> The Songs in Our Hearts > by Mat the Brawler > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > I Don’t Believe That Anybody Feels the way I Do, About You Now > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Don’t Believe That Anybody Feels the way I Do, About You Now “Knock, knock, knock.”         The sound wakes me from a lovely dream. I groan and my eyes slowly drift open. This would happen on my day off. Its 7:00 AM and someones knocking at my door. This place isn’t even a library. The knocking rings through the castle again.         “Twi!”  Oh, it’s Rainbow Dash. IT’S RAINBOW DASH! The all too familiar voice snaps me out of my sleepy daze. If it were any other pony I would have gone back to sleep, but I’d do just about anything for Dash. I’ve been kind of obsessed with that mare as of late. “Coming!” I call, gliding down the stairs to the front door. “Good morning, Dashie.” I say was I open the door, my eyes closed and a warm smile on my face. “To what do I owe-” I look at her and see something worse than the deepest pit of Tartarus. She’s crying. “Ca-can I come in?” She manages to choke out. “Of course.” I step aside. “Please come in.” We slowly walk to the castles large sitting room, the only sound being Dash’s sniffles. There are comfy cushions littered about the crystalline room. We nestle in by the fireplace to the back wall of the room. “What’s wrong Rainbow Dash?” I study her face. She’s staring at the floor, her expression unreadable. “I failed.” She says grimly. “Come again?” “My only goal and I failed.” “Wha-” My pupils shrink. Today was the day the letter from the wonderbolts came in. “You don’t mean?” “They didn’t let me join!” She bellowed in equal parts rage and sorrow. “Why? You’re the best flier I’ve ever seen.” “Yeah!” She laughed bitterly. “Apparently that’s not enough. They don’t think I’m enough of a team player. Said I’d try to outshine the rest of the team.” She buried her head in her hooves. Hot tears ran down her face, dripping into the cushion below her. “Dash,” I’m not sure how much more my heart can take seeing her like this. “I’m so sorry.” “What do I do now, Twi?” She sobbed as she lifted her head from her hooves. “I’ve got nothing else!” She spat. “No more dreams, no more aspirations. I have nothing.” We sat there in silence. Eventually, I steeled my look. “If the Wonder Bolts don’t see you as an asset to the team they can buck right off!” “Twilight?!” “Pardon my language, but it was warranted. Any flight team would benefit from having you in their ranks. If they can’t see it their crazier than discord!” I move closer to her, embracing her in my hooves. I swear I saw her cheeks go pink for a split second as I did. Our warmths mix and I feel her breathing steady as my hooves are wrapped around her. “I’m useless, Twi.” She says almost stoically. “I had one thing I wanted to do with myself and I’ll never get to do it. “DON’T YOU EVER SAY THAT AGAIN!” My voice rattles the quartz walls. “You are not and never will be useless!” “But its the truth Twi.” The stubborn mare continued to berate herself. “You are the best flyer in equestria, you won the competition to prove it. If anyones useless its me, I’m a know it all who over thinks anything.” Her eyes harshened. “Never say that again!” Her eyes were daggers. “You are the smartest, most intelligent pony I know.” “Why not? I can’t barely even fly right.” “Well I can’t go five minutes without my ego getting the better of me. Besides your kind and caring.” “Well you’re confident and cool.”         “Amazingly talented at anything you set your mind to.         “Never let your ego put anyone else down.”         “Passionate and as loyal as anypony I know.” “Just pleasant to be around.” “Helpful and funny.” “Strong and athletic.” “Quick witted and clever.” “Lithe and gorgeous.” “Curvy in all the right ways.” “And besides!” We cried in unison. “I CAN’T EVEN TELL THE MARE I LOVE HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER!” We stared at each other in complete silence. Did I just say that out loud? Did she say the same thing? I looked her over as she did the same. Dear Celestia was she beautiful. The way her barel was perfectly toned, her gorgeous flanks, the gentle slope of her back, her windswept mane. How did she manage to be both cute and sexy? I could only hope she had half as many things to admire about me.         “Is. Is the pony you love staring you right in the face?” She stuttered. I nodded.         “How?” She closed her eyes. “How could you love a failure like me. How can a loser like me be lucky enough to be loved by a pony like you?”         