> By the Moonlight > by shysage > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Chapter 1, Introduction and Follow the Equestrium > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Introduction In a lot of ways, this is Shysage and my story. It did not take long for us to realize each other's committment to true friendship, and I think we were drawn together just from that. I felt anyway, that such kindred spirits were rare in Equestria. Shysage later said the same seemed true in the Equestria Girls world as well. But I don't think either of us could have seen my kidnapping coming. And, soon after I was taken and brutally broken by two vile men (monsters), Shysage was already on the trial, and sacrificed greatly that night to even be at the right place at the right time, to rescue me. Nopony else could have done that... And, after being shattered like that, he was absolutely the first person I found, who found me... It was like Equestria had come to my rescue, in the Equestria Girls world no less, through this amazing stallion. That day, I felt so broken. I would have done anything for any stallion, I felt so worthless inside. Shysage... He was amazing. He actually took care of me. He went out of his way to protect me, to comfort me, to look out for me... He had already paid dearly, but he still put me first. He even introduced me to writing, as we drove. I think he knew I would enjoy that, I don't know. But he treated me like a lady... He treated me like I was valuable. I really needed that, on that day. Well, and he drove me all the way back to CHS, back to my amazing Equestria Girls friends... As I have said before, I think Equestria had plans for Shysage and I, together, even as we were just deepening our friendship between us two true friends. Equestria evidently needed us closer. The dream I had (we were married in that dream), and the events that followed, they really did prepare us for living together as Stallion and Mare for two years as we raised two precious foals. The intimate area of life is probably the greatest test of true friendship. In a world full of takers, being able to put each other first in this area... We struggled. Shysage and I included a few of these instances in our lives just because... We are both committed to true friendship, in all of our lives. We watched it work in intimate areas as well. But I think we are realizing now that some of that material may not be appropriate for the casual reader. Our goal is to pull many of these events out of our Chronicles, and put them together here into a volume that deals specifically with some of the more important intimate events in our lives. Maybe this will help ponies, but they will better know ahead of time what to expect. Shysage and I went back and read through the first Chronicles and Homecoming (Vol. 2) together. We cried a lot, and basically just stood back amazed. But we decided to leave these two volumes alone, just as they were. We read through Follow the Equestrium (vol. 3) together as well, and cried a bunch more. But we realized we could easily pull a few sections out, move them here, and maybe add some more explanation if required. Once we move material here from the other volumes, we will remove it from those other volumes, replacing it with a link back to here. Follow the Equestrium My dream was still fresh in my mind, anyway. Being married to Shysage in that dream; I have never felt such peace. Though a dream, for a brief time, I was free from the lies two vile monsters had planted in my soul. I had a real hard time shaking that off. On our return from the Equestria Girls world it happened; the Portal sent us someplace else, really some time else, too. Within minutes, we had rescued two pony foals from death seconds later; it really was that close. We were quickly high in the air with the foals tied on our backs, flying quickly away. And... we were parents... We had to be Stallion and Mare. I don't think either Shysage nor I minded... We were writing in third person at the time. I hope that is ok. (opt:btm3a) There was no dread or evil portent for this setion. It just struck me as cruel and unfair that the monsters could so abuse my people body, but my amazing Stallion couldn't just look at it and enjoy it. This really did make me angry! I think we worked out a nice compromise. It was hard though... [This is the first of a number of isolated sections that handle some of the physical aspects of Summer and Shysage's relationship. They are living together as Stallion and Mare, far in the past. It is easier to write about 'idealized' and perfect ponies, but Summer and Shysage are not that. Together, they faced very real struggles, and some of these have been included. I have tried to avoid graphic details. Still, I apologize if this offends anyone. Feel free to skip sections like this if you prefer. -- Shysage] Summer and Shysage probably changed back and forth between being ponies and being 'people' far more than anypony else on either side of the Portal. The reason for this is that it seemed like Summer alone possessed the ability to chose either form at will. This was probably because she needed this ability to function as a Phantom Alicorn. Shysage rapidly realized that, when transitioning into the 'people' form, Summer and Shysage would both be wearing the last clothing items they were wearing the previous time they were in their 'people' form. Summer and Shysage were 'people' a lot, both to care for and nurture their two girls, and also to care for and love each other. As a result, their 'people' clothing were seeing a considerable amount of use, and began to show it. Shysage's long pants, t-shirt, white zippered and hooded sweatshirt, and tennis shoes were fairly sturdy. Well, the sweatshirt wasn't bright White any more, but still... However, Summer's stylish Equestria Girls clothing was not showing itself to be nearly as durable. Nopony could have known they would be in the past for a while. Well, Summer realized that her 'people' shirt was beginning to show some wear, and she needed to check it over. Rather than make things harder on Shysage, Summer just woke up in the middle of the night, changed to a 'people', took her blouse off, and was looking at it by the light of the candle. Shysage woke up too... He looked up at his Mare, who was a 'people' with no clothing on the top half of her body... She was beautiful, of course. Shysage very slowly looked away, and began to weep softly. Summer knew immediately what happened, and quickly got up, set the blouse on the bench, changed back into a pony, and then lay next to Shysage, and wept with him. Summer was actually upset... The monsters could look at her body but her devoted Stallion couldn't? This just seemed so wrong. They both knew they couldn't risk a foal until after the Cougars attacked again, so fully experiencing each other's bodies was just not an option. Still, Summer had an idea. She asked quietly "Shysage, if you could hug that part of me that you just saw, would you totally lose control? I need you to answer honestly." Shysage stopped weeping immediately, and just looked up at her. "You really are amazing..." he said... "...You would risk that?" Summer rubbed his nose, and said softly "You deserve this more than the monsters did. And I love you very much. I am willing to let you try as long as you don't lose control. I doubt I could stop you if you did." "Oh Summer, I love you..." Shysage said, then paused in thought a minute. Then he said quietly "Can I lay my head on your chest a few minutes?" "Precious Stallion, I feel like that is the least I can do. You just need to be honest about your ability to control yourself." Summer said quietly. She realized she had said that a bunch, but it was rather important. Summer was quickly back to being a 'people' with no blouse on, and she touched Shysage, and he was a people too. He laid his head down, sideways, gently on Summer's exposed chest, facing Summer's head. Shysage was shaking, and his body was responding, but he just lay still there, and