> Ah am a big pony > by Mesme Rize > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > The only chapter > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Twilight Sparkle had a very special mission today. Her friend Applejack once came to her and told her about Applebloom, being very depressed about her cutie mark lately. She said that she probably needed some professional help, since she didn't came through her. So, Twilight said that she would help Applebloom. She would go through her, one way or the other. She build everything upin her library, so it would look like an office of a psychatrist. She waited for her patient. the library door crept open as a small hoof was cracking through, entering inside happens to be be Apple Bloom, as she trots inside with her little filly hooves, she happens to notice the essential office work Twilight has setup, which looks appealing as a real doctors office "Umm, Twilight.. What’s with all this git up office stuff? Ah feel like ah’m gonna go through surgery. "Bloom squeaked out, she finds the new decor, nerve racking to an actual doctors office. Twilight was adjusting her glasses and grabbed some pen & paper. When she suddenly heard Applebloom talking. "Hello Applebloom. Don't be silly. You don't go through surgery. Atleast when it comes to your physical body." Twilight was of course refering to Appleblooms soul, which she wanted to repair. She sat down on her chair, with a clipboard in her grasp. "Why don't you lay yourself on the sofa over there Applebloom?" Twilight pointed to the classic sofa, you see in every therapist office. Apple Bloom has never been through therapy, but does as she was told as she lies on her back on the comfortable sofa, awaits what’s next for the procedure. Twilight scribbled some notes on her clipboard, looking as professional as possible. She adjusted her glasses and then looked over to Applebloom. "Okay Applebloom. First i must tell you that i am here to help you. I am your friend and you can tell me everything. If you trust me and open up to me, you will feel alot better, okay?" Twilight wanted to make sure that Applebloom was comfortable. Apple Bloom sighs in doubt, understands Twilight’s offer to help as a friend, but that help isn’t the solution to get her cutie mark "Ah know, and ah appreciate your help and all Twilight, but this won’t really do, I know it won’t help getting my cutie mark." The filly isn’t really caring for Twilights help as all her mind can focus on is to claim that cutie mark right now, if not soon, she would go nuts. Twilight adjusted her glasses again. She needed her patient to open up. "Applebloom. Applejack told me that you're really despressed lately. She said that you don't talk to her and that you don't want help from her. She is really concerned about you and you really don't do yourself a favor, if you obsess over this cutie mark." Twilight said caringly. She knew that Applebloom was a crusader, but lately, she hasn't been herself. "Ah’m useless that’s why." she sputters, doubting every bit of herself for Twilight to understand that she’s wasting time with her "Ah’m not worth anythin when ah don’t got no talent… Diamond Tiara’s right… not everypony has a talent… ah don’t see why, but she doesn’t deserve a cutie mark."Apple Blooms voice trembles as Twilight should be able to identify as determined arrogance. Twilight Sparkle gave a caring smile. "Applebloom, you're not worthless. You got so many wonderful friends, a wonderful sister and you got me. Is this why you're so depressed? Because fillies at school make fun of you? You shouldn't listen to them. You should believe in yourself" Twilight tried to give Applebloom confidence, but she feared that she was hitting a wall. "Ah know ah got friends, but you don’t understand Twilight. Ah’m a full negative apple core, ah don’t have anymore confidence…" Apple Bloom confesses how illfully sad she is, finding no purpose in life without a talent, her head hangs as tears dripped from her face in emotional damage over something she believes she can’t achieve. At this point, Twilight didn't gave a flank about professionality. Applebloom was obviously in pain and she needed her. Twilight stood up from her chair and walked to the couch. She put Appleblooms head on her chest and embraced her. "Shh. Don't cry Applebloom. You're not worthless. You just need some time. That's nothing to be ashamed off, shhh." Twilight didn't expect that it would be this difficult. Applebloom was stuck in a very bad form of depression. Just as Twilight gets into comforting her, the filly is heard already breaking into heart broken sobs, her hooves are felt wrapping around Twilights waist as she hugs her therapist friend in desperate need of help "Twilight, ah really don’t know what to do!