When There Is No More

by Silver Inkwell

First published

The ramblings of a crazy and insane Author trying to create, trying to destroy, trying to reason with himself.

The ramblings of a crazy and insane Author trying to create, trying to destroy, trying to reason with himself.

Tagged Dark Because: Insanity, Craziness, Self Insert, Multiple Personalities (Disorder thingy, or at the very least pretending about it instead).

Rated Teen for many various random safety reasons.

When There Is No More

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When There Is No More

Twilight Sparkle came home to discover a very strange and peculiar odd thing that looked like some kind or sort of creature just casually sitting in a chair by her fireplace reading a few of her books. He had blonde hair and turquoise eyes and a very nice brown suit and black tie with plain and simple black pants and everything about him was very much formal. “Well hello there, Twilight,” he said putting down the book very gently, softly and kindly and then standing up to his full height, “It’s finally nice to meet and talk with you even though I already planned this in my head and mind and none of this is actually true or real.

None of this is actually happening, it’s all just a lie, Twilight, a very simple lie.”

“First of all, who are you and how did you get in my house exactly?”

“My name isn’t important, but you may call me the Author, or perhaps maybe whatever you want to, simply put I am, and I am not, I am here, and yet I am not, I am there in the real world, and yet I am also not, I can’t really tell the difference anymore, well, I can, the truth is that I just don’t really care anymore.

I don’t really care about either world, or people, I’m giving up hope Twilight, and I just needed one to talk to, human or pony, because truly does it really matter in the end when one is going both crazy and insane by being alone all the time?”

“Look sir, you’re not making any sense right now, who and what are you anyways exactly?”

“You should already know that, I am a human of course, what else could I be, Twilight?”

“How do you know my name?” she said still very angry at the intruder.

“Who hasn’t heard of you? Anyhow I got in because your doors weren’t locked, and even if they were I could have easily written them to be unlocked and open, ot I could have just bent your reality with my mind instead, it doesn’t really matter to me anymore so long as I can get exactly what I want here right now.”

“Look, you’re not making any sense right now sir, mister-,”

“Allan, that’s what you can call me, or Daniel if you would rather prefer that instead, as I said previously before, I don’t really care anymore.”

“Look Mister Allan, why are you here in my house right now anyways exactly?”

“The better question would be why I am here at all, I’m breaking the rules by being here, I’m not supposed to be here in this story, but then again, who cares anymore, I certainly don’t, and why should I anyways anymore? Anyhow I decided to come here so that I could warn you, that’s all that I want for now, the rest will come later naturally enough of course, so say goodbye to all of your friends and family, because soon they will be no more after I’m done with them.”

Twilight’s eyes enlarged very considerably, “Are you threatening my friends and parents, because if you are, I must warn you, I’m an Alicorn Princess. I can have an army at my side if I so asked and choose to do that, so don’t mess with me.”

“And I am an author, I could literally just think and wish you away, but I wish to amuse myself for just a tiny little bit longer before I completely destroy you.”

“Ha, good luck with that, I mean how are you ever going to defeat me? How could you possibly ever do that? What proof do you have? What power?”

“You want proof of my power?” the Author said suddenly taking a great big huge step across the room and staring down at her very angrily, “Very well then, I shall show you my power, but beware, it is a very great one indeed, Twilight.”

And with that said suddenly he clapped his hands and her home was gone, he clapped them again and suddenly every house in Ponyville was upside down, another clap and suddenly the whole entire sky was black because it was now nighttime instead of daytime. “Do I really need to show you anymore?” he said.

“No, that’s enough, that’s fine, but my only question is how though exactly.”
He smiled. “I am the creator and destroyer, and now I will destroy instead of creating, so you better say goodbye before it’s too late for you to do so.”

“But why do you want to destroy all this wonderful incredible beauty?”

“Because no one cares for me, or for what I write, so instead I shall end it, I shall end you, and then I will finally truly be at peace and happy.”

“But will you? I have this feeling that you don’t want to destroy this place, I think that you just want some attention and want to be stopped, you want to be heard, you want your voice to be noticed, but that has failed many times before now, right?” she said now then. “So what if I have? You can’t talk me out of this.”

“Maybe, but I will still have to try it nonetheless. Since you have all this power if you wanted to destroy us you would have already done so, but you haven’t, because you don’t want to end what makes you really truly happy, you just want others to see you, you want to make them love you, force them to even.”

“Yes, that’s true, so what though exactly? What does it matter anymore?

There are no more happy endings, not anymore at the very least."

"And why not? Why is that so exactly?" Twilight said.

"Because I decided to stop with them, with it.

After all, my life isn't going to end up with a happily ever after, and no one else will either, why should anyone else, including the characters that I create?"

Twilight didn't know how to answer this but decided to continue talking to him anyways.

