Chance for a Better Life

by Kix

First published

Now freed of their terrible past the two friends try and adjust to their new potential lives

*****Update*****

Ok, I got all of the chapters edited and reposted, yay.

Lily and Moonshade find themselves free of the horrors of their past, or so they think. As Celestia, Luna, Chrysalis and Posey struggle to find a way to keep them free and happy Sunset and gang work on getting Moonshade to open up and learn to trust again.

Editing completed by Okemos Brony

Chapter One; Bonding- Lily

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Seeing the woman’s anger as she goes silent after what I revealed scares me, a lot. Enough to where I’m trying to hide in the seat. I can’t help it; as much as I don’t want to, my body remembers the fourteen years of abuse it has gone through. “Relax Lily, I’m not gonna hurt you.”

It takes a few minutes but I calm down enough to eat, though throughout the meal both of us are mostly silent. Chrysalis lets me taste her sweet and sour pork in an attempt to break the silence. “I think I’m addicted. This stuff is good, though they give you a lot.”

“Hey, you don’t have to try and eat it all in one go. If you can’t finish it, we’ll take the rest to go.” Looking up at her with my cheeks puffed out like a chipmunk’s full of acorns only causes me to blush a little as she laughs. “That’s the best thing about Chinese; they give you a ton of food, and you can take home what you don’t eat.”

“Well, I am starting to feel stuffed, and we have room in the backpack.”

“Okay Chrysalis, thank you for such a wonderful meal. Can’t wait to do this again.” My usual smile returns as we get up and the meal is paid for, the leftovers secured as best as they can be in the bag and we head on out.

“So, what is going to happen to... me and Moonshade?” All through the ride, I can’t help but think of all kinds of different outcomes. Some good, some… well… These thoughts have only risen in frequency and strength the closer we get to her home. “I can tell you care about us, but I can’t help but th-”

“Sh, don’t dwell on that for now, please. Trust me, we’re working on getting you the best life you deserve. When you talk with Posey tomorrow, tell her nothing but the truth. Don’t lie or leave out anything, no matter how bad it was, okay?” the teal-haired woman says with a smile as she holds me tight in a hug, “Here’s my guest room where you’ll be staying for as long as you’re here. Bathroom is two doors further up the hall and to your left. For now, feel free to use my soap and whatnot, but please, use your own toothbrush.” With a smile she disappears into the bathroom, leaving me to put away the other two pairs of clothes I have.

The bedroom's door opens suddenly as I sit on the bed, working on calming myself down. "Here, so you don’t have to sleep in just your underwear.” The offered sports jersey quickly encompasses my frame as a makeshift gown. Smiling, my arms yet again wrap around her waist. “Night, Lily.”

“Chrysalis, think you could uhm…… think you could….. sleep with me tonight? Ever since the ride here, I’ve…..”

“Sure thing.” A smile forms on her lips as we crawl into the bed together. Chrysalis stays on the right side, near the edge. I guess it’s a precaution for me.

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The sound of an unfamiliar clock goes off seemingly in my ear, causing me to wake up. The blurry sight of an unfamiliar room and the presence of an adult in the bed causes me to scramble madly off in panic, which results in me landing bruisingly hard on my side onto the wood floor. Don’t….. please don’t tell me that they….. please don’t let it have happened again. With my sight still blurred a little, I curl up against the far wall, my back in the corner as my heart beats hard and fast, almost like a drum in a high tempo song. Sweat drips off my body as I bury my head in my knees, my eyes shut tight as I begin to tremble a little. The thought of something happening to me again makes me want to vomit.

“NO, GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!” A soft touch on my shoulder brings me to blindly throw a punch as I try and escape from the person. Surprisingly, the fist actually connects with the person, though I doubt it hurt.

“Hey, hey, calm down, you’re alright kiddo. You’re safe here. No one hurt you.”

It takes some time, but I recognize the voice as I nervously look up. As my vision clears, I start to eventually remember what happened yesterday. “Chrysalis! I’m so sorry, I… I had a… and there was… I didn’t… please don’t…” The shame that I hit someone who is only trying to help and the fact I acted like I did breaks the dam as I babble on while hugging her tight, my face buried in her shoulder.

“It’s okay, Lily. I’m not mad at you, I’m angry at your parents. If anything, I should be apologizing. I should have seen that something like this could have been a possible outcome. If you want to talk about it, I’ll listen.” The onyx-skinned woman sits down next to me with a smile while holding me in a comforting embrace.

“What… what about you? Don’t you have to go into work soon?”

“Good thing about being the boss, you set your own hours.” Her smile and laugh brings a shadow of a smile to my own lips as the tears end with a sniffle.

“Ok.” Taking a shuddering breath I wipe away the tear stains as I try and force myself to relax. “It… it wasn’t just my parents who abused me and Moonshade. Sometimes they’d… make the two of us do things to each other while they watched. Sometimes they’d invite friends over. And sometimes they’d… they’d lend us to their friends for a night or two.” Just giving the basics nearly brings back the flood of tears as I hold her tight.

“They won’t hurt you ever again Lily, I promise.” Her voice is tight with barely controlled rage as she strokes my hair in an attempt to be in a calming manner. Her shaking body and the tightness of her words unconsciously makes me scramble away from her. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you like that. Go ahead and take a shower, get yourself ready for the day.”

Once the shower is nice and warm I jump in and just stand under the cascading drops, trying to let the spray sluice through my worries and issues. “Hey, you’ve been in there for an hour! You’re gonna run out of hot water soon, or you’ll prune! Besides, we have to get going, girl!” Chrysalis’ shouting snaps me back into reality and with a smile I dry off and get dressed before finishing making myself presentable for the day.

Once we’re dressed, Chrysalis gives me a look over and frowns before rifling through a closet, pulling out a leather jacket, pants and gloves. “It’s pretty chilly out there today, so if you still insist on wearing that outfit I’m gonna have to let you borrow my old leathers.” The leather pants and jacket are a couple sizes too big on me and are definitely worn, judging by the discoloration in some spots. The gloves as well are a bit bigger than they should be.

As I’m standing there goofily smiling while trying to get the bottoms of the pants to where they won’t trip me, a flash goes off unexpectedly. “Stand up, I gotta take a picture of how goofy you look.” Holding the large helmet in the crook of my arm, a couple more pictures are taken. One has me standing straight while in another I have my tongue out and an eye closed with my free hand poking my cheek. In the last picture I’m serious and posing as if I’m a model, both balled fists are resting on my hips, the helmet on my head with visor lifted to show off my smile and my feet parted a little. “Okay goofball, we need to get going.”

All through the ride I laugh not only at the nickname but at my excitement for the ride itself, which ends just a little too soon for my liking. “Okay Lily, I gotta get going, just stay positive and tell the truth. Posey’ll take good care of you, I promise.” In a surprise move Chrysalis leans in and plants a soft kiss against my forehead. Once we break from the quick hug I head into the hospital, feeling slightly anxious.

“Hey Posey, I’m here.” That sounded way too hesitant and meek.

“Hello Lily, I just got done checking in with your friend Moonshade. Do you want to see her real quick before we start?” the light yellow-skinned woman asks as she stands up from behind her desk.

“Oh yes please, I’d love that. And I’m sure Moonshade would as well.” I hope whatever happened to her isn’t too bad.

“Alright, follow me. It’ll need to be quick though, and try to be careful please. She has a broken ankle and dislocated shoulder.” The door opens with a nudge of her hip, but she keeps herself in front of me. “Morning Moonshade, sleep well? I know it isn’t the best, but it’s something. And I’m glad to hear you want to give them a chance. By the way, you have a visitor.” The woman’s news causes my stomach to sink as I can’t stop my wild imagination, but the sight of my friend more than lifts it as I rush in.

“LILY? Is that… is that really you? How did you… when… ow, careful.” I laugh at her confusion as I hug her tight, a few tears falling to land on her shoulder as I relax my tight grip.

Before I let go I give her another, gentle squeeze and smile. “I got here last night, thanks to that woman, Chrysalis. She… she went after them pretty hard. Unfortunately I can’t stay, gotta go and talk to Posey.” I wish I could stay with her. Don’t worry Moonshade, I’ll try to visit again soon.

“What... what happened to her?”

“She got scared and tried to run when confronted by a police officer. He grabbed her wrist as she stepped badly on a slick rock. Now, we need to figure out what we are going to do with you. Did you like staying with Chrysalis last night?”

“Yes I did, a lot. Though this morning, I… sorta freaked out on her. Then I told her about… what me and Moonshade went through.” Just thinking of the events of earlier lowers my head as I look at my feet. All Posey does is wait for me to recompose myself. “My… my parents made the two of us… do things together when they... felt the urge. They also… invited their friends at times to join in and… a few times they have... they let their friends take us home for a day or two.”

While I’m speaking, Posey mostly pays attention to me, though she does jot a few things down on the paper in front of her. “I’m not going to push for now, but soon you will need to actually go into detail about each and every incident. For now, I’m going to need to get your physical and general information. Once you get into the foster care system, you won’t be able to stay with Chrysalis until she gets certified to foster. But I promise that I will do my best to keep you and Moonshade together.”

As she finishes, she picks up the phone and arranges for the physical exam before taking me to the office. “Unfortunately, this will take most of the day due to the wait. Let me know if something goes wrong, okay?”

“Alright, and please don’t be too mad at Chrysalis, even if she did something wrong she did it for the right reasons, and I’m glad she did.” Posey’s return smile before she leaves feels sincere as I’m left on my own.

As she warned, most of the day was spent going through lots of procedures, including drawing blood. It’s around four in the afternoon when I’m returned back to Posey’s office. “... You think you’ll be alright caring for her, Celestia? You know she’ll need a lot of attention and help.”

The door opens after a few knocks, revealing Posey and a white skinned woman with pink, green and blue hair. “I know Posey, and I think I might have the solution.” She turns to me. “Hello there, I’m Celestia.”

Taking the woman’s hand nervously, I look over at Posey for reassurance as I answer, my voice low and the words somewhat mumbled out. “Hi, I’m Lily Bloom.”

Chapter Two; Homeward Nightmare- Moonshade

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“So, what kind of things do you like doing for fun?” While we wait for the two adults, Sunset and I resume our game. Well, I try to.

“Besides reading? Nothing.” My eyes fall down to the table as Sunset falls silent, trying to find a topic that will be easy for me to talk about. The silence lasts for about five minutes until the door opens, drawing our attention.

“Lily! How did things go with Posey?” As she hurries inside, I can tell something is off despite her usual bubbly personality. “What happened, Lil? Who hurt you?”

Her smile grows even wider as she carefully hugs me. “No one Moon, I just had a flashback this morning and….. I had to tell Posey about….. what my parents did to us. At least, the basics.” I just stare into her eyes for a minute before relenting and returning her hug. “I spent the night at Chrysalis’ house last night. She may seem hard and unapproachable, but she’s really nice, sweet and caring. She even bought me this outfit and two others.”

“Don’t trust too easily Lil, I know it’s a part of you, but please don’t. You’ll only get hurt in the end when the person you thought you could trust breaks it.” Once we break apart, I look over at Sunset Shimmer. “Lily, this is Sunset Shimmer, I’m apparently staying with her while I heal up. Sunset Shimmer, this is my friend Lily Bloom.”