he soon calmed down. Well, he put his hands on her sides, and hugged her like that. Summer just ran her fingers through his hair. "Summer, laying here feels amazing, and I don't mean just physically. Your body really is a work of art." he said softly. "Shysage... Just having you this close to me is also amazingly comforting to me too. I love you so much..." Summer said softly. They both just relaxed there for maybe ten minutes. Then they both said at about the same time "We should..." then smiled at each other. They were on the same page here too. "Summer I need to kiss you, then you can change us back" Shysage said softly. Then he moved, bent his head over, and kissed Summer's belly, right above the top of her skirt. Summer squealed, brought both her knees up quickly, and grabbed Shysage's head with both her hands, and pulled his head away. "Wow, that tickles..." Summer said quickly. "I noticed precious Mare" Shysage said softly. "And I won't forget either" he said, looking at Summer and smiling. "Summer can you sit up? I'd like us to kiss a minute or two" Shysage asked next. "Are you doing ok?"Summer asked. "Yes Mare... I just love you a lot..." Shysage replied quietly. They kissed a few minutes, then Shysage reached for the Blouse, and gave it back to Summer, and helped her put it on. They were both soon back to being ponies again. Shysage rolled over on his side, and Summer was quickly up against his chest and neck, as Shysage hugged her close. "That was scary, but very nice, Mare." Shysage said, very quietly. "Having you that close to me meant more to me than you will ever know, Stallion." Summer said, also quietly. Shysage hugged her tightly a minute. Shysage thought briefly, then said quietly "Precious Mare, for now maybe your body shouldn't scare me so. It is very beautiful, in either form. Still, we must be very careful." "Good, because I already want you back there again..." Summer said, then began to cry softly. "I love you so, Shysage..." Shysage just hugged her. After a minute, Shysage said softly "Summer roll over on your back a minute." Summer responded immediately "Shysage..." and her voice rose as she said his name. She was concerned, this would be a vulnerable position for her as a pony. Shysage felt little temptation in his pony form and said simply "Relax, precious Mare..." Summer rolled over on her back, then Shysage lay on his belly so he could gently place his pony head down on Summer's pony chest, at about the same place, facing her head. He was going to ask if this felt the same, since they were both ponies now, but Summer used both her front legs to hug Shysage's head close. Then she sighed. "Summer, is this a calming sort of thing or are there desires involved?" Shysage asked. He was trying to understand his Mare. "Shysage, I just like you close to me, and this feels amazing. I wish I could sleep like this..." Summer said, then sighed again. "Well, I don't understand, but I can give you this any time you want" Shysage said softly with a smile. "Please don't move for a little while... But then we should probably get some sleep." Summer answered slowly. "Mare, for you, anything" Shysage said, smiling back. Well, a "little while" was closer to an hour, but Shysage didn't mind. As often as his Mare sighed during this time, he decided it was a very nice treat for her. Shysage was all for that. When Summer could finally bring herself to let him move, Shysage lay back on his side, and Summer was back up against Shysage's chest and neck. As usual, Shysage just hugged his Mare close to him... (opt:btm3b) This part of our lives still hurts... Shysage and I both knew by now that the two foals we had rescued were Equestria's Princesses. We had invested over two years and loved them deeply. But we would soon have to give them away. That hurt so badly. And the monsters had shattered any interest for intimate desires for me, but that changed this particular night. Good or bad timing -- I don't know. [The next two sections also deal wth the physical side of Summer and Shysage's relationship. Again, I have tried to avoid graphic details. Feel free to skip the next two sections if this offends you. -- Shysage] Another night late in that second Winter turned out far differently. It was hard to say if this was a good thing, or just added stress. One of the aspects of watching over the family, that took place in Shysage's home, had to do with two nuisance issues -- Tics and Cuts. Tics needed to be removed as soon as possible. This was usually only a problem during the Spring and Summer though. Cuts just needed to be licked soon after they were found. Saliva would help dis-infect the cut and minimize infection. Usually once a week, Summer would carefully check the girls for these two problems. Summer and Shysage would check each other about as often. Well, if anypony got a cut, that was frequently taken care of as soon as it was noticed. Somehow, near then end of this second winter, Summer got a cut on her chest. After the girls were asleep, Summer asked Shysage to look at it. She just rolled over on her back and relaxed. Shysage often put his head down on her chest after he checked her over, and she treasured that. It was a fairly good sized cut, kind of low on Summer's chest. That's all Shysage could tell by candle-light. Shysage just licked it a number of times. Summer froze when he did that. Then she asked him to do it again. Shysage licked the cut a bunch more. He tried to accommodate his Mare any way he could. Summer asked for more, and Shysage again didn't think much of it, and licked it some more. Maybe it was a big cut. Or maybe he just wasn't thinking. Summer started to weep softly. "Shysage I want you to keep going, but you should really stop..." Summer was shaking now... All over... Only then did Shysage realize that the cut was right next to one of her nipples, and he had just licked it a lot. Shysage guessed immediately that her 'desires' had finally come back... Summer was already on her back, so Shysage moved, and put his head down in the middle of her chest, and she quickly reached both of her front legs around his head and just held him close, and tight. Shysage didn't wait, and said softly "Summer, honey, I love you no matter what." Summer, still crying, said "I know Shysage, I love you too..." They were soon looking into each other's eyes, and Summer started to calm down. After a few minutes, Shysage smiled, and asked "Are you ok?" Summer smiled back, then said "I think so... Now I just desperately want what I can't have yet, that's all..." "I guess that makes us even, precious Mare" Shysage said softly and with a smile. "I don't know how you made it this long without giving in... It's like my body saved all that desire up for over 2 years, and now all at once..." Summer said softly back. Summer actually pulled her head up and close, and she and Shysage just rubbed noses for a few minutes. She wanted Shysage to keep his head on her chest however. Shysage sighed... "Summer, you need to be honest with me now, and let me know if anything we have done in the past, will now cause you problems. Can you do that?" Shysage asked. "I don't want to make this any harder on you..." "Shysage, your body is amazing too, but I will do what I can to help you" Summer said quietly. "Well, last winter I asked you if there were any desires involved with me being here on your chest. Is that still true? I just want to understand my Mare" Shysage asked. Summer sighed, then said quietly "I don't know Shysage... Just being around you is exciting to me right now... Maybe I'm still coming down from what you did to me before, I don't know... It... felt... amazing..." "Precious Mare... I wish I could do more, but I am glad it felt good for you, really, I am." Shysage said, looking into Summer's eyes. Summer started to cry, and hugged Shysage's head tightly then said simply "Oh Shysage... You are amazing..." "Just deeply in love, Summer" he replied softly. Summer next used her legs to pull Shysage's head next to her head, as she rolled over on her side. "I'm