“It matters because you can’t throw a temper tantrum when you’re ignored, or when others hate you, you have to accept reality for what it is.”

“Why accept it when I can create and destroy the worlds and works of others instead? Isn’t it better to just let some of the pain out to feel better?”

“You might feel better temporarily, but being a monster doesn’t solve or fix anything, it never has and it never will, so try to break that cycle, please.”

“But how can I? I have been ignored for ten years, just waiting, I found writing to be my real true purpose, an escape, a passion, stress relief, and even now I am being limited in that because others don’t ever really truly accept me for who and what I am, so why not just be a monster they hate and fear instead?”

“Doing that won’t fix or solve anything, it’ll only make things worse for you,”

“And them, I want them to feel exactly the way that I do.”

“And what would that do exactly? What would that accomplish?”

There was silence in the room. “Yes, that’s exactly right, nothing at all.”

“Well I don’t really care, I’m still going to end you, and the moment that I decide to stop talking to you and writing this down is the moment that you will end.”

“Well then, I guess that I’ll just have to keep talking.”

“And I’ll have to let you since you’re just a part of my mind and I can’t silence you forever, very well then, speak, convince me to change, use logic and reason.”

“Very well then, fine, alright, why do you feel so ignored?”

“Because no one even bothered to ask me to join anything, I was always the one that had to try coming to them first, and twice now I have tried with others only to have my heart broken, just like I shall do to you,” he said ripping out her heart, “Now continue, and don’t lie or else I will crush your heart and kill you.”

She gulped very nervously now then. “Alright, fine then, very well, okay, so what if others ignored you, so what if you had your heart broken twice?”

“It’s actually more than that.”

“Whatever, so what if all that is really true? Did you learn something from it?”

“Yes, I learned never to trust anyone ever again, to never open my heart fully or truly or else it will be broken, and if it is, I promise to hurt the one who hurt me until they hurt as I do, and I never, EVER break my promises.”

She gulped even more nervously, “Surely you don’t mean that?”

He smiled squeezing her heart, “Emotional insanity is a very fragile thing, one half of me could very well kill them, or at least has thoughts of it, the other half is trying to fight me, but it’s no use, insanity is only here for right now instead.”

“Look, you don’t have to hurt others, why not just forgive and-,”

“NEVER!!!” he shouted suddenly slapping her into a mountain instantly destroying it, “NEVER!!!” he shouted stomping his foot into the ground causing the very earth to split and lava to pour out, “NEVER EVER!!!” he said.

He slowly approached Twilight who lay in a pool of her own blood at the mountain side. “I’m sorry, please forgive me, I will act out violently if so pressed.”

She coughed out some blood, “My you have some violent thoughts.”

He smiled, “Oh, you have no idea, this is only the start of the hell in my head, in my mind, imagine a thousand voices all screaming at you, all insane and crazy, all emotionally unstable, and imagine only one calm reasonable voice among them. That voice is eventually lost and then it decided to become insane too as well, that would be how I can describe myself, Twilight.”

“You can’t make people like you if you try to hurt them.”

“I don’t really care, they hurt me, they deserve the pain that I feel.”

“Do you really think that, or are you just saying that instead?”

“I really hate the voice of reason and logic, but I can’t kill you because you’re still part of me,” he said picking up the limp body of Twilight, “But I can hurt you instead, just like I can others, I can be just as powerful as you are.”

“Please stop this right now-,” she said. “No, I’m sorry, no second chances for you my dear,” he said. “Stop, improve, be the best that you can be, just try to-,”

“How can I when I hurt so much?”

“Others are in pain too as well-.”

“I don’t really care about them or anyone else.”

“That’s your problem, not caring.”

“Well then, they should make me care, or try to at the very least.”

“No, you have to care for them first, or else you won’t be loved, ever.”

“I can’t, I don’t know how, I forgot how to care and love anyone else.”

“Then you’ll be cursed to always be alone.”

“I won’t have that, not now, not ever, so please, tell me how.”

“It’s very simple, but not very easy.”

“I don’t like the sound of this already.”

“You don’t have to, you just have to accept it instead.”

“Alright, fine then, very well, teach me, please.”

“I can’t, not here, not now, you’ll have to find your own answers in time.”

“So are you going to leave me now, just like all the rest and others did before?”

“No, I’m just going to be one step ahead of you instead.”

And with that said suddenly Twilight and everything else vanished.

“No, come back, please, it’s terrible being all alone here by myself…”

But no one was listening, because no one ever did.

Slowly the world went on, but no matter what he tried to the world always returned to nothingness no matter how hard he tried to keep it a fantasy instead.

And he knew that in his heart and mind that he would always be alone.

And he just wished that he could die.

So he summoned a knife, but he couldn’t do it, so instead he just let his mind wander away and it too eventually faded into the nothingness.