Realisation
A scream.
A twitch of my ear.
Another scream.
So another twitch.
I turn my head.
Right.
Left.
Right...
Trying to shake off the screams.
They're annoying.
Annoying me.
Are they screams of anger...?
Yeah probably.
They're faking anger.
To make me.
Me!
Feel guilty.
They're horrible ponies.
I hate them.
They should die.
All of them.
But I can't quite make out who is who with all the different cries.
Then there's the voice.
The voice.
Recognisable beyond all the sounds.
The voice of a Princess who once loved me.
At least I think she loved me.
Well I still can't believe I loved her.
The only one who was worthy of my love was Rainbow.
But there always had to be complications right?
They had all plotted against me...
Killed her...
And why do I think that?
Ha!
It's simple!
It's just because...
Because...
Because of...
Huh.
I shook my head in confusion at the only question I had trouble answering.
Why? Why did I suddenly start accusing every pony?
Maybe... Uh...
It's so far away... I can barely remember! But I think it's because...
...
I... I don't know!
I don't know anymore who killed my love!
Everypony was responsible...
At least that was what I thought.
I tried to shift my position and take a look at Celestia.
To look at somepony who could perhaps give me the answer to my question.
To my extremely confusing question.
But I couldn't.
The only thing I could move was my head.
All the rest was attached to a huge, although simple machine that had a shimmering blade at the top.
The machine itself was situated on a stage where dozens of ponies were either angrily, fearfully or sadly staring or glaring at me.
I vaguely remember studying about these death machines.
Once the pony behind me lets the rope go, then the blade will fall on my neck and separate my head from body.
Death.
Death...
That word is so beautiful to me...
The entrance to seeing my love again.
She's waiting.
Somewhere.
Up there.
"And I now... s... sentence this once... respectful alicorn... to... to..." The white alicorn took a deep breath to recompose herself. "...death..." Celestia's voice is cracked.
She doesn't want to do it.
I wonder why.
She looks at me and I send her a provocative look.
But what I see in her eyes isn't hatred.
Love.
Sadness.
She's disappointed...
I focus my eyes back on the angry crowd that had come to see my execution, and see my friends in tears.
Fluttershy is frozen to the spot, in a state of shock.
Rarity is completely dressed in black and crying her head off.
Applejack is being restrained by two stallions.
She's trying to get to me.
To... save me...?
Wait... What did... Why are they...? They killed Rainbow Dash! They... They're... crying...
Just like that, my reason comes back to me.
Slips of how mad I was gently flow through my mind.
Pinkie was the only responsible! And... And she... She didn't even mean to do it!
She was simply a little deranged!
Only wanting to make cupcakes to please her friends!
All those months, I was accusing the wrong ponies!
If only I had payed attention to Pinkie more closely.
I would've known!
What kind of a Princess of Friendship am I?!
I could've dealt with my love's death with maturity as a real ruler!
Not... Not cry and lock myself in my own pain.
I had made so many ponies suffer!
Pinkie was... I...
My head turned left and right, more violently this time.
No...
The words weren't coming out.
My throat was already sore from all my screaming.
Celestia shot one last look at me and discreetly wiped her tears.
"I'm sure you will be happier up there my dear student..." she murmured.
W... Wait! I was wrong! I won't be happy! Don't kill me for nothing! I... need to talk!
But she trotted off the stage and created a bubble around the whole contraption.
I saw my friend's faces disappear behind it and silence took place.
And why the bubble...?
So that younger ponies wouldn't see everything I suppose.
Well at least that was a positive point.
"Wait! Wait! I finally... I'm sorry!" I screamed.
But the bubble was making any noise from the inside of it, impossible to hear from the outside.
I struggled against my ties, desperately trying to break free from all this madness... that I had gotten myself into.
But a hooded pony behind me came closer.
She was the only one inside the bubble with me.
The one who had to let go of the rope...
My executioner.
Then something caught my eye as she approached me from the front.
Her mane... Her mane was... pink...?!
And I could just about see under the hood, the beginning of... of... faded blue eyes...
"No..." a small whimper shot through my lips. "You're... Somepony killed you!"
Pinkie Pie gave me a twisted smile. She leaned in close to my ear.
What she whispered next echoed through my head like a thousand whispers of death.
"No Twilight... You killed me..."
Tears of despair flowed freely down my cheeks.
I couldn't utter a word.
She pulled her hood lower down her face so that her eyes would be out of view and grabbed the rope in her teeth.
"P... Please..." I managed to mumble.
She couldn't speak but I heard her voice all around me...
"Sweet dreams Twilight..."
My head struggled to lift up one last time as she opened her mouth, therefor letting the rope shoot towards the sky.
The last thing I ever saw, was a shimmering silver blade rushing to me...