• Published 4th Aug 2019
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Sunspots - RadBunny



When a devastating plague rips through Equestria not even the rulers of the nation are spared. When a quirky but knowledgeable hippogriff arrives to help, Celestia is all too glad for his assistance. But for her, not all ailments are physical wounds.

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Chapter Fifteen: Doubts and Flares

‘My dearest Twilight,

This question has been weighing on my mind rather heavily as of late, and a certain hippogriff suggested I write a letter. I find it ironic that I needed a push for such a thing. In short, Twilight, I wish to ask you a question, one of which I beg for you to answer honestly even if it may be painful.

Did I push you too hard into the path of being my successor? While that has been postponed due to the Windigos, I cannot help but wonder if I made a horrible mistake, but not in choosing you.

Choosing you as my successor and seeing you grow has been a joy beyond measure. The mistake I fear that I made was pushing you down a path which you did not want, something I have experienced to an extent. But that is for later; I await your response.

-Your friend,
Celestia.’

The Alicorn sent the message zipping away on a magical lightning bolt, wings and shoulders drooping with the release of stress.

“It’s done. And now I wait,” she muttered to the empty throne room, sitting at the bottom of her davit stairs. Nacreous was off in the medical wing as he had been located the past two weeks since their return. With the new strain of the Fire Lung still spreading in northern and eastern towns, the hippogriff was working to try and synthesize a more stable cure. The Ambassadorial caravan was slowly making its way south healing as many as they could on the way which occupied the majority of their time. That had been an interesting discussion with Luna, Nacreous appearing rather surprised on hearing his message having gotten through. He was clearly unsettled about something but Celestia didn’t pry. She trusted him enough to do that at the very least.

Today however, a session of day court had just ended, the few that had shown up at least. She was looking forward to her usual lunch and dinner with her favorite hippogriff, and even the thought of such made Celestia’s heart ache. It was so silly, almost seeming juvenile.

I miss him.

After having his constant company for a few days, Celestia wanting to just be at his side. Even if they were not talking, just knowing he was there seemed to put her heart at ease.

I can barely put to words how much I care for him. I could hardly vocalize it a week ago, and now it has just grown. I’ve woken up with that pillow hugged in my arms almost every night, and the nightmares have been fleeting.

The ‘L’ word was looming in Celestia mind, and a few days ago, she had stopped trying to fight the mental block she had developed towards it. Even allowing herself the acceptance of such a thought had been freeing, a moment where tears had welled up in the alicorn’s eyes as she came to tersm her own emotions.

‘I suppose I do love him’.

A simple phrase that had set her heart free and Celestia still was struggling to figure out what to do.

Talk to him, of course. Perhaps at lunch.

She had a feeling the hippogriff was on the same wavelength, for after they ate relaxing on each other’s shoulders was a silently-agreed upon activity, his claws holding one of Celestia’s hooves. Unlike before, the pace seemed more natural after the two weeks of relative normality in terms of going on dates, their physical affection now keeping pace with how much they each knew about the other, trusted each other. The fact Nacreous had immediately wrapped her up in a hug the other day still made Celestia’s hooves tingle. To be wanted as an individual in that way was still such an alien feeling, but by no means an unwelcome one.

Perhaps I’ll-

Celestia really should have been expecting a prompt response, but the familiar purple Alicorn appearing in the throne room with a flash of light was still startling. Her train of thought immediately returned to the letter as she looked at her graduated student.

“Twilight?”

The younger princess trotted forwards, eyes shimming with emotion and barely restrained tears. “Do you really think you pushed me too hard?”

Celestia’s mouth opened, the ruler only able to nod as she whispered. “Yes. I’m afraid I did.”

Twilight looked up to her previous mentor, a wide and thankful smile dawning on her features.

“There were times I thought you did, honestly. Times I was overwhelmed, times I thought you were deciding my life for me…” Twilight held up a hoof as Celestia drew in a sharp breath. “But that’s because I didn’t understand it myself.”

Twilight paused, not able to resist a slight sniffle despite wiping away a few tears.

