> Killing The Melody > by CottonMiller > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Being Broken > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- The sound of the baby’s high pitched crying made Connie open her dark brown eyes as she sat up in the bed from frustration and drowsiness. Only three hours of sleep tonight. That was a record since she usually got only 30 minutes or 2 hours. She would’ve slept more, but her baby’s constant needs through it’s sobbing we’re keeping her from rest. Her vision was slightly blurred from just getting up, but rubbing her eyes a bit seemed to clear it up and she had enough consciousness to get up and walk up stairs to the nursery, the cries getting louder and louder as she neared.  Heavy footsteps walked inside the lavender and light aquamarine room, going up to the crib and looking down into it, only for rosey pink eyes to be staring back up at her. Connie wanted to smile at her, but it didn’t come. She instead picked the little girl up as she reached out to touch Connie’s long black hair. Connie sighed, “What is it that you want, sweetie?” She asked in her normal mellow voice. Even though it was slightly wrapped up in grogginess. The baby responded with a small sob, making Connie sigh again. She checked to see if she had a full diaper. It seemed clean, which was good. She then assumed that she was probably hungry and looked at her bottle, only for it to be empty like she predicted.  She grabbed the nursing bottle and walked back downstairs, the little girl still in her arms. She walked over to the couch and placed her down. She then went into the kitchen and opened up the refrigerator, grabbing the jug of milk and opening the lid to the baby bottle. She walked up to the sink and grabbed a pan to place on the stove, starting to wake up and become more focus with the task that was given to her.  How did her life turn out like this? She was so excited for a baby with her wife, but now she wished that she would have never been born. These thoughts were horrible to the young siren, but they were sadly true. Connie shouldn't be hating her baby, Melody, but she was starting to. Her wanting Melody to stay her little girl forever, now wanted her to just grow up. Her gorgeous rose eyes were now horrible reminders that she was awake. Ready for more crying, more sobbing, and more work for Connie to do by herself. But it wasn't like that when she first gave birth to her.  She was beautiful. She already had a full head of curly, black hair with one small streak of orange in it, beautiful white skin, and magenta eyes. When the couple first saw her, they fell in love with her. And decided to give her a name: Melody. Melody Lover.  Connie frowned as she poured the milk into the pan and turned on the stove. She remembered that her wife given her that name.  'Adagio,' Connie thought, 'You said you were going to take care of her with me… Together… Why did you have to leave…?' Tears started to well up in her eyes as the flashback played in her head. ~~~ Connie smiled sadly at Adagio as the older siren packed her bags to get on the next flight, waiting for the announcement of her gate. "Do you really have to go, Adagio?" Connie questioned as her smile turned into a frown and tears threatened to run down her cheeks. This made Adagio frown as well, "I mean, I don't have to. I can always forget the record deal and stay here, with you. Taking care of Melody… with you. Do you want me to stay?"  Connie looked down at her feet. She knew how much Adagio wanted this, no matter how much Adagio changed, she always wanted the adoration from others. And she understood Adagio's love of music and singing. She was a siren after all. She and Melody weren't going to be the reason why Adagio can't simply accomplished a dream she had been desiring for a long while now. She finally has a chance and who knows when it'll ever come up again.  "No, you can go. You've been wanting this for so long. I'm not going to get in the way of that just because I want you to stay. I just don't wanna take care of Melody on my own… it's… scary to think about…" Connie confessed, the salty liquid now making its way down her face and dripping on the floor of the airport.  She suddenly felt a hand under her chin, lifting her head up so Connie's eyes could meet Adagio's, "Connie, I know you. You're the strongest girl I've met. I know you can do this. Plus, I'll only be gone for 6 months. So you won't have long to do this alone. The months will be over before you know it. I promise when I come back, I will stay here permanently and take care of her together,"  "Do you… Do you promise?"  "I promise," Adagio smiled warmly as she softly kissed Connie's forehead just when they called her number, "I gotta go~ Bye~" She whispered as she began to walk away from the smaller siren. "Goodbye~" Connie softly called out as she stood there as she watched her lover leave. The last thing she saw of her was her orange poofy hair and Adagio's soft smile before she disappeared when she walked through the doorway. ~~~ It had been 4 months and already she was missing Adagio dearly. The rest of The Dazzlings could be here to help Connie as well, but those two would be a bit too loud and reckless to have around her newborn. Plus, they already had children to take care of. Sonata and Nissy with her twins and Combob and Aria with their child. She snapped out of her thoughts when she heard Melody cry again. This was a reminder of what she was doing and looked down at the stove of boiling milk, quickly turning it off.  Assuming that the milk was hot, she let it cool off as she walked into the living room to check on Melody, who was still wailing loudly on the couch until Connie picked her up, "Dinner will be ready for you soon, I promise," Connie reassured, staring directly into Melody's eyes. She frowned when she saw them.  