As the two shake hands and share a smile I just look on. Please Lily, you know I’m just trying to protect you. The door opens again and in steps Celestia and Posey, both of them smiling.

“Are you sure you want to go and stay with Celestia and Sunset, sweetie?” Posey asks after she finishes going over some paperwork while standing by the foot of the bed.

“Yeah, mostly just to get out of this place.” Posey stares at me in an admonishing way while Celestia looks a little saddened. “But I promise I will give them a chance, Posey.”

“Well, it’ll have to wait till tomorrow so we can get the room and house ready for you as well as adding a second bed for you, Lily.” Celestia gives Sunset a hug as she looks at the two of us.

“Well, we need to go and fill out some papers, and I’m going to need to talk to the both of you. Plus I think it’s time we leave Moonshade be, she looks tired.” The last line comes as I try and stifle a yawn. Before I can argue to at least let Lily stay, my partially shut eyelids finally snap close without a prayer to reopen.

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“So Moonshade, how do you like living here?” I look over at Celestia and shrug as best I can with one shoulder in answer to her question. “What about you Lily? Are you enjoying yourself?”

“Yes I am, very much. Thank you for letting us stay here. And don’t worry about Moon, she’ll come around eventually.” With a roll of my eyes at her response, I glance over at the doorway. Something about it is bothering me, but I can’t put my finger on it.

“Lily, we need to go, now.” What the? Why….. when did I become a mute?

“Oh, I hope you girls don’t mind, but I invited a few friends.” At Celestia’s words, the door opens and to my horror, the first two people to enter are Aeris and Cloud Shifter, the last two people I thought I would see again. Behind them are Sunset’s friends, Chrysalis and Luna.

“NO, YOU….. YOU CAN’T….. YOU PROMISED YOU’D PROTECT US!” both myself and Lily scream as we try and get up, but find ourselves pinned down by a smiling Celestia and Sunset. The room changes immediately and it now looks more like a dungeon. As I close my eyes, I fight to drown out the sounds of screams, yelling and moans along with the sounds of something slicing through the air and striking skin, hard. “NNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!”

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“NNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!” I can feel my heart wanting to escape from its cage by beating hard. My hair sticks to my face, which is covered in sweat as I’m on the verge of passing out due to hyperventilating. My shoulder is screaming in pain as I’m sitting upright, though nearly about to roll off if it wasn’t for the rails. As I look around in panic, my parched throat attempts to drag down what saliva it can in an attempt to lubricate. At this time, I notice another sound keeping time with my wild heart and the feeling of tears starting to pour down my cheeks.

“Are you alright, Moonshade?” The question comes from my right somewhere and as my breathing begins to slow down, my vision also begins to clear up some.

For who knows how long I just sit there, body trembling as I’m given a cup of water and drink. Eventually I find my voice again and how quietly the words that come out surprise and worry me. It sounds like I’m imitating Sunset’s friend, the shy one with pink hair. “I….. I had a nightmare.”

“Do you want to talk about it?” The nurse comes into view and carefully sits on the edge of the bed, using a towel to wipe off the sweat and drying tears. No I don’t, I just want to forget it. Not trusting myself to say those words I just shake my head, though not as vigorously as I’d like.

“Alright Moonshade, but if you have any more of these nightmares please talk to someone ok.” Again, I only nod in response, causing the nurse to leave with a dejected look on her face.

The next day I wake up after finally getting back to sleep, though it wasn’t very restful and was continuously interrupted. As I look about the room I notice that Lily, Celestia, Sunset and Posey are waiting with a wheelchair. “Well Moony, are you ready to go?” Lily’s cheerfulness after last night seems like a dream.

“Yeah, as ready as I’ll ever be.” As the two adults help me out of the bed and into the chair I glance at the multicolor-haired woman. “If I’m going to be staying with you for a while, think we can make a quick stop? There are some things I want from the house I was planning on staying at.”

“Sure thing, Moonshade.” Once the paperwork is finished and the last minute stuff gets handled, I’m wheeled out to the waiting car where Chrysalis is waiting with Luna.

Once again I find myself being handled as Chrysalis and Luna get me into the back seat and buckled, the wheelchair is broke down and placed in the trunk as the others make themselves comfy. Chrysalis and Luna get on a bike and speed away.

“This is where you were planning on living? For how long?” As we stop in front of the building Celestia only looks at it in shock as Lily gets out and goes inside before the other two can.

“Yes, as for how long….. as long as I needed to.” I’ll need find a new place to lay low now if it comes down to it.’

“Well hopefully, we can help show you that you don’t need to rely on that anymore.” Sunset says as she turns back to face me with a smile.

“I won’t hold my breath.” I mumble to myself, though not really caring if they heard me or not. Lily nearly skips back to the vehicle with a smile and carefully hands me the worn out bag I’ve been using along with one of the two pop bottles from my second day here. The other one is in her hands and she just smiles as Celestia gives us a curious glance. “Thanks Lil.”

Chapter Three; Meeting the Gang- Lily

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The smell of frying bacon and eggs rouses me from my slumber, and for a minute after waking up, I can feel the start of a panic attack. What brought that on? I’m alone, so it might just be because I’m in a new house with new people. If I’m having attacks like this, how bad is it going to be for Moon? Sighing at my revelation I take a quick shower and change of clothes before joining the others, who are sitting around a large table. Stopping for a second, I look at the new faces of six girls and an older man with two different eye colors and a white goatee along with Celestia, Luna and Sunset.

“Lily? Is everything okay?” Sunset asks as she gets up, concerned as I just stand there. At her words, I realize my body is trembling a little as my gaze locks onto the strange man and I start to have a flashback.

Giving my head a quick shake to stop it from coming, my normal smile returns, for at least a half second. In that time, a pink, curly-haired girl pops out of nowhere, just centimeters from my face. “HiI’mPinkiePieandI’mhappytofinallymeetyouIhavebeenwaitingforsuchalongtimetofinallymeetyouandbecomeyourfriendandshowyouwhatitsliketohavefriendscause….”

Her talking speed and the sudden appearance causes me to stumble back a little as I can feel what could possibly be my third anxiety attack of the morning. Thankfully, a blonde cowgirl pulls her back while covering Pinkie’s mouth. “Sorry ‘bout that. Pinkie can be a little energetic, but she don’ mean no harm. Ah’m Applejack, it’s a pleasure ta meet ya.”

Taking her hand I return her smile, though quickly I learn that shaking her hand is a…. Painful experience, my hand feeling nearly crushed. Gritting my teeth, I try to hold back the whimper wanting to escape. “Lily Bloom. Think you could….. could you please release my hand, Applejack?”

“Oh hehe, sorry bout that Lily. It’s a real pleasure meetin’ ya.”

The next girl behind Applejack is immaculately dressed and groomed. Even how she carries herself screams high class. “Hello darling, I’m Rarity. I must say, you have such a lovely complexion and hair color. How would you like to help me out one of these days, hm? I can make you an outfit or two that would look simply marvelous on you.”

“Thank you. Once I get settled, in I might take you up on your offer.”

“Hey, nice to meet you. I’m Rainbow Dash, the most awesome girl in like, forever! I’m the captain of every team the school has and the lead guitarist for our band.”

“Nice to meet you Rainbow Dash.” I find myself in another firm handshake, the grip causing me to yelp as she squeezes on the hand Applejack nearly crushed.

Two girls wait off to the side; both are a little hesitant to approach, but the first one to offer her hand is the purple girl with glasses. “Hi, I’m Twilight Sparkle. It’s nice meeting you.”

As Twilight steps aside, the last girl tries to hide herself with her long pink hair and speaks quietly, both arms behind her back. “I’m….. Fluttershy.”

“It’s a pleasure to meet you girls. Why are you here?”

“Simple, Sunset said she needed help gettin’ things ready fer Moonshade before she comes here. Also we've been wantin’ ta meet Moonshade, an’—”

Pinkie finally breaks free from Applejack’s grasp. “And what better way to meet someone new than with a party?”

“I know you girls mean well, and your help is appreciated. But as for meeting Moonshade and a party, I’m telling you that it won’t work out too well for either side. Give her a few days to settle as best she can and get used to being here before we even talk about introducing you girls to her.”

“Aww, now what am I going to do with all these sweets?”

“No worries Pinks, we can totally have a party for Lily welcoming her here instead, even if it isn’t a surprise party.” The rainbow-haired girl says in excitement as she gives Pinkie a slap on the back.

“Yeah, and we can leave some of these treats for Moonshade. Let her know that there are some people who are thinking of her.” With Applejack agreeing to the fashionista's idea, Applejack and Rainbow Dash leave to go setup up a ramp over the stairs with help from Celestia and the man, who after seeing my reaction kept a good distance between us.

Meanwhile myself, Sunset, Luna, Fluttershy and Rarity start on getting the bedroom I slept in rearranged after the second bed and dresser are moved in and setup. Also installed in the room is a new, large flat-screen t.v. with a surround sound system and blu-ray player. Topping off the decor is a pair of desks that have a lot of room on them despite the computers sitting atop of them and the pair of new bookcases and bedside tables.

“Well, all we need now is bedding and some clothing for the both of us.” Before I can continue, Rarity lets out a squeal and, taking my arm in her grip, drags me with her to her car. After picking up my other clothes from Chrysalis’ place we spend another three hours or so as Rarity has me try on what feels like a hundred thousand different outfits. Eventually we walk out carrying five bags each stuffed with clothes, including ones Rarity felt would match Moonshade’s favorite vest. The bags even contain seven pairs of tracksuit pants with snap buttons on the sides of the legs as she promises to make a few tops to match which would be easy to put on Moonshade.

At five o’clock, Rarity drops me back off at Celestia's just in time to go get Moon. ‘Please Moon, I know you freak out easily and I know you told me not to trust these people so readily, but they do honestly want to help us,’ I think, worrying about her Despite Sunset’s attempts at conversation, I can only imagine all the ways this could end badly. My thoughts even persist as Celestia, Sunset and Posey talk amongst themselves while a wheelchair is brought into the room.

The pained noises Moonshade makes as she is lifted as gently as possible and placed into the chair breaks me from my thoughts and I take her good hand as she is wheeled outside towards the waiting car. Again Moonshade is transferred from the chair with pained noises, making me wince in sympathy.

As we stop in front of the house Moon was planning on setting up, I hear Celestia’s question as I start exiting the vehicle before it even stops. “This is where you were planning on living? For how long?”

“Yes, as for how long….. as long as I need to.” My friend replies sadly, by just her tone I can tell she is already thinking of a backup plan for when she’s healed.

‘Well, you always were a resourceful one Moon, never doubted it for a second.’ It takes me a minute but I spot the makeshift lock and carefully step inside, wary of any possible booby traps. Once past the front door I search the house quickly, stuffing the items I know she’d want to keep, such as a framed picture of her parents, her father’s purple heart and uniform accouterments, some jewelry she somehow has been able to keep that used to belong to her mother and the wedding bands and engagement ring.

I know it’s a waste of good clothes and we should donate them, but I doubt Moon would want to be anywhere near them. Looking at the pile of two pairs of pants, two shirts and two sets of underwear I can tell they’re the clothes my parents bought her. With a shrug, I leave them and make my way back to the car, only then stopping as I notice the small cooler. Inside is two bottles of soda which I grab, one for myself and the other for Moon.

