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I'm a musician, songwriter, and erstwhile actor and improviser, with a BA in theatre and a minor in Latin. That's the short version.


Scootaloo has always loved to watch Rainbow Dash practice in the afternoons, but today she finds herself in a strange situation, sitting atop a cloud as her hero tells her what drives her, what she fears, and why she sometimes wishes she could be somepony else. For all of that, what does Scootaloo wish? Take a guess.

This is cross-continuity. I technically wrote it as part of my "Sun Eater" alternate continuity, which is normally set in a dark, gritty version of Equestria that Hasbro wouldn't touch for all the bits in Canterlot's coffers. After I finished it, though, I realized that it would neatly fit in the standard continuity, and that it had absolutely no objectionable content. So, here it is! It's rated "Everyone," You can consider it part of the larger series of one-shots focusing on the Mane Six of "The Sun Eater" continuity if you want, or you can just take it for what it is.

Cover Art by bigponymac

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Comments ( 11 )

It's hard to live your life at the very edge of the possible. Rainbow Dash has found that out the hard way. Of course, that nervousness? In the end, it's probably the thing that will let her win the day.

Interesting. Not a bad little stroll through Rainbow's mind.

i like alot fave like :rainbowdetermined2:

It's sad that a pony that does so many great things ("Wonderbolts Academy")
doesn't believe in herself.


I wrote this before the "Wonderbolt Academy" episode came out, but I could totally accept it as having happened after that, with maybe a few slight changes in dialog.

Personally, I don't really think of it as being sad. I hate to reference consumer culture, but there was an old Nike commercial where Michael Jordan said, "I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed." I'm not even a big basketball fan, but I love that quote.

You see, I think that the most excellent people in the world are often (but not always) those who on some level choose to torment themselves with their failures. I don't think it's easy to live that way, but I don't think it's bad, either. That's what this little story is about to me; Rainbow Dash is awesome because she cannot emotionally and mentally tolerate being anything less.

It's a pity this story doesn't have more views, because it's great. :twilightsmile:

I would have never expected Rainbow Dash to think like this. This is amazing.

This reminds me of how I feel about my writing. I mean, "Rainbow's Apology" has 19 likes and only 1 dislike. It is great to know that so many people like it, but I feel that it isn't really that good, like my writing isn't really good enough for so many likes. No matter how many people like it, I don't really think it deserves what it has. I honestly don't know why I am even continuing to write for this site, but I continue because I feel people are expecting more from me. Some people say I am a good writer. But I disagree. I don't wanna get my hopes up. I am disappointed enough with my own writing as it is.

I understand the feeling. On the internet, no one bothers to let you know how they feel about something unless they really love it or really hate it. Since FiMfiction is so big now, a story only stays on the front page for a very short time. That results in the only people that ever find a story being the ones that are actively looking for content similar to how your story is tagged, and that makes it hard to know whether anyone is giving you an objective evaluation.

When it comes to your writing, if you enjoy it, keep doing it. Go back, and read your own work. Compare it to stories (pony-related or not) that you consider good, and think about what makes your work good and bad. Then, try to improve yourself.

Remember, this is fanfiction. It's writing on easy mode. We don't often have to invent characters or locations or whatever. We get to work with an existing template that already has a strong mental and emotional presence for our readers. Otherwise, they wouldn't be reading it.

That's not to say that it's bad to write fanfic. Use it as a training ground, but make the goal the creation of your own unique work in the future. Everything good that MLP teaches us -- or at the very least reminds us of -- is useless if we don't branch out into the world and make an effort to affect it.

If you do bother to look at the rest of my works in this little one-shot series, or at "The Sun Eater" continuity in general, just keep in mind that everything you see is something that I, as a human being, have dealt with on some level. I used this whole continuity to work out a lot of my own issues as a person. So, if you identify with a character's struggle in this, you're fundamentally identifying with me, and I can appreciate that.

Most of my content is Teen or Mature rated, mostly for violence, language and substance abuse -- I don't do clop. For that matter, I don't do violence without a good reason. So, I don't write slasher fics, either. If seeing ponies with real, deep personal issues doesn't offend you, feel free to kill your mature filter and read the rest. Timeline wise it goes: "Sun Eater," then these one-shots, then "Ghosts of Gods."

Thanks for reading

very interesting read my good sir. :twilightsmile:


Thank you, and thanks for reading it.

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