> When The Sun Cries > by MetallicPie > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > When The Sun Cries > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'd raise the sun at the balcony once again. That is always part of my morning routine. I'd raise it to start a new day. I'd then exit the balcony and return to my bedroom. I wait for one of the servants to enter, telling me that my breakfast was ready. I'd have to wait for a couple minutes for that to happen. After I've waited for a few minutes, a servant would enter my room. "Princess, your breakfast is ready," the servant told me. "Alright, thank you, dear servant," I replied. The servant bowed and then exited my bedroom. Ponies always bowed to me. They adored me. They think I'm the most perfect pony they've ever seen, but truth is, I'm not. Nopony is perfect, including me. I don't get why they would think that. Why would they think that? I don't even know. I have a student named Twilight Sparkle and I'd have to go wake her up so she could have breakfast with me. I like when she has breakfast with me. I feel like I have somepony to spend time with. All I have been for a couple years was being sad since I had to banish my sister to the moon. Her name is Luna and I miss her. My student is the only thing that keeps me happy. Don't get me wrong, I care about my subjects but I don't like how they think I'm perfect. It just isn't right. I'd walk down the hallway, heading to Twilight's dorm. She has been staying with me for the past couple months. There has been a few times where she has been homesick and cried. I'd comfort her in an effort to calm her down. After she was fully calm we would have a little chat. I'd then tuck her back into her bed and exit her dorm. I'd enter Twilight's dorm, walking towards her bed. I'd give her a little nudge to help wake her up. "Twilight, wake up," I said softly. She'd turn towards me on her bed. She'd then open her eyes. "Good morning, princess..." she'd say sleepily. I giggled. "Want to have breakfast with me?" I asked. "Of course!" she'd reply happily. I'd giggle once again. "Alright. Meet me in the kitchen when you are ready," I told her. "Okay, princess!" she replied cheerfully. I then exited her dorm. ... After a few minutes, Twilight arrived at the kitchen. Her mane was fully brushed. She had a smile on her face. Seeing her happy makes me happy too. She'd come and sit next to me. A servant would then come and bring our breakfast. "Here you go," the servant said. "Thank you," I said. "No problem, your majesty," the servant replied and walked away. I'd look at my breakfast for a few moments. Usually I wouldn't eat anything since I have a lot of negative things on my mind. Just then, I was snapped out of my thoughts by Twilight. "Princess, are you okay?" she asked. I looked up from my breakfast, turning to face her. I couldn't tell her about my negative thoughts. I just couldn't. "Yes, Twilight, I'm fine," I said simply, giving her a smile to reassure her that everything's okay. She gave me a look of concern. "Okay... if you're sure..." I'd turn away from her, looking down at my breakfast again. I then started eating. It felt so good to be eating again. My student helped me push away all the dark thoughts from my mind. After I was finished eating, I would have to go do my morning duties. It was pretty busy in the morning. After I finished my morning duties, I'd teach Twilight some spells. She needed to be ready for what was going to come. She can save my little sister. ... After a long day, I'd feel exhausted. I'm also happy because I can be myself again. I don't have to wear the regal mask that my subjects see. I look like I'm alright, but I'm actually not. Even though I have my student with me, I'd still feel... empty. I miss my sister Luna. I really want her back. When it is time for Twilight to go to sleep, I'd walk her to her dorm. I'd then tuck her into her bed. Just then, I saw the frightening image on the moon again that represented Luna. I was then now staring at it outside my student's window. I could feel myself about to cry but I couldn't break down in here. I don't want Twilight seeing me like that. I'd try my hardest to keep my composure. "Princess, are you okay?" Twilight asked. I'd quickly turn away from the moon. "Yes, Twilight. I'm fine," I said, still trying to keep my composure. She could start to tell