Even though I consider myself I recovered quite enough to go on this epic quest of discovering my past, Fluttershy just won’t let me get out from the bed. I’m really eager to go out and start walking around; getting to know the village I’m at… so much on my mind! Or maybe she’s right, I might end up crashing myself again if I happen to go now…
Or maybe I need to know why did they help me on the first place, as a milestone in my quest?
“Oh, Sky, please wait here while I get you some soup from downstairs,” Fluttershy said. This is a chance to escape, I thought, but I’m still uncertain whether I should run or stay, even after Fluttershy went downstairs. Staying here and unable to discover my past… I… I just can’t! I’ll try to stand up just as what I did earlier and run away from here.
I walked to the open window and see a pile of hay not far from it – I could use it to ensure a safe landing. Even so, I am slightly afraid that I don’t have much energy to do a jump but… I braced myself and give it all I have. I managed the jump and escape from Fluttershy. Since she’s a pegasus, I think she’ll have no problem finding this distinguishing colt if I don’t hide properly. It only takes 5 seconds after I hid myself in the bushes until I see Fluttershy flies from the window, worriedly searching for this “badly injured” colt.
As I walked to reach the village center, away from Fluttershy’s direction, I begin to wonder why I refused to stay. I know my desire to discover my past is tremendously high – apparently it beats my growling stomach – but… I refused their caring? This mental conflict… I wish I had thought about escaping, many times before had actually done it. Since I already took the escape as my decision, there’s no turning back – I won’t regret because I own my life, my thoughts… my stupid, developing principle? I continue to walk, as the sun guides my path.
I finally arrived at a bridge. Even though I’m somewhat near to the village hall, it’s not like I have a destination – I need to know this village first, no? There are some ponies wandering around the village so I can’t really explore freely if I want to keep on a low profile. I stepped forward and start sneaking around the town using the back “alleys”. It would be like a walk in the park if there aren’t any other obstacles, but….
I was going to the behind of the closest building by the time I spot the five other fillies – or I should call them mares since they can look after themselves, as well as Fluttershy – I met back then at Fluttershy’s house. It seems that they are going to visit me to apologize about earlier and to welcome me in this village, perhaps? Whatever it is, I’m sure I’m about to ruin their plan with this exploration I’m doing. I dashed forward to avoid being noticed by them.
I might be able to take a breath after the mares crossed the bridge without noticing me behind the building. I randomly thought, it’s really great to have friends, no? Seeing that they happily spend their time together, maybe sharing their sorrow and joy, as well as helping each other hoof in hoof… it's surely a relationship that everypony would dream of. Is this what they call “Friendship”?
Suddenly I smelt something coming from them. Something that could satisfy me… but I’m not sure. I think I eat physical foods like hays and flowers to satisfy hunger but… this weird feeling… I just don’t understand! As they go farther from the bridge, the smell also went away, leaving my stomach growling. Since tailing them is a bad idea, I should really continue my trip, with awareness that I couldn’t even show up to anypony. I hope I can hold my hunger in the meantime.
As I wander aimlessly, I arrived at a fountain area. It seems like nopony is around. Still, I need to stay alert. I looked around – typical fountain sculpture, benches, grasses… it's surely weird that I can’t find anypony here. Maybe they are busy or something? I walk to the fountain and try to look at my reflection – I haven’t even seen my own appearance ever since I got up this morning. I can’t see it clearly with these wild ripples, I should have checked mine back then at the bridge but… oh well; appearance is not important, or what my brain says….
Suddenly I see a pair of mares, which are currently chatting while walking to the fountain. I was slightly surprised that I run to a random bush behind a bench without thinking – thankfully I wasn’t noticed by them. Unfortunately for me, they sit on the bench in front of the bush I’m currently hiding at. Willingly or not, I have to hear their chatter while waiting for the right moment to get out and flee.
Weird enough, I smell some kind of scent… isn’t this scent the same with the one emanating from those five mares just then? My heart beats faster and my instinct says that I should “feed” on it… but I just don’t know how and… I don’t see any visualization of it? As I struggle against that wild instinct of mine, I was rather driven psychotic because this smell is much stronger – probably because I’m too near to them. I really wish I had chosen a different place to hide.
I can’t express how grateful I am after that pair of mares get up and walk away from the bench. I was rather screwed that I'm afraid I might had not been able to control myself if it had lasted longer. Regardless, I’m rather curious why I sometimes smell weird yet delighting things. Something tells me that I should “feed” on it, but how? I don’t even see the appearance of it or know what it is.
Ever since that unwanted but delighting smell that comes from some ponies in this village, I would rather put an end to this exploration. I would run amok if I continue to encounter that smell from everypony anyway, which is not good. One second thought, I realized that I don’t have a place to stay, leaving two options to me: get out from this village or find certain “residence” for a while in this village. No, I won’t return to those mares since I already troubled them with this exploration. It’s not like I would be accepted, anyway.
“Sky! Stop right there!” Suddenly I heard a kind of familiar voice from my behind… Fluttershy? No, not her, her voice is not that loud. As I slowly turned my back, I see Fluttershy and her friends. Oh, great, so I’m royally screwed or what? “Ya ain’t getting away from us, Sky,” as one of them swings a lasso. An inch closer and she would have put an end in my exploration. Okay, time to run!
I finally do some running across the village with six mares hot on my tail. Even though they can’t catch me at the moment, but that doesn’t mean I could run forever, right? I could see they’re catching up as I’m losing my speed. I’m trying to give it all I have… but by the time I returned my sight to the front, I can’t clearly see the street… my vision is fading… their shouting is blurring…. I have to keep running….
*thud*
I was standing on a big town, looking around. I could see typical destruction marks at some of the buildings… was I in a riot? But I was suddenly thrown by a force that comes from a building far away – I think it was rather obscured by some other building. Wait, was this reality?
