> Trinity > by alarajrogers > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > I saw you die > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- I saw you die In your hands a light like my sister's sun and I Saw your face, alight with joy at the lie Drawn by a power that disorders all Too in love with pure chaos to heed my call Then it came to life, the poison bright Changing all that it touched to brilliant light Swallowing you, and all, in my sight I took my sister and fled to the night On the other side of the world, in fright Left you behind, in grief, for I Had just seen you die I saw it before it happened, in dreams Visions that proved to be enemy schemes But up to that moment I'd had no way To know the light that I saw would blossom that way Light is a sunrise Light is a child's eyes My visions never told me: In that light, everything dies Even I could not realize What appeared as a dream of a light blooming brief Was instead a cruel plan to bring us all to grief Not till the moment I saw it bloom Did I know that the light was to be all our doom It was there in your hands You had no time to flee All I could save was my sister and me For weeks, for months, I did nothing but cry I left my brother behind I let you die My sister believes that this twisted thing who Has plunged our world into madness is you Wears your face and your voice, so she's fooled by its lie But not I A god it is, so it is said To explain how it can be you, back from the dead But if it was you it would still have a heart No I can still see the light that ripped you apart And she can't bring herself to destroy it, but I Know that if it were you you would never betray us To lay you to rest, we must paralyze chaos And when it is stone, I will not cry For I know it's not you I saw you die > Hollow > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Rise, and bring with me the day Hold my court for many hours Smile in a regal way Thank the gardener for the flowers I am hollow Gently put the sun away Decorate her sky with stars Stand in silence, bathed in rays From her face, so high, so far I am hollow In my garden, silent stone Screams and laughs inside my head I retire to my room alone No love, no friend to share my bed It'd hurt too much to see them dead And I am hollow Smile for another day Another step upon a road That goes on and on and on this way Carrying an unseen load Endlessly I walk nowhere No destination up ahead I can't remember how to care All those I ever loved are dead Or bound, imprisoned, lost to me It will not change, I cannot see I'll bear this for eternity This emptiness my destiny I am hollow I cannot set this burden down My subjects all depend on me But if I could, I'd flee this crown Move to somewhere quiet, cozy Be a mortal, have a friend Assured that I, like them, would end I'd mother foals, I'd be a wife ... but that can never be my life Above she gazes down at night Her soundless glare for all to see He laughs in silence, all his might Frozen, so we can be free I hear their voices in my mind Betrayed, accusing, bitter, angry But I'm the one they left behind And without them, life is empty Their prisons may not be as wide As mine, but I am equally tied I rise, and bring with me the day My smile is an empty mask I do my duty, but I pray For what I don't deserve to ask For one to come and set me free To bring to life my hollow heart To give me something to believe To be at my side and never part And if only that could be, I could dream one day we three Could at long last all be free Until then I am hollow > Still Life > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- And so it goes! Today I think an apocalypse. Of giant mutant cabbages! Pony-eating, sharp-toothed, whiny. Watch them roll along the streets, Complaining that their meals do flee! Oh look, some unicorns try to fight. Too bad, the cabbages eat magic too! And here come pancakes! Manta rays. They fly through the air, wrap their prey, and crush! Do pony bones taste good with syrup? Let's let pancake-eating spiders find out! All dead now. Apocalypse is boring. Reset! It's not real anyway. Or maybe foals burst into flames! What do you think I am, a monster? Of course the flames don't hurt the foals. They're fire foals. It's the parents that burn. Haha! To love them is to die, Their love burns their parents alive. That seems profound somehow. Oh no! Did I just make a metaphor? Confound it, I was trying to be senseless. Anything for entertainment. Damn, now I'm awake. How can I tell? My eyes don't open I cannot stretch Can't yawn can't speak can't do can't Stop. Let's go back to hallucinating. It's much more fun than this! This time I'll make a perfect world. Everypony loves my candy grass! It's got wheels, so