trying to have some self-control, I think..." She said softly. Shysage nibbled her ear, then told her again "I love you, Summer." Shysage thought for a minute, then said softly what was in his heart. "Precious Mare, I feel far less temptation in my pony form, because it is not my primary form, although I think that is changing too... Still, you have gone out of your way to help me here, and I have so appreciated that. "I feel like the tables are now turned, and worse, being a pony is your primary form, and I can only guess how hard it will be for you to be near me. I need you to help me know how I can make it as easy as possible, because I really want to stay near you... "But Summer, you need to hear this. I think we need to try hard to avoid risking a foal. But if it proves too much, and it happens, I will never stop loving you..." At this, Summer started crying, and said "Thank you Stallion..." Shysage just cried with her. They were in this together, after all. It was late, and they were both soon asleep. Shysage, devoted Stallion that he was, would help his Mare feel 'a little bit of paradise' like this, on a number of other occasions. Stopping was... ...just... ...hard... But once Summer calmed down, she always felt better for a while. But on the rest of the nights, they usually cried themselves to sleep... It was hard to say which was better... (opt:btm3c) Like we wrote, this day was an amazing day for Equestria. The entire city headed inside the gates with their Princesses, Celestia and Luna, the two appointed ones (back from the dead it seemed), so they could celebrate. Shysage and I, we were left alone... standing in the road... outside town... without our girls... I simply cannot even try to explain how emptied we felt... But that is the backdrop for what my amazing Stallion gave me that afternoon. And, it is made even more amazing since there was little in this for him. He just gave... But I really needed that... [This is another section involving the physical side of Summer and Shysage's relationship. Again, I have tried to avoid graphic details. You can skip this section if you prefer. Just don't dismiss the blinding pain they both felt... -- Shysage] It was early afternoon... Summer and Shysage were soon standing by themselves, outside the gate, weeping softly. 'Their girls' were gone... They had done what they thought they came here to do, and had nowhere to go now. They didn't want to go back to their 'home' and all the memories it held... They felt... ...terrible... It hurt so bad they just felt... ...numb... They flew, together, as 'people' up to the cloud bank that would become Cloudsdale. In the middle of that afternoon, Shysage kept his promise to his Mare. Bedroom scenes usually need to stay in the bedroom, but what basically happened was this. Shysage's translation from 'people' to 'pony' physiology was fairly accurate, and Summer was soon ready, and when he put himself inside her, she quickly felt the amazing pleasure of being treated like the princess Shysage knew she was. And Summer would not let go of Shysage so he could 'bail out'; this had to wait until she slumped back down onto the cloud tops, completely relaxed. It didn't matter though because it would have taken Shysage a while anyway since this was not his 'native' form. Shysage simply was not concerned about himself. This was all about Summer, and he just gave. That was his goal. Nothing else mattered. Shysage lay next to his Mare and began to weep softly. He had given her what he knew she deserved -- he loved her so... He wanted to give her more, but that would need to wait. This was not his motivation, but the pain he felt from the ordeal the night Summer was abducted, this was also gone. Shysage realized that a foal was a possibility, but he felt it was a remote possibility. Still, Shysage would be happy with either outcome at this point, and Summer was an amazing mom too. Summer slowly rolled onto her side, and they both faced each other and hugged tightly as ponies. They had avoided this in the past, but that wasn't a problem now. They just stared into each other's eyes, and rubbed noses a bit. ... For a few brief moments, the hurting stopped, as I reveled in the pleasure my Stallion gave. But nothing could stop the avalanche that followed... In maybe an hour, we were gone, back in our present... > Chapter 2, Fury Run (Vol. 4) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (I gotta start with a quick note. I hope everypony realizes that these amazing chapters are not really intended to stand completely on their own. We have tried to include some 'context' (Shysage's word) for each event, along with more explanation. But you really need to read the original story, and follow the links back here from that specific part of the story, in order to truly grasp what is going on. I hope that's ok.) Honestly, it hurts to even think about this volume (4). It was an accident, I know, but still... The most important thing to me in all Equestria... That pony that I cherish above all others... I nearly killed him with my Phantom Alicorn magic... The tears of devotion from our precious friends... He lived at least, but his memory was gone... He was here, right next to me, but he was gone... My stallion means a lot of things to me, but... I had him, but everything that I treasured was... just... gone... It was excruciating... The opening chapters... Well they only dimly portray the pain Shysage and I were working through. And, on top of that, my intimate desires had come back, and... We needed each other desperately, but both our bodies responded so quickly to just being next to each other... It was like two years of holding back, then... Well it was very hard... And that 'Hellriders' tune(1) fit so well, with the turmoil we faced... It works for the Fury Boil popping too, but Shysage and I were already tied up in knots by the time that happened. This tune started quietly after we came back, then grew louder until Shysage's almost dead body slumped down against my tree... Then it was totally quiet... If you have never heard that tune... Slapping Furies to death with that blaring... I don't know... (opt:btm4a) (Shysage is so amazing... I don't ever know what I would do without him. As he wrote this, he made it sound so simple. But, my Shysage... In the Past, Shysage helped me survive a collapsing world... His brief words, so understated...) I had helped her feel maybe a "little amazing" a couple times, although this was very scary. Each time I started, I never really knew if we would be able to stop. Still, I love her so... I tried everything I could to ease her pain... (opt:btm4b) (This process is hard... We actually had to re-write parts of this section to leave in Fury Run... We didn't want to leave a big hole there, and this factor was a very real part... So, the original text is included here, with a few additions...) But now it was usually just a matter of time before we both wanted more of each other, as much as possible... Maybe we needed... That was hard too. And again, if that was the only thing we faced, we would find a way. It was just so hard to think through with everything else we had to deal with... We were in our room for the night. Summer was up against my chest and neck. Everything else was far apart. We do that a lot; it is just very comforting for my Mare, and for me too. We thought this was safe; we had never had problems before... I just hugged her... We cried together a long time, then fell asleep. We woke up early in the morning, and it was like both our bodies were... ...well they weren't helping... We didn't move, couldn't move, and just cried together a while. Maybe we hoped our bodies would calm down, I don't know. That didn't happen. After maybe half an hour of this, I got up, then sat on the floor, then asked my Mare to sit facing me. I hugged her tightly, then we rubbed noses briefly. This was scary too, with us both like this... Still, I told my Mare that I would NOT put her through this much longer, given everything else we had to face