The Journal Of A Stranger

by Fussan

First published

Sometimes we write to help us solve a problem. Sometimes to get over one. Sometimes to forget. This journal was to help me remember. But I don't know what I was supposed to remember. What did I forget? Did I even forget anything?

If you could read the past life of a stranger, would you? Would you read about what they didn't want anypony else to know?Would you really risk the trust of somepony that could be your friend? What if the journal isn't of a normal pony? Actually, not even a pony at all? Would you still read it? And if you did, how would you deal with it, if that stranger, that alien, is you?


Not actually my book in the picture.
I'm not sure if I should add the Dark tag to this, but if I need to I will.

The Journal Of A Stranger

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July 15, 2011

My name is Terry and this will be my journal. I just turned 14 years old and I'm super cool. I have two girlfriends and a bunch of guys to hang out with. I go to school and sweep up at the McDonald's down the street from my house so I have the money to buy my own crap. My dad says that writing in a diary helps people think about stuff and get through life but I don't believe him. I'm only doing this because I'm bored.

July 17, 2011

I'm bored again so I'm writing in the stupid book. I can't play video games cuz I lost my 360 controller. And my PS2 is still busted. I stopped getting anything Sony sold when it couldn't get fixed. Go to hell Sony!

July 18, 2011

My boss made me clean the bathroom again. I hate cleaning the bathroom it's so nasty! It's like the fat lazy people that eat there never used a toilet before! I know I'm a bit chubby but I'm not fat. I only wear a 2XL shirt and that's only because I'm a lot bigger than normal people. Really I'm the tallest kid in school and I'm on the football team so I have some muscles building up. But I hate the fat people that do nothing but make a mess!

July 23, 2011

I got into a fight today in the McDonald's parking lot. It was some punk kid that tried to talk crap about me and impress his ugly girlfriend. He said he would fight me and I kicked his ass. I have a black eye now but I beat him up good.

July 29, 2011

I had a crap day today. All of my friends went out without me and only told me they left after they got there. I met up with them but I was still angry so I pushed Donald down and left.

August 7, 2011

My girlfriend and I had sex! Whoo! Goodbye virginity!

August 9, 2011

My stupid girlfriend broke up with me. She told me I was gross and a pervert and that she didn't want to get pregnant by somebody like me. I'm going to tell all my friends about what we did and tell them she's a slut to get back at her. I don't even like her I like Sandy. She's my other girlfriend but she's visiting family right now and isn't here.

August 20, 2011

I was driving home with me mom today after doing some stuff in town and we almost hit this weird purple dog. She turned the car to the left and hit a tree. She's in the hospital but they sent me home because I wasn't hurt. I hope mom is going to be okay.

August 21, 2011

I had a dream about that stupid dog that made us crash. It wasn't actually a dog. It was some kind of tiny horse. It said that it was sorry and then it poofed away. I had a bad headache right after that. It was weird because dreams don't give people headaches.

August 22, 2011

I don't really remember what happened today. I remember waking up and getting dressed but I don't remember anything else. I'm in different clothes and I can't stop thinking about how much I hate that stupid horse. If I ever see her again I'm going to kill her.

August 30, 2011

My mom died today in the hospital. I don't want to write in this stupid journal anymore but dad says it'll help me. I don't care. I'm not writing in this stupid journal anymore.

September 26, 2011

I have headaches all the time now. I keep having dreams about my mom being killed by horses. Sometimes the horses try to kill me but I run away. Every time I run they run after me and never stop chasing me. Sometimes I don't even remember waking up.

September 29, 2011

I had another dream about my mom. I woke up and I saw something in my room. I don't know what it was.

October 12, 2011

My friend gave me some weed. He said it would help with whatever I was going through. I don't smoke but I smoked it anyways. It didn't do anything so I smoke like five more joints with him. I don't remember how I got home. I have a headache.

October 17, 2011

I've been smoking nonstop for almost a week now and it's not helping. The headaches are going away but I still can't remember things. At least the dreams about the horses don't happen as much now. I hate horses. I hate them so much.

October 30, 2011

I heard voices coming from downstairs. I wasn't really asleep so I knew I wasn't in some kind of half-way dream. I opened my door and walked to the staircase. It was two girls. They sounded like teenagers. They were arguing about something but I couldn't hear them right. The step creaked when I started walking down and they stopped talking. After a while I jumped down the rest of the way but nobody was there. I think the weed is messing with my head.

November 3, 2011

Me and my dad went to the store to buy some food. I was bored so I went outside. I saw something purple in the bushes across the street and thought it was the horse. I tried to run after it but I almost got hit by a truck. When I looked again it was gone. I need to stop smoking.

November 13, 2011

I told my friend to stop giving me weed but he said I was freaking out cuz I didn't have anything to go with it. That night we smoked and drank whiskey together. I woke up with the worst headache ever.

November 28, 2011

I forgot about Thanksgiving and my dad was pissed at me. I told him I was sorry but he didn't listen to anything I was saying. We argued for an hour and he hit me. After that I took what I wanted from the house and have been sleeping at my friend's house.