Chapter Four; Adjusting Pains- Moonshade

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Looking at the house we stop in front of, I can’t help the shiver that runs down my spine. While Celestia and Sunset exit the car I look around at the other houses nearby, stopping to turn and focus on something that caught my attention. “Lily, does….. does that vehicle look….. familiar to you?” Whimpering, I try to point the vehicle out with my immobilized left arm but switch to my right. I hope I’m not right.

The vehicle in question, a black minivan with darkly tinted windows, is parked a few houses down. “Sort of looks like Dark Heart’s van, but too far away to tell. Plus, you know he never let us look around when he took us for a few days. I can ask Celestia if she knows who that is, or you can.”

“You can, but I’m already beginning to get a bad feeling, Lily. Please be careful,” I warn as the door opens with Celestia and Luna waiting. As gently as they can, they pull me out of the vehicle. The jostling causes my shoulder to ignite with flares of pain before they set me down in the wheelchair.

“Is everything okay, Moonshade?” Noticing my focused gaze on the house, Celestia and Luna turn to look in the same direction, followed by Sunset. Something other than the vehicle caught my attention, but the pain mixed with the growing darkness make it hard to see.

“Nothing. Just….. Let’s go inside please.”

“Sunset, I meant to talk to you about this along with Applejack, Rarity and Fluttershy but forgot to. I know you’re on your way to achieving a perfect attendance record this semester, but think you could for at least a week stay and help Lily with Moonshade please?” Celestia’s question causes both Lily and Sunset to smile as I only groan at the idea of being babied and watched over.

Sunset opens the door for the others and frowns a little at my facial expression. “Sure thing mom, I don’t mind.”

“Here, I’ll take her the rest of the way to the room now Celestia. Unless you want to stay out in the living room, Moon?”

“Room please, Lily. And if you don’t mind I’d rather not have all three of you crowding me.” Plus, the sooner I get some real privacy, the better. Unless Celestia or someone placed some hidden cameras in the room. As Lily begins to wheel me into the room Sunset sets a tray of confectionery in my lap, her smile not a fully happy one as I just look at it. “What is this for?”

“Well, some of the girls stopped by and helped us get everything ready for you. They wanted to throw a welcoming party, but Lily talked us out of it. They left these here for you as a consolation. I hope you enjoy them, Pinkie baked them herself and she is an excellent baker.”

“Thanks, I guess.” My dark tone matches the somewhat saddened voice of Sunset. Once said I close the door in Sunset’s face, my gaze focused on the ground at her feet. I can only imagine what Lily must be thinking as the door jam clicks softly in place. ‘This….. this is the room I’m staying in? Now I know to be cautious.’

“Well, what do you think, Moon?” Lily wheels me to the nearest bed and helps me onto it by supporting my weight. I can tell by how she plops onto the other and the sigh she gives out while snagging a cupcake from the tray on the nightstand between our beds that she likes it a lot.

“Eh, it’s….. Ok I guess.” Reminds me of a few other foster homes I lived in. They buy you all this expensive stuff in hopes that it’ll open you up and allow them to abuse you however they see fit. “I’m getting tired Lily, I’ll see you in the morning.” As my eyes close, I hear a lid being put on the tray followed by the rustling of clothes before her weight bounces the bed a little. Subconsciously, I lift my right arm and make room for her next to me, knowing that she could use the feeling of comfort and safety along with me.

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The sounds of others getting ready for the new day rouses me from the surprisingly peaceful sleep I was enjoying. When I notice that Lily is not next to me I just groan and fall heavily back into my pillow, yelping at the jarring pain. I forgot how much of a morning person she is, ugh. At Least I can lay around in bed all day. As if sensing I’m awake, she steps inside, smiling brightly.

“Hey Moon, Celestia has breakfast ready. Here I’ll help you.” The tired glare I shoot her with my face mostly buried under the thick comforter only causes her to giggle as she approaches, which only makes me grumble. “Did you sleep okay?”

“Yeah, just don’t want to be around them right now.” Or ever, if I had my way. “Think you can bring my breakfast in here, please?”

“Nope, Celestia said if you want to eat you need to come on out.” Another grumble is followed by a few muttered curses as she helps me up and out of the bed and into my wheelchair, which she starts wheeling downstairs

“Morning Moonshade, have a good night?” Celestia asks as I’m wheeled to the table and helped into a chair. A plate filled with an omelet, a few links of sausage and two pieces of toast are placed in front of me along with a large glass of orange juice. “We got these for you because according to the doctor, your nutrient levels are very low.” A couple different bottles of vitamins, calcium, iron and others are set to the side.

“Thanks, and my night was alright I guess.”

“You’re welcome.” A heavy cloud occupies the room as I eat cautiously, something Sunset and Celestia try to disperse with small talk, trying to include me to no avail. “I’ll bring you your homework when I get home, Sunset. There’s money for lunch if you want to order out, or you can help yourselves to whatever is in the fridge. Have a good day, girls.” Before she leaves, her arms first wrap around the older girl and then Lily, kisses placed on their foreheads which cause them to smile.

As I tense, expecting her to try and hug me as well, she surprises me by just reaching down and giving me a pat on the head. “Take care Moonshade, and don’t be afraid to ask for help, no matter what.”

“Sure.” I only manage to eat about a third of the plate before pushing it away, earning a glance from Celestia and Sunset. “I’m full.” The only things I touched were the eggs, some toast and a bit of the juice.

Instead of picking the plate up Celestia just sighs. “You really do need to eat more, Moonshade. I’ve been made aware of some of your health problems, and you are underweight for a girl your age. I have also been told how little you ate during your stay in the hospital, and it isn’t healthy.”

I wonder, does she really care or is she just pretending to while fattening me up to turn me over to Black Hearts? I swear that was his van yesterday, and whoever lives there was watching us. “Thanks mom.”

As I look at Lily, she just shakes her head at me while Celestia looks hurt and Sunset is taken aback by my sarcastic tone. “Sorry,” I mumble as I take another bite while the woman leaves.

“Well Moonshade, I know you’d rather return to the room, but Sunset and I think it’s best if you join us in the living room after you get a bath.” As the last part is uttered, I can’t help but start to feel sick to my stomach as anger begins to flood my veins.

Try to calm down, Lily is here and you know she won’t let anything bad happen. I don’t trust Sunset, though. As Lily pushes me to the bathroom, I take a few deep breaths in an attempt to fight off the instinct to hit something.

“Okay Moon, this might hurt some.” Before she goes to work getting my clothes off, Sunset tries to come in and help, only to receive an angrily slammed door in her face, resulting in an “ow” from the other side. The whole process of getting clean is difficult thanks to the cast and sling, but with Lily’s help I eventually feel clean and refreshed. “You know that wasn’t very nice. You need to apologize to Sunset when we get out of here,” her admonishment comes as she finishes helping me brush my teeth.

“Fine, and thank you for helping me.” Once I’m dressed and back in the chair, we exit and head straight into the living room. “Sorry Sunset, the thought of a stranger seeing me….. naked makes me….. angry.”

“No problem, it’s my fault. I should have realized that before getting my nose smashed in.” Sunset holds out her hand with a smile, which I take after a second. “What do you feel like doing? Watch some t.v. or a movie? Play some games?”

As the two help settle me into the couch in a laying down position, I just shake my head. “I’d rather read or nap, you two can do whatever. Just be glad I’m willing to stay out here without an argument.”

“Don’t worry Sunset, she just needs time to readjust. Once she opens up, she isn’t the grumpy angry girl you know now.” With a turn she just winks at me while sticking her tongue out in response to my scowl. “What video games do you have?”

Great, go and ruin the my image, Lily. Thanks. As I continue to scowl at the two, I pick up the fourth installment of the Daring Do series and quickly filter out the outside world as I get lost in my own world. Maybe….. maybe I should take what Chrysalis said into consideration about trying to go on an adventure like Daring does.

Time slips by with me oblivious to all that is going around me. I’m that into the book. A hand on my shoulder takes me off guard as it rests on my shoulder, unannounced and feeling unlike Lily’s usual grip, causing an unwanted flashback.

~~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~~
“Hey sweetie, what are you doing?” My very first foster dad’s hand on my shoulder causes me to jump and I look up at him, smiling.

“Nothing, just reading a book a friend recommended to me.” I continue to smile as I show him the book cover.

“Well, there is something I want to show you down in the basement. It’s a surprise.”

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“NO! GET AWAY, DON’T TOUCH ME!” As I jump I lash out at the person with my good fist. The punch is awkward as I’m not right handed and the angle is poor.

“MOONSHADE! IT’S ME, SUNSET!” Her shout of surprise comes just a second before impact. Lily just watches in shock as Sunset just lays on the floor, shocked as well by my reaction.

A minute later, my vision begins to clear. “Oh my….. Sunset, I am SO SORRY! I….. I didn’t….. I’m…..”

“Sunset, could you….. leave us alone for a few minutes?” All the fiery-haired girl does is nod while scrambling away from us. “Did you….. did you have a flashback?” I only nod as tears begin to fall and I hold her close. “Do you want to talk about it?”

“It….. it was about the….. first time it….. it happened. I don’t want to go into further detail. I’m….. I’m okay now, Lily. Go get Sunset, I need to apologize.” She holds me for a few more minutes before going to go get her.

Before I can say anything, Sunset walks in and just looks at me. “I overheard some of what you said, Moonshade. I’m sorry I startled you and caused the flashback.”

“I’m sorry I punched you. It seems that we both have a lot to get used to. What was it you wanted?”

“Well, Lily and I were getting hungry and wanted to know, what do you want to eat?”

“I voted for Chinese, Sunset wanted pizza.”

“Chinese sounds good. We can play a game as we wait.” The silence that follows as we wait becomes too much and I finally give in to the bad feeling I’m having after only a minute. “Hey Sunset….. who….. who lives down the street two houses away?”

“I don’t know his name, never stopped to ask. He’s creepy though, caught him a few times watching me and my friends as we played in the pool. Why?”

Please let me be wrong. “Can you describe him?” My heart rate begins to increase as I start to fear the worst.

“Well, from what I have seen is that he’s about six foot and wears dark, expensive clothing. He has greasy, slicked back hair and a black soul patch. Moonshade, what is wrong?”

“Relax Moon, it isn’t Dark Hearts. He never wore expensive clothes before. And he’s bald…..”

“Lily, we need to leave here, NOW. It’s worse than him. What are you doing? Let me go!”

“What’s wrong Moonshade?”

“Call Celestia, Luna or that woman Chrysalis and tell them to get here now! Then you HAVE to hide me.”

“MOONSHADE, WHAT IS WRONG?”

Chapter Five; Secret Revealed- Lily

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Watching Moonshade freak out begins to make me feel nervous as Sunset goes off to make a call. “Who do you think it is that has you so worked up, Moon?” As I help get her down off of the couch, there is something I never seen before in her gaze: absolute terror. Who can scare her that badly?

For the next thirty minutes Sunset and I huddle next to Moon, trying to calm her down without saying a thing, though our looks of concern speak volumes. Finally, the door opens in a hurry, with both Celestia and Chrysalis bursting through. “What happened, Sunset?”

As the red and blonde haired teen gets up Chrysalis takes her place, whispering as she holds the two of us tight. However, I pay more attention to what Sunset is saying. “Well, she asked who lived a few houses down and as I was describing him, she just….. freaked out. I guess she thought it was some guy named Dark Hearts at first.”