“Celestia, you pushed me onto a path which I would have never chosen, and I can’t thank you enough for that,” Twilight whispered, looking up at the shocked Alicorn. “I didn’t know I needed to be pushed. I didn’t think I ever wanted friends but here I am happier than ever with them in my life. You showed me a life with friends is so much better than without, and I would have never found them without your help. You didn’t push me into a path I didn’t want; you pushed me into a path to let me find myself.”

Celestia could only hold back a portion of her emotions, a few tears welling up in her eyes as her once-student continued.

“The same goes for being your successor. Ponyville, a Princess, future ruler; you didn’t decide all of that for me. I could have said no at any time, but I trusted you and I still do. I can’t thank you enough for helping me find myself, even if it did mean you had to push and shove me along the way. And I mean that. I’d never have met my friends otherwise, nor become who I am today.”

Twilight let out a surprised squeak as Celestia leaned forwards to wrap her up in a hug, sides shaking as she took in a tearful breath.

“Twilight, I….”

“I think this was in my friendship reports; something about talking to a friend before things got out of hoof?”

Celestia couldn’t help but laugh at Twilight’s words, the younger alicorn returning the affectionate gesture before being released, a continuous smile on her lips.

“And while this Windigo thing is obnoxious, look on the bright side! Now I’ve got more time to plan for your last summer-sun celebration. I also want to meet this rather special hippogriff you’ve mentioned more than a few times.”

Nodding, Celestia wiped her eyes rather futilely as she looked at her successor, more tears beginning to flow.

“I’m so proud of you, Twilight. Thank you, your words carry more weight than I think you know.”

“I think I’ve got a fair idea,” Twilight laughed, wiping her own eyes as her horn began to pulse with magic. “Darnit, that’s Spike. Back to my germ-free-bubble. I’m glad you’re doing ok, Celestia.”

“Take care, Twilight.”

As her friend vanished in a flash of light, Celestia let out a sigh of relief, the warm glow in her chest not fading for a good few hours.

She doesn’t blame me; I didn’t continue the cycle.
Thank you, Twilight.


Nacreous tapped his claws against a stone, eying the few preparations he had made.
Record player, check.
Picnic basket and supplies, check.
Anti-snooping runes, check.
My favorite alicorn…waiting.

Located in a distant park built into the mountain, the secluded area was rarely used due to the long hike and remote location, something few city-dwellers enjoyed regularly. However, the forested meadow overlooking the city in the distance was a perfect place to enjoy some time with a certain Princess away from prying eyes. It had quickly become their ‘place’ to meet up for dates be it lunch, dinner, or a late-afternoon chat to decompress from the day.

As a smile began to affix itself to his face Nacreous could only sigh with a chuckle.
Head over hooves indeed, and that has only increased exponentially.

Such feelings were the reason behind the special surprise date, after all. The two weeks of decompression time after the cave had seemed to normalize things, given the two a sort of routine. At least that’s how Nacreous felt. The speed at which their relationship had been going had now settled, and it was all he could to do not trot into that throne room and give his Alicorn a kiss.

Of course, I hope to change that shortly, in a manner of speaking.

Three words which held so much power of Nacreous’s heart welled up, and yet he couldn’t bring himself to say it just yet. It was difficult to even admit to himself even if the Paladin knew it was true. It was an almost fearful acknowledgement, but one that was undeniable at this point.

The more I think about my feelings the more obvious it becomes. And yet the fear is still there, the unknown, the uncertainty.

The change from a thousand years of acceptance to something much more beautiful.

So absorbed in his own thoughts Nacreous didn’t even hear the tell-tale fizzling of a teleportation spell, jumping slightly as a familiar Alicorn sat down next to him.

“Lost in thought?” Celestia giggled at seeing his feathers fluff up in surprise, glancing around at the various items in curiosity.

“I….” the hippogriff began, finally just shaking his head to reach over and grasp Celestia’s nearest hoof. “In a manner of speaking,” he finally managed to say, a few of his nerves ebbing as she gladly snuggled a bit closer.

“I see you’ve been busy here; what is this all for?”

“I’ll tell you in a minute,” Nacreous replied feeling Celestia’s sides shake with laughter.

“You have gotten much more snuggly these past two weeks,” she began, and then shifted to gently nuzzle his neck. “And from my perspective that is a good thing indeed, so don’t you dare think otherwise.”