Melody almost looked just like Adagio. Even though Melody looked more like Connie herself, she still had the same beautiful orbs as… her. 'Please don't tell me that I'm gonna start hating Adagio too. I actually love her and I want her to come back. Please don't do this to me, brain!' Connie softly growled, her grip slightly tightened around Melody. She didn't want to hate Adagio, but she still loathed the fact that she left her. Alone. With Melody to take every need she had into her hands. Adagio said she was strong. Adagio lied. 'But… being famous was Adagio's dream. I still can't get in the way of that… Even though I might never see Adagio again. What if she forgot all about us?' She sighed, putting Melody back down on the couch and crossing her arms, 'She will be too caught up in her fans and autographs to take care of Melody and me,' She thought as she walked to the kitchen again. She slipped a finger into the pan of milk, checking to see if it cooled off. Once she knew the milk was warm, she grabbed the baby bottle, grabbed the pan and slowly poured the milk in it, trying her best to not spill any. 'Just… Just two more months. That's it. Just two more months and she'll be back…' Connie reassured, but that didn't stop her from thinking the worst, 'I wish things were back to normal. When Melody wasn't here. Life would be easier. I wouldn't have had to stop taking care of animals or my gardening… Why did Melody have to exist?' The siren frowned as she screwed the lid back onto the baby bottle, gave it a few shakes and walked over to Melody to pick her up. She put the teat into the baby's mouth, who quickly accepted the offer as she sucked on it. Connie sighed softly, staring at the girl she was feeding, "You're so cute," She admitted as she sat down on the couch with her legs crossed, "And I love you so much. But do you wish Adagio was here with us?"  Melody didn't respond and just kept eating, making Connie pet her soft, black hair. Even though she said she loved her, but she couldn't help but feel like she was lying. She tried to tell herself that she loved her, but a voice in her head told her she didn't. She didn't want to take care of her anymore. She just wanted all this to be over. She had a strong desire to hurt herself. And maybe even Melody.  She frowned as tears ran down her cheeks. She began to cry loudly but the sight of her innocent baby drinking milk from her bottle seemed to calm her down. For the millionth time today, she let out another sigh, wiping her tears away. “I’ll take you back to your room. You must be tired from crying so much. So am I,” Connie’s shaky voice said as she stood up and carried the baby siren back to her room. As Connie gave Melody her bottle and laid her down in the crib, she began to turn around out the door until she heard one of Melody’s ear piercing sobs. She quickly turned around to see what was wrong, only for the siren’s cries to stop when she saw Connie, who groaned. “Looks like I’m staying for a bit,” She pulled up a rocking chair and sat down next to the crib, looking over at Melody who was peacefully sucking her bottle. Connie just watched her quietly, slowly rocking the crib while she did so. Her own eyelids started to get heavier, her motions on the crib stopping. ‘Just two more months,’ She thought, leaning back in her chair and drifting off to sleep.  --- Connie slowly woke up again, but not from Melody. The doorbell. She raised an eyebrow as she got up out of bed. How strange. Connie barely got any visitors after Adagio left on her tour. She grabbed her hot pink robe and threw it on as she walked downstairs to the front door. Expecting it to be just one of her friends coming to say hi, she opened the door without a second thought, only for her jaw to drop when she saw who it was. If she was holding something, she would have immediately dropped it. "Missed me?" The voice belonging to the person asked as she stepped inside as Connie grew the biggest grin she had ever threw. “ADAGIO! YOU’RE BACK!” Connie yelled out as she basically threw herself onto the older girl, who smirked as she wrapped her arms around her, “But you--” “I quit. Turns out, music business isn’t for me after all. Sure, I like attention and singing, but just all those people huddling around me, wanting to get their hands on me, is very… unsettling for me. I think I got a hand cramp just by signing all those autographs," Adagio chuckled, "To all the famous music artists out there that have to deal with that, I'll have to credit them for not at least losing their minds at how loud their screams and shrieks are whenever they see them," The older siren then looked over at Connie with a heavy blush, "Plus… I really missed you," Connie smiled warmly at her as she closed the door behind them, "Well, I'm glad you got to live your dream for a while. I'm so glad your back!" She pulled Adagio into a hug, which the older girl gladly returned.  "Me too. And sweet little, Melody! How's she doing? Is she okay?" Adagio mentioned, looking down at Connie. "She's doing great! But she was really a handful to take care of," Connie answered, "She's in her room asleep. You can see her if you want," "Absolutely!" Adagio said as she rushed upstairs, Connie smiling softly as she watched her. 'Heh, it's nice to see I won't be alone anymore,' Connie thought as she slowly followed the older girl, seeing her wife cradle an awake Melody in her arms. "She's still so beautiful~ I'm glad we made her~" Adagio tearfully commented, making Connie smile as she looked down at the baby siren as well. "Me too…"