December 2, 2011

I saw it. I saw it! I know I'm not crazy! I saw that stupid purple horse again. It had other horses with it. A pink one and an orange one and a white one and yellow one and a blue one! I saw them! They saw me looking at them and I can't remember anything after that. But I saw them. I know I did.

December 3, 2011

I can't remember if I really saw them or not. I think I did. I don't know. I woke up from a dream where that exact thing happened. I remember waking up and feeling good. The only reason I think it's fake is because I haven't woken up feeling good in months.

December 5, 2011

It's snowing really bad outside. I don't think my friend's mom can pay the bills either. His dad died a few years ago and his mom can barely keep a job. I think I'm going to help her out.

December 10, 2011

I've had a headache for two days now and my nose won't stop bleeding.

December 11, 2011

I'm going to the hospital.

December 15, 2011

The doctor said I had some kind of mutation in my brain from expose to extreme amounts of radiation. I'm still in the hospital but they let me write this down. If I die I want to let my dad know how it happened.

December 21, 2011

I don't remember how I got back to my friend's house. I just blinked and I was sitting on his couch cover in snow. The last thing I remember before I left the hospital was talking to somebody. I don' remember who but they had weird eyes.

December 25, 2011

I went home to see dad for Christmas. he was crying and said he was sorry for hitting me. We had a bunch of food and talked about things. I don't remember dad having a beard.

January 1, 2012

It's the new year! My dad let me drink with him and he was surprised at how much I could drink. I didn't tell him about my friend.

January 3, 2012

I'm having dreams about horses again.

January 7, 2012

I talked to Twilight again. I don't know who she is but I know for a fact that I talked to somebody named Twilight. I can remember words and voices. I just can't remember her face.

January 7, 2012

I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her. I hate her.

January 7, 2012

She killed mom. I hate her. I'm going to kill her. I'm going to break every bone in her body.

January 7, 2012

I got my dad's gun under my pillow and I'm waiting. If this really is real it's going to end tonight.

January 10, 2012

I don't remember writing any of this. I remember talking with my dad at Christmas but none of this other stuff. I need to stop smoking for real.

January 18, 2012

I was humming a song today at work. I can't remember the words but I know the tune. Every time I try to think of it it gets harder to remember anything. I have a really bad headache now.

January 24, 2012

I think I'm going to end it.

January 25, 2012

I told my dad I loved him today and he just looked at me like I was crazy.

January 26, 2012

The roof of the house is too low. I'll have to do it from my school.

January 27, 2012

I have everything set. I told my friend what I was doing and to give this journal to my dad a few weeks after I do it.

January 28, 2012

I'm doing it today.

March 13, 2012

I found this weird journal in my room when I was cleaning. It's my handwriting but everything in here is crap.

March 20, 2012

I decided that I was going to continue this journal just for the hell of it. I told mom about it and she said it wasn't a good idea and that I should get rid of it but she doesn't know anything. She's not from here. Mom and dad won't tell me where she came from but she talks weird so I know it's probably some third world country.

March 27, 2012

Mom saw me writing in my journal and yelled at me. I don't know why. I got really angry and screamed at her. I said that she wasn't really my mom and she ran away crying. I know that she's my mom. Why would I say that?

April 10, 2012

I had a dream about ponies. Well one pony and me. It was really weird.

April 13, 2012

I had another dream. Same pony and me still but a different place.

April 14, 2012

My mom talked to me today about something. I can't remember. I have a headache.

April 23, 2012

I'm having dreams about ponies every night now. I don't know why. They're pretty cool though at least. Last night we went to the bar and drank and smoked. I smoked. She just watched me do it. I don't think she really likes to do these things but she still does them.

April 25, 2012

She introduced me to her friends today. Pinkie Pie and Rainbow Dash and Applejack and Fluttershy and Rarity. Her name is Twilight. She's a unicorn just like Rarity. Rainbow Dash and Fluttershy are pegasi and Pinkie Pie and Applejack are earth ponies. I like them.

May 1, 2012

My mom and dad had an awesome party for me today! I don't know why but I don't really care. They told me that they loved me a bunch and it was kind of embarrassing but the cake was good. I got a bunch of cool new video games too!

May 3, 2012

In my dream me and the six ponies were in a forest. We kept getting stuck from the plants but not too much. I don't remember what we were trying to do but I know that it was important. I woke up before we could do anything fun. My mom was watching me sleep. It was weird.

May 4, 2012

I had the same dream. We picked up where we left off and went deeper in. There was this crazy monster that attacked us. It was like a lion/scorpion/bat thing. It got me in the sides but we were able to beat it. Applejack lassoed it and I crushed its head with a rock. They were mad at me cuz I did that but I told them to get over it. My mom was crying outside my door when I woke up.

May 5, 2012

We found some kind of box in the forest. They didn't want to tell me what it was but I made them. They said it was a magic staff. Or at least some parts to it. We left the forest and walked to the town. I remember going into a bar with Rainbow Dash and Applejack but nothing else after that.