Whatever it was, I realized that my escape is over and I consider it as a failure.
I slowly open my eyes. I am rather in a dark room without any windows – much different from Fluttershy’s house back then. Some unusual stuff here, dusty boxes there, and stairs leading upstairs… I’m somewhat sure I’m in a kind of basement or something. Those mares must have brought me here instead, in case I’d be running again.
I stand up from the mattress I’ve slept on and try to recall the past – wasn’t I running away from them earlier? As my headache arrives, I remembered that I lost my balance and fell flat on my face, causing certain brain damage and the weird vision of being in a big town. Should have listened to Fluttershy’s advice… but I’m glad that the exploration was worth an adventure even though it was short.
I begin to climb the stairs behind me until I reach a wooden door at the end of the stairs. The torch decoration makes it rather looks like a dungeon than a usual basement. Since I don’t know what’s behind that door, I think I could take a peek from the keyhole….
Books, maybe thousands of them, everywhere? I mean, like, in the bookcases, on the table, and even on the floor? Looks like whoever lives here is a book addict, no doubt. Maybe I need to question them about the mess, considering book collections should be placed nicely or at least arranged. Since I don’t spot anypony, it might a good idea to open the door and take a look around in that room.
I turn the knob and enter the room – nopony is here, despite the pile of books here and there. I don’t get why would this room, which happens to be a big library, is left with real mess. As I continue to walk around, I could see the windows above me – I’m rather sure it’s morning but a different day from when I crashed myself.
“Spike, I’m home! How are Applebloom and her friends…,” suddenly I hear a mare from the front door – I turned my back by reflex and see the purple unicorn from one of Fluttershy’s friends, “…doing?” First thing in my mind is escape but… must I keep running from them, after those treatments they gave to me? I don’t know whether she was shocked about the mess or my standing in front of her but the awkward moment we both made apparently gives me extra time to think – I won’t escape anymore and at least I’ll try to show some respect to them, starting with this purple unicorn.
“Um… hi… Twilight, if I’m not mistaken?” I said as I’m trying to remember her name – I think one of her friends call her so. “Sky! I’m glad you’re awake!” she replied excitedly, really far from what I imagined. She comes closer to me while saying, “You see, Sky, I don’t understand why you escaped from us yesterday. I mean, you’re not even fully recovered.” I remain silent since I think that my excuse would be really stupid for her. Trust me, I now wish I hadn’t escaped yesterday, since it’s just… stupid. It’s improper for somepony who wants to act like a gentlecolt.
“Anyway, Sky, Princess Celestia told me that she wants to meet you as soon as you recover. Let’s go to the train station, since you’re considered to have recovered quite well?” Twilight said as she picks up her saddlebag and leaves a note, maybe for that Spike she called. Okay, I should have escaped earlier if she hadn’t had this plan of taking me to her princess… or whatever she calls her. On the other hoof, I shouldn’t refuse her request since it will only give me further difficulties in my quest to discover my past. “Okay,” I replied shortly as I wait in front of the door.
As we walk to the Ponyville – apparently it’s the village’s name – Station, Twilight keeps looking at me, even though she has some books in her saddlebag. “Different” and “the most we have seen”; I kept wondering about those words one of her friends said back then. Am I a different race of pony? Did I have friends back then in my past?
“Sky, you seem to be pretty quiet,” suddenly Twilight started a conversation. I admit I appear to be quiet but actually I’m concerned about my loss of memory – there are a lot of things in my mind but I couldn't explain even one of it. At least that’s what happening to me, and I just replied to her with a short “yeah”.
“No, Twilight, I just don’t know what to say. I don’t even remember who I am,” I added to make some clarity of what’s in my mind. She takes a look at my face for a while – maybe looking at the bandages or just simply concerned about me? “Alright,” She sighs a little, “…just say anything what’s on your mind?” I remain silent, explicitly showing her that I just simply can’t generate – or maybe ask – random thing in my thought. Or was it because of me being afraid, I don’t know. In the end, we spent the rest of our time waiting for the train to arrive.
Not long after, the train arrives and we both get into the car. We sit face-to-face beside the window. As Twilight takes one of her books from the saddlebag – apparently she gives up on making me talk about something – I looked out to the window. The cloudless skies, the calm prairies... I begin to moon why Twilight and her friends helped me, why they kept caring me regardless of my disrespectful act. I don’t really get what are in their minds.
“Say, Twilight. Why did you help me?” I suddenly asked her, turned my sight to her face. She seems quite surprised that she stops reading her book. “Sky, you were injured badly that time. We can’t leave somepony helpless,” she replied, “I know you’re a stranger to our village, but it doesn’t matter – you still need help.” I silenced. Is this real life? Are they perfect friends that everypony would dream to have? If only I could find a way to pay their good deed….
I turned my sight back to the window, hiding my embarrassment from Twilight’s face. “Twilight, thanks,” I shortly replied. Now I’m feeling that I shouldn’t be alive at all, since I gave improper response, disrespectful manner, and rather cold attitude. I don’t know whether this was my nature or it is normal for ponies with typical amnesia…. Regardless, those mares… were they gifted to me as compensation? I spent the rest of our time waiting for the train’s arrival to Canterlot by looking outside.
As we arrived at Canterlot Station, I don’t know but somehow this place is somewhat familiar. The big buildings, the castle… it seems that I’ve been here before. “Come on Sky, we need to go to the castle to meet up with Princess Celestia,” Twilight said, as she started running – I hope I could catch up, it would be bad if I lost in this town. Maybe I need to ask her about a quick stroll in the town after meeting Princess Celestia while trying to recall my memories?
