Dear Celestia

by Doukzor

First published

Dear Celestia- I`m all alone. You know the feeling, right? Having lost everything.

Dear Celestia-

I`m all alone. You know the feeling, right?
Having lost everything. Your friends, your parents...
I`ve lost it all. Even Spike`s gone.
This may be the last time I write to you, Celestia.


teen for the fact this is a suicide story.:applejackunsure: Enjoy!

Dear Celestia

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Dear Celestia,

I`m all alone. You know the feeling, right?

Having lost everything. Your friends, your parents... I`ve lost it all. Even Spike`s gone.

This may be the last time I write to you, Celestia.

I know your busy, but I need to tell you something important.

About me, about the past.

Over the years, my best friends began to... Flicker. Like a fire, slowly, each one went out.

Until finally, Rainbow Dash`s flame blew out.

Then Pinkie`s.

And Fluttershy`s.

And then the rest.

Spike died last month. I wanted to tell you sooner, but I was just... Depressed.

What do I do, Celestia?

I can`t be the princess of friendship with out friends! Every day, I spend my time coped up in the castle.

It`s really silent here, now. Without Pinkie Pie around.

How have you been living all these years? I know it must be hard, but your needed in Equestria. You and Luna.

I see why you haven`t done it.

Gone to your friends and family, joined them forever.

I think i`m going to. I can`t take being a princess anymore. I hate my crown. I hate my wings. I hate my life.

That being said, I have a small glimmer of hope left.

I don`t know where from though, but it`s beating me alive. That hope. I want to get rid of it.

Cadence is gone, Shiny`s gone, Spike...

All my friends are dead gone. Every single one of them... From Rarity to Owlicious.

I hope you understand, Tia.

What i`m going to do. I`m going to take off this immortality. I`m going to retire from being princess.

I`m going to let go.


I do want to make one last, maybe memorable pen pal note to you, though.

I want to thank you, for everything. Being my teacher, my friend, my other mom...

Yeah, you were practically another mom to me, I must say. Remember when I scraped my leg, and you acted like cat to her kits?

Or when we pranked all the guards in your kingdom?

That was funny.

Or maybe when we raised the sun, together?

I`d like to dwell on that thought one last time. We stayed awake all night just to do it. Rounds and rounds of coffee. Mostly pure black though, I needed the strong to stuff to keep my limbs from going out.

The tension, as we played chess and listened to random Dubstep.

I never knew you`d like that kind of music.

And when the final moment came, and you let me beat you.

Then you took me up to your side, and said, 'it`s time'. My face lit up so brightly.

We charged our magic, and raised our horns! I used what little magic I had and moved, something. Probably not the sun or moon in the slightest, but I did hear a cat screech that morning.

And when we were, you took me up in your wings and nuzzled me.

We played in the garden, practiced spells, played hide and seek, tag, all of it.

I loved those times.


I may not get a reply form you, but if I do, I probably won`t answer it.

I think you know why.

I love you Celestia, please forgive me.

Your best friend forever,

Twilight Sparkle

Dear Twilight

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Dear Twilight,

I`m sorry. I`m so sorry.
There`s no need for me to forgive you Twilight, I... I know how you feel.
Don`t worry. Just rest now.
Rest, Twilight.

I know your probably not around to read this, but yes, I remember all those times.

I never forgot any of them. I love you Twilight. And I should`ve known this would happen. It`s all my fault.
Please, forgive me.
I made you immortal.
But now your with your friends, Twilight. Now you can live forever happily.
And one day, I`ll be there too. Me and you can play hide and seek, tag, we can raise the sun and the moon together.

One day, we`ll go out into the fields again. One day.
But now, i`m needed here.
I have to tend to the sun. But I wish I could join you up there.

But now, with you gone, I feel lost.
I could easily get a new pupil, and train them. but it wouldn`t be the same.
Sunset Shimmer found her place in the human world. All my friends wait for me with you. Luna is all I have left.

I hope you get to read this though.
So I can say one last time, I love you.

So you can know it`s okay to go on.
It`s okay to leave us.
You don`t belong in a world where you feel lost and alone.

I feel like you, but I have to stay.
Don`t worry though, Twilight, I`ll join you soon. Soon.

Then we`ll fly and have thousands of parties with Pinkie Pie.
We`ll challenge Rainbow Dash to tag.
We`ll work with Apple Jack and plant whole fields in one day.
We`ll Design beautiful dresses with Rarity.
We`ll take care of our animals, and Philomeana will be there too.
We`ll raise the sun and moon together.

You`ve found your sunset Twilight, but I have not. My sunrise was over a thousand years ago, and I still have a whole day ahead of me. My fire burns brightly with blue.
I wish I could blow it out, to be with you.


My wings have not yet flown. My mane has not yet settled.
Twilight.
I feel like i`m falling, every night I wake up. I think of you, but.... But now your gone. I want the sun to rise on it`s own, I want the moon to set on it`s own.
So that we could find you in the heavenly scape your settled in. I know I can`t come right now.

But when my day comes, I`ll be with you.

Your best friend forever,

Celestia