Was It Worth It?

by Enfield

Dear Celestia...

"Another beautiful night, thank you Luna," Celestia thought as she stared out of the window. It truly was an amazing and breathtaking night. Luna had outdone herself once more, Celestia was proud to have such an amazing sister even though she had once been Nightmare Moon. But after what happened she forgave her and gave Luna another chance at being the princess of the night. She remembered how Nightmare moon had been defeated, Twilight and her friends used the Element of Harmony to purge Nightmare Moon and restore Luna back to who she rightfully was, but that was long ago. A hundred years ago to be exact. Celestia then was suddenly reminded of the holders of the Elements of Harmony and she found herself shedding tears. Applejack, Rarity, Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash and Pinkie Pie, all of them were dead. It had been a hundred years and each one of them had passed on from old age. It was sad to see the reactions of the others as the funerals passed, worse was to see the chairs that held the six grow empty as the years passed until only one remained, Twilight Sparkle, the Element of Magic.

Princess Celestia slumped against the wall in dismay as she recollected the last funeral of the Element holders, the last one that was by far the worst, Pinkie's. Celestia remembered the reactions of the funeral-goers weeping and lamenting for the party pony but the worst by far was Twilight. Her gaze was cold, emotionless, almost like she didn't care. Celestia shuddered when she thought about that, Twilight was never like that. She cared deeply about her friends and even said how she loved each and every one of them, but now it seemed like she wasn't good company anymore. Twilight changed dramatically after her brothers death, she refused to speak and kept to herself, no longer going out in public.

"Why?" Celestia thought, "Why did this have to happen?"

The princess stood up from the wall and went to leave her quarters when a quiet 'poof' emanated from behind her, Celestia turned around to see a parchment resting on the plush pillow behind her, the princess slowly walked over to it and picked up the rolled parchment and grimaced.

It was from Twilight.

"It's been six months since I last talked to her," Celestia thought, "What has compelled her to write to me?"

Celestia unrolled the parchment and sat down on the pillow in front of the dying fire. She sent a burst of flame through it and the fire came back to life and illuminated the room in a flickering orange light, Celestia took a deep breath and started to read.

Dear Princess Celestia,

I know that it's been a long time since I last talked to you but I feel after six months of isolation and thinking I've come to a conclusion; This whole alicorn thing isn't working out. It has been over a hundred years since I became an alicorn and I feel as if it's not working out. I have done so much during the last few years but I feel as if every accomplishment was empty and effortless. Every day that passes I feel alone and upset. You know why, Princess Celestia. My friends and my brother, I miss them. It's been a very long time since their deaths and I feel so alone. I didn't know that this was going to be a consequence of becoming an alicorn nor did I want it to happen. Even though their deaths happened long ago I still feel the pain from the loss, they were my best friends and now that they're dead I don't understand how I'm supposed to move on. You introduced the new Element holders to me but they don't seem to be the same as my friends and former Element holders, I can't even look at them because they remind me too much of my old friends and each time I remember tears spring from my eyes. I only wish to see my friends once more and say that I'm sorry.

I want to tell them that I'm sorry for abandoning them and that I regret not allowing them to help when Canterlot was being attacked but that was only because I wanted them safe. When they thought that it was because I wanted to save the day single hoovedly I was devastated, they didn't speak to me for weeks and it took even longer for us to regain our friendships. Then slowly after the years passed each one of them died of old age and each funeral made me feel horrible because as they grow older, I say the same age. I can't bear the thought of thinking about their deaths as the days go on, even if they were decades ago.

Sadly after the deaths of my friends it all got worse, my older brother succumbed to sickness and was bedridden for the rest of his life. As much as I tried to help him with Cadence we couldn't succeed. It was depressing watching him die slowly, so much had been lost and there wasn't a thing I could do about it. Why didn't you make him an alicorn too, Princess? We could all be living together happily without a care in the world but now that he's gone the castle feels empty and dark. I know that Princess Luna has been trying to help me when I dream by fixing my dreams so that I can see my friends but recently each time I near them they just turn to dust and blow away with the wind. I can't deal seeing that. It's just to depressing waking up each morning only to be reminded that your friends are all dead. But this is not the only thing that's troubling me. Over the period of time that I've been an alicorn I feel like nothing is too much of an effort anymore. I know that you remember the recent Dragon attack on Stalliongrad and how we managed to defeat them. After we set everything right I took a walk and realized that the fight against the dragons was too easy, much too easy to feel like I've done anything substantial. This feeling also started to spill over into my studies and spells, everything that I've done feels empty and very boring. I've spent years studies various magic spells and history but the spells were too easy and the history I've learned already. Now after all these years I've realized that everything I did was nothing more but a way to waste time and distract me from what I've been living through and seeing what I am.

I don't feel like I'm Twilight Sparkle anymore, I feel like a heartless unicorn who became an alicorn and forgot about her friends and tried to block it out through pointless studies and attempts to make her spells better. I don't want to feel like this and I don't want to be remembered like this. I'm sorry that I have to write this to you but I at least wanted to tell you how I'm feeling and what I'm going to try and do to recover. I'm going away to find a new life, I know that you won't want me to leave but I fear that if I stay I'll end up a wreak. I need time alone and I need to think about how I'm going to get over everything. I'm sorry that I have to leave you and Luna but I need this time alone, away from anypony else. I hope that you're doing well though Princess and I'll see you at some point in the future.

Your faithful student, Twilight Sparkle.

Celestia dropped the letter, sank down into her hooves and cried.

"Oh Sweet Faust, what have I done?"

Comments

[Fire Spark]

ERMAHGERD.