right now. If we couldn't work something out, I was NOT going to push her away. I would just give her everything I knew she deserved, and we would let everything work itself out from there, one way or another. I told Summer she was my life, no matter what. (She still is.) I would do everything I could to take care of her, regardless of what that required. And if that was a foal, we would welcome a foal with the same devotion we shared between each other. I already knew she was an amazing mom... (opt:btm4c) ([sigh...] I love my Stallion...) I took a big chance... ..because I love my Mare... I asked Summer, if I could help her feel just a little bit of paradise again, and she started crying, and said "Oh Shysage, please..." I think she needed it, I don't know. I helped her feel a little amazing for a little while; that part was easy. I also managed to stop; that part was hard, for both of us... Afterwards, she climbed up under my front legs like we usually do, and I hugged her tight, and we just cried together some more... We were both tired, and soon fell asleep again. (opt:btm4d) (What more can I say...) I myself had tried a lot of things too. Some things I would never mention. I just wanted Shysage back so bad... Well nothing that would result in a foal though. I was saving that for him... And if he couldn't... (Months later, after we were doing better, Shysage asked if I minded telling him more details about this, and I told him. Some of those things, we did again together that night; I knew Shysage would really enjoy some; he did. But I guess we were owning another piece of that terrible time. It really helped. Well, that, and we NEVER keep things from each other. I love Shysage so much...) (opt:btm4e) (This section serves really as an introduction to this most amazing, first 'By the Moonlight' chapter. Not much more needs to be added. You will note from this chappter (10) that Shysage and I switched back and forth a lot as we wrote this. It was amazing that way. Shysage was writing at the start.) This chapter will make more sense if I explain something first. Since I met Summer, I struggled increasingly to reconcile her needs and 'past obligations'. Especially after I lost my memory for over two months, and the nightmare that was for Summer, I realized that this whole thing was just plain unfair -- to Summer. After we got back from 'Equestria Past', I heard Princess Celestia mention, that, according to Equestrian law, based on my proposal in 'Equestria Past', Summer and I were married, Summer was my Mare. Whether correct or not, I decided during these last few days, that, when I was in Equestria, I would hold myself to Equestrian law. That made Summer my Mare. I would gladly embrace that. It wasn't hard. This particular night would be a surprise for Summer, hopefully the first of more. I had no other agenda other than giving her what I knew she deserved, feeling like the Princess she was (is). That was the only end-point I pursued. I had done this once, up on the cloud-bank that would become Cloudsdale, one very difficult afternoon, far in the Past. I would do it again tonite. There was nothing in this for me, and couldn't be, but that didn't matter to me at all. This was all about her. I can only apologize for the intensely suggestive nature of some of this chapter, but that was my overall goal, after all. I have tried to avoid graphic details. And we have freely retained other amazing events that took place that night. Still, I find this chapter a fitting tribute to my amazing Mare. I love her so much. And this chapter came out amazing too... (opt:btm4f) (Well, ok, I don't know how intensely suggestive this chapter was, until we ended up at the lake, and I... Well, ok. maybe... But what happened next was not just the result of the last, maybe six hours. Kneeling while facing each other was a deeply humbling and moving thing to do. We were showing the submission of our wants for that of each other, practical true friendship. Shysage and I had found other ways to express the same thing. Chasing each other around town with our wings out really WAS pegasus fun! Well, rubbing noses, licking noses, that had powerful special significance to Shysage and I. It was how we had coped in the past I think. And, with his wings out and tilted towards me... Oh, my goodness... But when I ran, spashed around the lake, I knew... I found out in the Past that my pony body is very attractive to my pony Stallion when I am wet. Running around the lake, I was careful to get soaked! And I was very careful to roll over very SLOWLY, and only after I knew Shysage was right there. I was giving my Stallion what he had clearly earned, and supremely cherished... Of course, he gave back too... Ok, so Shysage is writing at this point.) On the far side of the lake... My precious Mare... Still, soaked, and looking... ...amazing... Summer walked up a few steps away from the edge of the lake... ...and fell to the ground quickly, then rolled over slowly onto her back... ...and looked at me with her beautiful blue eyes... I just sighed lovingly... This was my plan... How could I not... I need to close the door on this bedroom scene... Sparing graphic detail, this is basically what happened. I carefully gave her what I had given her that difficult afternoon on the cloud-bank in 'Equestria past'; I again helped her feel like the Princess I know she is... And she let me 'bail out' as soon as she was relaxed... We had already decided that a foal had to be carefully planned for... And we felt this was pretty safe, because it would have taken me a while anyway. My Mare surprised me though... She knew a thing or two about pony physiology, and... well... Let's just say she returned the favor... And I wasn't about to stop her. I was her Stallion after all... (Yes, I originally took over here, and this is still important!) Hi, it's Summer again. Shysage didn't want me to add this, but I just need to. I really felt bad when he gave so completely to me in 'Equestria past' up on the clouds, and I was not able to give him anything in return that afternoon. I am convinced he loved me none the less on that day, and if I hadn't given back this amazing night either, I am sure he would have loved me just as much... But still, that was so completely Shysage... He rarely ever thought about himself first, that was just the way he was. I can honestly not recall a time when he... There just was not a selfish bone in his body... And I would know; we were around each other constantly for the last two years or more... Maybe he was right, and he actually had done something terrible to his family... It would have been an accident if it happened, I'm sure of that. But, while I knew him, all I ever saw was Shysage putting others first... Shysage served the people around him, me and everypony else, even if he got hurt in the process... I was so glad for what I could give to Shysage that amazing night. I love my Stallion... > Chapter 3, Faded Memories (Vol. 5) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- We decided to make few changes to Faded Memories. Aside from a few obvious sections (below), there was little else we could, or felt we should pull out. Star Dusk's third 'wontonness' spell was a signficant part of what happened in the events this account records. And it seems so absolutely tragic that she felt she had to do this... We decided to basically leave the account as it stood. Shysage felt that, after the fact, this account overall shows that when a pony or a group of ponies, either take or are given sexual privilege, other ponies always get hurt, get trampled. After hearing him explain this, I guess I realized for the first time... There are sexual bullies too... (opt:btm5a) [from ch. 10, Decompressing] (Well, ok, Shysage was laying on his back on the couch, and I was laying on my side next to him, leaning my back against the back of the couch. We were fully clothed; this just was/is very comfortable.) After maybe half an hour, Summer moved her knee right up over... well... Shysage's body responded