My Dear Rainbow,
I had that nightmare again, the one in Canterlot, with the crowd and the alley. She was there again, as always. She yelled at me again, just like the times before. I woke up crying, same as every other time. But it was different last night, in the dream everything became more clear. Only once it cleared up had I realized how murky it was before, like not knowing what clear vision is until you put on glasses. I could see the world around me, and the indistinct flash of blue became a clear view of Dash walking past.
And then I made it to the alley. My wife started to yell, only this time I could understand some of her words. The things Rainbow yelled at me. She told me to leave, she said run, but I didn’t move. She got angry, told me I never knew when to let go. She flew off with anger.
I felt bad, as if I’d made a mistake, as if I was a disappointment. It all felt like I made a wrong choice and you were trying to tell me. But somehow I know, I’m too late, there’s no point. I wish I could just know what she wants me to do to fix this.
I’m glad I still have you though, you would never yell at me; if there was ever an issue then we would just work it out together. Together, we have all the love we could ever possibly need, as well as each other. Why did you have to die, why is this world the cruel place that it is? I guess nature needed to find a balance. One could not just have somepony as amazing as you in their life and get off scott free. There needs to be an equalizing factor, and I guess that factor would be your death.
But I must truthfully say that I don’t know who I miss more, you or my wife, it’s a tough choice, and hopefully I’ll never have to choose between you two, that may just kill. I guess that’s irrelevant since I’m dying anyways.
I love you, both of you,
Twilight
Oh, my.
Okay... so, if I'm reading this rights, Twi now thinks her wife and Rainbow are two different ponies... yet she still adresses the letters to Rainbow, so she knows her wife's name is Rainbow, but not the Rainbow and oh god now my head hurts... Great chapter.
It's like she loses her memory halfway through the letter every time xD
Nineteen chapters. This is excellent, at first it was just a heart wrenching tear jerker but I'm loving where this memory thing is headed (Yes yes im twisted). Anywho keep being oh so evil and making me cry... Dear lord reading all of thise updates in one go breaks the heart Dx but cant wait for the next update!
I guess that by this point Twilight is so brain damaged that she can not understand that Dash's ghost is trying to tell her to live!
dame she... wow this is werid
Wait, what? She's separated Rainbow Dash from the role of her wife, but she still acknowledges "Dash" as her wife, but ends it with an "I love both of you".
The f*ck?
2253514 Welcome to some kind of magical dementia. She's probably having micro strokes as time goes on.
Ever seen someone whose mind is slowly deteriorating? This kind of shite happens. Some things remain clear as day, others get jumbled and others disappear altogether. She's dying.
Or her brain's trying to fix itself. Either way.