“Sky, just act natural, okay? Don’t be scared with Princess Celestia,” Twilight said upon arriving in front of Canterlot Castle’s throne door. For some reason my heart is beating faster than usual – not sure if tired, nervous, or both. Twilight knocked the door and say, “Princess Celestia, it’s me, Twilight Sparkle!” We both get inside and meet Princess Celestia in front of her throne, followed by short bow – certain custom, I believe.
“Twilight Sparkle! I see that you have brought the requested company with you,” Princess Celestia said. She takes a quick glance at me. “His name is Sky Blackend, Princess,” Twilight replied. I can’t really give a proper introduce to Princess Celestia since she stares at me right in the eyes – my heart starts pounding faster and my hooves start to shake. “Well… he is rather different from the others, if I may say,” Twilight added. Princess Celestia just nod for a while.
As the princess feels that it’s enough to give me the thrills, she said, “Twilight, why don’t you visit your parents and brother while you’re in Canterlot?” At first Twilight is kind of surprised, “Would it be alright, Princess?” she replied, expressing uncertainty about her idea. “It’s okay, I’ll meet you in the train station after noon,” Princess Celestia ensured Twilight, making she agrees and leaves the both of us in throne room – great, an hour or two with Princess Celestia. Twilight, why?
As the door closes, I fearfully look back at Princess Celestia. With the figure about three times bigger than Twilight, I think it’s quite okay to be scared with her, but…. “Sky Blackend,” the princess said while walking closer to me, “do you have any recollection of Canterlot?” I’m shocked – it seems like she already knew what is in my mind. “No, Princess,” I replied, “but this place is somewhat familiar, like I have been here before.”
Princess Celestia thinks for a moment then turns her back, “Come.” I follow her to some stairs leading to a higher place and we both arrive to a balcony which happens to have impressive sight of Canterlot from above. “You were once here, Sky,” she said, “You were thrown away to somewhere near Ponyville due to a shock wave we experienced here in Canterlot.” Wait, her statement matches with these two flashbacks I’ve seen but… is this the truth?
“Princess, I’m telling the truth. I lost my memories,” I admitted, “I don’t know my past, and it’s my desire to discover it. It is so immense that I… tried to run from Twilight and the others.” I can’t believe I said that shameful act to her. She gives a deep look at me and stares me in the eyes. “Sky Blackend,” she said, “if you discover your past, what will you be going to do after it?” I thought for a moment but it doesn’t seem to be an easy question to answer. Come to think of it, a colt without any recollection of his past continues a new life? How do I do that? I end up looking down and say, “I honestly have no idea on what should I be doing after that discover but… the first thing I have to do is to pay back Twilight and her friends’ good deeds.” Princess Celestia gives me a smile, “It is true that you’re different. I shall aid you in your quest.” I think my heart just skipped a beat for hearing such response from a princess.
At least my wish to explore Canterlot is granted, as both of us continue to go for a walk outside the castle. Still, I’m both shocked and excited to have Princess Celestia instead to accompany me in the stroll. We continue to wander around while Princess Celestia gives me some general information about places… but no, I still don’t recall about being here. I really want to blame my severe memory loss right now….
It’s until we both arrive at a building… a large one. “This is where Elements of Harmony is stored. I’m certain that you have been here before,” Princess Celestia said. Well… I don’t think I have seen the building though, I tried to look around the entrance but it doesn’t bring me any flashbacks. I try to get inside too, but I still don’t have any recollection about this building… not even a bit. Does this mean I will forever lose my memories?
As I get outside the building downed, Princess Celestia notices the frown in my face. I really want to cheer up but… why do I have to fell into such despair? I mean, I haven’t even tried my best! I take a deep breath and look down. Much to my surprise that suddenly Princess Celestia puts her hoof around my back. “It’s okay,” she tried to comfort me, “Don’t lose hope, Sky. Besides, there is still one place we have not yet visited.” Right, I shouldn’t give up yet!
By the time we’re in the middle of our trip to this last place, I suddenly feel familiar with the street. Instead of following Princess Celestia and apparently made her follow me instead, I took a left turn and begin to take random direction at next few intersections – it appears to be random but… my brain is telling me that I’m going to a place I have been before. After the last turn, I notice the destruction marks which are being fixed, the buildings’ places, the view… – isn’t this the exact place with my second flashback?
“Princess Celestia, this place… is this place you wanted to show to me?” I asked uncertainly, knowing that she had taken me around Canterlot with twisty route, passing multiple streets instead of going right to the place in order to help me recall my memories. “No, Sky, we haven’t even crossed this street before,” she replied. This is weird, why did my brain tell me to go to this place all of a sudden? That means I still have my memories but currently inaccessible – there are still hopes for me!
We both then continue our trip to the place Princess Celestia mentioned earlier – it happens to be another building. “This was used to be a wedding hall,” she said. I look confused. Wedding hall and marks of destruction? That doesn’t make sense! But as we both proceed to enter the building and see the door to the hall… I think I recognize the pattern on the door. I enter the hall and find a rather empty room – of course; it’s not even used at the moment. No, I looked around and still don’t recognize anything except the door.
“This… the place I first met with you,” Princess Celestia added. I turned my sight back to her, “Wait, so you’re saying that… we have met before?” I asked, uncertainly and slightly confused. “Not only with me, Sky, but also Twilight and the others,” she replied. Much to my confusion that they didn’t mention about it back then in Ponyville… but really? I mean, I don’t even remember anything about Canterlot except that place earlier and the door pattern…
There’s only one way to figure it out: I have to crash myself in order to call the flashback, like I had previously. I know it’s rather stupid – Princess Celestia also doubt that I’ll get to see the flashback – but it worth a try, doesn’t it? I run full speed ahead and ram the door – I hope she doesn’t mind. Instead of flashback, I got major headache and extra bruises, nothing much – that’s not that bad, in my opinion. Suddenly I realized that I was stupid, knowing that I could just ask her and the others instead. That slow brain of mine….