“I don’t really know them either to be honest. Chrys can-----”

“You don’t even have to ask Tia. Once I get back to the office, I’ll do some digging. I can stay here with them until you get off work,” Chrysalis offers as she gets up and helps get Moon back up into the couch. “But first I’d like to get what information I can from you, Moonshade. You don’t have to tell me now, just take your time and make sure you’re ready to talk about it ok.”

Celestia stays for another five minutes just to make sure everything is okay before heading back to the school. Chrysalis sits on the large couch by Moon’s head while Sunset and I settle back in front of the t.v. with controllers in hand. Before we can get to far into the game we’re playing, Moonshade lets out a sigh and begins, clearly depressed. “He….. he sounds like my uncle, Fire Dancer. He took me in shortly after my parents…..”

Wow, she must be really shaken up to talk about something like this to strangers. Even though I already knew a lot about her past, this is something I have never heard before. Don’t tell me he hurt her as well. Looking at both Sunset and Chrysalis, I can tell they are having similar thoughts.

“Anyway….. for the first few years he was really good, treating me like a princess. He….. he never abused me and he never did anything….. inappropriate with me or his own daughter. I don’t know what happened but he….. changed. He….. it seemed like he got angrier easier and started….. hitting his wife, Blossom Jet, then his daughter and eventually me. It lasted for two months before Blossom divorced him and he lost custody of me and my cousin.”

The unmistakable sounds of sniffling and choked back sobs fill the room as she pauses, letting Sunset and I look up at the older woman who just sits there and holds Moon while stroking her head. What did he do to her? Sunset is just speechless as she sits there.

“I just….. even now, I can’t believe that he would change that quickly without reason. But what is even worse….. his last words to me when I saw him for the last time. He….. he threatened to kill me if he ever saw me again.” Unable to hold back anymore, she breaks down and buries her head into Chrysalis’ stomach.

“Did you know about this?” Sunset whispers as she leans closer to me, her expression full of concern while glancing at Moon.

“No, she….. she rarely talked about her past. Even less about her family.”

Suddenly the doorbell goes off, making Moon jump while Sunset and I look at it in concern. Chrysalis gets up carefully to answer. “Relax girls, it’s just the food you must have ordered. I take ordering Chinese was your idea, Lily.” While she sounds more amused than anything, I can’t help but feel a bit embarrassed. “You better be careful, or you’ll turn into an addict. If that were to happen than we’d have to schedule an intervention, send you away to an addiction facility and whatever else would be needed.”

“Well if it does come down to that, I can blame you, since you introduced me to Chinese.” At least her joke lightened my mood along with Sunset’s. I think Moonshade is asleep, though.

Setting aside the containers with Moonshade’s food, Sunset and I dig in while Chrysalis gets herself something from the fridge. “Lily, I’d rather get the information from her, but I have a feeling that this was a one time thing. Do you know anything about her time with other foster families?”

“Not much, she hated talking about them. From what she did say, she had only one other foster family before coming to mine, though she did open up about what they did to her once my parents started doing it as well. She never mentioned anything about her uncle, and only once has she talked to me about her family.” Once I stop talking, a heavy silence fills the room as we eat. Sunset just looks sad as she eats little of her food and Chrysalis looks like she’s barely containing her anger.

The rest of the three hours are spent with the three of us playing Monopoly while Moon remains passed out on the couch. As the door opens, Celestia and Luna hurry inside, surprisingly followed by Posey and they beeline straight for the far room down the hall. “Chrysalis we need to talk to you, now. It’s about the mess you handed us,” Posey says without stopping.

Sunset just looks at me in confusion as the adults leave us alone. Thankfully, her phone goes off after a few minutes and she heads to the backyard.

“..... is going on with the investigation?” Celestia’s voice drifts from the door as I sneak as close after waiting a few minutes.

“Well, from what I have noticed, not much. They are doing a lot to sweep it under the rug. What has been the news with Lily's parents?” A sigh follows Posey’s response.

“They opted to take the hard way. I had all their accounts frozen and the company they work for is also having some….. issues as well. I’m also working on uncovering their online trail and chatter. However, they seem to have a friend in the police department.” Chrysalis’ voice sounds….. surprisingly happy as she speaks.

“Sister, I was approached two days ago by someone looking for both Lily and Moonshade. It is only time until they come looking here.” Luna on the other hand sounds cautious.

“So how are we going to proceed in dealing with this possible threat and with this new issue brought on by Moonshade?” Celestia asks calmly.

“I can take a look into the past events on what happened to Moonshade’s uncle. I’m starting to think that he was set up for some reason,” Chrysalis offers.

“Alright, until we get a better handle on things, I’m thinking it might be best to move them to a safer location. Your second house would be perfect for it, Chrys. It’s got a great view of not just the road but also the driveway, plus the security fence and gate.” Once Celestia gets them to agree, I duck into the bathroom in an attempt to avoid suspicion that I was eavesdropping.

As I step out of the bathroom, a hand on my shoulder stops me and I turn to come face to face with Chrysalis. “You heard most of it, didn’t you?”

“Yes I did. Are you….. are you angry?”

“No, I am however relieved. I like you, kiddo, and keeping secrets from you is….. hard. You have every right to know some of this, at least what is going on with your parents.” Chrysalis turns, and with her arm around my shoulder, we head into the living room.

“Hey, sorry about freaking you guys out earlier.”

“Welcome back to the land of the living Moon, did you enjoy your nap?” Carefully, I wrap my arms around her neck.

“Yeah, and….. to be truthful, in more ways than one. Maybe….. maybe you were right. Anyway, what is going on?”

Chapter Six; Meeting New Faces- Moonshade

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*****One Week Later*****

“Are you sure I have to do this, Sunset?” A scowl decorates my face as she reminds me of a promise I don’t even remember making. “Why do I have to meet your friends again?” Lily and Celestia took off to do some shopping and to visit Chrysalis for something.

“For the fifth time yes, you do. I can’t spend the whole four months or so looking after you, I do need to go to school. Applejack and Rarity agreed to take turns helping you out. Besides, it doesn’t hurt trying to make new friends, which you also agreed to do.”

“Fiiine, when are th----- I take it that’s them.” The sound of the bell ringing follows the sounds of some sort of powerful engine, like what you’d expect from a pickup truck. Giving Sunset another scowl, I watch as she goes and opens the door.

“Sunset darling, how have you been?” The girl entering first looks high class with her styled hair, flawless skin and perfectly done makeup. A hug between the two causes me to sink down further into the couch. “And you must be Moonshade. It is a pleasure to meet you.” Her extended hand and wide smile is met by my suspicious gaze for a few minutes before I take her hand gingerly.

“I’m doing well, thank you Rarity. How have you and the others been?” Sunset says as she watches my interaction, frowning as I refused to take the fashion nerd’s hand. “Hey, Applejack.”

Following the purple-haired girl is the cowgirl I slightly remember from the group. “Howdy Sunset, Ah’m doin’ good. Thanks fer invintin’ us over taday. Nice ta make yer acquaintance, Moonshade.” With a sigh I take the hick’s hand unwillingly, wincing a little at the strength she obviously is holding back.

“I too am doing well, along with the others.” Curiously, Rarity looks at my arms and the fingerless gloves I’m wearing. “Darling, why are you wearing those….. things? I’d be more than happy to make you a new pair.”

“I’d say I would return the feeling, but you two don’t yet deserve to be lied to. And I would rather keep these….. for personal reasons.” My attention turns from them and Sunset to the book I was reading.

“Thank you for coming and helping out. Don’t take her rudeness personally, she hates meeting strangers, though hopefully after your week with her she may open up a little to you guys,” Sunset says as she sits down in the love seat, which happens to be across from the couch with a large table set up between us.

“No worries Sunset, that’s what friends do. What ya readin’ over there, Moonshade?” Applejack settles into the chair next to Sunset as Rarity settles next to me, obviously thinking about something as I catch her examining me.

Well, like it or not I have to put up with them. And why is Rarity looking at me like that? “It’s the sixth book of the Daring Do series.” Turning to the well, dressed girl next to me, I flood my next words with as much annoyance and disgust as I can. “May I HELP you?”

Watching Rarity shift a little brings me a bit of satisfaction, though Sunset and Applejack look at me in disapproval. Bolstered by her friends, she still answers even though I never expected or wanted one. “Sorry darling, I had some ideas for a few outfits they would look fabulous on you, once you got all healed up of coarse. Also was thinking that you and Rainbow have a common interest.”

Before I can protest, Sunset gives me a hard stare and grumpily I accept the girl’s offer with a nod, not trusting myself to speak. “Alright, who is up for a game? We’re playing with teams so Rarity, you and Moonshade can be a team, leaving me to team with AJ.”

“Can’t you three just play something on your own and let me read?”

“Nope, that would be the opposite of what you promised. Now, it’s either spend time with them or I can call Pinkie Pie and Rainbow Dash over and let them show you how to party hard.”

“Ugh Fiiine, but no teams, we can play rummy or poker or something.”

“And that is how you get her to compromise when she starts getting extra grouchy. Though it won’t be too bad when Lily is here.” Sunset’s announcement causes the other two to giggle as I just sit there and glare at her.

Shortly after starting the game, the trio start to chatter about what they have been up to and whatnot, which I stay out of. At least until my good shin is kicked, not hard but enough to get my attention. “Ah was askin’ what ya’d like ta do fer fun.” Another kick to the shin and a nod from Sunset forces me to answer Applejack’s question.

“I like to read.”

After waiting for a minute, Rarity chimes in curiously. “Surely there must be some other interests and hobbies you have. If not I am certain we can find something else you will enjoy, especially when you are healed up.” A look crosses her face as her smile gets wider. “I know, if you are allowed, why don’t we all go trick-or-treating together? Halloween is only a month away and I have the perfect idea for a costume for you, Moonshade.”

“I doubt I’ll be healed up enough, but even if I am, getting dressed up in some stupid costume for a stupid holiday to beg for candy and humiliate myself is NOT what I consider fun.” As the three girls just look at me in shock, I can feel my blood starting to boil.

“Are you okay, darling?”

“Yes I’m perfectly okay, why wouldn’t I be? I’m sitting here in a stranger's house with two strangers and one near stranger while my shoulder and ankle are killing me along with developing a headache. I have to be helped in doing the simplest, stupidest things at all times, and now there is a girl sitting next to me who is talking about dressing me up and taking me out to do something I don’t want to do!” The girls jump back as I flip over a table with my good arm while screaming my frustration.

“Why are you so angry right now, Moon? You’ve actually been somewhat good this past week,” Sunset asks cautiously after a minute as Applejack and Rarity sit on opposite sides of me, comfortingly holding me while letting her talk.

“I’m angry about a lot of things okay! I’m angry at myself for my stupidity that put me in this damn situation, I’m angry that I can’t help but feel nervous and ready to fight when meeting new people and I’m especially angry that I’m NOT NORMAL AND CAN NEVER BE NORMAL AGAIN!”

The two girls next to me give my shoulders another careful squeeze as I break down for the first time in a week. “Ya need ta seriously talk ta someone about what has been eatin’ ya up. It ain’ healthy ta keep yer emotions bottled up like ya are.”