May 8, 2012

I don't know where my mom is. Dad said she went on vacation for business but I know he's lying. My friend told me he saw her leave with another woman while it was still dark out.

May 12, 2012

Mom got home and I yelled at her for leaving. She started crying and saying she was sorry. After a while I said I was sorry and we went out for a pizza and a movie. She had different eyes. Instead of blue they were a different blue. Like really bright neon. It's actually really cool. I wish I had eyes like mom does.

May 19, 2012

The dreams are more about Rainbow Dash and Applejack now. I see Pinkie a lot too but I never see Rarity or Fluttershy anymore. Twilight only came to see us once or twice since the forest.

May 22, 2012

I woke up with a headache today. My friend gave me a few Vicodin pills and shared a bottle of vodka with me. After that we smoked the rest of the day. My headache only got worse.

May 29, 2012

I went to the doctor today. When I took off my shirt he got scared. He asked me where I got all of the cuts on my body. I didn't know I had cuts so I told him that. He didn't believe me but still checked to see what was wrong. I had more radiation. He said it was a miracle I was still alive cuz I had enough radiation to kill a dozen full grown men.

June 10, 2012

Dad left a week ago. I heard him yelling at mom one night and then he slammed the door. I don't think he's coming back. that's okay though. All I need is mom and my friend.

June 13, 2012

I was reading the first entries of the journal and saw that it said I had a bunch of friends. And two girlfriends. I can only remember my one friend and I don't think I ever had any girlfriends.

June 20, 2012

I walked in on my mom crying in the kitchen. I asked what was wrong and she just hugged me.

July 7, 2012

I asked mom if I can use the other bedroom since it's bigger but she told me no. My bedroom is fine I guess. But it's not like we use the third bedroom for anything. It's just me and mom forever together! <3

July 20, 2012

I didn't feel right writing about this but I think that I should in case anything happens to me. I was talking to my mom about trying to get a girl from my class to like me yesterday. When I asked her how she got people to like her she kissed me. Like on the lips. I don't know if that's what moms are supposed to do but it felt weird. I ran upstairs and I've been locked in my room since then. I called my friend and told him about it and he said I could come back over to his house if I needed to.

July 21, 2012

In my dream I told Rainbow Dash and Applejack what happened with my mom. They got really angry for some reason. Applejack went to get Twilight and Rainbow Dash made me tell her exactly what happened. After I did she told me she would make me feel better and took me to one of the upstairs room of the bar. We had sex.

October 5, 2012

I was looking for the vacuum in the basement today and I found this book. I have no idea who's been writing in here and claiming to be me but it's weird.

November 20, 2012

I told Rainbow about the journal I found and she asked to see it. She gave me the book back and told me I should keep writing in it.

November 22, 2012

I don't remember ever writing in this book before but Rainbow says it looks like my handwriting. I decided to writing in this book so she would quit bugging me about it. My name is Terry. I'm 15 years old. I don't have any parents so I moved in with my girlfriend Rainbow Dash. I play football and video games. And my girlfriend says I'm a pervert.

December 13, 2012

I got in trouble for drawing porn in this book in school. Rainbow thought it was funny so I didn't really care about getting in trouble. After school me and my friend smoked and drank like we usually do. It's weird cuz I can't remember how I started smoking. But now I can't even imagine going a day without it.

December 27, 2012

Me and Rainbow spent all Christmas together. We spent a lot of time under the mistletoe. That was my favorite part. But she's moving away. Her parents said I should come with them but I don't know if I want to leave.

December 30, 2012

I told my friend that I was going with them. He wished me good luck and gave me more weed than I could smoke in a year. He really is my best friend. I don't think I'll ever see him again. I'm going to miss him.

January 2, 2013

We're packing everything up to go. All I have is my football stuff and my video games. I think I'll bring this book too just for the hell of it. When I get there I'll write what I think about the new place.

I was cleaning out the attic when I found this old journal. The previous owner has the same name as me, which I find odd. He also mentions six ponies, exactly like the my six best friends. He also mentioned my marefriend, Rainbow Dash. But what the weirdest thing about it was that he wrote about my old friend. The one who smoked with me. I can't remember his name, or even what he looked like. But it bothers me greatly that somepony knows this much about me. I don't know who this stallion is, but I'll have to look into this at another time. Right now I'm making plans for tomorrow night to take Rainbow to dinner, and later I'm treating her to a night she'll never forget. It's our sixth anniversary and I refuse to let this night be anything but spectacular.

i saw this book in the attic and wanted to color in it but daddy wrote in it first so i cant. its a diary from when he was really young. im making this my diary now. all i need to do is ask daddy if its okay.

I am sending this journal back to its proper universe. I know that Terry has suffered greatly for my meddling, and I do not want him to come to any more harm. For the sake of everypony, this book must be sent away. I do not know who will find it, and I do not know if anypony reading this will believe anything written here. But please, know that I did not do what I did to hurt him. Terry is one of my closest friends, and I would do anything for him. What happened that night was an accident that should have never happened. My only regret is that I can never tell him the truth. I'm sorry Terry.