that something was wrong with me, but I guess she didn't want to ask what was wrong. "Okay..." I exited her dorm. I was struggling to keep my composure. I could feel the waterworks coming on. The tears wanted to come out. I didn't want to let them out until I get to the balcony. I tried to swallow the lump in my throat, but it wouldn't do any good. I could usually keep my composure, but I couldn't now. My eyes began to tear up. I couldn't see anything. No! Not here! Not now! The tears were now flowing freely down my cheeks. I sniffled quietly. I held in a sob. I wanted to get to the balcony fast. I didn't want anypony hearing me cry. I started to walk down the halls quietly. The held in sob was about to break free. I tried to keep it in, but it was no use. I was now sobbing loudly. I tried to sob quietly but I couldn't. I was sobbing uncontrollably. I then started to fly quietly so I could get to the balcony and let all the bottled up emotions out. ... When I arrived at my room, I locked the door and went straight to the balcony. I sobbed while looking at the moon. "L-Luna, f-forgive me! I'm so s-sorry!" I said through sobs. Just then, I heard a knock on my bedroom door. I turned around quickly. "Princess? What's wrong?" a young filly said from outside the door. Twilight? She heard me! Oh no! I'd quietly sniff so she wouldn't hear me. I'd then hold back my sobs. "N-Nothing! I-I'm fine!" I said, trying to speak in a regal tone but my voice broke. "No, you're not! I can tell you're crying!" Twilight said to me. "Please! Let me come in!" I couldn't hold my sobs in anymore. I broke down again, sobbing uncontrollably and loudly. I couldn't speak anymore. I unlocked my bedroom door with my magic so Twilight could come in. When Twilight entered my room, she ran up to me and nuzzled my wet cheeks. The guards would enter my room, seeing me in a state of sadness. "Princess? What's the matter?" a guard asked in a voice of concern. I heard the guards behind me. I could now speak since I let most of my emotions out. I wasn't quite done yet. I turned to face them, my face covered with dry tears. My eyes were bloodshot. They gasped when they saw my condition. "Um, excuse me, can you leave please?" I asked politely. They stared at me for a few moments and then they replied. "Yes, your majesty," a guard said. The rest of them bowed. "Please, you don't have to do that." "Oh, alright, your majesty." They would exit my bedroom. I didn't feel comfortable with the guards or anypony seeing me in bad condition. It makes me uncomfortable, but I trust Twilight. I'd go back to sobbing, with her by my side. ... After a few more minutes of crying, I was now fully calm. I lifted my head up, my face covered with dried-up tears and my eyes were bloodshot. More tears rolled down my cheeks. Twilight looked up at me with a caring smile. She grabbed a tissue from my desk and handed it to me with her magic. I took the tissue and wiped my cheeks and blew my nose. I felt so much better. I have not felt like this in years. "Feeling better now, princess?" Twilight asked me. "Yes, Twilight. A lot better," I replied with a smile. Just then, a servant came into my bedroom. They had a cup of tea and a cup of hot coco. They had a look of concern on their face. "Princess, I heard from the guards that you were crying and Twilight was comforting you. I was wondering if you two would like some tea and hot coco." "Thank you," I said, taking the tea with my magic and giving Twilight her hot coco. "No problem, your majesty." The servant walked out of my room. I drank my tea and Twilight drank her hot coco. After a few minutes, we finished. "Princess?" Twilight said to me. "Yes?" I said. "What was bothering you?" she asked. I didn't want to tell her what was bothering me yet. She is too young to know my pain. I wanted to keep it a secret for longer. "I can't tell you," I said. "Why?" Twilight said. "You're too young to know about it," I told her. "Oh, okay," she said. I could see that she was curious by looking at her face, but she gave a smile as a sign that she understood. "Right, now, lets take you back to bed." ... "Goodnight, Twilight Sparkle." "Goodnight, princess." I shut her door. I then headed back to my room. When I arrived, I took one last glance at my window, looking at the moon. I then turned around and climbed into bed. We'll see eachother again soon, Luna...