Is it….. really that simple? Who can I trust? Lily of course, though she knows most of this and is going through her own issues, but….. do I trust Sunset and the adults? It….. it did sort of feel good when I talked about my uncle to Chrysalis. I guess I could….. try it. “Could you….. could you two leave me and Sunset alone please?”

With a nod, the girls leave as Sunset looks at me curiously. “So, why did you want to talk alone?”

“Well….. I think….. I think it’s time I try and….. talk to someone besides Lily about what I’m….. feeling.”

“I’m glad you finally realized it. I know you’ve been hurt in the past, but think you can try and talk about this with the others? Give them a chance to know what you are going through and how they can help you when you have one of these off days.”

“I’ll try.”

“That is all I’m asking for, and I’ll be right here if you need me okay.” After I give her a nod full of uncertainty, she goes and get the others. I hope you can be trusted, Sunset.

Once the trio return and sit around me with Sunset on my left, I start after taking a couple of deep breaths. “I know was acting like a bitch earlier and I can’t promise it won’t happen in the future, but if you’re gonna be here with me you do need to know why.” Glancing at Sunset, her smile and encouraging thumbs up as I pause brings a slight, fleeting smile to my own lips. “My past has been….. rough. I’ve been hurt by people I trusted and who were supposed to protect me, I’ve lost all connection to my real family. I’ve been abandoned, abused, belittled and treated like trash by not just my two foster families but also by all of my so-called ‘friends’ except for Lily. You want to know the real reason why I wear these, Rarity?” Looking at the girl, I don’t even give her time to answer as I grip an edge of the glove on my good arm with my teeth and pull. “This is why.” Holding up my arm, I show off the multitude of scars covering my wrist, causing all three to look on in concern. “I hide these because I hate being reminded how weak I am, being unable to go through with my suicide attempts, plus I’ve been ridiculed and shunned for them.”

“Ya ain’ weak fer not following through, sugarcube. Yer strong an’ don’ wanna give up despite what ya’ve been through.” Applejack, who is sitting on my left wraps her arms carefully around me, joining in the hug.

“Yes darling, it is terrible you have been pushed to that point many times and that you have been failed by so many you trusted. Please give us a chance to show you that there are people who can be trusted and want to help you live a better life,” Rarity says before joining into the group hug.

“I promise we won’t hurt you Moonshade, and if ever you feel that bad, don’t be afraid to talk to us. Also, I think you should really consider talking to a professional as well,” Sunset finishes as I lean my head into her shoulder and release the pent up emotional storm while surrounded and held by the three friends, my tears quickly soaking her shirt.

Chapter Seven; Mall Adventures- Lily

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As Celestia drops me off in front of the mall, I rush towards the dark-skinned woman who saved me and wrap my arms tight around her middle after finding her among the endless crowd of people as they mill through the revolving door. “Hey Chrys, how have you been?”

She returns the hug with a laugh while Celestia heads off to find a parking spot, and I try to drown out the endless cacophony of multiple conversations by the crowds as they move past us.

“Not too bad, kiddo, how has life been treating you and Moonshade? Haven’t had any problems recently, have you?” When we break apart, her hand finds mine and my fingers grip hers in a tight embrace without even thinking.

“Actually, things have been surprisingly good. I think Moonshade is actually starting to slightly settle in, though I think she hates having to be helped out with a lot of things still. She can’t wait to be freed of her cast and sling.”

“That’s good to hear, and I’m sorry I haven’t been able to visit as much as I wanted to------”

“It has to do with my parents and Moon’s uncle, doesn’t it?” I interrupt while wrapping my arms tight around my chest. I know she is doing something good, but even so….. if feels as if my parents are still hurting me.

“Yea, but I’ll tell you what kiddo, if Celestia and Luna agree you can spend the rest of the weekend with us. And any other weekend you want to, too.”

“Thanks Chrys, I’m looking forward to it. Think we can go for a spin on your bike?” Before she can answer, she looks up and smiles as a voice comes from behind me.

“What are you looking forward to, Lily? And why do you want to go for a spin on her bike?” The seriousness of the voice clues me into who it is that snuck up behind me, along with the arms that wrapped me in a hug from behind.

“Hey Luna, glad to see you were able to make it, why couldn’t you ride with me and Celestia?” Still in her embrace, I twist around and return the hug as Celestia joins us.

“I had something I needed to care of with Posey, but she gave me time off for good behavior.” With both Luna and Chrys resting an arm around my shoulders, we step inside the mall with Chrysalis mentioning something about avoiding the GameStop or any other store that deals with video games, much to Luna’s disappointment.

The first store we enter is actually a cellphone carrier, which surprises me. “Well, we have been talking it over and think it would be a good idea if you and Moonshade had your own cellphones and maybe a tablet or iPad,” All I can do is just stare in confusion at Celestia. I’ve….. I’ve never had a cellphone before. “Also, it seems you have fourteen years of birthdays to make up for, and Moonshade has five. Go ahead and pick out a cellphone for yourself and one for Moonshade.” Without missing a beat or turning to look at Luna, she adds, “And no, we are not getting them a laptop or computer. You may want to increase the number of your gaming minions, but I won’t allow them to be taken advantage of. Besides, you have too many gaming systems throughout the house already, we don’t need more.”

Giggling at Luna’s dejected expression, I turn my attention back to the store and the walls. With so many types of phones and devices, I find it very hard to decide on which ones myself and Moon would like. It takes a very long time till we’re walking out the store, my new phone in my pocket and the rest of the stuff in a bag. As we pass a high end fashion store, I can’t help but stop and stare at the merchandise inside. “We don’t know much about fashion, but next time we come here, we’ll bring Rarity if you want to explore. She knows a lot about fashion and can help pick out some outfits that will look good on you.” Celestia’s words are followed a round of laughter from the women as they notice my expression. With a little prodding, we continue going through a couple more stores with two more bags joining the one from the wireless store. However, the store I spot across the walkway from us gains my attention, and I barrel inside in an excited rush. “I blame you for anything bad that may come of this, Chrys. Consider this an advanced warning.”

Ignoring the adults, I take in the racks covered in biker gear, helmets and boots settled on shelves lining three of the walls. Also inside are scooters and bikes, both mountain and BMX style, but are largely ignored as I go through the leather jackets and pants as if in a trance. “You made this mess Chrys, you fix it.” I barely hear Celestia’s words as I go through the racks, pulling out the many different styles and colors of gear, sometimes even trying them on.

“Gladly. So Lily, if you can have just one thing besides a loving family what would you want?” Chrysalis’ words startle me as she stands at my left side, an arm draped around my shoulders.

Without hesitating I answer, noticing the look of horror on Celestia’s face while Luna has a goofy grin and Chrysalis beams brightly. “I want a bike like yours.”

“That’s my girl, gimme a high five.” Holding her hand up to a height where I have to jump, Chrys sticks her tongue out at Celestia, which only makes her madder. “You told me to fix it, but you didn’t say how.”

“If you go through with this, then her safety is all YOUR responsibility. If she gets hurt YOU deal with it, understood?” Once the two agree, we get ourselves some food from the food court, though to my disappointment I’m veered away from the Chinese stand and into the sandwich shop. “Why don’t we go to the park and eat, it’s a nice enough day.” My grumbles of unwilling acceptance earns me a laugh from the sisters and Chrys as we order our food.

With the bags tossed into the trunk and the food bags secured, we walk the short distance to the park, being stopped by Fluttershy for a minute as she crosses our path on her way to the animal shelter. After a brief exchange of pleasantries, I find out that she is a regular volunteer there. I know Moon likes animals despite her hard outer shell, maybe her and Fluttershy can get together and help out there sometime.

The park is very well kept, with hardly any trash being blown about in the lazy breeze. The play area is filled with little kids while families take advantage of the good weather and have get togethers with friends and extended members. Chrys’ hand on my back snaps me out of my thoughts as she steers me towards a picnic table closest to the woods that offers a good view of the pond or lake or whatever you want to call it. “Hey kiddo, since you obviously didn’t hear, Celestia will allow you to have a dirt bike, but only to be used in specific places, got it? So either later today or tomorrow we’ll go and get you one, your choice. Consider this as a birthday and Christmas gift in one.” In stunned silence, all I can do in reply is nod dumbly as my brain begins to process what I just thought I heard.

“Anyway, who’s hungry?” Celestia asks with a smile and giggle while opening up the containers.

As we get ready to divvy up the food into who ordered what, I notice both Celestia and Luna staring at something in horror. “WATCH OUT!” The warning comes behind me just before a blur crashes into a stand of trees.

“Well, that is something else we can say we aren’t good at, though we must be good at getting covered in sap, mud and leaves. Hey, maybe that could be our talent!” A girl a few years younger than myself says as she stands up while pulling a few leaves out of her purple hair.

“Ah don’ know if that is a real talent or not, Scoots.” The accent reminds me of Applejack’s as a second girl stands up, oblivious to the four of us watching them. “An’ if it is, Ah’m not sure how we’d be able ta apply it.”

“I know, I know!” a third girl squeaks out. “Our talent could be crashing things, or demolition.”

“Ya really think so, Sweetie? Cause Ah don’ think sis or Big Mac would…… he- howdy principal Celestia, vice-principal Luna.” The southern-accented girl says nervously, realizing they have an audience.

“What have I told you girls about staying out of trouble and not doing anything so reckless?” Looking at Luna curiously I study the girls a bit closer as they face us, trying to hide their smiles while at the same time staring at the ground as the tree they hit continues to vibrate from the impact and leaves fall in clumps on them.

“Scootaloo, you weren’t doing something dangerous, where you?” Celestia adds as she steps in front of the trio, looking at them seriously.

“No Ms. Celestia, we were just having fun and kinda….. lost control,” the orange skinned girl with purple hair says as she scuffs her foot across the ground. “Look, we aren’t hurt and----- you must be Moonshade. I’m Scootaloo, this is Apple Bloom and Sweetie Belle,” she says when she looks up for the first time, staring at me curiously then motioning first to the red haired girl with overalls before gesturing to the girl with two tone pink and purple hair and white skin. “We heard about you from our sisters and hope that whatever you are running from they can help you with.”

“Nice to meet you girls, but I’m not Moonshade. My name’s Lily Bloom, but I do know her and will pass along your wishes.” Smiling, I take their hands as the seven of us sit around a worn, wooden table. A gentle breeze flows around us as the food is unpacked. “Is this the normal thing you girls do for fun?” Soon the food cartons are opened, revealing a mixture of subs, coleslaw, macaroni and potato salad, along with a bag of chips and two two-liter pops.

“We have enough food and plastic utensils, if you three are hungry you can join us,” Celestia offers after the girls look hopefully at unpacked food. “You three do know it’s rude to speak to someone else while you are talking to a different person, right?”

As the customary scramble for food begins, Apple Bloom answers as soon as she sits back down with an over loaded plate, threatening to dump its contents. “Yes ma’am, why are ya hangin’ out with the principal an’ vice-principal?”

The other two along with the three adults look at me somewhat tensely as I take my time to answer. “My….. my parents weren’t doing their job with me and I had to be taken away from them. Celestia and Luna offered to take care of me until something more permanent can be found, I’m very grateful to them.” As sadness and memories try to take over, I just stare at my food until Chrysalis lays a comforting hand on my back.