“Nope, nothing happened,” I said to the rather worried Princess Celestia, “…Maybe they appear the least we expect it, oh well.” “Actually, Sky,” she replied, after a deep thought, “you weren’t here for a long time. You brought Twilight and the others here then left. You…,” she stopped and looked away from me. Not sure if she doesn’t know how to explain it or simply can’t say it, I come closer to her and ask, “Princess Celestia, what did I do back then?” After a deep breath, she returns and says, “I’m afraid I can’t continue since… you might be not yet prepared for the truth.”
Wait, what? Since it’s my desire to discover my own past, I should be ready for the truth even though it’s harsh, right? Before I could ask or reply anything about Princess Celestia’s statement, Canterlot’s bell rings – it should be noon now. “I wish I could explain everything to you, Sky, but I think it would be too much for you… at present,” she added. At first I didn’t agree but… considering that I just got my consciousness back this morning, maybe she’s right. I might experience some sort of mental shock if I keep on pushing, anyway.
We both go to the train station – Twilight is waiting there while reading a book. As we approach her, she closes her book and greets the both of us, “Princess Celestia, Sky, all done?” “All done, Twilight,” Princess Celestia replied then looked at me, “I’ll arrange an appointment to you later through her.” The train’s engine starts working – it’s about time for Twilight and I to go back to Ponyville.
“Oh, Twilight, before you go,” Princess Celestia halts both of us, “you wouldn’t mind if Sky stays with you while you both learning about friendship, would you?” Huh? I get to learn about this “Friendship” with Twilight? I’m excited and slightly terrified at the same time actually, knowing that I will have a place to stay but… with those mares. Either way, I’m not sure if they will accept me after those things I did to them….
“No, not at all! It’s great to have friends!” Twilight overfilled with joy. “Then it’s settled! I’ll send a parchment to Mayor Mare,” Princess Celestia replied, “Hurry, you two, you wouldn’t want to miss your train!” Twilight drags the rather astonished me inside the train. “Thank you, Princess Celestia! I’ll see you soon!” Twilight happily waves her hoof in the air. As for me, I’m still shocked and unconsciously waving to Princess Celestia, following Twilight.
So I get to live and learn friendship with them instead of to continue my epic quest of discovering my past. Princess Celestia is right, somehow, I don’t think I’m ready yet for the worst possible truth ever in few hours after consciousness. However, I’m still glad that I get to visit Canterlot so that I could regain a little bit of my memories….
Still, I don’t know what Ponyville has in store for me….
I’m still in shock because of both Princess Celestia and Twilight’s acceptance for me to live in Ponyville. How shouldn’t I be shocked – I’m just a stranger that happened to crash near there few days ago and now easily accepted just like this? Well… I think I should be happy and grateful that I don’t end up tragically, right...?
“Sky, I can’t believe Princess Celestia wants you to stay in Ponyville!” Twilight seems to be still in her contentment, “I can’t wait for you to get used with Ponyville and its residents! Come to think of the friendship…,” as Twilight continues to talk, I rather look confused at her – it is I who was accepted but she is more excited about this….
I’m starting to think about my past. Will it ever be destined to be discovered? I know it’s something that’s not important as per now but… my curiosity as a pony that has just experienced amnesia… sigh. I know thinking about it over and over again is pointless but… I’m still concerned about what Princess Celestia said earlier – too much for me to know the truth… at the moment. I’m certain that she, Twilight, and maybe also the others actually know my past – even I was told that we have met before – but for some reason… can’t say the truth to me. I’m just not sure whether my past is disgraceful or I’m still fragile….
“Sky, Sky, are you listening?” suddenly Twilight asked me, calling me back from my thoughts. “Oh, um…,” I gulped, “…no?” Well, at least I told her the truth. She just chuckles for a little, saying, “You’re like one of my friends – she doesn’t really pay attention when I get to talk about complicated things.” I just scratch my head, slightly embarrassed.
“So… what were you thinking?” Twilight asked. Uh-oh, how do I explain my earlier thought to her? “Err… I, uh… do you think that… Princess Celestia sent me to Ponyville so that… I don’t think about discovering my past… a lot?” I stammered. She looks at me rather confused and serious – I pressed my back against my seat, scared. Not sure if I improperly said that….
“Oh, Sky,” Twilight replied, “of course she wouldn’t do it for such reason. She, and also I with the others, would be happy if you manage to discover your past. One thing she concerned that you didn’t have a place to stay, Sky, so that she sent you to Ponyville while learning about friendship….” Trust me; I’m left speechless with these ponies and their actions.
“Um, Twilight, there’s this one thing I want to ask aside from that,” I changed topic, “Have we ever met before?” At first Twilight is surprised but she begins to think about that, “Well… we did, Sky, but you were escorting me to Queen… I mean, Princess Celestia,” she explained, “You didn’t talk with us or even anypony.” Now I know why I couldn’t recall my memories about anypony in Canterlot….
Suddenly my stomach growls – I just realized that I haven’t eaten anything since I woke up in Fluttershy’s cottage. “Uh… I was carried with the exploration so that I forgot to eat something…,” I tried to make an excuse. “Silly Sky,” Twilight chuckled, “we were also hurried that we missed our breakfast!” She searches something from her saddlebag, “Fortunately, my parents gave me apples before I waited at the station. Here you go!” She gets an apple and gives it to me. Finally there’s something to eat…
Before I could say thanks to her, all of a sudden I smell something familiar – the same scent back then when I was exploring Ponyville which was coming from her friends and a random pair of mares? The source seems pretty close and the scent is somewhat intense. Could it be from this apple? For some reason, my instinct is forcing me with rage to feed on the scent’s source… but must I, in front of Twilight?