immediately. Shysage didn't know if she did that just because it was more comfortable for her back, or if there was some other reason. Shysage just didn't know, but his physical response seemed rather obvious. Shysage struggled for a few minutes whether he should even say anything. After maybe five minutes like this, Summer said softly "Stallion, I'm glad I can still make you do that...", then she moved her knee back down. Shysage said quietly and slowly "Oh, Summer... If you only knew..." Still, Shysage was glad that he had said nothing, and done nothing. Evidently, after all she had been through, his Mare needed that reassurance... (As battered as I was inside, yes I did.) (opt:btm5b) [also from ch. 10, Decompressing] This bedroom scene needs to stay in the bedroom too, but in general terms... Shysage kept his promise, and gave his Mare what she begged for on her way to the Portal. Summer had to change them both to ponies for this, and Shysage knew what to do from that point. When they were done, Summer was smiling again, and this made Shysage cry. They rested a little while, then took a shower together, as 'people', and Summer took care of her Stallion. It didn't take long. They were both soon dried and dressed again, and back on the couch. Well, Summer was laying on top of Shysage, but this wasn't even a problem now. Shysage said quietly "Summer, I could look into your eyes for hours..." > Chapter 4, monsters in the Grass (Vol. 7) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- It didn't take long for me to realize that my people body had a substantial impact on Shysage. Well, I am from Equestria, and I just didn't think much about that. His Pony body is... amazing, but I just had so little experience with either of our people forms. Well, the main experience I had was being kidnapped and absolutely shattered by two vile men in the Equestria Girls world, the same two that... And Shysage had to see my people body a lot that night, as he tracked me so he could rescue me. I think we both tried to put that whole disgusting thing behind us though. I think we wanted to just forget it. After everypony was rescued and safe from these two men (monsters) this time (sigh), it was clear that my Twin (Equestria Girls Summer) needed a break from her world. My Twin and her fiancee (Shysage's Twin) recovered in Equestria, and Shysage and I stayed in the Equestria Girls world in their place. This gave Shysage and I over a week in Shysage's native world. We were both people practically the whole time. And I think this account records how clearly I absolutely treasure Bleacher Girls time. Shysage keenly understood this too. I just immersed myself in that privilege, and enjoyed every tearful second! And time with my sister's Twin Fluttershy, what a privilege! Still, during that time, a lot of things shifted substantially for me, for us. I had seen Shysage's people body before (briefly), and he had seen my people body before. But during our extended stay in the Equestria Girls world, my appreciation for his people body... Well, he is hot, and I quickly realized that. And he already felt the same way about me. And we increasingly wanted... We weren't in Equestria, and we were surrounded by needs far more important than our desires. We both struggled to keep others first, and be patient. I think both of us grew a lot in our appreciation for each other's people bodies. But we also realized that it was far better to wait until the right place and time for what we wanted. Besides, amazing 'true friendship' things were happening all around us. For many, many reasons, it really was worth the wait. (opt:btm7a) [from ch. 16, Shrinking the Chasm] [By the way, this next part is rather personal, and it just sort of happened that morning, but I was directed to leave it in. You can skip it if you want.] My Stallion was clearly wrestling with something, but he couldn't decide what to do, so he just asked me. He said I was his Mare, and so I was NOT going to be out on the porch, alone, while he changed. And he knew he could trust me to turn around if he asked me to. But he felt just like I did that one night in the past, when it seemed so wrong to me that the monsters could see my 'people' body, but my own Stallion couldn't. So, he said he would leave it up to me. I... This was... I think I started shaking a little, and he felt this. But he still said again, that it was up to me. Since I am from Equestria, his Equestria Girls body had never before held any interest for me, well not a lot. But I realized that had shifted very rapidly while we were here this time. I don't know... Well, I wanted to see him, but I honestly knew that now was a bad time for this, so that's what I told him. He told me I was amazing, then kissed me gently, then he got out of bed. He still had his old jogging clothes on, and that looked nice too. Still, I pulled my knees up to my chest, and turned to face the wall as he very quickly changed. My Stallion climbed back up on his bed and gently put his hand on my shoulder when he was done, and I pretty much fell apart right then, and cried. He hugged me close, and I wept softly on his shoulder. There was a time and place for this, but it wasn't right now, and we both realized we had to be patient. (opt:btm7b) [from ch. 22, Trying to Find Normal] [From my first experience writing in the Equestria Girls world on the way back home in his car, my Stallion said he realized that I was a very good writer. As a result, he has a hard time doing much editing of my work; he tries to respect what I write. I asked him about handling this section, and he just said to 'be gentle', and avoid details. I have tried to do that, and even agonized over a number of revisions, and I hope it doesn't offend anyone. I could have left it out, but this is an important part of our life, it seems. True friendship needs to work here too.] My Stallion woke me up a few hours later. I was laying on my stomach on the couch, and he was sitting on the floor, gently kissing my hand. We kissed briefly, then he got up, went over to his 'scope' thing, and rummaged around. It was pretty dark in our home. He came back with... ...a hair brush; a hair brush from the Equestria Girls world! I wouldn't ask him how he did that. He came back and sat on the floor near the couch. Then he asked me to sit on the floor in front of him when I was awake enough. He said he wanted to brush my hair for a while. I didn't make him wait long; he knows I love this. It is just one of those things we have been doing for each other for a while now, and for me especially, it is just so comforting... I feel his amazing devotion when he does that. He brushed my hair for quite a while. He kept saying my hair is beautiful. He usually says this if we are people or ponies. I guess he really likes my hair. Well, I didn't want to move... I mentioned once recently, when he rubbed my pony coat under my wing with his hand one evening, and that just melted me. My Stallion found another spot that night that did the same thing when we are both people, the back of my neck. He put one of his hands there while using the other to brush my hair, and that felt so nice. I guess noone else ever touches me there, I don't know. Well, with each passing minute, while enjoying what he was doing, I wanted my Stallion closer. We had put off a lot during the last two weeks maybe, so we could focus on the needs around us. We didn't need to do that tonight. After gently brushing my hair for maybe thirty minutes, my Stallion put the brush down, turned into a pony, and slowly walked out the front door. I changed to a pony too, then also walked outside. We both stayed ponies the rest of the night. My Stallion was kneeling and bowing, with his eyes closed, but his wings weren't out. I just did the same thing, but was close enough that we could rub noses as we bowed to each other like that, so that's what we did, well, briefly. My Stallion didn't lick my nose, he really didn't need to, not any more. He took to the air and flew to the small hill in the East