“So, does this mean you’ll be joining us at Canterlot High?” Sweetie squeaks excitedly while Scootaloo and Apple Bloom shout, nearly knocking their plates and the rest of the food onto the ground. “What about Moonshade? Can we meet her soon? Will she also be joining you for enrollment? Can we show them around, principal Celestia? PLEASE?” The first three questions are a jumbled mess by then, but they manage to ask the last question in unison, along with the please.

It is Luna who answers first, her tone serious as she glares at them, waiting for the girls to sit down. “I do not believe that would be a good idea to let you show them around right now, girls. As for Moonshade, yes, she will be enrolled when she is ready and right now, it is not yet the right time for her to meet to many people, but you will in time.” After the girls settle down, the rest of the lunch goes by in silence. The trio, cowed or in deep thought stay silent and stare at the ground while I struggle with the persistent memories. Celestia and Luna are probably afraid to say something that could possibly push me over the razor edge as Chrys whispers comforting words while continually rubbing my back.

Eventually the uncomfortable silence becomes too much, and after calming down some, I take some time and get to know the three, eventually promising to not only hang out with them at some point but also introducing them to Moonshade, if they can control themselves. However, the peacefulness is broken by Chrys’ calmly spoken words after she hangs up from a call she took while I wasn’t paying attention. “Celestia, we need to go. You three can come with us, and we’ll drop you off at your houses.”

Aw, I was having fun too. Wonder why she wants to leave so suddenly.

Chapter Eight; Shared Pain- Moonshade

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“So instead of a game, why don’t we watch a movie or something?” I croak out as I finish sniffling and release Sunset, who gets up and hurries to the kitchen. The clinking of ice falling into a glass soon comes from her direction.

“That sounds like a wonderful idea, darling. Is there any movie in particular you would like to see?” Rarity breaks away from me as well with a smile as she joins Applejack in cleaning up the mess of the game.

“No, not really. I… I can’t remember the last time I saw a movie, or at least… one I enjoyed.” Stupid idiot, yet again someone has to clean up a mess I made because I had to be a dumbass. “And… sorry about the mess.”

“We understand sugarcube, an’ it ain’ no trouble at all. And Ah wanna talk ta ya alone before we get ta the movie if ya don’ mind, Moonshade.” As the game is cleaned, Applejack finishes straightening up the room before giving me a gentle pat on my knee.

“Thank you, Sunset.” She returns without a word and hands me a glass of water. With a semi smile I down the fluid greedily, not realizing how dry my throat was. “What do you want to talk to me about?”

“Go ahead Moonshade, you two have something in common that she understands.” Sunset's words of encouragement draws my gaze to her, which causes her smile.

“Sure, but… can we… can we go to the guest room please?” With a nod, Applejack gets up and begins to help me get up. “Just… don’t worry about the wheelchair please, I’ll hobble next to you.”

“Sorry Moonshade, but doctor’s orders. You can’t be walking around yet.” My scowl is the only answer to Sunset’s reminder as Applejack begins to wheel me down the hall after helping me into the chair.

“Okay Applejack, you said you wanted to talk to me, so start talking.”

“Is this yer Ma an’ Pa?” She gently picks up a picture I managed to keep, still inside the homemade frame I asked my uncle to make for me. The picture is of their wedding day, which was held outside, right in front of a clear blue lake. Mom’s dress and hair flutters in the wind as it blows from the right, a heart made of white flowers standing just behind them as dad holds mom tightly while dressed in his uniform, both of them smiling brightly.

“Yea, could you… could you please put it back?” Staring at the picture, I can’t help but feel a pang of sadness.

“Sure thing sugarcube, an’ Ah know how hard it can be, losin’ yer parents.” I just look at her in a mix of surprise and skepticism though I let her continue. “Fer me, Ah lost mine shortly after mah sister was born. Ta this day Ah don’ like talkin’ about it, instead Ah wanna focus on the happy memories. Ah’ll be right back, this can take a little talkin’ an’ Ah’m gettin’ thirsty, ya wanna pop or water?”

“Both, please.”

“Sure thing, Ah’ll be back.” As she leaves I look back at the picture and pull out the other picture I have stashed away in the top drawer. This one contains mom, dad and myself with mom showing off her new baby bump. This was the last picture we took as a family before dad went away and… died. The picture was taken while we were at the beach. Why… how can I focus on the happy times without getting sad?

“Sugarcube, are ya okay?” Applejack’s voice and gentle touch rouses me from my thoughts, and I can feel the tears start to swell again as I put the picture down, nodding in response as she hands me the glass of water first. “Here ya go. Fer a long time Ah blamed mahself an’ Rarity fer the events that led to their deaths. Ah felt as if Ah shoulda died with them that day.”

If that’s so, how come they’re friends now? “What… what happened?”

“Earlier that day, Rares an’ Ah got inta a fight at school. We were friends at that point as well, though not as close as we are now. After Ah got home, Ah was still upset but still accompanied Ma an’ Pa as they were inspectin’ the fencing around the farm.” Taking a breath, she shudders as tears start forming in the crease of her closed eyes. But despite the sadness of her story, her tone of voice is strong and steady.

I don’t know what caused it, but I can’t help it as I reach out and drape my good arm around her shoulders in a small gesture of comfort. “Thanks sugarcube. As Ah said, Ah don’ talk about it much anymore. Wasn’ ready fer the rollercoaster it caused.” After taking a couple of deep breaths, she continues. “There was a rope bridge that used ta cross a gorge tha’ connected ta our land an’ we inspect it every time we go ta the southern fields. As we were makin’ our way there, a scream from that direction sent us inta a flat out sprint, an’ what Ah saw terrified me. Rarity was on her way over fer some reason an’ took the shortcut, but… one o’ the ropes snapped, with the other one beginnin’ ta fray. She was hangin’ onta the far edge as best she could, though she was startin’ ta loose her grip.”

As she takes a break to drink some of her water, I can only imagine what must have been and probably still is going through her mind. “You don’t have to continue if you don’t want to, I’-----”

“Ah want ta, it might help ya get through some o’ yer pain. Ah wanna hear yer story when Ah finish. Mah Pa went out onta the bridge quickly while Ma held onta the good rope, hopin’ ta keep it steady. Unfortunately she was losin’ her footin’ in the soft dirt, slowly but surely inchin’ closer ta the edge. Pa, he... he took Rares an’ tossed her as best he could towards me. Ah was able ta catch her, though she was still far from safe ‘cause she was danglin’ from the edge.” Looking into her green eyes, which are blurred a little from her tale, I can tell how painful recounting it is to her, and the strength she must have to not let it affect her. “As Ah was tryin’ ta pull Rarity up Ah… Ah watched as Ma an’ Pa… as they… the other rope snapped, causin’ Pa ta be thrown from the bridge as Ma was pulled inta the gorge. Ah… they were lookin’ straight up at me as they fell, directly… directly inta mah eyes until they went under the surface o’ the water. The last words they said ta me was that they loved me. Ah… Ah was in such a state o’... shock that Rare had ta carry me ta the house and inta mah room. Ah have no idea how long Ah stayed in there, locked up, but when Ah finally did come out Ah… Ah was different… empty inside. Eventually Ah… Ah took out mah anger an’ pain on little Apple Bloom, Rarity an’ anyone else Ah could. Granny eventually intervened, an’ after gettin’ a scoldin’ from her, Ah finally opened up about how much pain Ah was feelin’. Shortly after our talk, Ah moved ta Manehattan ta be with mah aunt an’ uncle, tryin’ ta escape the painful memories.”

“I’m… I’m sorry you had to deal with that Applejack, but… how come you and Rarity are still friends? Shouldn’t you… hate her for what happened? Wouldn’t that have been more… appropriate?”

“Naw, cause Ah know Rarity didn’ do it once Ah got around ta listenin’ ta Granny. It was a real windy day an’ one o’ the posts on the opposite side was rotten on the inside.”

“Why aren’t you more hateful or angry over losing your parents? HOW… HOW CAN YOU BE SO… HAPPY AND FRIENDLY AFTER EXPERIENCING THAT?”

“Ah’ll answer that question, but first Ah wanna hear yer story an’ Ah have a few questions fer ya, okay?”

“I… I don’t… I… please don’t make me.”

“It’s the only way yer gonna be able ta heal, sugarcube. Ya do wanna find peace an’ happiness don’ ya?”

I don’t want to, but… could talking about it actually be helpful? Maybe I’ll just give her the short version. “My dad… he… he died while overseas, he was in the military. Mom… died while in the hospital giving birth to my… my brother, who also died during birth.” Even the short version brings tears as the familiar surges of anger, hate and pain flood through me along with a new sensation as Applejack holds me carefully close to her.

“Ah don’ wanna hear that short version Moon, an’ only tellin’ the short version won’ help.”

Without thinking or stopping myself I bury my head into her shoulder. “Dad… he was a soldier and was… deployed. I… I can’t remember where, what I do remember is that… he was chatting with mom and me. The enemy must have… I remember hearing explosions in the background and dad he… he ran off, saying he loved us and… and was looking forward to…” As I speak, I squeeze myself even tighter into Applejack’s hug as I’m shaking with each sob, my words at times are garbled as I cry. “I… during his funeral I was… I was numb to everything, I… I didn’t even react when they did the twenty-one gun salute. I still have the flag that was presented to us.” I shakily open the bottom drawer and right on top is the still-folded flag, a wrapped package underneath it.

I try multiple times to continue but can’t stop crying, at least until she presses the glass of water to my lips, which I drink in an attempt to soothe my sore throat and also to drown out my pain. “There ya go sugarcube, let it all out.”

At her urging I find myself wanting to surprisingly continue. “Mom… we were… my uncle took us to the hospital a couple months later. She… she was different after dad’s death and funeral. I… I don’t know how long we were there, just that… I was brought in from the waiting area, the doctor’s voice was sad as he talked to uncle, who just nodded and walked inside behind me. I… I bounded in there as happy as I can remember being. Then the… fantasy I was thinking of was… shattered. My new brother was… he was already… and mom… she… she must have just... I was… she was.... hugging me, as I was allowed to be up on the bed with her. I was… her arms were still....”

The dam I was trying to keep in place finally breaks spectacularly and the shoulder of Applejack’s shirt is quickly soaked with my tears. Once my bursts of sobs quiet down to sniffles, she pulls me away from her a little, tilting my head back to where I’m looking up at her. “Now sugarcube, how are ya feelin’?”

“I… I feel… how is it that now I’m actually feeling… a little better?”

“Cryin’ an’ tears can actually be healin’ fer whatever hurt yer goin’ through, along with sharin’ the weight of yer pain. As fer yer question, with help from mah brother and granny Ah was able ta start rememberin’ the good times Ah had with them, all the moments we spent together bein’ happy. Ah came ta realize that how Ah was feelin’ an’ actin’, specially ta little Bloom, wasn’ how they raised me, nor the expectations they had fer me. Ah know now that they want me ta be happy an’ enjoy life while makin’ em proud. Also, Ah’ve been seein’ a psychiatrist, though the visits have been fewer an’ fewer. He’s a good person, an’ Ah’m sure he can help ya as well.”

“Hmph, lucky. You had help getting over it, me? I have no family, or at least none I talk to.”