“I was wondering…”

“Mmmm. That’s why I said it. So why is this all here?”

Nacreous shifted to look down at the Alicorn, a slight blush on her cheeks as the hippogriff scooted up to her. “For our date, of course.”

“Is there a special occasion I’m forgetting?” Celestia asked, watching as Nacreous trotted over to the record player with a shake of his head.

“Nope. I just wanted to do something special this time.”

Seeing Celestia look at him curiously, Nacreous walked back over to sit in front of her, wings shifting in thought. “Just, I’ve been thinking quite a bit these past two weeks, mainly about us.” The Hippogriff seemed to grow a bit bashful, only glancing up at Celestia briefly before focusing on his claws which toyed with a bit of grass. “I know this may sound childish, but I’ve missed you quite a bit more than I ever anticipated. Two weeks of relative normality has just let things settle…” he now noticed that Celestia had scooted a bit closer to wrap her hoof around a set of claws. “But that has done nothing to dampen how I feel about you, Celly. I just wanted to have a special date with you.”

To the hippogriff’s surprise Celestia laughed softly, snuggling close and listening to the Paladin’s heart beat underneath his fluffy chest.

“I’ve missed you too, Nacreous, and I’m not just saying that to make you feel better. It’s been an ache in the back of my mind,” she whispered, feeling him stiffen in genuine astonishment.

“Really?”

She nodded, all of the Princess’s thoughts seeming to ebb into a gentle flow with the rise and fall of her hippogriff’s chest, the motion rocking her head back and forth.

“I’ve missed you so much at times, even if I knew I’d see you again the next day. And not just for a hug but simply talking, or being near you. When you’ve had a glimpse of what things could be like, after a thousand years of fearing you’d never…”

“Going back to that is a rather painful adjustment?” Nacreous interjected.

Celestia nodded, not able to resist a happy sigh as two arms hugged her close for a few moments. The pair reluctantly broke apart as their stomachs made their needs known however to sample the wide range of foods that had somehow fit in the picnic basket.

“I would not argue some more snuggles after we eat, if that’s something you’d enjoy,” the hippogriff added, nearly laughing as a rather fiery glint entered Celestia’s gaze.

“I’d like that very much.” As they ate, Celestia’s ears perked up as she recalled a suggestion from Luna. “Nacreous, I know Luna decided to ask you about our time in the ice cave, but my question is about that story you told her. She recommended I ask you about it?”

To her surprise Nacreous blushed, nodding as he delved into the tale of Jug Parlance. Celestia was certainly a bit teary by the end of it, yet there was still a gap in her understanding.

“And you were that trader; that is a story I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of hearing,” she admitted. “But if I may ask, how is that related to Luna’s questioning?”

The sheepish hippogriff didn’t respond immediately, trying his hardest to find the correct words.

“She wanted to know why you were so happy. To use the story’s analogy and what I told Luna, it was because I was treating you as you deserve to be,” the Paladin admitted. “And I don’t mean that in some boastful or faux-bragging manner, but….” he frowned, claws tapping the ground. “This is a bit of speculation so correct me if I’m wrong. But for a thousand years you seemed to have been treated like a Goddess. A removed deity without wants, needs, dreams, or even hobbies. In other cases, you were seen as an old mare who is wiser above all others, that coupled with the Goddess view. So, if that’s all others saw you as…”

“Then why would I act any differently, even if it wasn’t a conscious choice,” Celestia whispered to herself more than Nacreous.

“I don’t know if I’m right though,” he admitted.

“Oh, I’d say you’re more correct that even I understand. That’s something I’m coming to terms with; how much being treated differently is affecting me in a good way. Being treated as a mare, as somecreature who has the same whims and feelings as any aging soul has been more freeing than I ever could have thought. Coupled with getting closer to my special somegriff, I’d say my reasons for being happy are quite justified,” the Princess replied with a happy smile, then looking up to Nacreous curiously. “Perhaps is there a similar challenge with you? For a thousand years, you were seen as a passer-by, never anything more than a friend for a week or two, exceptions aside. So….?”

“Would I start to think of myself as not ever being worth more? Even if it’s a flawed sense of reasoning?” Nacreous replied in a soft tone, not able to meet Celestia’s gaze. “Yes. You can only operate on logic for so long before it is overwhelmed.”