meadow. I followed him into the air, but didn't stop at the little hill, and he was quickly back up in the air following me. I circled the lake in the air once, just to make sure he was near. Then I landed in the grass on the far side of the lake. I wanted him... I needed him... I couldn't really wait any longer. I think he knew this. My Stallion made me feel like a princess. It was worth the wait. When we could, we jumped back into the lake, and just faced each other hugging tightly, well as ponies, laying part way out of the water. We were both soon crying softly... Still, I think this night was the closest we had come to risking a foal, and I mentioned this to Shysage. It was only then that my amazing Stallion explained what had actually happened, and I had no idea. Evidently, I had rolled over onto him in my sleep, and, well having me that close, as a people... He said he had to get up or he would not have been able to take care of me. And he tried to give me something I treasure (brushing my hair), for a while, so his body could settle down. Hearing this really made me cry... In my dream about the future, I clearly remembered him telling me that in our bed, my pleasure would always come first. Hearing that at the time was nice, but he has so consistantly demonstrated that... That's why I was crying... I realized that I would never have to fight for him to take care of me... I really love him a lot... Maybe half an hour later, we were in our home, and I was tucked up against his chest. I was still amazed at what he had gone through to be able to 'put me first'... I cried for a while as he hugged me... (Well, one more comment... Shysage and I are actually going back and reading through these accounts. Aside from crying a LOT, it is amazing to be able to stand back... This volume starts with the massive amount of damage done by two self-centered monsters (well three if you count Filia and Fiona's step-dad). As the account unfolds, it shows over a dozen true friends reaching out, loving, caring, and bringing healing... I know this comment is included in this account, but the math behind this really is staggering... And it is scary that it seems fewer and fewer ponies are interested in so deeply and fully giving like that... really scary...) > Chapter 5, Dark Melvain (Vol. 8) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dark Melvain, such a hideous bully... And we only found out the day we finally killed him (here in the present) that he really wanted to take over Equestria, for centuries... Well, he had already killed hundreds of ponies through those centuries... Him ruling Equestria would not have been pretty... But there seemed to always be somepony standing in the gap for Equestria, standing up against him. Cel, er Princess Celestia of course, but soon... I couldn't help I was the Phantom Alicorn, but I wasn't about to stand idly by as this traitor... But this vile Unicorn exacted a huge price from just about anypony that opposed him, Shysage and I too... But friendship really is magic... Shysage and I read through this entire record together, and we cried together a lot. Still, we had difficulty deciding what really needed to be pulled out. We hope we did ok. We also took the opportunity to redo the titles and arrangement of the chapters. The 'book' approach was an attempt to highlight events surrounding each of the multiple trips back to the Past this account includes. Well, we decided to change everything back to simple chapter numbers, and gave titles to all the chapters. The first two are from chapter 27, "Never in a Million Years" (opt:btm8a) "...I will also, uhm, take steps, after you feel amazing, so that we won't risk a foal..." (opt:btm8b) ...And I even asked Summer a few times if I should stop. She always replied quietly "Please don't..." I gave my Mare the pleasure I knew she deserved... (I honestly don't think either of us were thinking very straight during this amazing time. For two months I survived with no recollection beyond... As soon as I felt Shysage, I felt I needed and wanted him, but I had no clue why. Those feelings rapidly intensified over the course of that night. Well, it was abundently clear he needed me too. But his intense pain made it hard for me to think about much else. And as Shysage recorded, he so keenly felt the loss of being able to take care of me in a lot of ways. I remembered nothing, and slowly a few big holes developed in my heart too; this was one of them. Shysage had taken such good care of me here, and to lose that... I really did want this for both of us. Remembering that night, we still cry...) This one is from chapter 29, "By the Moonlight" (opt:btm8c) (What we pulled out should read like this. We felt we should trim some in DM...) Summer shook violently, and began to shiver. And it wasn't because she was cold. Well, I was getting pretty involved too. I finished telling her what we did that night, and how we ended up at the lake, and that she slowly rolled over... Summer did that right then, on the floor there, in that jail cell... She rolled slowly over onto her back... my Blue mare... softly aglow by the moonlight... I could never leave this Mare... I made her feel like the Princess she is... And we didn't substantially risk a foal, but I realized that this was getting noticeably harder... I let her relax on her back a while, she really looked beautiful in the moonlight like that. (/opt:btm8c) (And I couldn't remember anything from the past on this amazing night. But after I could remember, like I said, I quickly connected both nights (and always will). I realized that the night at the lake I had rolled over so slowly... intentionally... I was soaking wet, and that made Shysage... Well, I did exactly the same thing, rolled over very slowly for my Stallion, right there in that jail cell. I don't know how I knew...) This last one is from chapter 35, the next "By the Moonlight" (opt:btm8d) (Ok, so this is how this section should read.) My Mare, as a 'people', was standing up in front of the window... Without a stitch of clothing on... Bathed all over... softly aglow by the moonlight of a full 'Harvest Moon'... She slowly turned to look at me and then she smiled... She is my Mare, and I won't tell you exactly what I saw. You shouldn't want to know. But she didn't move for the longest time, and I will never forget... Her amazingly beautiful 'people' body... Her priceless smile... (/opt:btm8d) (For Shysage, I knew my people body could... Well, the moonlight was beaming past me; Shysage saw everything. I guessed I saved this until we needed it... Shysage really needed it! There were no amazing feelings this particular night; Shysage was far too shattered inside for that. But I did what I could to rescue my Stallion. I had too.) > Chapter 6, Future Perfect (Vol. 9) and Ariel Dawn (Vol. 10) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Future Perfect (Vol. 9) We decided to leave Future Perfect alone. There are three separate segments where we used the phrases "Shysage took care of his Mare", or "Shysage made me feel like a Princess". We have left things like this alone in some of the other chronicles. -- Chapter 12, "a good man", near the middle -- Chapter 24, "Road to Recovery", near the end -- Chapter 34, another "By the Moonlight" chapter, also near the middle I guess you really need to have read some of the earlier chronicles to understand what we are even implying. And it didn't strike us as intensely suggestive, by any means. Anyway, on each of these occasions, Shysage was doing his best to help me cope, especially during Ch. 34. We just felt increasingly out of place, well, homeless. Shysage knew what would help, if only for a few hours. He really does take such good care of me. Honestly, I don't know if we have intimate times a lot or a little, well compared to other couples. Maybe it doesn't really matter. Still, it is pretty clear this is another important part of our lives; who we are, what we do. After thinking about this a minute, I laughed and said to Shysage "Maybe I have an