“T…Twilight, please… excuse me for a moment,” I stammered and hurriedly ran to the door leading to the next car while carrying the apple. I have to hurry, in case I might lose control over my body and go wild. I waited outside the back of the last car – the car where we currently sit – to calm down. My heart is beating fast but I’m trying to at least control my breath. I’m glad the scent goes away after a while outside, though….
“Sky, what happened?” Twilight comes outside worriedly. “I… a weird scent came and… it freaked me out!” I replied, still in shock, “I… I’m okay now; just go back to your seat while I’m eating this apple.” “Are you sure?” she asked, rather doubtful about me being alright at the moment. “Yes… and thanks for the apple, Twilight.” As she comes back inside, I munch on the apple – it isn’t that much but I’m glad I get to eat something…. Weird enough that scent earlier isn’t around while I’m eating.
As I return with a rather filled belly, Twilight asked me what happened earlier when she gave me the apple. I can’t really explain her since I myself don’t even know what it was. “Apparently my instinct keeps forcing that I should feed on something and the scent ignites my psychotic instinct if I’m overly exposed to it,” I explained. Not that both of us understand what I was saying, unfortunately….
Our train finally arrived at Ponyville after a while. Since it’s only few hours left before sundown, I don’t think we have many – or even any – things to do for today. Besides, Twilight also needs to return to her home first and find a place for me to stay while in Ponyville. I don’t really mind if I have to sleep outside, but who knows?
“Well… here we are, Sky, Ponyville Library – home to thousands of books and to me, along with my assistant Spike. Come in,” Twilight introduces her home – wait, isn’t this the place I woke up at earlier today? No wonder she likes to carry books during our trip, her home explains her personality, duh. We both get inside and she begins unpacking things from her saddlebag while I continue to look around inside the library.
“Sky, you can stay here while in Ponyville,” Twilight said, “but the only room which is free is... the basement. Would you be alright with that?” “Yeah, sure,” I replied to her. Well, I slept there before so I don’t see why I should be complaining about it, though. Besides, she has extra mattress so I don’t have to sleep on the floor… yeah.
“Anyway, Sky,” Twilight continues to talk, “I think I’m taking you for Ponyville tour today, giving general introductions or two to you. You sure don’t mind, do you?” “Well, uh… it’s not like I have anything to do at my first day, Twilight, so I guess… yeah,” I replied. Yup, I think I need to prepare myself, for this day is going to be a tiring one….
“Twilight, talking about general introductions, you haven’t even introduced yourself to me… generally,” I replied. If it weren’t for one of her friends who said her name back then at Fluttershy’s cottage, I wouldn’t know her name without proper introduction…. “Oh, right,” she noticed that she overlooked the slight thing, “I’m Twilight Sparkle, Princess Celestia’s personal student and currently sent here to study the wonders of friendship. Nice to meet you, Sky!” She offers her hoof and I shake it with mine, currently bandaged.
All of a sudden, I could smell a faint scent just like at the train. It’s annoying me but… I think I could withstand it since it’s still really faint. I don’t know, this kind of scent is always ruining my moment with other ponies… I wonder if it prohibits me to make contact with them…. Still, I mustn’t lose to this scent!
“So… shall we start now?” Twilight walked to the door, carrying a writing pad, along with papers and quill, with her magic – she seems to be very organized. As I come closer to her showing affirmation, she begins to write things on the pad. “Since we don’t have much time before the sun sets, I think we’ll just visit my friends for today. Let’s go!”
I don’t think it’s a problem if I can’t visit all the point of interests in Ponyville – it is not that big as Canterlot so I can go on my own the following days, after all. My run back then at least gave me some overview so that I won’t get lost if I’m placed randomly in town… I hope. Anyway, I guess that building decorated like a cake is our first stop….
“This is Sugarcube Corner, Sky. You can buy sorts of bakery here and this is also the home of my friend, Pinkie Pie,” Twilight explained, “Remember the one who made you crashed in Fluttershy’s cottage?” Oh, right, that energetic and happy-go-lucky mare, “Yeah, I remember,” I said. She’s too easy to be identified, yes. “Let’s get inside,” as Twilight leads me to the bakery shop.
“Welcome, Twilight! Anything I can… ah!” the shopkeeper is somewhat surprised to notice us coming in. “It’s alright, Mrs. Cake, he’s with me,” Twilight explained. Wait, so it was I who surprised her? I don’t think I remember anything about her but… maybe this has something to do with my past? “Uhm… okay,” at least she calmed down now.
“Mrs. Cake, is Pinkie Pie upstairs?” Twilight asked. Before she could reply anything, Pinkie is already on the stairs, happily jumping down steps and notices us in front of one of the display shelves. “Twilight, Sky, hi there!” she greets us. Yup, this high-pitched voice can’t easily be forgotten since I woke up at Ponyville for the first time.
Pinkie then comes closer and looks at me – I’m not that type of pony who likes to be watched so I… back down few steps. Suddenly she dashes outside, leaving us in the Sugarcube Corner. As I try to catch up with her, I can’t find her anywhere in the street – I wonder if she took some zigzag route or just incredibly fast runner…. “Sky, let her be,” Twilight said, “Pinkie is so random at all times, so you shouldn’t be surprised about her.” “Uh… alright,” I hopelessly replied, while thinking why Pinkie went somewhere else by the time we want to meet up with her….
Twilight continues to take me on the tour. “Let’s see… let’s visit Carousel Boutique, it’s just after the bridge near the village hall,” Twilight said. Boutique, seriously? I mean, I don’t seem to like being fancy and… it isn’t even the right time for me to visit places like that! Yet, knowing that I don’t have any other choice, I follow Twilight until we arrived in a rather round, purplish building – this must be the boutique. Maybe one of her friends is here?
