Four Years Later...

by Script Singer

First published

Four years after Script was sexually abused and it still haunts her. Will she be able to move on?

Ratted teen for topics of sexual abuse. Based on dreams I've been having as of late.


I pass through the part of town where I was sexually abused four years ago. I know he's not coming back for me, but why does he still haunt my dreams...? Will I ever heal...?

Introduction

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I walk around and chat with my friends as we pass through town on my way home from a fun night out. I had a smile on my face, but it quickly turned to a frown as I recognized the street we were on.

We passed a dark alleyway, causing me to stop walking for a moment and stare. Flashes went through my mind of that night four years ago. The memory is fuzzy, but I still remember. I remember him pushing me against the wall and invading inside me. I remember his mouth pressed against mine. I remember him choking me with his lips. And then…

Nothing…

My memory stopped, trying to protect me and cause less permanent damage to my mind, to keep my sanity. Why? After four years, why does it still terrify me? Why do I still fear him, knowing he’s out there, but he isn’t coming back. He’ll never bother me again.

And yet, I still have nightmares and flashbacks…

“Script?”

I shook my head coming back to reality. I turned to my coltfriend, Jaded Steel looking concerned.

“You alright?” He asked.

“Y-Yeah, just…” I stared at the ground unable to finish my sentence.

Jaded walked up to me putting a hoof on my shoulder. “You-know-who?”

I nodded my head as my face grew pensive. “It’s been four years now…” I muttered. “Why am I still afraid…?”

Lotus walked up to me, a comforting look in her eyes. “It's traumatic for you, Script. It takes time to heal from something like this.”

“I know, I just wish I could get over it already…”

My friends all just walked up to me and gave me a big group hug. I smiled slightly as I felt slightly better, but not much.

“Wanna come spend the night at my house?” Jaded asked.

I smiled once more as I nodded my head and gave my coltfriend a tighter hug.

We continued walking, time passing by quickly as we approached Jaded’s house. I waved to my friends goodbye as Jaded and I walked inside.

“Do you want something to eat? “ Jaded asked. “I can fix up something for you.”

“Sure, I haven’t eaten much today.”

“So what are you hungry for?” Jaded asked. “I’ve got hayburgers, carrot dogs, leftover pizza, anything sound appealing to you?”

A smile grew on my face. “Hayburgers sounds great.”

Jaded smiled as he opened the fridge and prepared me dinner. A frown quickly grew on my face at the memory of the alleyway, the memory burned in my mind.

“You still upset about the alleyway?”

I looked up at him, finding him standing in front of me. I hung my head as my ears folded back. “Is it that obvious…?”

Jaded walked over to my side and gave me a tight hug. “Hey, it’s gonna be okay, I promise.”

I nodded my head. He then went back to cooking me dinner.

After dinner, I decided to take a shower to help me relax but it didn’t help too much. I then walked into Jaded’s bedroom, ready for bed. I found him passed out which caused a small chuckle to come out. He was usually very tired by the time the day ended so I just decided to climb into bed and just snuggle up next to him.

As I lay in bed once again the memory from four years ago popped up in my head. My ears folded back as I just snuggled closer to my coltfriend.

As long as Shadow Mane is out there, I cannot be at peace.

Night Terror

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I found myself in the dark alleyway with no exits. Just walls surrounding me. I cowered in fear, knowing what was going to happen. I have seen it play out so many times.

I heard a long chuckle. I just curled into a ball and cried, waiting for my fate. I didn’t have to wait very long. I was suddenly thrown against a wall, finding him in front of me. I just let the tears roll down my face, knowing there was no escape. “Please show mercy, Master…”

Shadow Mane only chuckled. “You’ve been a very bad filly, and must be punished.”

I only let out another sob as I hung my head. I felt him grab me by the throat as he leaned in close, licking my neck and nibbling my ear. “That’s a good girl.” He whispered in my ear.

I let out a shudder as I heard him say that. I just stood there, letting him do whatever he pleased to my body. He then slowly moved his hooves around me, caressing my body. I shut my eyes tight at what was going to happen next. He slowly moved down spreading my legs apart. I just shut my eyes tight, wishing this nightmare could be over.

It’s gonna be okay, you’ll wake up any second now… I think to myself. You’re gonna wake up, I promise…

He then slowly stood up, leaning in close once more letting out a soft growl.

“P-Please be gentle…” I muttered softly.

“You still must be punished for your mistakes.” He chuckled. I let out a cry of pain as I felt him enter inside me. “Buck, you’re so tight…”

I just stood there and sobbed, praying it would all end soon. After what felt like an eternity he finally pulled away. I collapsed to the ground just lying there, sobbing.

“You really are a slut.” He chuckled as he walked away, leaving me there in the street a shuddering mess.

Sanctuary

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I woke up with a start, breathing heavily. I then turned to my side, finding Jaded Steel beside me. I snuggled up close to him, wrapping my hooves around him. He stirred, letting out a tired groan as he rolled over to see me.

“Everything okay, darling?” He mumbled when he noticed the state I was in. I only held him tight in reply. “I see.”

He then pulled me closer hugging me tightly. I buried my mussel into his chest, taking in his sent calming me down.

“Wanna talk about it?” He asked.

I took a deep shaky breath as I sat up and nodded my head.

“It’s the same nightmare as the others, but instead, I just gave in…” I hung my head.

Jaded put a hoof under my chin and made me look him in the eyes. “Babe, you know that you would never give into somepony like that. And even if you were in trouble, you know I would be there to save you. I’ll do my darn best job trying to save you, I would risk my life for you.”

I smiled slightly as I leaned in to kiss Jaded. He kissed me back and we both layed back down and snuggled enjoying each other's company. I felt a soft smile grow on my face as I felt my body become exhausted and finally found peace once more.