“So? Ya have Lily, ya have Celestia, Luna, Chrysalis an’ us, if ya’ll let us be there fer ya. There is a support system fer ya, but ya have ta want it.” With a smile, she reaches into the still open top drawer, pulling out the Purple Heart awarded to dad. “What is this?”

“I… I want it, I truly do Applejack.” Without a second to think, I throw myself against her again, giving her a tight hug as a genuine smile, though slight, curls my lips upwards. “And that, that was awarded to my dad, posthumously… what are you doing?” After answering her, Applejack reaches over and pins the medal on the left side of my shirt before pulling out another pin, this one a replica of the unit patch dad was in, and I find it pinned on the right side.

“Applejack darling, is everything alright in there?” Rarity’s voice comes through the closed door.

“Yea Rares, we’ll be out in a bit. Though think ya can come in? There is somethin’ Ah need yer help with.”

“Of course, what do you need help with?” As Rarity enters the room Applejack shows her the folded flag.

“Well, since yer better with decoratin’ an’ whatnot, Ah figured ya could find the best spot fer this ta be displayed, or Ah got an idea fer it, if ya don’ mind if Ah borrow it Moon. Ah promise yer gonna like it.”

“Thanks for taking the time to talk to me, Applejack. Why do you want to put that flag up? And what do you have in mind?”

“No problem, if ya ever wanna talk don’ be afraid ta pull me aside. An’ ya can call me AJ if ya want. As fer why Ah wanna have this flag displayed, cause yer Pa sacrificed himself so ya can be free, as fer mah idea, yer gonna have ta trust me.” As she pats my good shoulder Apple… AJ also gathers up the worn down and tearing photo album the two pictures came from. “An’ Ah’ll have ta borrow this as well.”

Before she helps me into the wheelchair, I reopen and reach into the bottom drawer to pull out another memento from my parents, this one I kept but haven’t seen or held since their death, and I unwrap it once I’m seated in the chair. As both AJ and Rarity begin to wheel me out the room, I hug the BDU-wearing teddy bear tight as we reenter the living room.

“Did you have a good talk?” Sunset asks as she spots us coming from the hallway.

“Ah think we did, don’ ya think Moon?”

“Yea, I think so too. Rarity, could you… I… could you maybe… make something for me?”

“Of course darling, what would you like me to make?” Her eyes seem to light up as she answers, probably at the thought of trying her hand on making me something.

“I… I want a shirt made to… to remember my dad by, and some arm wraps or whatever they are called to remember my mom.”

“Of course darling, I would be delighted to make you something. And before you say anything, no, you do not have to worry about paying me for it."

Chapter Nine; Shared Pain- Lily

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“Okay kiddo, we gotta go and drop these three off and then we need to talk to Posey. Bacon-Hair can help you set up the electronics, just stay out of trouble and call if anything happens,” Chrysalis says with a grin as she hugs me while my arms are full of the bags from our shopping spree.

“Sure thing Chrys, am I still gonna be coming over tomorrow?”

“Of course, I made a promise didn’t I?”

Grinning like the mad hatter, I open the door after Chrysalis, followed by Luna and Celestia giving me a tight hug and a kiss on the cheek. Humming happily, I am totally unprepared for the scene I walk into.

Moonshade is in the loveseat, but what is most surprising is the fact that she is using Applejack’s lap as a pillow and has a genuine smile as she shares a large bowl of popcorn with the cowgirl. Sunset and Rarity are sharing the couch with their own smaller bowls. As I do a double take at where Moonshade, is I notice the teddy bear she has on her chest. “Hey Lil, did you have a good time? And what is with all the bags?” Sunset pauses the movie as Moon is the first to greet me.

“Okay, who are you and what have you done with Moonshade? The Moon I know would NEVER be caught in this kind of predicament.”

“It’s me Lily, I promise. I know this looks weird for me, but… after having a nice, long talk with AJ, I felt a lot better.”

The others just stay silent for now as they watch me as I wrap my arms tightly around her neck. “I’m glad to hear that they had a breakthrough with you. And as for what are in the bags, well…” I dig out the phone and tablet boxes I picked out for her and hand them over. “Celestia got us each our own phone and tablet. They have cases and screen protectors already attached, they just need to be set up. I’m curious, what did you guys talk about?”

“Thanks Lily, I appreciate it. As for what we talked about… well… me and AJ, we have… something in common. She… she lost her parents as well. After talking with her about what happened… I felt as if a weight was lifted from my shoulders.”

Must have been a hell of a talk to have her looking so… not happy, but maybe… content? “Well I’m happy about it, thank you AJ.”

“No problem, Moon jus’ needed some help with gettin’ through the first stage o’ healin’, talkin’ about yer pain. Though Ah know we only scratched the tip o’ the iceberg with her.”

“Wait, there are more stages to healing than just talking about it? And what do you mean by tip off the iceberg?” Moon’s attempt to sit up in alarm causes all four of us to laugh as she fails and lands back on Applejack’s lap with a groan.

“Yep, and one of those stages is forgiveness, which has a couple stages all of its own,” Sunset says as she gets up and scoots over closer to Rarity, offering the seat next to her for me. I sit instead I sit in the armchair, which happens to be closer to the love seat.

“As for what we mean by tip of the iceberg darling, we know there is more than just the loss of your parents that is hurting you. And Lily, we also noticed that you are also hiding some pain, though we promise not to force you to talk about it, as long as you promise to talk about whatever is bothering you when you are ready.” Rarity looks at me with a serious expression, mimicked by both Sunset and Applejack while I look at Moonshade, who is wearing the same ‘do we really have to’ expression as I am.

“And what if… what if I can’t… won’t forgive whoever hurt me? I don’t think I’ll ever be able to… not after what they did.” I can’t forgive my parents, they can rot in hell after what they did.

“Then you’ll never be able find happiness, the pain will never go away and will eventually eat you up. You want to find happiness and peace? Well this is the only way.” Sunset gets up from her seat and looks at the both of us as Applejack gets up from her spot, directing me to take her spot. “And don’t think of forgiveness as what they show in the movies or t.v.. Instead, it is something that takes time and has its own stages. Being able to forgive someone who badly hurt you means you willingly and truthfully give up any resentment, anger and hurt they caused. True forgiveness is more than just words and it doesn’t mean you forget what happened, but rather work through it to where the pain and hurt no longer controls your life.”

“Ya don’ wanna be holdin’ onta that pain forever, do ya?” Applejack asks as Sunset finishes talking, looking directly at the two of us.

“No, but…” Both Moonshade and myself start to answer. I don’t know what is going on in Moon’s mind but… I just hate the idea of forgiving them.

“No buts darlings, it is either yes or no. And the first step is admitting that the event hurt you and how badly it hurt you.” Rarity cuts off our answer, but I can’t help thinking how much I hate the idea as she speaks.

“I know how hard it can be to forgive, and not just others but yourself as well.” A sigh escapes from the fire haired girl as she seems to have deflated some. “I wasn’t always like this. Back when I started going to Canterlot High I quickly became the queen bitch, with a capital bitch. Before I came here I had a mentor who also happened to be someone of great importance, she took me in and taught me. Me, an orphan with no real future, impressed her that much. As the years went on under her wing, I grew more and more resentful, and I never knew the real reason for it. I guess she never knew it either. Eventually I learned that I could become as good as she was or even better using a cheat. The pursuit of wanting that power she could give me blew up and she ran me out of the building. Eventually, I became enrolled here and started taking the resentment and anger on everyone else, and it only got worse when I learned she took a new student who showed great promise.”

Sunset takes a deep breath and shudders a little as Rarity and Applejack stand behind her, comforting hands on her shoulders. “I tore almost every group of friends apart, including these five, but the new student was able to undo all of that and… defeated me with the help of her new five friends. They’ve shown me a different path to live, a better path, and while they forgave me easily enough, the rest of the students, and more importantly myself, had yet to forgive me. During that period of being friends with these five girls, they planned something special for me over Christmas: one sleepover a night for five days, with the last one including a huge party. I was excited and looking forward to the first Christmas I had freed of my darkness.” Taking a glance upwards I notice that the two girls who are standing have expressions of pure shame as they glance at each other. “After the second party, rumors started being spread on MyStable using an account that had coloration matching my skin and hair. It didn’t take long until it spiraled out of control, making all the students think I was up to my old tricks, even my friends thought I was behind it, and they did have some strong evidence I couldn’t argue against.”

“We aren’ really proud o’ what we did ta ya, Sunset.” Applejack’s hand squeezes the shoulder she is gripping and her head hangs in shame.

“We really should have listened to you more and given you a chance to explain,” Rarity adds, following Applejack’s lead. Both girls smile a little as Sunset drapes her hands over theirs.

“We may have made up after the real troublemakers turned themselves in, but… for a long time I felt… angry with them and barely wanted to spend time with them, even avoiding them for days at a time. At this time I still hadn’t forgiven myself for the problems I caused and the bitch I allowed myself to be, I thought I deserved everything I was getting. It wasn’t until my only other friend, my mentor’s new student, stopped by to check up on me that I learned how to truly forgive the others and myself.” Sunset gives the hands she is holding a hard squeeze while smiling before continuing. “After going through that whole process, I found that at the end I felt better, happier, freer, and in a way… lighter than before, as if some of the baggage I was carrying around was removed. After some time, I even I got the chance to have a sit down with my old mentor and we talked about our mistakes, finally airing the grief and pain we caused each other.”

In a flood of anger, I can’t help but shout, surprising not just the three of them but also Moonshade as I jump from my seat, getting directly in Sunset’s face. “GOOD FOR YOU, YOU ONLY HAD TO DEAL WITH EMOTIONAL PAIN THAT CAME FROM PEOPLE WHO CHOSE TO BE AROUND YOU! ME? WOULD YOU FORGIVE YOUR OWN PARENTS, WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT YOU AND BE THERE FOR YOU BUT INSTEAD ABUSED YOU PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY AND… AND… SEXUALLY? I HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT SINCE I WAS EIGHT! HOW CAN YOU FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT? FOR LETTING OTHERS DO THE SAME? HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO FORGIVE THEM FOR THAT? I HATE THEM AND WISH THEY WOULD DIE!”

