Somnium

by Silvertonguedsnake

First published

How do we know if our entire existence isn't just a lie, if our entire life isn't just fake and a figment of our own imagination?

How do we know if our entire existence isn't just a lie, if our entire life isn't just fake and a figment of our own imagination?

If our entire life does indeed happen to be just a dream, what would happen if we were to become lucid?

Awakening

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I stare into the mirror, having just woken and currently just looking over my face. But there is no face, just a blur.

I try to focus on it but my eyes just slip over it. Ignoring it, I return to my room and quickly throw my clothes on. I eat a quick breakfast which seems to be unfulfilling. I notice that I was never hungry to begin with.

I put it off as I walk out the door and into the street. The Nobles don't even spare me a glance as I paced ahead heading towards the palace.

Walking past the front gate, past the guards who don't even seem to notice me. The only ponies to actually notice my existence were Celestia and Luna but no one else.

It was strange but I always get a strong, sharp sense of dread whenever I question it, so I've always just ignored it.

Before I even know it, I walk into the throne room, in fact I don't even remember entering the castle but I know better than to question it.

I only see the dais upon which Celestia sits, the rest of the throne room indiscernible to me.

I walk up to the throne.

"How are you doing your highness?" I say

"Sol Altior Resurget" she replies

Perhaps I should mention that the only sort of recognition that they give me is saying that phrase. They don't even open their mouths, I just happen to know what they're saying.

I sigh and just wander the castle as I've always done, since for as long as I could remember.

Which is true since I seem to have no concept of time. But I don't question that.

As I walk the hallways, the walls seem to just melt into the floor leaving behind more walls.

I walk past maids that don't even spare a glance. I've tried to identify them but I just can't discern any colors only a feeling that this is where they belong.

I suddenly find myself on a balcony on what seems to be one of the towers of the castle.

I lean on the balcony. The sun seeming to ripple as if it was water. The sky also ripples but with more edges. I look upon the city of Canterlot. The houses hard to describe and just blank blurry blobs walking amongst the roads with no discernible purpose.

I have this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that there is more to this. More to this unexplainable reality.

The scene melts into my house, where I continue on to sleep. I walk to my bed and stand up on my bed and stand there.

An unexplainable amount of time later, I start feeling an intense feeling of dread. I look around and see nothing, I shrug and step off my bed and walk into the throne room.

I notice Luna is on the throne this time. I try to identify her face but just can't seem to. I only learned their names through a feeling. But I never questioned it, why would I need to?

I sit in front of Luna as the ceiling gives way to a night sky. There are no stars, just the moon. But the moon seems to be a bit closer than usual.

"Good evening Luna"

"Altius Surgere Luna" she replies

I nod and stand up, I walk out of the throne room and into my bedroom, each footstep leaving a ripple.

An unexplainable amount of time later, I'm sitting on top of one of the Castle towers, how I got up here, I don't know.

I feel someone tap me and I turn around and see a blue alicorn staring at me curiously.

"Are you having a nightmare, strange being?" she asks

I look at her for a long time until she starts fidgeting and I speak.

"Do you breathe?"

She looks taken aback by my question, which wouldn't make sense. How am I supposed to know if she's breathing?

"O-of course I do, why wouldn't I be?" she replies, nervousness in her voice

The surroundings melt away and are replaced with a desolate lunar landscape.

I stare at her as she becomes increasingly more nervous.

"Do you think?" I reply after a tense minute

She looks even more confused at my question.

"Are you joking with me?"

"Do you think?" I ask again

"Yes of course I do!" she says a bit louder

I stand and walk towards her. I put both of my hands on her head and stand there.

"Lose yourself and let your thoughts drain away" I say

She looks panicked and eventually a blue liquid spills out of her ears and pools beneath her.

Her eyes glaze over and her body automatically lays down and stays.

The blue liquid coalesces together and floats up into the air.

I put both hands on it and the liquid hardens into a sphere of dirt. Small peaks of dirt rise up and a green moss covers the tops, the lower parts fill up with a cyan liquid.

I look closer and see miniature versions of the ponies living in a smaller version of canterlot.

I suddenly find myself on top of the castle and I look up and see myself with my head looking up into the sky.

I look onto the miniature castle and see myself. I pick the city of canterlot up and feel the ground shake.

I put it back down as the dirt ball turns blue. It then softens into a blue goo and seeps back into the alicorns body.

Her eyes light up and she sits there dazed.

I sit in front of her. Myself also sits in front of her. We both look at her and then at each other. We bring our hands together and we merge into one form.

I look back at the alicorn and find her just staring at me with a dazed expression.

I hear a piece of paper flutter down and I grab it and look on it.

It says to wake up and I look up.

I stare into the mirror, having just woken and currently just looking over my face. But there is no face, just a blur.

I sigh