I hug her tight. “I don’t care what some silly flight team thinks of you, Rainbow.” I nuzzle her neck. “I-I love you. Through thick and thin, during the highs and lows. I just never knew how to tell you.” I snuggled into her chest.         “You’re always there. You act as a push or a wall when I need one. I wanted to tell you so bad, but I just couldn’t. You deserve someone better.”         “I don’t want someone ‘better.’” I tightened my embrace. “I want you. I promise, nopony feels like I do about you. Nopony at all.” She wrapped me in her forehooves.         “Thank you, Twilight.” She whispered just above the crackling fire. “Thank you.”         “Anytime Rainbow.” I smiled “Anytime at all.”         I don’t know how long we spent in that embrace. It could have been hours it could have been minutes or even seconds. We had each other that was all that mattered. Eventually we did let go just staring into each others eyes.         In her radiant magenta pools I saw something that had been missing. Something that had finally found its home again. I saw a fire. A fire that burned brighter than any other flame or spark in equestria. One that I loved so dearly. But now there was a huge difference in that fire. It didn’t burn for Dash, and it didn’t burn for the Wonder Bolts. It burned for me, and only for me. And I can to this day both see that fire and feel one for Rainbow Dash inside myself. I’ll do anything to keep those flames alive. > Dreams aren’t bad, Our Heads are Mad > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dreams aren't bad, Our Heads are Mad Cruel. That was the only way to describe my emotions. There were so many things wrong with what I was feeling, I know there were, but I just couldn't help myself. Of all the things why did I have to fall in love… And why did it have to be with a mare?         Love. Its a feeling I wasn't entirely familiar with up until recently. Normally this would be great. I’d study it like anything else and be eager to share my findings with everypony. Who knows it may have even lead to something. I’m in love with a mare.         I fell for the most stubborn, brash, cocky, athletic, talented, gorgi- GAH! Why her, why did I have to fall for her? Rainbow Dash, just the name sends my pulse skyrocketing. Her beautiful prismatic mane, that self assured smile, her beautiful strong wings, every time we meet it takes everything in me not to pounce on her. Okay I’m in front of the door, I just need to knock. Here we go-. “Oh, Rainbow!” The door swings open, revealing a surprised Twilight. I just stand there with a hoof up and probably a stupid look on my face. I yawn move my hoof in front of my mouth trying to play it off. “Hey, Twi.” I say trying to mask my nervousness. I’ve stared down a dragon, saved Equestria from certain doom countless times, and proved the existence of the sonic rainboom, yet this alicorn still makes me break out in a cold sweat. “I actually wanted to talk to you.” I can’t read her expression. “You did?” Thats a coincidence. “Yes, please come in.” I walk into her crystal castle. Its a spacious, yet lonely feeling place. The sun light bleeds lightly through the gems making the walls glow a peaceful blue.  Overall its a nice place to call home. We walked into the throne room and took in our respective seats. I look her straight in the eye. She still has that poker face on. I do my best to match it, but dear celestia I just can’t take my eyes off her. She’s so… Just so... Intoxicating. She’s simply intoxicating. This isn’t going to be so simple. I just need to spill it out. “We’ve been friends for a while, haven’t we?” We both started in unison. “You go first.” Dash quickly said, her flashing a quick warm smile before returning to a more stoic face. “Have you ever wanted something, and you knew it might be wrong, but you still feel like you just need it?         “You have no idea.” Dear Celestia, please let what ever she’s about to say be what I think she's saying. I steel my resolve. If I don’t say it now I never will. “Look Twi, I think I need to say this first.”          “Sure Rainbow, if its that important to you.” She smiles warmly, I see a bead of sweat going down her face.         “I’ve been scared, Twilight.” No more walls if I’m doing his I’m going all the way.         “Are you okay Rainbow?” Her poker face held strong but her voice was drowning in worry. “You never admit to being afraid.”         “I don’t know, Twilight.” I sigh.         “Well what’s the issue?”         I sigh again and take a deep breath.         “I’m in love Twilight.”         It’s all over she’s in love with somepony else. I keep my face expressionless. “That doesn’t sound like a problem. I’m sure that stallion will be all over you.” I try to keep the bitter edge out of my voice.         “That’s the problem, Twi.” Rainbow was on the edge of tears. “I’m not into a stallion.”         My pokerface shattered as she started to sob. “Rainbow, please don’t cry.” I move over to her seat, and hug her tight. She wraps her hooves around me. I’m not sure wether to enjoy the hug or not. “It’ll be okay.”         “Am I a freak Twi?” She sobs.         “No.” I run my hoof through her mane. “Its okay. Who cares if you're into a mare. I have to say though,” I give her a bittersweet look. “Who ever that mare is, she’s damn lucky.”         “What do you mean?” She says her sobs coming to a halt.         “Dash.” I take a deep breath.         “Twi.” She does the same.         “I love you.” We cry in unison and just look at eachother. Time seems to stop. Sh-She love me? She loves me! I tackle Twilight to the ground, the biggest smile on my face. She giggles as I do so. I just stare in to her eyes and she stares into mine. We stay like this for what feels both like forever and no time at all.   After  that time I feel a something pull me down and notice twilights glowing horn. The next thing I know my lips are on hers. My pupils shrink and I moan in pleasure. A rush of adrenaline pumps through me. THIS IS SO AWESOME! I lean into the kiss, deepening it. I’M KISSING HER! I’M ACTUALLY KISSING RAINBOW DASH! THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE! Sparks of electricity shoot down my spine as we keep up our slow and lazy dance of lips. I don’t care if we’re both mares this is fantastic! … Except that burning in my lungs. I break the kiss and gasp for air. Dash does the same.         “Twilight?” Rainbow pants.         “Yes Dashie.” I hum.         “Will you please be my marefriend?” Her adorable cocky smile is back in full force.                  “Nothing would make me happier.”         “Some ponies are going to mock or reject us.” Dash states matter of factly.         “I don’t care.” I smile. “You're just too perfect.” Congental. Thats the only way to describe my emotions right now. Love is a beautiful thing no matter what form it may come in. To me it came in the form of a lavender mare, and while dating a mare has its ups and downs, I wouldn’t have this anyother way. > High Voltage in Her Lips, They Catch me When I Slip > --------------------------------------------------------------------------         High Voltage in Her Lips, They Catch me When I Slip         Don’t get me wrong I love Twilight. She’s everything I want in a mare and more. She’s kind, caring, smart, the list goes on. The fact she’s easy on the eyes doesn’t hurt either. She’s the full package. I just can’t get her out of my head.         But thats the problem. I can’t seem to stop thinking about her. We’ve been dating for a month! I shouldn’t be feeling this head over hooves anymore. I just can’t stop myself from thinking about her though.         My mornings have been full of these thoughts. Should I just accept this feeling or should I try to distance myself a bit? I just don’t know how much to invest.         These thoughts follow me as I head off to work. I’ve been through this enough times to know that nothing would get her off my mind. As I buck clouds I can swear I see a dark purple mane with pink streaks on the ground below me. The day goes by uneventfully. Every now and then I glance down to see if the purple dot is still there. Sure enough it is every time. My eyes must be playing tricks on me. As I’m about to buck the last cloud for the day, I try to get a better look at the purple speck beneath me. I swing my back hooves out, but I feel no contact. The world and sky spin around me as I lose altitude. My mane whips in my face and I flare out my wings in an attempt to level myself out. They snap up and I shout in pain. Its no use. My eyes clench shut and I brace for impact. It never comes.         I open one eye than the other. I find I’m hovering about five feet off the ground with a magenta aura around me.                  “Oh!” Cries a voice that melts my heart. I look to my right and see the object of my (most likely over) affection. “Thank Celestia I caught you!”         “Well Celestia isn’t here,” I smile at her. “So I’ll thank you instead.”                  “Oh come here, you!” She levitates me over to her and clasps my cheeks in her hooves. Soon my vision was occupied by lavender and I felt her lips pressing on mine.         Jolts of electricity shoot down my spine. My eyes shoot closed. For a moment Twilight and I are the only things that matter or even exist. As our slow and sloppy dance of lips, continued, I felt something slowly make its way into my mouth. I gladly accept it and our tongues start a playful war. They tumble and try to wrap around each other, more sparks rocketing down my spine with every passing second. We separate for breath with no clear winner being decided, not that we care. There’s a thin line of saliva connecting our lips. Twi sets me down. Suddenly, I’m painfully aware of my wing. I wince.         “What's wrong, Dashie?” Twilight’s face is swimming in concern. I can’t admit it to my self but she looks adorable.         “I think I sprained my wings.” No sooner did I say that than did I see a bright flash. When my vision returned I found myself in a bed. I sit up. Around me are crystal walls, sunlight bleeding through slightly. A lavender alicorn teleports into the room with a glass of water.         “I’ll contact your boss, you just rest for today.” She says as she contently scribbles down a letter.         “I’ll be fine Twi.” I roll my eyes. “Besides, couldn’t you just heal me with your magic?”         “No, I’m afraid I can’t.” She frowns as the letter disappears in a flash of magic. “The only medical spell I really know is a pain killing one, I can’t heal a sprained wing.”         I huff and lean into my pillow. “I guess I won’t be flying for a day or two than.”         “At least I managed to catch you.” Twilight perked ever so slightly.         ‘Yeah.” I agree. “Thanks again for that. But if you don’t mind me asking, why were you outside?”         “I may have made a small habit of watching you work.” Twilight blushed and grinned sheepishly.         I can only stare at her. That should be creepy. Than why am I so… flattered? I can only sigh.         “I’m sorry Rainbow.” Twilight looks down. “I just wanted to spend some time with you, but I didn’t want to keep you from your job.”         “I understand, Twilight.” I put on a fake smile. “Now how about that pain killing spell.”         “Sure…” Twilight’s still frowning.         I put my hoof on her shoulder. “Don’t sweat it, Twi.” She smiles at me. “I can’t blame you for wanting to be close to somepony as awesome as me.”         Her horn lights up and suddenly I can’t feel the pain in my wings anymore. As I look at my wings something rubs up against my neck. I look over and see Twilight, humming happily as she nuzzles me. My heart feels like its about to give out.         I accidently let out a pensive sigh. Twilight gets up. “What’s wrong Rainbow?”         “Its nothing Twi.” I try to brush off my faux pas.         “You sure? You don’t seem quite like yourself lately.”         Horse-apples! She would notice. “Its nothing.”         “Rainbow, please.”                  I sigh. She deserves to know, and its not like I can bare seeing her worried. “I guess I’m just conflicted.”                  “What do you mean.”         I close my eyes. “I don’t know. Sometimes I feel like we’re getting to close. Like maybe we should distance ourselves a little.”         Suddenly, I feel a warm embrace. “Please don’t leave me Rainbow!”                  “Twilight…” I feel a warm moisture on my coat where her face was buried into my chest.         “Tell me what you want me to change and I’ll change it.” She lifts up and I can see the tears streaming down her eyes.         “Twilight I…”         “If you want me to be less clingy, I will. You want me to drop my studies and pick up competitive flying, I will. I’ll even find a way to step down as a princess and become an ordinary unicorn, or pegasus if you want. Just please, please, please don’t leave me. I can’t live without you anymore.” She sobs uncontrollably.         I can only embrace her. What is wrong with me? I made the most amazing, beautiful and caring mare in Equestria cry. Why can’t I just appreciate what I have?! I am so stupid?! I’m in love, there’s nothing wrong with that. I need to be better, for Twilights sake.         “Twilight...” I hold her close. “I’m sorry.”         She closes her eyes and continues to sob. “Please, just don’t lea-” I can’t take it anymore. I sit up and quickly press my lips to hers. Her eyes shoot open but they soon close again and she leans into the kiss. I feel electricity shoot through me. I accept it openly. No more doubts, no more hesitation; I’m all in with this.         “I’m not going anywhere.” I hug my marefriend tight. “Please forgive me. I was scared to get attached. I just couldn’t get you out of my head. Everything always goes back to you for me now. I was just scared because this has never happened to me before.”         Twilight tackles me so I’m not sitting up anymore. “You're my world, Rainbow! I need you! I think about you all the time! I just want to be by your side! I want to be all yours! I love you!”         “You mean the world to me too Twi!” I hug her tighter, our chests pressing together. “I love you! I’m just sorry it took so long for me to accept it.” I roll her over on to her back so I’m standing on top of her. “Let me show you how much you mean to me.” I say seductively.         