A hoof reached over to poke his chest, drawing the hippogriff’s gaze upwards into a pair of violet eyes.
“But for both of us those challenges are no more, not in a present sense. We only have to deal with overcoming their lingering effects and I’d say doing that together has worked out rather well.”

Nacreous nodded, reaching over to grasp the hoof with his claws, now finally not able to resist a smile. “I’d say it has worked out far better than I ever could have imagined.”

Maybe I should-
No. It shouldn’t be a question in my mind when I do.

Nacreous reached a free set of claws over to tap a crystal remote for the record player, the modified device starting on the first piece of the song.

“Shall we?” he asked, taking a step back to hold out his claws after releasing Celestia’s hoof.

The alicorn was all smiles as she nodded, setting a hoof in the Paladin’s claws as she leaned back on her hind limbs. Bipedal dancing was somewhat of an art when you lived otherwise on all fours, but for some it was possible for brief moments given enough practice. When you had two parties supporting the other, it made a difficult stance almost natural.

A lot of symbolism in this method of dancing, I think. Nacreous mused as he guided them to a bit more level ground. Celestia was completely happy to let him lead, seeming to revel in the fact she had to follow.

Right, always taking initiative in everything, it must be a relief to finally let someone else shoulder a burden, even if it’s in something as simple as a dance.

The song he picked had taken a good few hours to find, strings, piano, harp, and a newer, almost electric tune all mixing together as an ancient language was sung, barely audible over the instruments.

“I know the original song; what is it called….?” Celestia whispered to herself, the Princess leaning her head on Nacreous’s chest. He tilted his head curiously, having seen a glimpse of two violent eyes that looked close to open tears.

“Perhaps you’ll remember as it goes on? I’ll tell you of course if you can’t recall then.”

She nodded, a smile spreading across the alicorn’s face as Nacreous sent her into a slow spin, then pulling her back to continue the slow waltz.

The song then changed, the female voice becoming more prominent as she sang. With the instruments entering a deeper string of notes, a male singer then grew in volume. Celestia’s eyes widened in realization, and now the alicorn did let a few tears slip from her eyes.

“This song. Incipit amantes,” she whispered, Nacreous nodding.

“Loosely translated…”

“Bridge of two lovers,” the Paladin finished, reaching a set of claws up from Celestia’s waist to rest against her cheek.

“Nacreous….”

A tender smile on his face, the hippogriff reached up to brush off the few more tears that spilled from Celestia’s eyes, his own vision starting to become obscured by a similar bit of moisture.

“There’s some things I haven’t said yet but would like to when it seems right. I just hope this song conveys what those words might be.”

Celestia nodded, now looking up into his eyes with nothing but tender adoration.

“I’d have chosen this song for the same reason.”

Nacreous didn’t realize what it was that itched down his cheek until Celestia reached a hoof up to brush away a tear, the alicorn’s words making his heart nearly thud out of the Paladin’s chest.

I wish I could say that I love you, but I can’t. Not until there’s no more secrets.
But this is as close as I could get, and you feel the same….

They danced until the end of the song, the pair then sitting down to rest their limbs from the awkward positioning. Celestia didn’t say anything for a time, simply sitting at Nacreous’s side and holding his claws.

“You know, you never told me about that story about you being trapped in a cave full of Pego’s,” she remarked, making Nacreous chuckle.

“I suppose I didn’t. It’s not nearly as exciting as you may think though, just a run of perfectly placed misfortunes,” he admitted. “It was a few decades ago; there was a cave that was rumored to have swallowed up many a supply caravan on a rough trail through the mountains. I went exploring and severely underestimated how tricky it was to navigate. So, I ended up stuck there waiting for a rescue crew. They checked the cave every few weeks to make sure no idiots such as myself got stuck down there. So many explorers had ventured in that there was a constant supply of basic food and water kept there just in case someone got too curious,”

Nacreous paused with a chuckle, shoulders shrugging as Celestia grinned.

“So, this big fool was stuck in a cave with so many odds and ends that my portal artifact couldn’t recharge normally due to the magical interference. It was just me and an entire four wagons-worth of Pego’s among the other various supplies littered about. I got a nice finder’s fee for finding the main stash of lost items though.”