… w-what can you do?" her voice trembled in agonizing sadness as she asked Twilight let go off Applebloom and started to think. It seems like normal talking wasn't going to cut it, so she had to call for more extreme meassures. "It seems like your problem is so far deep down your brain, that you don't even realize it. We probably have to dig very deep. I don't think it's just because of your cutie mark." Twilight knew, that Applebloom was searching for a cutie mark, just because. the filly sniffles as her hoof places against Twilights chest & looks up to her teary eyed "D-dig deep? W-what do ya mean?" Apple Bloom isn’t really following how Twilight is going through with this in what way she could possibly help her. Twilight dosen't attempt to scare Applebloom, it was the last thing she would do. But she needed to help her. She sat beside Applebloom, trying more of a friend approach, then that of a therapist. "Applebloom. Have you ever heard about hypnosis?" She didn't want to use her power immediatly. She wanted Appleblooms confirmation. Apple Bloom only responds with no known knowledge of it "Nah, ah never heard of it, or know what it is" she looks up at Twilight innocently emotional "W-why?… are ya gonna do that? w-will it hurt?" Twilight tried to put the filly at ease. "No sweetie. It will not hurt." She brushed the little fillies mane. She needed to tell Applebloom, hypnosis in a way, that she would understand. "I will put you into a deep sleep. During that, you will be suggestiable to my words, so you pretty much do everything i say. I will use that time to enter your subconsius and find for the core of the problem. Something you put there a long time ago." Twilight hoped that it didn't scare Applebloom. Fillies are always fearful of unknown stuff. Apple Bloom abides into whatever Twilight says just to get it over worth, but is still unknown on how well hypnosis truly works "Well, if that’s the only solution, then ah guess we have no choice…" hanging her head down, she agrees only to get it over with. Twilight put a hoof under Appleblooms chin, so she could look at her. She could see the sadness and fear in Appleblooms eyes. "Hey, do you trust me? I don't want to force you to anything." She smiled at Applebloom. Apple Blooms lips tremble as they struggle to smile, but her negativity prevents her "Ah can’t say anythin positive… your mah friend and all Twilight, ah wanna say ah trust ya, but yer really gonna have to force me… it’s the only way.." she says sincerely & is honest to really get it over with. Twilight was very surprised. Applebloom sounded very mature for her age, even if she was shakin up. But since Applebloom wanted it the way SHE wanted it to be, Twilight just prepared herself. "Alright Applebloom, look deep into my eyes." Twilight looked at Applebloom as her eyes slowly turned to an array of colorful rings. as she was told to do, Apple Bloom finds herself petrified colorful swirls Twilight displays as they slowly go through her eyes and burn on her young easily exposed mind. "W-wah… w-w-what is this?…" her voice changes from sadness to now tiresome comfort. Twilight innerly let out a sigh of relief. She feared that she would turn away and call quits in the last second. But Applebloom was looking at her now, being hypnotised by her mesmerizing colors. "Shh. Don't question it sweetie. Just watch as the colors flow through my eyes. Feel as your sadness slowly flys away." "Ah…"Apple Bloom stutters as she tries to speak, but Twilights words hit her mind as they ring in her head to obey "Ah…T-Twilight…w-why am ah feeling so.. c-calm?…" Twilights words work their way in Apple Blooms young mind as she still tries to resist at the strong hypnotic effect. Twilight was putting a hoof on Appleblooms mouth, indicating that she shouldn't talk. Twilight kepts gazing at Appleblooms eyes, which where mirroring hers by this point. "My eyes make you calm. They are so caring, so relaxing and so beautiful. You feel tired, aren't you? Please, go to sleep." Apple Bloom fights with her last words before submitting into obedience "B-but.. a-a-ah don’t wanna go tah… s-sleep.." she mumbled out as her eyelids droop, finally submitting to Twilights commanding & soothing voice "Ah’m.. s-sleepy…" Applebloom was almost under, Twilight could sense. She just needed one final push. Twilight pressed Applebloom on the head, so she would lay back on the couch. "Yes Applebloom. Just lay yourself down and sleep like a good filly. No crusading, no bullies, just the safety of sleep." Twilights voice became almost motherly. Apple Bloom eyes droop heavily, her mind eases to Twilights soft sweet words, as the press against her head causes her to swoon back, lying down comfortably on the couch with a cute sleepy smile "O-ok… n-no bullied & crusading… j-just sleep…" Twilights eyes reverted back. Applebloom was now fully entranced. She was laying on the couch, a cute smile on her face and without a care in the world. Twilight smiled at that adorable display. She needed to go back to work though. "Applebloom. Do you hear me? Listen to my voice." Apple Bloom stays limp as her expression doesn’t change, only to move her lips as she replies to her therapist friend. "Y-yes Twilight.. A-ah here ya." Atleast now Twilight was sure that Applebloom, could hear her. Now comes the hard part. "Applebloom. I want you to go deep into your thoughts. I want you to find the problem