That was the first of many passionate nights we spent together. I know how I feel now and I wouldn’t change it for anything. All that matters is that I have Twilight and that she has me. > We’re Up All Night to Get Lucky (Clop) > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- We’re Up All Night to Get Lucky                  A sigh left my lungs. Why did I agree to this. It hurts to be around her. Whenever I’m near twilight I just wanna pounce on her. I want to be all over her. I need to be with her, but telling her that would just push her farther away.         This sleepover is going to be equal parts heaven and hell. I’ll be close to her but it’ll never be enough. Still tonight’s just about the two of us. I guess being best friends is pretty close to what I want. But I’ll never get to hold her, I’ll never feel her lips against mine, and I’ll never be able to make sweet sweet love to her.         I reach out and knock on the crystal door.         Shortly after a sweet voice calls, “Coming.”         “I wish…” I mutter under my breath. As if on cue the door swings open. When it does I greeted with the sight that sends my pulse skyrocketing. Twilight Sparkle. Oh Twilight, you may never know how you make me feel. The butterflies in my stomach, the need to impress you. When we first met I never would have admitted to loving you. Hell, back then I thought love was a waste of time, but I guess I’ve matured. “Rainbow!” She greets me with a hug.Sweet Celestia her hugs. A numbing warmth spreads through my body and I can’t help but smile and hug her back. If we could say like this all night I gladly would. Sadly, the hug ends. “Hey, Twi.” I give her a warm smile. “Thanks for inviting me over.” “There’s no need to thank me, you know you’re always welcome.” I can’t help but smile even wider as we walk inside the crystal palace. “Where’s Spike?” “Oh he’s having a sleepover at Rarity’s.” Twilight informs. “I wanted tonight to be just about the two of us.” “Oh…” I feel the blood rush to my cheeks. “So how’s your day been?” “Honestly, I haven’t been able to focus on my studies, or my royal duties today, I’ve been too excited.” An adorable blush graces Twilight’s cheeks. “It’s just a sleep over, Twi.” I chuckle. Well that’s all it is for her. For me it’s time with the mare I love. “I just like spending time with you.” She says as I try to hide my flushed face. “Well, I am pretty awesome.” I boast. “Yeah…” I turn my head to see a blank expression on twilight’s face. “You okay, Twi?” She grins sheepishly. “I’m fine, I was just thinking.”         “What about?”         “Um, just about how the light refracts in here.”         “You and your egghead stuff.”                  Soon we’re at the living room. Its really big with a fireplace made from the same crystal as everything else. Its beautiful but no where near as much as the mare who owns it.         Twilight and I chat the night away. Our topics are varied. From our friends to the latest Daring Do book, to our favorite foods, nothing’s untouched.         “So do you, uh, have a crush?” Twilight tries to act casual. It’s not working. Did she have to ask this?         “Uh,” I can’t let her know, it’ll ruin our friendship. “N-No. W-Why do you ask?”         “Just, never mind.” She can see right through me. I can’t lie to her.         “No,” I sigh. “I do.”         “Oh,” She’s she say’s under her breath in surprise. “Do I know them?”         “Uh, yeah. You know her.”         “Her? You’re into mares?” She looks at me quizzically, yet also strangely smugly.                  “Shoot!” I face hoof. “I totally let that slide.”         “It’s okay if you’re into mares, I am too.”         “Really?!” My face lights up for a second but I quickly compose myself. “I mean, cool.” I look to the ground. “Do you have a crush?”         Twilight sighs. “Yeah, yeah I do.”         “Do I know her?”         “Yes.” Her gaze is stuck on the ground.         “Oh…”         “I-It’s late Rainbow, we should go to bed.”         Not until you tell me what’s really on your mind. “I’m not tired.”         “Okay… What do you wanna do, than?” She sets her gaze on me. She looks like she’s  about to break down. I can’t stand to see that.         “What’s wrong Twi?”         “I… I don’t wanna talk about it.”         “Please… I hate seeing you this way.”         “That’s cause you’re stronger than I am." "Really?" I step closer to her. "Twilight, I'm the most fragile pony I know.” What are you doing Dash? “I act tough but really I'm not.” No stop don’t be so lame in front of her. “I-If something were to happen to any if you girls and I couldn't stop it I'd be decimated." I turn my head away from her and close my eyes. "Especially if something happened to you. You're my best friend." Good job, Dash, you just bucked up your own image. Suddenly, a pair of hooves wrap around me. I melt in their embrace. "But I want more!" Twilight bursts into tears. I freeze up. Can this really be happening? No, no she probably means something else. “What do you mean?”         “I need you, Dashie…” She unloads her tears into my shoulder.         “I need you too…” I hold her tight. It feels nice, like my dreams are starting to come true.                  “No, I mean I want to be with you.” She looks me straight in the eye. “You are my crush, you are what I was thinking about, you-” I cut her off with a deep kiss.         She gasps, her eyes going wide. Soon, she comes to her senses and pushes back, slowly closing her eyes and moaning into my mouth. The vibrations feel nice. I poke my tongue into her mouth. She allows it in and our tongues dance together. Twilight pulls back for breath, a thin line of saliva connecting us.         “You are my love…” I tell her. Look’s like I just can’t keep my walls up around Twilight. Celestia help me.         She buries her face in the crook of my neck. “Tell me you mean it. Tell I’m the mare you were talking about.”         “Of course you are.” I wrap her gently in my wings. I feel her fidgeting stop. “Now come on,” I start to hover with her in my hooves. “You need some rest.” I fly her up to her room and lay her down on the large bed. “Good night Twi.” I smile at her warmly and turn to leave the room. Suddenly, there’s a glow around me and I feel myself floating over to the bed.         “Oh no you don’t,” She grabs me from her magic and hugs me tight. The numbing warmth returns, my thoughts go haywire. “You’re staying with me tonight.”         I nuzzle Twilight’s neck. “No objections here.” I look Twilight in the eye and plant a passionate kiss on her lips. Our lips dance and Twi’s embrace tightens. Out of no where I feel something rub against my crotch.         “Oops, sorry.” Twilight blushes and I see her wipe her now wet cannon. “Boy,” She gives me a seductive look. “You sure seem to have enjoyed that.”         “Y-You only have yourself to blame for that.” I blush furiously. I look down at her and see that the fur near her crotch is matted as well. “Besides you’re one to talk.”         “Well,” She leans to my ear and whispers. “Than I’ll just have to have my way with you.” She lightly nibbles my ear. It feels like my ear is burning.         “Aren’t we going to fast?” “I thought you liked fast.” Her bedroom eye are locked on me. “Besides, I we’ve been friends for years, and I’ve wanted to do this for far too long.” She licks me from ear to shoulder and starts gently kissing her way down my body.         Twilight finds herself looking between my legs and I can see the excitement in her face, but it’s coupled with some nerves. “Twilight,” She looks up at me. “Don’t worry about it too much, I know you’ll be amazing.”  She wastes no time showing me her affections. Her tongue slowly teases the area  around my labia, sending small sparks of pleasure down my spine. I let out a small moan as she continues to stimulate me. “You’re adorable when you moan Dashie.” She smiles at me seductively. “N-No I’m not.” Dear Celestia, what have I gotten myself into? “That’s for me to decide,” She teases me.  “And by royal decree; you are adorable.” Why does that make me feel so… Good. By now my loins are burning with passion. Twilight seems to notice and starts to lick my petals. I moan in pleasure as she slowly moves up to my clit and gently flicks it with her tongue. She keeps stroking me with her tongue. I do my best to stay still for her, it’s virtually impossible. My hips buck and I shake in bliss as she somehow manages to keep licking me.         She stops, a huge smile on her face, which is covered in my juices. “It makes me so happy to be able to make you feel like this.” She starts rubbing me with a hoof. “You ready for the grand finale?” I can only nod.         Her tongue starts working my clit send wave after wave of unending pleasure down my spine. I moan and pant as she kneads my bulb. I’m on the edge, I can’t hold it much longer.         “T-Twi, I’m g-gonna cum!” I manage.         This make my love work me harder, sending me into orgasm and my juices all over Twilight. She greedily gulps down as much as she can. When she’s satisfied she lays down next to me, wrapping me in her hooves and wings.         “I love you, Rainbow Dash.” She snuggles me tightly.         “I love you too, Twilight.” I straddle her and start to massage her marehood. “I really love you.”