“This is Carousel Boutique, Sky. My friend Rarity lives here,” Twilight explained. We get inside – it is somewhat bigger than I thought. Fashion stuff here, mirrors there… this ground floor is definitely Rarity’s shop of those dresses and accessories. “Hmm… Sky, could you wait here? I’m going to search for Rarity, I’ll be right back.” Twilight goes upstairs, leaving me clueless inside the boutique.
It’s this one mirror that caught my attention while I’m looking around inside the boutique – how do I look like? It has been my other curiosity since my first exploration around Ponyville. I come closer to the mirror with the hopes of good-looking or fine manestyle but… I was shocked by my own reflection – a pair of completely bluish-green eyes, overgrown canines, and a pair of clear, thin wings altogether in a black colt – is this an abomination? Maybe this is the reason Mrs. Cake shrieked by the time we came into Sugarcube Corner….
“Sky, where are you?” suddenly I hear Twilight calling for me. I don’t know whether I should run since some ponies would be afraid of my appearance or stay because of… their acceptance. I just realized that by the time I’m thinking about acceptance, it brings me back to when I crashed. That acceptance… they helped me regardless of my appearance… even my condition back then. I think the chance they wanted to give is far more important than these physical things. Yup, I shouldn’t run for they have believed this pony… even though he has physical issues. “I’m coming!” I replied.
I come to Twilight’s call and find her standing with somepony else and… a dragon? “Sky, this is Rarity,” she points the white unicorn, “and this here is Spike, my assistant,” she points at the baby dragon beside her – he greets me with smile. “Greetings, Sky Blackend, nice to meet you,” said Rarity. From the looks of her, I believe she is quite sophisticated and courteous… yep, she even owns this shop of fashions which are very exquisite that I can’t even explain. I just noticed that this mare is the one who said I was different from the “others” they have seen. As for Spike, well, despite of his tiny appearance, I don’t think he is to be underestimated since… he is a dragon, after all!
“Twilight, I can not believe that you came when I was working on my new design!” Rarity said to Twilight, “But no worries – it is alright since you want Sky to know Ponyville more.” “Well… I’m also thinking that Spike would be here to help you with your dresses so…,” Twilight said while chuckling a little to Spike. “What?” Spike’s face turned red. Except him, we all laughed – I think I’m starting to enjoy being in Ponyville with them…
Wait, this scent I had back then at the train… it’s coming again! It’s not quite strong, though, but I’m starting to feel slightly dizzy – I think it’s about time before I lose control over myself as their voices are blurring away. No, I must hold on and survive….
“Well, Rarity, I think we’ll continue our tour now,” Twilight said to Rarity, “Sky hasn’t seen the Sweet Apple Acres and we don’t want to come back late, right, Sky?” I just nod, currently still trying to hang on. “That is alright, dear,” Rarity replied, “However, if it is possible, can you come here the following day, Sky? I want to give you a fashion touch.” Oh, Rarity, why? I just nod quickly, hoping I can get out of here as soon as possible since I can’t seem to hold this scent any longer.
After Twilight tells Spike to come back to Ponyville Library before sundown, finally we can continue our tour to explore Ponyville. “Hmm…Carousel Boutique, check,” she checks her pad, “Next stop, Sweet Apple Acres! Come on Sky, let’s keep going!” For some reason, Twilight seems to enjoy being a guide for me in this tour – her willing, her enthusiasm, and her smile… I can’t believe I have to waste them because of this unwanted scent…. No, I won’t let her down, even though the scent is increasing in intensity.
I follow Twilight to a farmland which has mostly apple trees – I think this is why it earned the name Sweet Apple Acres. At the gate, we encountered two of Twilight’s friends: a light blue pegasus with rainbow mane and an orange pony with typical hat – seems like both of them had done some work at the farm, though. “…Aw, shucks, thanks Rainbow, that helped a lot,” said the orange pony, “Oh, look, howdy Twilight an’ Sky!” The other mare turned her back to see and greet both of us.
“Hi, Applejack and Rainbow!” Twilight greets them, “Been working in the farm?” “Eeyup, ‘t was a lot of work,” Applejack replied, “but ah’m glad Rainbow came to help.” “We did a contest, actually, and it was awesome!” Rainbow added. “Good for you two,” Twilight smiled and then turned to me, “Sky, this here is Applejack and Rainbow Dash.” From the looks of them, it seems like they two are best friends… or maybe best good rivals.
“Hi there, Sky, I can’t believe you’re quite fast at running away yesterday, but I’m still faster in my wings!” Rainbow bragged, “That’s alright, though, you’re still cool!” “Y’ know, Sky, Rainbow is the fastest flyer in Equestria, so it’s no doubt anypony here ain’t faster than her,” Applejack explained, “but she will never let you down, trust me.” Rainbow blushes a little – yes, I can see it in her tomboyish face – probably just little bit embarrassed….
As soon as they do their hoofbump, suddenly I can smell the scent with stronger intensity somewhere around here. Oh, no, why can’t it go away like… forever? I don’t want to look psychotic to them but this torture…. I can’t really pay attention to their, along with Twilight, talk now – all I want is to go and continue our tour for the rest of the day….
“Well, everypony, I think I should be going now, don’t want to go home late!” Rainbow said, “See you later!” Her flight speed clearly shows why she is the fastest flyer in Equestria; I can’t even see her after few seconds. “Well… care for some juice, sugarcubes?” Applejack asked. “Sure, I actually wanted to show Sweet Apple Acres to Sky,” Twilight replied. I don’t know if it would help to get the scent away….