for your depression. Find something that you pushed back in your deepest thoughts." If this didn't work, then Twilight would cut off her wings. Apple Blooms mind tries to work under the supervision of Twilight’s command, her memories still intact but in well ordered as her mind was under Twilight’s control, she picks out what could be the issue "Ah just wanna be a big pony already… a-and have my cutie mark to show ah have a purpose in life… but ah’m just so impatient, it’s like mah cutie mark is all that matters. Maybe ah could use something to help keep me busy so ah wouldn’t have to be so impatient…" Apple Bloom depicts she would like a routine of an activity to do to ease her impatience. Twilight listened, to what the entranced little filly had to say. Applebloom wanted to be a big pony, because she felt useless. Little fillies sometimes see themselves as useless. "Stay deep Applebloom. Do ponies sometimes think, that you're not grown up enough for certain things?" Twilight probably knew where this was going. Apple Bloom tries to give out more as Twilight asks for more information about ponies disapproving her being grown up "There was ah time mah sister ditched delivering those pies just to change her mind on leaving me home alone… so ah wanted to prove her wrong by delivering the pies myself, until ah was ambushed by a chimera." Apple Bloom goes on with more detail on what happened that day "Ah never got tah stay home after that day… Ah wish ah could be alone for once just tah be mah own pony of the house… Twilight was scribbling down some notes. No wonder Applebloom was this way. It wasn't really about her cutie mark, it was more about her proving that she was a big pony to her sister. "That's probably also the reason, why you don't talk to Applejack lately, right?" the filly nods as her consciousness shows approvingly as a tear dripped from her hypnotized eyeballs. It's just like Twilight was suspecting. Applejack is very overprotective of her sister and dosen't let Applebloom much space. She had to have a talk with her later. But now, Applebloom was crying, even in trance. "Shhhh. It's alright Applebloom. Relax. No one will hurt you. I am here." Twilight comforted Applebloom with her voice. Twilights sweet voice ceases Apple Blooms sniffles, she wipes the tear off her cheek & looks up at Twilight in a blank stare as her eyes continue to swirl in bright colors, she awaits whatever Twilight needs next in instruction. The way Applebloom looked was kind of silly thought Twilight. But she needed to concentrate. "Listen Applebloom. Don't haste yourself being grown up. You're a little filly, who has fun with her friends and loves playing games. You're...." Then Twilight stopped. Should she really put this in her head? Well, it can only be profitable. "You're a good student, who loves to go to school." Twilight almost whispered in her voice. Apple Blooms ears perk & twitch as she gets every word Twilight says into her tiny little knowledge needing brain, she happens to be sitting on her Posterior while looking up innocently adorable at Twilight, understanding everything she is told to do "Ah’m a good student… a-and ah good friend.. ah love playing games…" "Good Applebloom" Twilight was sure, that she healed most of her wounds. She had to do the rest with Applejack. "Applebloom. When i say "bookfort" you will come out of your trance. Understood?" Twilight took a few seconds, to take a last glance at Appleblooms adorable face "Bookfort." the magic word cause Apple Bloom to blink as her eyes open back to there normal display, the hypnotic colors now gone, she has gain back her consciousness & her mind "Bookfort?! Where?" she asks in a playful manner, almost every filly loves building forts. Twilight let out a giggle. Seems like Applebloom liked to build forts just as much, as she did as a filly. "Hey sleepyhead. Are you alright?" Apple Bloom falls to attention to Twilight as she speaks, she smiles adorably as she seems now cheerful after undergoing Twilights hypnosis treatment. "Y-yeah! Ah felt like that nap took all mah negativity out of me & filled me up with some positivity!" Applebloom felt like a different pony. Twilight really did wonders. she brushed Appleblooms mane. "You're a very brave filly for going through this Applebloom. You can be really proud of yourself." Twilight complimented Applebloom. Some Ponies, would be scared going to the therapist. Apple Bloom nuzzles against Twilight’s chest, now knows how promising the treatment was that has changed her attitude quite well. "Well ah’m not! Ah knew it was nuthin, but can ah build ah fort for real?" Twilight smiled at the new found ethusiasm in Applebloom. It really made her heart melt, seeing her adorable face. "How about this. You and i, will spend the whole day tomorrow together. The library is closed and i have nothing to do. We could both make the biggest bookfort ever. What do you think?" the jumps off the couch in triumph of Twilight’s offer "Yeah!" as she lands on ground, she hugs around Twilight’s face & nuzzles against her belly, looks up to the wise