Celestia let out a hum, clearly a bit more curious. “So, you were alone for a month? In the dark?”

He nodded, letting out a sigh. “It was difficult, to say the least. I knew I’d get rescued at some point. If not, I might have been able to modify my various magical devices to get me out of there, so it was just a waiting game largely out of necessity. There were a few nights that got rather dark, and I don’t mean just literally, because I did have some light shining in from the outside.”

Nacreous felt her nod ever so slightly, the hippogriff reaching a set of claws to wrap around Celestia’s side and pull her close.

“There were nights I wondered about it all; what was I going to do with my life? Just wander? Helping those I could was my goal, keeping me occupied from thinking darker thoughts. It now seems so silly, honestly, and I don’t mean that in a dismissive sense.”

“Oh?”

Nacreous nodded, shifting so Celestia wasn’t directly at his side, the alicorn looking at him curiously. “It was at those times I wondered if I’d ever have a moment like this,” he whispered, reaching over to rest his forehead against the Princess’s. “To find somecreature who would remember me, who would want to remember me.” Celestia’s hoof squeezed his claws rather tight at this, the alicorn shifting to rest her cheek on his own.

“And now that I’ve finally found somecreature like that, it’s rather overwhelming. To think that after a thousand years, someone else has fought similar demons in their own mind; it’s comforting in a way I don’t know how to express.”

Celestia nodded at that, seeming to be continually curious why the hippogriff’s heartbeat sped up ever so slightly.

“And I know you’ve said that I’ve been a stellar special somegriff,” Nacreous pulled back ever so slightly, resting a set of claws on Celestia’s cheek. “But I think I could have done a bit more, like…” Nacreous reached down, giving Celestia a tender kiss as an adorably dopey smile dawned on his face.

She stared at him in shock, the surprise quickly being overridden by something else in her eyes. The emotion that overtook the shock on her face made Nacreous’s heart soar. The last thing he saw in Celestia’s eyes was an inferno of loyalty and love as she pushed forward to kiss him again, this time with enough time and intensity to make the Paladin’s wings flare. Of course, she wasn’t spared such a fate either as he returned the gesture, a set of claws wrapping around the alicorn’s waist and yanking her close for a time.

Her flushed face filling Nacreous’s vision, Celestia let a laugh escape her muzzle, reaching up a hoof and tapping the Paladin’s beak.

“Pegos. You led into our first kiss with a story about Pegos?” she asked, only able to laugh again when the hippogriff stuck out his tongue defiantly, a few happy sniffles now making the alicorn’s sides shake.

“Would you expect anything else from me?”

“Not in the slightest!” she proclaimed reaching up to give him another kiss before resting in his arms.

“While I think that hugs-only rule was helpful, I think its usefulness has faded,” Nacreous mused, making Celestia giggle as he ducked his beak downwards for yet another affectionate gesture.

“I’d agree. I just, a thousand years of not thinking about it all yet now-” Celestia paused, pressing firmly into Nacreous’s embrace. A bit of dampness made her eyes shine as she glanced up at him, no words able to convey the emotion swirling behind her gaze.

But the tight hug most certainly did, Celestia closing her eyes to press her head underneath Nacreous’s, a final rebellious sniff slipping out as the hippogriff nuzzled her mane.

“It’s a weird thing indeed, but I’d like nothing more than to do a lot more thinking and see where things go. I’m-” Nacreous paused, smiling at the alicorn in his arms. “I’m excited to see where things go with us. A bit nervous, but that isn’t the first thing I think of anymore.”

“Maybe because you know I feel the same way, about you and the future,” Celestia suggested, then pulling back to look at her hippogriff with an increasingly familiar gaze filled with fire and passion. “And if you don’t know that I feel that way, don’t think I won’t fix that!”

As Celestia gave him another kiss before wrapping up the hippogriff in her own arms, Nacreous could only close his eyes and take a shaky breath as the reality of a simple thought finally began to cement itself. And that made him hug Celestia all the tighter, the Princess now resting her head on top of his protectively.

You want to be with me.
Somecreature still wants to be with me.
And I with her.

Author's Note:

NO BRAKES ON THE TRAIN OF FLUFF! :pinkiehappy: It's about time you two!