I’m happy that Applejack can join us in Sweet Apple Acres tour after the juice but… I can’t really concentrate to her explanation since I have to contain myself with the scent. At least I managed to survive and complete the tour without either of her and Twilight knowing about this scent I’ve been having. There is still one place to go before the tour is officially over and that is Fluttershy’s cottage. Unfortunately, Applejack can’t join since she has to do some chores in the farm. Twilight and I then go on to our final destination.
“…finally Applejack and Rainbow understood that their friendship is more important than winning over competition,” Twilight concludes her story about those two mares we’ve met earlier. She notices that I’m currently concerned about something, which is the scent I kept on smelling. “Sky, what’s wrong?” she asked. I sighed for a moment, and say, “Twilight, I have been thinking about this since this afternoon but,” I stopped, “I don’t know whether I should say it or not.” “Just tell me what it is, Sky. I don’t think you’ll get better if you keep it yourself – maybe we can help?” Twilight starts to be concerned as well.
I take a deep breath, “It’s the scent, Twilight. It came over and over again, ever since I encountered it yesterday during my first exploration of Ponyville. In Carousel Boutique, in Sweet Apple Acres, even in Ponyville Library and here – it’s like, everywhere! I don’t know but… it apparently holds me back from making contact with everypony.” I begin to feel down and depressed, “I just want to be normal like everypony else.” I don’t know if I will drop tears in any moment….
“…It’s okay, Twilight, maybe I haven’t gotten used to it… yet,” I tried to motivate myself, knowing that she might couldn’t help since I don’t think she is able to smell the scent. I also regret my decision that I took her smile away, making her feeling down. I wish I hadn’t told her about this…. “Let’s just continue our tour to Fluttershy’s cottage,” I said.
Finally we arrived at Fluttershy’s cottage – it sure brings back memories, back-tracking the road I used to pass in my escape yesterday. I’m glad that I get to visit this place since I really need to say sorry to Fluttershy about yesterday’s escape and her soup… yeah, I told Twilight that I want to say some words to Fluttershy before going back to Ponyville Library. Twilight begin knocking on her door, “Fluttershy, are you inside?” she called. We both don’t hear any response but after a while, the door opens and Fluttershy peeks a little.
“Oh, um, hi, Twilight and Sky,” Fluttershy greets us, slightly surprised about our visit. “Hi, Fluttershy! Sky told me that he wants to say sorry about yesterday,” Twilight replied. For some reason, she is somewhat scared of me now – probably because I have recovered from most of my injuries – or maybe just extremely shy? “Fluttershy, I’m really sorry that I made you worried yesterday,” I said, “I… was slightly curious about my past, that’s all. And I’m sorry I spoiled your soup.” I’m embarrassed – I can’t believe I said that soup thing to Twilight! I think it’s still okay to admit silly mistakes in the name of apology.
“It’s alright,” Fluttershy replied in her usual faint voice, “I’m glad you’re healthy now, anyway!” And a smile comes out from her face, forgiving me as she emanated the scent I’ve been trying to avoid – it is probably the strongest yet and directly hits me. “Sky?” Fluttershy called. I remain silent for some time but then I whisper to Twilight, “Twilight, I can’t.” I admit defeat – I turned my back and start to run away from them.
I kept on running from Twilight and Fluttershy. No matter what they say, I don’t care anymore – they keep emanating the scent which is slowly killing my consciousness without them knowing about it. Rainbow is true about me being quite fast in running away – Twilight even has to use her magic to slow me down. Even though her slowing magic hits me over and over again, my determination to escape makes the magic not much effective – I don’t want to lose to my instinct, completely.
As I reached quite far distance and lose Twilight and Fluttershy, I begin to climb a tree not far from the bridge to Ponyville. I hid myself on the branches – the leaves apparently make good camouflage. I waited there while I try to catch my breath and beat my instinct by forcing self not to outrage. I’m glad that I managed to escape both of the mares who are now going to Ponyville, thinking that I was still running. I wonder if this is the best decision I can possibly take….
I get down after a moment. I begin to walk in the other direction, back-tracking my escape lane so that I escape them for good. Yup, I finally lose Twilight and Fluttershy as the full moon replaces the sun as my guide. I’m supposed to be happy since I’m finally free from the raging instinct which is ignited by that scent… right? But for some reason… things aren’t the same anymore. There’s like something which is… missing.
As I aimlessly walked away from Ponyville, I end up at a raised ground near a lake’s edge. The breeze wind blowing nearby, swarm of fireflies dancing happily above the lake, the bright full moon shining; this… the peace I’ve always wanted since I first encountered the scent. I rest there, gazing at the beautiful lake and the vast skies while wondering about the decision I have taken earlier.
While my logic says it’s alright to leave them because my final goal is to discover my own past, part of me actually still wants to live with them, the Ponyville’s residents. It’s not because Princess Celestia and the others approved me to stay there but… their willing to take care of this pony with forgotten memories and probably disgraceful issues; their willing to share their love. They are like… family to somepony who is… all alone.
It is my wish to stay with them, yes, but must my psychotic instinct stays as well? Neither will also work if I followed my instinct – it doesn’t give me even a hint about what I should feed on from the scent’s source. I’m just a stranger to this place, and I shall not ruin their peaceful life. It’s my sole reason to pick this decision so that everything will remain stable, an escape from their friendship.
I cried. I can’t believe I have to reject their friendship in order to contain myself from raging out. I can’t imagine how sad would Twilight and the others be if I tell them about my decision, after all of their caring to me and stuff. Maybe sometimes it’s better for not knowing something instead of a late disappointment….
Suddenly somepony puts their hoof around my back, hoping that I would feel better. “Why are you crying in this very evening?” asked her. I turned my back just to notice that somepony is… an alicorn, probably a princess just like Princess Celestia. I was shocked that I hurriedly back away few steps and curl afraid of her. “Wait! Nothing to be afraid of, young colt!” she panicked. I peek a little from my bandaged fore hooves – she is clearly worried about me being sad, injured and all alone. I try to stand and face her even though I’m still slightly afraid.
