> Question of love > by logisticbumm > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- > Why? > -------------------------------------------------------------------------- “why do I have to be so stupid?” Spike lay on his bed staring at the ceiling. He had just spent a whole day with rarity. It was a wonderful day. They had gone out to hunt for gems and had ended up having a picnic lunch. Spike had even managed to dig up some extra pretty amethyst. Spike had felt like he was on top of the world. But then he had begun to think of telling rarity how he felt about her. He had managed to say it to. He had said “Rarity, I know you may not have the same feelings for me as I have for you, but I think you are the most amazing mare ever and I love you.” Then it had gone wrong. Rarity had stared straight at spike and took off running. He had tried to follow her, but she moved much too quickly for the drake to keep up with. She had even forgotten the gems they had dug up. Sadly spike had trudged back to town. He left the gems on her front step with a short note apologizing. He could only think he had done something wrong. With the note in place spike continued home. Now he was lying on his bed, wondering how he could have messed up. “I bet it’s because I’m a dragon. It’s probably because of when I grabbed her on my birthday. Yeah. That’s it.” Spike gave a half-hearted smile. He could feel a weight in his chest slowly falling. There was a knock at his door. “Spike, you have a visitor.” It was Twilight. “Give me a minute.” Spike groaned and pulled himself of off his bed. He glanced at a small mirror that hung in a corner of the room, relieved to see no tears. He slowly opened his door and made his way to the main sitting room. He was quite surprised by the mare waiting for him. “Hello Spike…” Spike had not expected to see rarity at all, especially this soon. “Hi.” Rarity turned to Twilight “Would you mind giving us some privacy my dear?” Twilight nodded and gave spike a look that said she had no clue what this was about. Once she was out of earshot, Rarity turned back to Spike. “I wanted to apologize for my, ah, sudden disappearance.” Spike put up a weak smile and waved a claw. “That’s OK. You don’t need to apologize.” Rarity shook her head “but I do. That was no way to treat you. It was very unlady-like of me.” Spike shook his head, a small grin still on his face. “Really, it’s ok. I said I was ok if you didn’t have the same feelings as I did. I just kinda felt the need to get that off my chest.” She turned her head to the side as her face began to turn red. “ah, actually, that wasn’t why I ran.” She opened a bag she was wearing. Spike raised an eyebrow as she pulled out a gem. It was a the fire ruby that he had given her. “I… When you told me how you felt about me… I… well, I felt my heart skip a few beats. I realized just how much you mean to me.” She looked at the floor. “I feel so terrible for how I’ve been treating you spike. You’ve been wearing your heart on your sleeve, and I’ve…I’ve…” her shoulders began to shake as small shimmers fell from her face. Instinctively, spike grabbed her in a hug and tried to calm the sad mare. “shh, shh, it’s ok. It’s ok Rarity. You haven’t done anything wrong. This is my fault. I shouldn’t have said anything. “ “Oh, spike, don’t say that!” she looked into his eyes with a fierce look, tears still streaming from her eyes. “If you hadn’t said anything, I wouldn’t know that… That I love you!” She shoved her face into his, their lips connecting. Spike was so surprised he sank backwards, rarity landing on top of him. After a few seconds, Rarity broke the kiss. Seeing the look on spike’s face, rarity couldn’t help but laugh. “Spike, dear, you look so cute when you’re surprised.” Spike could feel his face turning red. “So, you aren’t angry at me?” “Oh, heavens no.” rarity wiped the last of her tears from her face. “Good.” Spike leaned forward and kissed Rarity again. “Are you two done in h-”Twilight paused, then smiled. “Never mind. Get me when you two are done.” When the two had held the kiss for what seemed like forever, spike pulled away. “Rarity, I have a question.” “Yes Spike?” “Will you go out with me?” “Oh yes Spike!” Spike and Rarity stared into each other’s eyes. A smile played on Spike’s lips. “It’s funny…” a tone of sadness flickered through his voice. “I had a dream. A dream that one day, I would show you how much I love you… but…” Spike looked into Rarity’s smiling face, ingrained in his mind. Slowly he waved a claw and everything around him faded to the dark surroundings of his cave. He closed his eyes with a sigh. When he spoke it was to himself in a low whisper. “Why.” “Because you were afraid.” Spike turned his face to look at the speaker. It was Luna. She moved and sat next to him. “You were afraid of the rejection, I think.” Spike looked up, staring through the only hole in the cave’s roof, at the moon. “It was a mistake Spike.” A tear hit the ground, ringing through the cave like a chime in the wind. “But, you can fix it.” Spike laughed. “No.” Luna looked at him, startled. “No?” “No. Had I said anything, I may have ruined the rest of my life, or… worse. I could have ruined Rarity’s life.” “But…” “Princess, why do you think I've stayed away. Rarity is married. I can’t say anything. It is not in my nature to be destructive, especially when it comes to the things I love.” It was then Spike saw the other pony. Standing near the mouth of the cave was an ivory Unicorn with a purple mane and tail. Tears stained her cheeks and caused her makeup run. “Why?” It was her turn to say it. He sat there, tight lips, looking from the ground to her and back. After what felt like an eternity, he spoke. “Because you deserved better.” He let out a breath slowly. “You were on your way to the height of your career.” He looked her in the eyes and swallowed the fear in his throat. “I cared too much to do anything. My love for you was my downfall.” He could almost hear her heart breaking. “Spike, how could you ever think I would say no? I only married because no one had heard from you in seven years. I thought you had either moved on or were living with dragons.” She moved over to him quickly and gracefully. Putting a hoof to his chin, his head was lifted to hers. “You’re a silly dragon, But” She smiled, "you’re my silly dragon.” She kissed him. Spikes eyes widened. But he instantly pulled away. “Rarity, you have vows you are bound to. I won’t make you break them.” At this, she laughed. “My husband is having an affair with five other women right now. I think it is time I got a divorce. And , who knows, I might just have my eye on a very handsome drake.” Spike blushed. “I’ll be here when you're ready Rarity. I’m always here.” Rarity nodded. She turned to Luna. “Well princess, it would seem I have some paper work to file. Shall we go?” Luna nodded. As the two left, Spike could only smile and whisper a single word. “Why.” But this why was not one of questioning nature or anger, but one of joy. He finally knew. She cared.