See ya round
Today I did something I hadn't done for a long time, I cried.
It all started with my best friend, Vinyl. She meant the world to me. When I needed her, she was there. But there was one time, she wasn't around when I really needed a shoulder to cry on. That is where the story begins.
'I've had enough of you and your jokes!' Noteworthy spat his words in my face, I couldn't believe he could be so cold hearted. Then again, maybe I was just over reacting, he wouldn't ever try to hurt my feelings. But he did, whether he meant it or not.
I decided it was time for me to go, by the looks on everypony's faces. I looked over my shoulder, but no one even smiled. I didn't want to think about the future, and what everything would be like without me. But I walked out slowly, knowing my harmless joke had been taken too seriously, and put in the wrong place.
I sat myself under the white blanketed tree, sighing and clenching tears, deciding to send Vinyl a letter.
Vinyl, don't forget me, but I think I'm leaving the herd. ~Octavia
And then I sent it.
The next day, I saw Vinyl. She trotted up to me with a nervous look.
'What's going on?' She asked worriedly. I knew she had received my letter. I told her everything what our friend's had said to me, and she had told me that she was fed up with them in her own way too.
I don't know how, but she made me feel better and pretty soon I was laughing again. I was so happy Vinyl was my best friend, what would I do without her?
Many times she had told me I meant a lot to her, and I believed her.
'Your my best friend, Octi.' I offered a gentle smile, I couldn't live without her, and I liked to think that she couldn't live without me, I felt wanted and needed.
I woke up, ready for the day. I had completely forgotten about what had happened yesterday. Until I saw my 'friends' in town.
Then ignored me, without a word to even each other and it became awkward. I managed to keep my distance, occasional sighing and waiting for Vinyl.
Vinyl entered the area and we hugged.
'I've had enough of you all.' She said. I thought she might have stuck up for me a bit, but she had her own stuff to take care of, I guess. Then I stepped in.
'You have done nothing but make me and vinyl feel unwanted!' I cried, unable to hold back a simple tear. I was finally standing up and saying something, but I was doing it because I was with Vinyl.
'Well, nothing's stopping you from leaving.' Noteworthy kept calm, but I knew he was feeling slightly guilty and worried that two of his dearest friends may leave him.
We left so simply, without another word and that was it. We were out of the herd.
At first, I felt like I was running away and I wanted to turn back, I was devastated, but then I felt so free. I didn't need to worry about them anymore, it was finally pulled off of my back and I didn't have to keep wasting my tears on them.
'It's gonna be alright, Octavia, I'm here.'
'We'll stay together, wont we, promise?'
'Promise!' Vinyl smiled and held her hoof out for a brohoof. I slapped my hoof against hers and smiled, the promise was decided.
'I have to leave now, sorry. Bye!' Vinyl was gone in a flash, without a trace she was even there. I smiled, I didn't feel lonely. I felt like only one pony actually understood me.
The next morning came around, and just like the last, I had completely forgotten about the night before. I hadn't even tried to remember. All I knew was that me and Vinyl had left the herd, yet I felt happy.
I couldn't find Vinyl, I guessed she wasn't in town that morning, so I went on a search to go and find us a new herd.
I soon came across this new herd. They called themselves 'The Ozone Herd' and they were related to noteworthy's herd, but they hated each other, yet loved each other at the same time. They understood how much I disliked my old herd, and offered me a place int their family.
'Vinyl has already joined.' One of the pony's said. So I agreed, unknowing of why Vinyl had joined a herd without me.
A colt just older than me trotted beside me.
'Something got you down?' He asked softly. I hadn't noticed I was crying, but I knew I still missed my old herd. We were a family. At least I had Vinyl.
Then Vinyl came round the corner. She didn't say a word to me.
'You never told me you joined this herd?' I whispered politely, i wasn't too worried.
'Oh no, I was only thinking about joining it.' She whispered back, smiling.
I sighed and stood still, thinking about whether I should leave the herd and find another one with Vinyl. But I decided to stay and see whether Vinyl would join or not.
The time went by slowly, but I was happy to be with Vinyl, though we didn't talk much. Vinyl was too busy daydreaming, was my first conclusion.
To my surprise, she left suddenly and didn't return. Until Abyss, a pony that leaded the Ozone herd, told me about Vinyl.
'She has rejoined your old herd, I'm sorry.' With those very few words, I was devastated all over again. She had abandoned me and broken her promise. I began to cry, but Abyss threw his arms around me and calmed me. I refused to calm, as I pushed him away.
My first thought was to call her.
'Why didn't you tell me?'
'I was planning to.'
'But we agreed to stick together, we promised!' I kept a calm voice.
'Well is it my fault that I still love this herd? Look, we'll still be friends.'
'But we won't talk or see each other as much.'
'I'll come and visit.'
'But...'
I hung up, tear stained face resting on my hooves. I didn't feel like crying, but i didn't want to talk much to anyone and Abyss began to worry.
'Octavia, I hate seeing you like this.' I ignored him, only nodding slightly. I made no effort to speak, or give him eye contact. I knew this seemed rude, but he understood how I felt. How let down I felt.
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The days went by, one by one. I wanted in the same place Vinyl had left me, but she never came to see me. When I called her, she hardly said a word. She seemed happy alone, without her best friend. I guessed Vinyl preferred to leave me, she didn't bother to say anything to them, or stick up for me, I was just left alone.
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A few months later, when I had finally been able to stop thinking about Vinyl, we both met again.
She was quiet, without a simple hello. Until I eventually decided to say something, until I knew I needed to stick up for myself, instead of wait for a friend to actually care.
'Are we still friends?'
'If you want to be.' It took her a while to respond.
'But it doesn't... feel like we're friends.'
'Why not?' Vinyl's voice changed, as if she had changed inside slightly.
'Well, you left me, and I just want you to know that I didn't like it, I hated it.'
'It was hard for me too, having to make that decision between two friendships.'
I sighed, replying slowly. 'But I was the one that was left, you understand that, don't you?'
'Yeah, but you obviously don't understand how I felt,' Vinyl became impatient, 'It's all about you, isn't it?'
At that moment, I knew she had changed. Something inside her had broke us both apart, and she knew it, but didn't care for it.
'Vinyl, I've had enough, I thought you would understand and support me!'
It was then that I knew our friendship had shattered, when she said four very simple words to my face.
'I don't care anymore! You don't understand how it was for me! I don't care for this anymore, so see ya round Octavia!'
Vinyl didn't mean see ya round, she meant....that we weren't friends anymore.
She cantered away and left me alone. I had lost everything, my family, my best friend, I knew it wasn't my fault, but why was it happening?
And so I cried. I cried because she had left me, broken and promise and not even cared. All I can do now is just look up at the stars and wish her back. I lent my head back, ignoring my crying and tears. Where I used to see her smiling face, I could see nothing but the ghostly clouds that haunted over me.
'See ya round.'