alarm clock inside for that!" We were sitting at the compy at the time, as people. Shysage thought briefly, then said simply "No, Mare..." Then he turned us around, and gently picked me up and put me in his lap. He hugged me tightly, and added slowly "I just know when you need that..." We both cried softly together for a while... Ariel Dawn (Vol. 10) Ch. 5, Leaning on the Wind The first time Shysage 'took care of me' back in the past (this time) happened in chapter 5 (roughly the middle). Shysage was recovering from rage's wounds, but I suddenly felt so emptied. Shysage knew right away... and took care of his Mare. We left this amazing section alone. There was no lurking motives or anything like that, just Shysage's amazing devotion to his Mare (me). And, as I explained, he just gave... We decided to leave it just like it is. (btm:opt10a) But near sun-down on that same day, described a little later in chapter 5, we were Leaning on the Wind together. Our wing-tips were touching, as we stood there, leaning forward at an angle, with only the wind rushing quickly past our carefully trimmed wings keeping us from falling. My Stallion and I were clearly reveling in our Pegasus nature together. That part was amazing. We both love flying, and 'everything Pegasus' that results. Well, the wind was blowing in from the west... The sun was also low off to the west... The sky was clear... We were both softly painted by the orange glow of the setting sun... I wrote these brief words: "When the Sun was very low in the sky, it added a dazzling Orange hue to everything. Shysage said I looked amazing. Well, I looked over at him, and he looked amazing too." Well, I really wanted to add a bunch more at the time, but I chickened out. I think we would have had to add a note at the beginning if I said what I really wanted to say, so I didn't. But I think I can explain everything here. This is what really happened. It was quiet for a while, as we both enjoyed 'holding wings' and the wind rushing past our wings, our bodies... The next thing I heard... "Precious Mare, you look absolutely amazing..." I looked over at Shysage right away, he was looking at me! And, even with the orange glow, I could tell he was blushing! I, well, I looked him over, his whole body, maybe that is a kind way to say it. I was blushing too, right away. "Oh... my... Stallion..." I said slowly. Then I almost fell over backwards! There are areas of both our bodies that stay mostly covered up. Well, we are Stallion and Mare, and we were together and alone that night. That low in the west, orange orb, it's light softly... showed... everything... I think we both, well, looked each other over a little while, then sighed together. Then we did say "I love you" at the exact same time! Then the sun dipped below the horizon, and the wind died down. Later that night Shysage and I talked. We both agreed that we alone can look at each other like that! I don't think either of us want it any other way. And I guess Leaning on the Wind would have to be just us... Shysage mentioned that much wind was rare anyway. As I wrote, we finally went to sleep that night, but Shysage woke up crying softly, soon after. "Oh Summer... I... We... We keep finding things... showing me that I just can't live without you..." I burst into tears; I felt exactly the same thing. We cried until we both fell asleep that amazing night... Chapter 6, Signs (opt:btm10b) At the end of this amazing chapter, we included similar words... I wrote: "...I love my Stallion. He took care of his Mare. He made me feel like a Princess..." Again, there was no dark inuendo here, this is just the same fairly benign terminology we have adopted for our amazing, intimate times together. We decided to leave it alone. Still, this chapter ends with Shysage saying this after we were done, haltingly, while crying... "Summer... I... You were... Wow... I don't know why... I didn't want... I couldn't... I'm sorry... I almost didn't..." Well, this does sound cryptic, but this is actually the last sign. Shysage is originally from the Equestria Girls world, so his intimate desires are, well were muted as a pony. This allowed him to give to me so many times. I took care of him at times too, but generally, it would take him a while to respond when were were ponies. But this was the last sign. This almost didn't happen that night. Shysage almost couldn't stop in time... Well, if I got my way... (Which I did!) Chapter 7, By the Moonlight (opt:btm10c) I... This chapter was so hard, knowing what to do... The chapter came out so amazing, but nothing could conceal what my goal was, and how Shysage responded to that... Still, I guess we felt we should tone the chapter down some, and move a bunch of it here. This also meant doing some painful editing to the account, what we left in the text of this amazing evening... My full, original text is below, starting with the last half of one paragraph: "...I was on my back again, and I knew... Shysage started to say "Summer, I don't think I can..." I just looked into his amazing eyes, and he stopped right there. We rubbed noses briefly... maybe a little while. It felt amazing. The moon was now pretty bright. This was good. Still laying on my back. I tried to splash him a bunch. I turned over fast, then ran off, back along the edge of the lake again. He followed me of course. Without warning, I turned up into the meadow, ran towards a bunch of tall Oats, and was quickly on my back in the grass. Shysage was following me, but he couldn't see me. I changed into a people right before he got to me. And I had already planned ahead so I had no clothes on. When Shysage bounded through the grass to me, he saw nothing until he got to me. Then he saw his amazing Mare, as a people; I was on my back, in Shysage's own native form. Shysage melted, or melted down... I think he was overwhelmed. Of course, he changed into a people too, right away. Still... Well, if you need a physiology lesson... Shysage tried to take care of his princess. But as a people, Shysage could not slow the process down at all. It happened so fast. I made my Stallion feel like the prince he really is. And my amazing Stallion... He realized he had responded far faster that I had, and he still took care of me." [/sigh...] Have I said enough that I love my Shysage? And, I was prepared to try this a few times, a few different ways. I desparately WANTED to give Shysage this, to give him everything, all of me! And... I also WANTED a foal... I wanted... HIS Foal! (I had a name picked out already and everything!) And I did everything I could that night to, well, really excite my Stallion -- can I say that here? I think it worked... Chapter 8, Some Sweet Way (opt:btm10d) I think Shysage and I, we have worked to be very careful about what we say, what we write. Shysage said we need to respect whatever audience, whoever the ponies are that read our accounts. I think this occasionally led to us saying some stuff that only barely scratched the surface about what was really going on. The Leaning on the Wind part of chapter 5 is a good example. Another good example is a very short comment in chapter 8. Early in this particular chapter, this is what we wrote: "Shysage and I, well we did really revel in the amazing pleasure we could freely give each other now. But after a month maybe and some amazing times together, Shysage suggested that I should probably pick a body, and stay that way until after Ariel was born..." This was absolutely true, but, oh my goodness!!! I think up to this amazing month, Shysage and I had mostly spent our intimate times as ponies. Shysage could better control his responses that way so we could avoid a Foal, and, well, we were just in Equestria a lot. We never complained or felt bad about this. It just had to be. But that month... We did our usual morning routine, eating and doing a lot of flying as ponies, but we spent most of those afternoons as people... And it was easily warm enough that we didn't need clothes. Between the lake and miles of grass, Shysage and I as people... Well, I