you can skate on it And then when you're hungry, dig in! I turn their houses upside down. They clop their hooves and shout for more! No, this is totally unbelievable. One star! Downrated! Suspension of disbelief went splat. And here I am again in darkness. No, not darkness. Darkness implies that you have eyes And that they're closed Or there's no light. I have no eyes, so I don't see darkness. Call it gray. It's not that either. I could call it nurfleblong. I could call it anything. Why would it matter? I know what it is And there's no one to tell about it anyway. So why make a word? It is what it is. The point is I can't see anything. It must be day. I hear ponies outside. How can I hear when I can't see? Don't know! Don't care! Come closer, ponies. Talk about something. Anything. Talk about something stupid and boring. It's all you talk about anyway But I still want to hear it! Voices from outside my head Tell me, somewhere there's reality Somewhere minds that aren't me Somewhere things I didn't make Somewhere chaos I didn't create Somewhere I will never see Now that's depressing. Think of something! A distraction. Purple dinosaurs! They're short, and fuzzy, not scaly. They sing about love and friendship and euw And then eat foals for lunch. My gosh, my imagination's turned so dark lately. What's with all the dying ponies? Maybe it's because I hate them. They're walking! Talking! They can see! They can feel They can live I hear them walk right past me and ignore me. Of course they do! Who talks to statues? Ponies get to be alive. And here I am, dead. Except death's more friendly. I've been there! Plenty of spirits to play games with. Admittedly no cards in the land of the dead But you'd be amazed how far you can get with charades! And there's things to perceive! Chaos, mostly. Death is fun! Sort of. Better than this anyway. How long's it been? Trick question! It's never going to end So who cares? It's not like it's a finite sentence. It's going to go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and Wait Am I crying? It's hard to tell when nothing's real. It's not like I can hear myself. I'm tired of destroying the world. What about a good old fashioned storm of chaos? Clouds on the ground On roller skates! Rain lemonade Upside down! Oldie but goodie, that one. And how about giant mutant bunny rabbits? With spindly legs the size of trees? Haha! That never gets old! I'm lying, it's old already. Who cares about any of it? There's no one here to see it. I know, I know! An awesome trick! This one will knock their socks off In a platonic way, of course. First I'll fill the world with monkeys Coatless, tailless, but with manes Wearing clothes, because otherwise euw! Who wants to see a coatless monkey butt? And then I'll make them all believe That this is their favorite entertainment! They'll run around, amazed At fiction come to life! And all of them will think They're chosen heroes, loved by ponies. And then it turns out there's a disease That ponies get, but monkeys Have no immunity! Watch them all sneeze And cough and wheeze and finally die! Oh my, I kill myself! Actually that's a great idea. Here's some rope And here's a bomb And here's a dagger for my throat. For my next trick I'll make a legendary monster Disappear. Haha, your face! You thought I'd really do it? No, no, I'd never do such a thing. Not unless I took you all with me. Besides, I don't know how I could. Can't move, you know. Can't even die. Oh, right, you're not there either. Because if you were I could say let me out let me out let me out let me out let me out let me out make it stop let it end let me die if that's the only way But you can't hear me. No one can hear me. Unless they're not real! The ponies I hallucinate hear just fine. But they're not real Nothing's real Nothing left but me Only me Forever and ever and ever and ever Just me You didn't hear me screaming just now. Of course you didn't! Because if you could hear me Then you wouldn't be there! As I was standing around somewhere I met a pony who wasn't there. He wasn't there again today. I wish, I wish that pony would stay Why complain? This is my perfect world of chaos. Everything just like it is in my head! There isn't even causality here. No passage of time to march along, constant No pesky need for cause and effect I don't even need magic! Chaos is automatic. All of my world is just like I dreamed of! Because that's all it is just dreams and nightmares and when it stops, there's nothing just me let me out let me out let me out let me die let me out please please free me Who am I talking to? There's no one here but me. There'll never be anyone here but me. Forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and nothing nothing but me