intellectual princess "Ah’m sorry ah ever doubted ya Twilight. Yer hypno stuff did the trick." Twilight was trying to hold her balance, by the tackling Applebloom. Maybe she over did it with the hypnotic suggestions. But at the same time, she was so happy, that Applebloom can smile again. "Hey, it's okay sweetie." She brushed her mane. "You where just depressed." She looked at the clock. "Does Applejack pick you up? It's quite a way to the farm." "Ya called Sugarcube?" AJ arrives right at the time Twilight said her name, Apple Bloom gives Twilight a goodbye nuzzle "Yep, well she’s here now." the filly marches right out as AJ stands in place, smiling courteously at Twilight. "Gee Twi, she seems mighty happy." Twilight was a bit startled when AJ came in. She walked over to AJ, to greed her friend. "Yeah. We both had fun." Twilight smiled at Applebloom. "Applebloom. would you like to go back inside and read a Book, while your sister and i talk?" returning back inside, the little filly smiles "Sure." Apple Bloom goes off browsing, leaving Twilight & Applejack to themselves, AJ wonders what there is needed to be talked about if Apple Bloom is already better "What’s wrong Twilight? Apple Bloom’s fine now, is there somethin the matter?" Twilight looked now a bit more serious at Applejack. Of course, she wasn't mad, but she needed a bat on the head. Or else, Applebloom will comeback again and again. "Applejack. Applebloom was really a wreck when she came in here. I thought that this would be easy, but i needed to do a special hypnosis treatment, to fix her." Twilight said it pretty boldly to AJ. AJ was a bit shocked on hearing how illfully depressed Apple Bloom was, but surprised that Twilight used hypnosis to change that issue & turning her into a happy living filly "Well darn, I’ve been trying to help her, but she just doesn’t want mah help… at least that did the trick right?" Twilight kept her serious stare at Applejack and shook her head. If it was only that easy? "Applejack. Do you actually know, why -Applebloom avoids you so much?" AJ really knows nothing of why her sister was in such a tragic state since "N-no… d-did ah really do something?" AJ asks as her voice chokes up, feeling guilt lingering deep inside her gut. Twilight walked over to AJ and put a hoof on her shoulder. It needed to be told. "She thinks that you won't let her grow up. She is ignoring you because ever since that accident with the chimera, you always watch over her." Twilight said in a gentle, but firm voice. AJ figures it was her fault putting Apple Bloom in such pressure, her head hangs down in shame, which comes to decision if she should let Apple Bloom prosper well without her sister always around in supervised situations, or only for awhile longer. "B-but she’s still just ah filly!" AJ stammers as she is lost with no way to handle this. "What should ah do then Twilight? She’s mah sister…" Twilight knew how Applejack felt. Her brother was also very protective of her. But the difference between them, was the fact that Shining Armor understood when to give her sister some time to breath. AJ probably didn't "AJ. Of course she is and nothing will change that. But you have to give her a rest. Applebloom is a very smart filly and she needs to learn to do things on her own. If you don't let her, she will end up like before." AJ really has been on Apple Blooms flank for too long. Now seeing how well she is after Twilight’s treatment, there’s only one way to keep her sister that way, so as hard for her as it is, AJ succumbs to Twilight’s solution "She grows up pretty fast, but ah never knew ah kept her small… ah’ll let her be then… ah just hope nothing drastic ever happens." AJ agrees in defeat, can’t help but let a tear dribble down her cheek at the thought of her sister being on her own even when she will grow to be an adult mare in the future, but knows this is right. Twilight was a bit shocked to see Applejack crying. She never saw her crying before, because she always acted very tough, like Rainbow. Twilight wiped the tear from AJs face. "Just because you need to let her go, dosen't mean you can't be with her. Applebloom still needs you, when it's necessary, You can also still play with her or help her with her homework. You just don't need to be there 24/7." This time,Twilights voice was alot more gentler. Twilight’s soft words of a true friend soften AJ that everything will go fine into doing this, looks up at Twilight & gives a sniffle "Yer right… Ah should be with her only for when it’s necessary. And just for fun to behave like sisters for the fun & helping times." Applejack seemed to finally get it. Twilight pulled Applejack into a hug, like all good friends would do. "I know it will be hard to do this. It's always hard. But do it for yourself and for Applebloom." Twilight brushed Applejack on the back. Applejack smiles as she was in Twilights embrace, her hooves rise around her friend & returns a hug back, having faith that everything will be good all thanks to Twilights convincing and her treatment to Apple Bloom. "Ah sure will Twilight… thank you."