Sunday > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I talked with Fire today. Well, more like talked at her, she's still as catatonic as ever. I know its stupid, but it reminds me of better times, when the world made sense and I didn't have to drink water out of a bathtub. I reminded her of last time we had a board game evening, or went to the movies, or to the park, or how we agreed to go I heard something from the TV today. Not the usual broadcast, that bloody thing's grown insufferable by now. No, I heard something almost unintelligable, but oddly familiar. It took me a good few hours of staring at static to recognise it. It was the incantation, the same one Fire and all the others were are humming. How do you say “insane”? Hurts to be happy. That's as far as I got before I had to call it a night. I'm not sure the Princess' are coming > Why Me > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I heard it in my sleep today. "We wait in the stains", "We build you till nothing remains", "You are home", "You remind us of home." I can't remember my dream beyond that, it's all darkness and murmurs, and what I can remember isn't exactly helpful. I didn't talk to Fire today, didn't have the strength to. Somehow, I feel more tired than before I went to sleep. Why is this happening to me? What did I do to deserve this? I'll go to sleep earlier, maybe it'll help. The TV is still transmitting that inane babble. I am tired > A Great Listener > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I woke up to a whisper today. You are a worm through time. The thunder song distorts you. I freaked out initially, jolting awake, desperately looking around the room in panic, searching for whoever was here. There was nopony there. The voice wasn't Fire's, but it was familiar. Speaking about. She's a great listener, part of why we clicked so well initially. She was one of the few ponies willing to listen what you say, instead of just hearing you speak. I returned the favour when I could, and everything was fine. I'd give anything to hear her voice again. The TV's back to the broadcast, but it's fine, I've learned it by heart now. But I want to listen > Sweet Dreams > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- When you hear this you will know you’re in new you. That's the first thing I heard upon waking up. In other news, Fire finally spoke to me! I have to admit, I almost teared up. Her voice is just as I remember it, soft and caring and calming and soothing and firm and like in a dream. I like this dream. Its a nice dream. I want to dream. The TV's saying something else now, but I'm sure it's nothing important. There's never been anything important on the TV. And there will never be. It doesn't sound like Fire, after all. > Smile > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- An earworm is a tune you can’t stop humming in a dream: “baby baby baby yeah”. I didn't go to sleep today, how could I? Fire's such a wonderful converstionist! She tells jokes, stories, and all sorts of wonderful things! She always knows how to make me crack a smile! I want to smile. > Hurt > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- A copy of a copy of a copy. I feel awful. I'm an awful friend. I love listening to Fire, but I can't help but speak over her, speak with her. She doesn't show it, but I know it's hurting her. She's strong like that. I don't want her to hurt, she doesn't deserve that. I want to hurt > Crescendo > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- We’ve taken your boss with your boss with you. I'm extatic, Fire inveted me to her place for a board game night, just like the old times. Finally, I won't be alone. I don't want to be alone. I don’t want to be.