AppleDash Group Collab

by DbzOrDie

Morning - BlackFireGallop

Author's Note:

Well, this is dark

I was thinking about us. About our time together. More than a year already. A whole year…

I still remembered how it started. The whole “Elements of Harmony” business. And everything that followed. Letting my mind wander around whilst I flew, I could not detach my eyes from the rising sun, in front of me.

The huge star took almost all the sky with its rays, like an enormous fire ball. It was blinding, but I didn’t care. Time was flowing differently for me since...

Nothing was keeping me on those lands, now. Applejack left ages ago.

One morning she was there with me, in the hot and comfy bed. Next thing I knew, she had simply vanished. Not a word, not a kiss. It was almost like she let the ache in my heart talk for her. It was a gnawing feeling, stretching and ripping my heart.

A part of myself had been ripped from me. And despite the pain, I could simply not be mad at her.

Me and the others looked everywhere. We begged Celestia to send envoys. Even the Wonderbolts took off to find her. They owed me a favor.

But nothing. They all came back empty hoofed. And I was mad. Oh, I had been mad.

Most of my sanity had died that week.

First, I was simply depressed. Everything was black…and cold. My friends could not find any way to cheer me up. I didn’t laugh. I didn’t smile. I didn’t eat. Whenever they tried something for me, I answered with words of spite and anger.

All day long, I kept my eyes on the pictures. On the little words, written by her, in the house. They were everywhere : on the walls, on the fridge…

But then, it started to make me even more depressed. I tore them apart. Threw the pictures out the window. I yelled all day long, tears running on my coat. I could not understand. I didn’t try to understand.

It never crossed my mind that maybe, she felt like I deserved better. Or that she needed to ponder her feelings. Or any romantic crap they come up with in those books. No, I simply didn’t try.

It was her fault, after all. She had scarred me for life. All the promises ? They were no more. All the vows ? They crumbled to dust. All the happiness ? It had vanished.

One day, Fluttershy came to see me. She said that I was destroying her with my attitude. Her exact words where :

“I...feel the way Applejack was feeling for you !"

I do not remember what crossed my mind. But when she said this, I lunged at her, and hit her. Hard. In a bad spot. She crumbled in my arms, her eyes closed. A simple tear fell on the floor, and she stopped breathing.

I had woken up in a hospital room. I felt like utter crap. I was not me anymore. I was a simple pile of trash. I had killed one of my friend. For what ? My depression, my mutilated love, had spoken for me.

I just exiled myself. Forever. Took off, leant towards the west, and kept at it. I would continue like this until exhaustion, whilst remembering all of our moments together. Not trying to understand anymore. Not trying to hide from the truth anymore.

She needed time for herslef. She didn’t feel like loving me anymore. Her feelings had simply…died out. She was so scared to say it in front of me. She was asking me to wait, to give her time. She would come back, and we would speak about it.

That was her last note. Found it in the stables when I fled from the hospital, going by the house one last time. The one place I didn't have the courage to go to. All this happened because she had stuck it into a stupid place.

Your fault. All your fault. Your turn to live with the pain.

Comments

[Killabyte]

I am all too well familiar with this demon, and it does win sometimes.

In all honestly, I would like to see more of this, maybe from AJ's POV or developed more into it's own story.

[Fury of the Tempest]

Ummmm... wow. Dark.

[LucyHorseThing]

[survivor]

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