“What had happened, oh unfortunate one?” she asked again. “…would you care for my long story, um, Princess...,” I paused since I don’t know her name. “Luna. Call me Luna. Please do go on,” she replied. I introduced myself and explained my story to her: my crash, my desire to discover my forgotten past, Princess Celestia’s acceptance for me to stay in Ponyville – she seems surprised about this one –, my insane instinct, and my escape from friendship.
“I… I just don’t feel fit in Ponyville,” I concluded. She doesn’t find it surprising, though – judging from my appearance should be enough explaining for her. I don’t know; she’s also different but… in a good way; I don’t think she had experienced bad things like if I give in to my instinct.
Princess Luna takes some time to think before saying, “I once also tried to escape friendship, just like you.” I am shocked – a princess like her once did the same thing as I am doing now? “I was drowned into despair; I defied my obligation as a princess since I could not experience the friendship my sister, Celestia has.” She looks down and closes her eyes, “I wish I had not given in back then. It was awful.”
“None could make me glad until Twilight and her friends shared their friendship, as well as my sister and her forgiving all the things I had done,” Princess Luna smiles joyfully. The same friendship I am trying to escape… actually saved Princess Luna from her dark past – is this the power of friendship? If only my instinct didn’t keep me away from their friendship, I would actually try to study the wonders of it, just like Princess Celestia ordered.
“Sky Blackend, come.” Princess Luna leads me to the lake’s edge, “Perceive our reflections – witness the differences between us and the others.” I begin to look at the lake’s surface – a dark blue alicorn standing beside a fanged colt with bandages covering his body; it’s not everyday everypony can see them around.
“It is not important how unique or terrifying our profiles are, Sky. Friendship defies them – none should even obstruct friendship from reaching anypony. I put my faith in it so that I will recall moments of friendship, ever shall despair drags me again,” Princess Luna said. She’s right; a friendship for a lone pony or even with their memories gone is the best mental amend available but….
“I really wish I could stay at Ponyville, Princess Luna, after all Twilight and the others had done to me but…,” I looked away from her, “…my psychotic instinct… it is keeping me away from their friendship. I don’t know why but it is telling me to feed something on them, over and over. I…,” I sighed, couldn’t continue. Princess Luna looks at me deeply, thinking that I might be just like her in the past… or maybe even worse.
“I… I don’t know why but I somewhat think that the one which invokes my instinct is… the friendship,” I randomly guessed. It’s true that the scent comes only when I’m around or talking with other ponies – actually I have smelt the scent by the time Princess Luna came – but… it doesn’t even make sense if I need friendship to be alive, literally.
Princess Luna doesn’t say anything but suddenly she hugs me – the scent increases in intensity. I’m struggling to free myself from her hug because I don’t want to lose to my instinct but… “It’s alright, calm thyself,” she said. I stop moving and close my eyes – I begin to understand that she is trying to share her friendship. I start thinking about how everypony kept on caring me even though I’m only a stranger, how they accepted me regardless of my disgraceful profile, how they… give a meaning of living as a pony with forgotten memories.
“I want to treasure all the friendship everypony have given to me,” I whispered. All of a sudden, my horn starts glowing green and the scent slowly fades away. Princess Luna then slowly frees me from her hug. I look at her endearing face, smiling at me, “Your instinct defied friendship… but fear nothing as your dreads are now subsided,” she said, “You have fully accepted friendship, Sky Blackend.” My horn stops glowing and this might be my first time smiling ever that I… cried happily.
“I… I want to go back to Ponyville,” I said while wiping out my tears. “Be that way. I will guide you,” Princess Luna replied. It’s not like I forgot the way back to Ponyville but… I think it would be great if both of us come together so I won’t feel awkward while saying sorry to Twilight and the others.
As we arrive at the bridge to Ponyville, we can see Twilight running around the town worriedly searching for me. “Twilight!” I called. She notices me and Princess Luna at the bridge – just in time when the other five mares come to regroup, about to go outside of Ponyville to look for me. They all go to the bridge and bow to Princess Luna.
“Rejoice, my subjects. Your friend, Sky Blackend, has friendship accepted and his instinct subdued!” Princess Luna exclaimed. “I’m really sorry I made all of you worried,” I said to them, “I will not escape anymore.” All of them cheered and expressed their joy – I can still smell their friendship but I just smiled; I know that I won’t have any problem as I accept their friendship and treasure it in my deepest heart. We then have group hug – it’s so warm and calming...
“Sky, please come with us to Ponyville Library!” Pinkie Pie holds my hoof, “Princess Luna can come too!” We all go there and arrived at the door. “Go on, Sky, open the door!” Wait, is this some kind of prank or…. I’m opening the door real slow and cautious, thinking that anything could come out anytime and….
“Welcome to Ponyville, Sky Blackend!” everypony, inside and outside shouted to me. I was rather shocked since that everypony means all of the Ponyville’s residents but I’m also very happy since them, all of them accept my existence here… even though I’m not sure how long would I stay at Ponyville.
“Pinkie arranged the welcome party for you since this afternoon, Sky,” Twilight explained, “You know, she’s always random!” Oh, right, that’s why she’s always easy to be identified. Still, I’m glad I get to know these ponies… my life would be totally different if I didn’t meet them at the first place. “Come on Sky, this party is yours!” Pinkie Pie pushed me to the center of the fully decorated library.
We partied – apparently I partied slightly awkward since I don’t even know what to do at parties – and we enjoyed our time together. The intense atmosphere of friendship… I could smell it. I realized that this friendship is needed in order for everypony to be “alive” so I shouldn’t run away from it….
Oh, friendship….