My outburst causes my knees to weaken and I fall, kneeling in front of her as I start crying after the pent up anger is released, my body trembling. I can barely hear Moonshade as she also speaks up angrily. “ANSWER THAT FOR US, SUNSET! HOW CAN YOU FORGIVE SOMEONE THAT WILLINGLY ABUSED YOU AND TOOK ADVANTAGE OF YOUR CHILDHOOD? I HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT WITH THE FIRST FAMILY WHO TOOK ME IN AFTER BEING REMOVED FROM MY UNCLE’S HOUSE! AND WHEN THEY TIRED OF ME THEY RETURNED ME, WHERE I WAS ADOPTED BY LILY’S PARENTS! HOW CAN YOU EVEN SUGGEST THAT WE TRY TO FORGIVE THEM?”

~~~~~The Next Day~~~~~

Groaning, I open my eyes a sliver, wondering what time it is and how I got to my bed. I can hear noises in the room as if someone is talking, but it sounds as if they’re talking through a wall or at a distance. Giving myself some time, I focus on the conversation. “... Ah’d like fer ya ta do it Moon, an’ not jus’ mahself either, but Sunset, Rarity, Celestia, Luna, Chrysalis an’ the others wan’ ya ta do it as well.”

“Fine, I’ll… I’ll go with you this week and… try it out.” I yawn and stretch, alerting the others I’m awake, and the sight that greets me is Rarity, Applejack and Sunset sitting on Moon’s bed in pajamas with Moon between the farm girl and the fashionista, her head hanging and shoulder slouched. “Morning Lily. Applejack here wants us to… come with her this week to visit her councilor.”

“I just… let me think on that, okay.” As my hands wipe across my eyes, I notice that there are still tears forming, but at a lot slower pace than yesterday. As I sit up, I notice that I have one missed call. I wonder what Chrys will say about Applejack wanting us to meet with her councilor. After the round of good mornings and questions about how I’m feeling, I get up and with some effort, make myself breakfast. I’m normally the morning person between myself and Moon. When did we switch?

Once I’m done eating, I step into the bathroom and turn on the water, debating if I should soak in the tub or just have a shower. As I debate this, I turn to the mirror on impulse once I’m undressed, staring into my reflection’s eyes. Staring back at me is a look of pure anger and pain as images of my abuse start to play around the reflection. How can you ask me to forgive them, huh? Finally I scream out, overwhelmed by the thoughts and feelings running wild. Without thinking my fist goes into the mirror, showering me in shards of glass as I try to stop the images.

“Lily, are you okay? What happened?” I can’t tell who it is that asked thanks to the door and the running water, but I’m guessing the it is Sunset.

“Yeah, just… I’m fine. I’ll be out in a bit.” How am I going to explain this? I don’t do stuff like this, loose control like that.

“I’m coming in Lily, I heard glass breaking in there, and you don’t sound fine.” As the door opens a little I hop inside the tub, my head peeking out from behind the curtain and I’m surprised to see Chrysalis sliding through the opening, not Sunset. “I saw you come in, and you seemed distracted. Everything okay, kiddo?”

“N- no, yesterday.... after… after you dropped me off, Sunset and the other two girls had a… breakthrough with Moonshade and… got her to… open up about losing her parents. Then while we were… talking they… they said that… I had to… forgive my parents if I wanted to… find peace and happiness. How… how can they ask me do that? How can I do it? Should I even do it?”

“That is up to you, Lily. I can’t begin to understand the kind of pain you must have gone through, but I do know this. Those girls are genuinely concerned about you and Moonshade.” Chrys sits on the toilet and grabs my left hand as she talks, plucking out the shards of glass before pressing a washcloth against the cuts, stemming the flow.

“Also, Applejack wants me to go with her next week to go see her councilor.”

As she smiles while still tending to my injured hand, a light chuckle escapes from her throat. “Try it out kiddo, see how talking to them makes you feel.”

“Thanks Chrys, I’ll… I’ll give it a shot.”

“Good, now finish up. We got something to do, if you still want to do it.” I can’t help but give her a playful splash, which gets rewarded by being dunked under the water’s surface before she leaves.

Chapter Ten; Bonding- Moonshade

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As I wake up and stretch, I realize there is someone else in my bed. Fighting the growing panic at the sensation, my left eye opens slightly as I turn my head, revealing App- AJ on the bed, her back towards me while dangerously close to the edge. Turning to look at Lily’s bed, I notice both Sunset and Rarity sleeping with her as well, though like AJ they are keeping as far from her as they can be. Wonder why they decided to crowd our beds like that instead of sleeping in Sunset’s room. Bet there is a lot more room in there. “Mornin’ sugarcube, sleep well?”

I must’ve woken her up, or she’s an early riser. “Morning Applejack, did I… did I wake you?”

“Nope, us Apples are known fer wakin’ up early. One o’ the perks o’ livin’ on the farm. How’d ya sleep?”

“I slept well thank you, how about you?”

“Like a baby. Oh, morning Sunset, Rarity.”

“Morning Moonshade, Applejack.” The other two girls acknowledge at the same time, whispering so as not to wake up Lily. Gently they get out of her bed as AJ sits up before helping me sit upright, placing herself on my right side while Rarity sits on my left.

“Did you think over what we talked about yesterday?” Sunset asks as she sits next to Rarity, a goofy smile coming to her face while her hair looks completely messed up.

“Sunset darling, you should know how to keep your hair from getting so disheveled. I simply must teach you and Moonshade how to keep your hair looking its best when you go to sleep.” I have no idea where this playfulness inside me is coming from, but I twist and reach out with my right hand, trying to mess up her hair, causing her to stifle a squeal of surprise.

“Relax Rares, Ah don’ think they’re too worried about their hair at this moment. But as fer what Ah offered yesterday, Ah’d like fer ya ta do it, Moon. An’ not jus’ mahself either, but Sunset, Rarity, Celestia, Luna, Chrysalis an’ the others wan’ ya ta do it as well.”

“Fine, I’ll… I’ll go with you this week and… try it out,” A yawn catches my attention, and with a twist I turn and look at Lily as she just watches us. “Morning Lily. Applejack here wants us to… go with her this week to visit her councilor.”

“I just… let me think on that, okay.” Wonder what is going on with her, is she still upset over what happened yesterday? I can’t help but notice the look in her eyes as she goes through the routine of greetings before disappearing to make her way to the bathroom.

I hope you’re gonna be okay, Lily. I’m not used to being in your usual shoes. My attention is quickly drawn from Lily to Rarity as she turns to Sunset. “I am a bit curious darling, but you have not yet fully filled us in on what is expected of us while we are watching over Lily and Moonshade.”

“Oh, mostly you’re just here to help keep an eye out on things and help with anything if they need it. Don’t worry too much about Moon’s hygiene, Lily does that normally.” Sunset gets up off the bed along with Rarity and AJ, all three stretching before helping me into the chair. “So, what do you girls want to do today?”

“Think we could… I don’t know… go out for a bit? I’m tired of being stuck in this house. Maybe go to the park or the mall?” I look up hopefully at Sunset as she wheels me into the dining room. I’m so used to Sunset or Celestia preparing breakfast that I’m a bit surprised when AJ goes into the kitchen while Sunset and Rarity join me at the table. “Why is Applejack cooking and not you, Sunset?”

“You’re in for a treat darling, AJ is a top notch cook. She works absolute magic in the kitchen.” A smile forms on her lips as an idea apparently comes to her mind. “How about this Moonshade, after breakfast we can all go out, but only if you promise that you will let me give you a makeover and fix your hair?”

My only reply to Rarity's offer is a mumbled groan as AJ begins asking us what we want for breakfast. “Do I have to go through with that, Applejack?”

“Ah’m not much inta gettin’ all gussied up either, Moon. But if that is gonna be one o’ the stipulations than Ah guess yea, ya do.” Soon the smells of frying eggs, sizzling bacon and sausage and pancakes waft from the kitchen, just in time for Celestia and Luna to join us, yawning as they stumble out of their rooms.

Once the food is set on the table, AJ fixes my plate as she’s already up, adding a couple pieces of fruit to it. During my time here I have gained a good amount of weight, though apparently I’m still under what the doctor says is healthy, which is annoying. Along with my food, a plethora of supplements are placed next to me as well, which I swallow reluctantly. The food tastes really good as I lose myself in it, ignoring the conversations going around me.

“So Moonshade, what are your plans for this nice day?” Looking up, I’m a bit shocked that it is Luna addressing me and not Celestia. I thought she hated me or something, she never did interact with me much. Though I guess it is partially my fault.

“Well, was planning on doing something with the girls if I can, Luna.” Out of the corner of my eye, I notice Celestia and the others take a sudden interest at the question.

“I see. I guess it is too late to ask if we can spend some time together, seeing that you are opening up and talking more.” I can’t help but feel a pang of hurt as I look at Luna’s eyes. I don’t think it would hurt to spend some time with her, maybe---

“Why don’ ya join us, Luna? Yer more than welcome ta.” AJ’s offer throws Luna a bit, but she just smiles at the cowgirl. “Why don’ we go ta the zoo? It’s still nice enough outside an’ we got plenty o’ time. Ya can come as well, Celestia.”

“I have other things I need to do, Applejack, but why don’t you go with them, Luna? Go and have some fun.” The older woman gets up and begins collecting the dishes. Surprisingly, the mountain of food AJ cooked has been reduced to crumbs and small bits.

Looking at Sunset, I can tell an idea comes to her mind. “Hey Rarity, AJ, I’m gonna see if I can hang out with the other girls since I haven’t seen them in a while. You four go and have fun. Plus, this will be a good chance for you guys to bond some without a crutch.”

“That is a splendid idea, I knew I liked you for some reason, Sunset.” I can’t help but giggle as Luna gives her a noogie, though it is followed by the sting of longing.

Once the day’s plans are decided, AJ and Rarity wheel me off to the bathroom. “Well, I must say Sunset does have the right idea, letting us get to spend time with you without having her or Lily around as a crutch.” As they help get me undressed and into the tub, I take a couple deep breaths. These aren’t Lily’s parents, these aren’t Lily’s parents. They are only helping your dumb ass out. Looking up, I guess the other two missed it, but the full length mirror on the backside of the door is broken, with large chunks missing from it. “Are you okay, darling?”

“Yea, just… trying to hold myself in check from wanting to protect myself by lashing out at one of you two. Also, I’m trying to figure out what happened to the mirror. If Lily did that, then something must really be upsetting her. She never loses her anger, I always thought she couldn’t get angry.”

“Ya gotta understand how she mus’ be feelin’ after what we talked about last night, sugarcube. She mus’ be hurtin’ somethin’ fierce, if ya look at how badly she was betrayed.” Applejack’s response is gentle as Rarity and herself begin to scrub me down. Well, mostly Rarity, though she does allow the cowgirl to help out.

Once I’m cleaned up and dried off, the water is drained from the tub and the two girls hop into the shower. Once they finish and dry off we’re back in the guest room, and to my horror, Rarity pulls out a huge case that, when opened, reveals so many beauty supplies I just look at her and then AJ in silence, my lower jaw limp as it hangs open.

“Ever been to the zoo before, darling?” Rarity starts plying her trade on me first, adding various types of makeup to my cheeks, face, around my eyes and lips, and my fingernails.

“No… OW! What are you doing?” I try to look at her as sharp, painful tugs come from my scalp.

“I’m doing your hair, darling. You simply cannot go out there with your hair so out of place and looking so unkempt.”

“Well, I sorta like the unkempt look.”

“If that is so, darling, than you might actually like your new hair style better.” A mirror is placed in front of me and I particularly don’t like the makeup much, except for the dark blue bit above my eyes. I must admit that what Rarity did with my hair is not too bad, it still has that messy look but it’s a lot neater at the same time. I also like the tail that hangs from the back end and ends in a pair of curls. I also like the nail polish she chose, I think I like how that dark blue looks on me.

“I guess you were right, Rarity. I could like this hair style more, I also like this dark blue eyeliner and nail polish.”

With a smile she starts working on AJ, taking considerably less time with the farmer than she did with me, mostly just taking the time to paint her nails, apply lipstick and some other types of makeup. “You are welcome, darling. I am glad you like your new look, I do try my best.”

Once we are ready to go, which is after Rarity applies what seems like an ungodly amount of makeup to herself and taking time to find the right outfit, we make our way to the living room. Luna is waiting for us, twirling her set of keys as she smiles. “Are you ready for a day of fun?”