That.
Was.
Awesome.

Though I do hope you decide to continue this, like show a standpoint from Twilight's perspective.

[grayling]

2249655 ER KERCER YER "ERMAHGERD"! Ert wersh erserm. Ert's fern ter terk lik dersh!

[Fire Spark]

2249675

Uhh....what?

[grayling]

2249689 precisely!

[jchavez3628]

ok you need to continue this Enfield, this has a good story behind it

[SeventhBrony]

and people think that immortality is a gift, its a living hell

[Yasahiro]

You basically repeated the same thing several times. At the beginning at first I thought Twilight will commit a suicide, that would be even more depressing for Celestia.

Also, many typos and incorrect words such as "she recollected" Would be better if you wrote "She remembered"

Really, it feels... Odd, repeated when it isn't needed.

But Here's a Pinkie for Idea

[CartsBeforeHorses]

This is a good concept, and I think you should flesh it out more into a proper story. It would be a lot more powerful if we got to see these things for ourselves rather than hear Twilight's recounting of them. Then, the story could end with the letter. Just my thoughts.

[KingSombrero]

well, now i'm depressed. great story, though!

[clearshot01]

2249689 2249675 said 'I *translation lost* your ohmygod. It was awesome. It's fun to talk like this.'
I think...

[Showmare Trixie]

She remembered how Nightmare moon had been defeated, Twilight and her friends used the Element of Harmony to purge Nightmare Moon and restore Luna back to who she rightfully was, but that was long ago. A hundred years ago to be exact. Celestia then was suddenly reminded of the holders of the Elements of Harmony and she found herself shedding tears. Applejack, Rarity, Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash and Pinkie Pie, all of them were dead. It had been a hundred years and each one of them had passed on from old age.

All the element bearers died of old age the same year they beat NMM? What.

[ArthurPearson]

To quote Uncle GonnaBiteIt from Thumb wars, "What a whiner."

Jeez Louise! Being immortal means that ALL of your friends get to be immortal too, living on in your memory. Being immortal means you get to make NEW friends again and again. Being immortal means you get to keep having fun, living life, and helping people better and better as you learn how to do nearly everything. Being immortal gives you the chance to push the boundaries of every inch of knowledge. The best Earth scientists are still trying to work out the fundamental forces of reality, and reaching backward in time to before the big bang, and looking at distant stars to identify which ones have planets.

You're BORED?! Then you aren't trying!

10% of life is what happens to you. 90% is how you react to it. So have fun, Twilight! Take a lesson from Pinkie Pie, and let your worries wash away when you giggle at the ghosties.

MLP is about taking the scary things in life and turning those frowns upside-down.

^.^

[Isumo1489]

...hate to say it...but, Lather, Rinse, Repeat.

Normally, I love little notes like this one, but your perspective on Twilight lacked a certain...individuality when I inevitably compare it to the multitude of other fics like it out there from the Advent of Twilight Alicorn fics.

I'm not saying the premise is bad, or even not to write a fic like this, but it needs to have it's own take, something to make it stand out. So far, this fic has been the same standard formula others have been using, nothing really standing out from the bunch.

My advice, go back to when you thought of this, and continue this one. Go into what Twilight does in her isolation, Celestia's long term reaction as well as Luna and Cadence's reactions. Build on this, make us care and enrapture us with their struggles and a resolution you can see happening.

You can do better, you just need to reach out and grasp that first hand beyond what you've got here, the rest will come right after.

I wish you well, and all the success in the world.

[grayling]

2250975 Close enough. The part that was lost in translation was "concur." You win one NOTHING! *distant rap music plays*

[clearshot01]

2254970 Well, you win a free zombie. Please choose from those listed below:
1.bp.blogspot.com/-060NwSacNpI/TmzU9tk9EII/AAAAAAAAAN4/aKG7Lx0pXWQ/s1600/Suicider+%25281%2529.png
2.bp.blogspot.com/-L_vjCklufdM/TmzVcOdJ57I/AAAAAAAAAOA/T7Qd6xWp1vg/s1600/6b453_Ram.png
1.bp.blogspot.com/-NsCB0gEkF64/TmzWBGAmWGI/AAAAAAAAAOI/425RtAUOw64/s1600/Floater.png
2.bp.blogspot.com/-DIFhVSSW8D8/TmzVMnlCEaI/AAAAAAAAAN8/TV2l3L94jx8/s1600/789px-Butcher.png

[grayling]

2255497 I'll take the Ram! 23.4.13

[clearshot01]

2255545 I'd take the Butcher. Just cause he's fast as fuck...

[grayling]

2255554 The Ram is like me. Fast and Strong as Hell but, can't turn for shit.

[clearshot01]

2255572 Well, I'm more like the floater: Slow, fat, and always throwing up. Nah, I'm just a little on the chubby side.

[grayling]

2255587 Sounds like the opposite of me. Way too skinny, fast and don't get sick. Well... there was that one time with the carrots. *Shivers* Bright orange barf is BAD!

[clearshot01]

2255994 Dude, you should see purple vomit sometime... Seriously, I have no idea how my vomit came out purple... I've never eaten anything of the color purple...

[grayling]

2256004 Could be a chemical reaction to something. Or you could just be secretly a magical pony!

[clearshot01]

2256017 Nah, if I was I'd be farting rainbows...

[chuckitty]

I painted art for this if you are interested :) Princess Twilight

[Enfield]

6355019 Oh my gosh, this is awesome. Thanks, I was expecting this.

[chuckitty]

Glad you like it!

[fanreader999999]

Child.

[Mystic Sunrise]

2251827
Exactly.