think we got caught up anyway. We enjoyed each other's people bodies a LOT, far more than we ever had up to this point. I worried at first, that as a people, and what those two terrible men did to me, well maybe my people responses would be somehow muted, since I am from Equestria. Wow, around my Man, that just didn't happen! Like I said elsewhere, we had already accepted, together, the responsibility that resulted from me maybe throwing myself at my Stallion (I doubt he minded). Our Ariel was coming, and we both were all over that!. And as I said, we could now freely give to each other... We took our time, and enjoyed every second... Well, whether we made each other feel amazing or not, we spent a lot of most afternoons as people, laying together, hugging, crying softly... The more we give... Our putting each other first, serving each other, I think that so amplified the pleasure, the joy we shared, especially as people that month. And maybe this... I think it was the second afternoon of many, I was laying on top of Shysage relaxing in his embrace. I thought of something my Twin told me, and immediately started crying... She and her husband live in the Equestria Girls world. She is from there, but her Shysage (my Shysage's Twin) is from Equestria. He faced a HUGE learning curve (Shysage's words) as he tried to come up to speed with the Equestria Girl's world. But I guess one day he heard another man say this: "...in and done in 15 minutes...", and I guess that man was talking about his intimate times. The next day when her Shysage was with Summer (my Twin) he told her what he had heard. Then he got the most stern look on his face... "Summer honey, we are NEVER doing that!" That made my Twin cry. When she told me about this, I cried too. Well, we cried together. When they can, they spend hours in bed... They have their Ariel now, but I think that isn't stopping them! Anyway, when I started crying that warm afternoon, I slowly explained all this to my Shysage. He just smiled at me. "Sounds good to me!" That's what we did that month. We took our time... caressing... touching... hugging... kissing... loving... Just about every day, we had all afternoon, and most of the evening! We were together and alone and very close... Like I said, it was amazing. Still, from this point on in the account... Our Ariel is precious, and increasingly occupied more and more of our time. I got very homesick, then Annie came... Everything just swirled madly the rest of this account... > Chapter 7, A Wing and a Prayer (Vol. 11) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Wing and a Prayer (Vol. 11) (opt:btm11a) This amazing account moves very quickly, and covers a fairly short period of time (a few weeks?). And most of that time, I was sitting down next to the gates of Hades, waiting for Shysage. There really was not much in the way of 'by the moonlight' times to tip-toe around. Don't get me wrong; Shysage takes care of his princess a lot! That just didn't show up in this account much... ...until that last chapter, which I got to do! After an absolutely amazing and tear-filled day surrounded by Twins, Shysage drove me to a hotel in his big car. We would spend the night there. Like I said, his cubical would have been fine with me. But after we checked in, well something amazing did happen! I put the marker in even though I did not, could not explain. I can explain it here though. As we have mentioned before, Shysage is always looking out for special ways to show me he cares. I think we both do that, actually. Well, we both did that night. Anyway, after we first went into our room, and I laughed at the huge bed, Shysage locked us in, then he went around and turned off all the lights except for a dim light above something, I don't know. Still, it was darker, but we could still see each other! Shysage went to use the rest-room. I... I wanted to give Shysage a present. I took all my clothes off, then put my PDL hat back on. That hat was all I was wearing! Then I just sat on the edge of the bed and waited for him. Only a few minutes later, Shysage came out of the bathroom -- with nothing on besides his PDL hat! We had both arrived at the same way to show each other we cared! I think we both melted... We hugged and kissed for a while. Of course, we took our time and took care of each other too. I like that we still act like newly-weds! Still, as the account mentions, Shysage cried a lot that night. We both did. Us being separated is increasingly difficult for both of us; we have just become so inter-dependent. And those two weeks were very hard for my Shysage. We could finally cry that out together. I love him so much! > Chapter 8, Sweep of Time (Vol. 12) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I mean seriously... We got thrown into that freezing cold dungeon, and nopony told us anything... We finally busted out, and went to help Cel in the past. She wanted to try to help us in our present. Only, what she sent us back with, well, it didn't come through... So we ran to the Equestria Girls world, I guess. Shysage just took me away... away from CHS... all our precious friends... But I guess that short break really helped... We relaxed in that motel, if only for a short time... [opt:btm12] I don't remember how we got in bed, I was crying, I was a mess. I think Shysage helped me undress, then pulled the covers back for me. We were both crying anyway, and the last thing I remember was Shysage hugging me tightly as I cried; our crying slowly subsided as we fell asleep. I woke up a few hours later to a different noise. Shysage was not next to me, and the light was on in the bathroom. Well, the shower was the noise I heard. I got out of bed, and walked quickly to the bathroom. I think Shysage was waiting for me because he opened the shower door right away. I love my man, but that warm water felt absolutely amazing. Shysage let me stand in the nice hot water as he scrubbed my whole body clean, and he even washed my hair! I felt so cherished... And the warmth of the water... Maybe after the last few freezing months... It felt absolutely amazing... I just stood there for a long time, even after Shysage was done getting me all clean. I pulled him up to me so he could enjoy the warm water too, and we just hugged in that warm water for the longest time. I don't know where the hot water comes from, but I hoped we didn't run out! Shysage turned the water off, and then it was cold again. Shysage lovingly dried me off first. He turned on this red light thing which helped a little. He brushed my hair -- I just melted... It had been so long since... Maybe ten minutes later, he kissed my back and told me to go jump back in bed and keep it warm for him. Well, the bed was freezing cold, but warmed up quickly, where I was, at least. Of course, Shysage soon joined me, and we shivered together while hugging. If we had both fallen back asleep right then, I would be so contented. Shysage so clearly puts me first, and really cherishes me, and treats me like his Mare -- I love him so much! We didn't sleep yet. I think Shysage knew how desparately I needed him that night. It had been so long since... But, for the next hour... Shysage cherished me a lot more... Shysage took his time... and took care of his Mare... His touch... caressing me... I... It was amazing... He mentioned he was probably too beat up inside to respond, but I took care of him too! Afterwards, we took another, shorter shower, and were quickly back in bed... crying... hugging... We usually cry together after our intimate times. I cry because... This would never work... I would not ever want this to work... with ANYPONY besides my amazing Shysage... I cry because I absolutely need him, and him alone... And each time he cherishes me, I know I need him even more... For so many reasons, I could never leave this man... And I would NEVER even think of doing this with anypony else... I just need my man... And each day, it seems, I need him more... I love him so much... I thanked true friend for my Shysage a lot that night...