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I'm older than your average brony, but then I've always enjoyed cartoons. I'm an experienced reviewer, EqD pre-reader, and occasional author.


Big Macintosh has fallen hard for the pretty blond mare. When she is forced into a fight for her life, he sticks by her faithfully, but keeping the promises he's made will be an even tougher battle.

Updated for Equestria Daily! Yay, made 6-star!

Please vote and leave lots of comments! I love reading what you have to say!

Written for a sadfic contest (I won!); the plot is in honor of my mother-in-law, who wasn't so lucky, and I suspect wouldn't actually appreciate inspiring a story about ponies.

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Comments ( 82 )

Man oh man, the ending reminds me a lot of 50 first dates, a great story, it kind of seemed to move a little fast in the beginning but seem to go a normal pace after that, 5 stars for you

#3 · Dec 1st, 2011 · · ·

im just wondering....where is dinky? :duck:
this amuses me though :moustache: loved it.

This is very nice...
One problem about those nasty nasty tumors: They're like some kinds of trees. When one is big enough, not even grass grows near it. If you remove a tumor, it'll stop inhibiting the other metastatic sites. Soon, little tumors will start growing.
The moar you know....

#5 · Dec 1st, 2011 · · ·

I cannot believe this. How did you write the fic with the symptoms and everything and not have one of the side effects be derp eyes?:derpyderp1:

46739 I envision this happening before Dinky comes along. I may write a follow-up with her in it.

46750 The eyes are one of the symptoms! The doctor said there was a loss of motor control, which covers the eyes as well as being a bit of a klutz.

It's sort of a heartbreaker that even despite the wonders of Equestrian medicine, Ditzy can no longer remember that year.

46837 The possibility of a follow-up? Yes yes yes! In all honesty it is your choice however. I just found the story so touching. Best wishes!

hmmm, i liked this alot, but i think ditzy was a little out of character with the 'shut up and kiss me' :rainbowlaugh: but i think its a great job, though the begnning was a little rushed :twilightsmile:

I dont like it... I LOVE IT! :raritystarry:

46908 Yeah, she was a bit out of her character there, and the first kiss as well, which is kind of the point. The character you see in the show is the more introverted one as a result of her ordeal.

46675 46908 I know the pacing was a little uneven, but I was writing under a word limit of 7k, and had to get to the conflict quickly. (FiMFiction doesn't quite count the words right - the actual number for this is 6966.) I may rewrite and expand later, after the contest is over.

Why is Fucking Tear Jerker not a category!?!?!
I always liked the shipping of Big Mac and Ditzy. This was so well written, sad, sweet and the ending though slightly melancholy was very optimistic. I loved the characterization of the two main characters. I was close to shedding manly tears during this, but...I didn't cause I AM A MAN now excuse me*sniff* I need to punch some shit or build a mountain or something.

Peace out.

So beautiful but so sad...

I like the ending, though. Love the ending.


Very sweet, nice job expanding Big Mac and Derpy's characters (I know you called her Ditzy, but she'll always be Derpy in my heart xD). 5 stars :eeyup:

Actually crying, like no shit tears from my eyes:fluttercry: that emoticon doesn't do my man tears justice, but they exist

Welp. Manly tears. :applecry:


I am not a normal brony. I did love the story and everything, but I don't actually want a follow up. My favorite stories always have open endings, and if this is predating the show they can't end up together.

Also unlike many others, although I am a man, I didn't cry "manly tears" I cried normal tears. They might have even been a little bit girly. The reason I cried is partially because of my empathetic sense, and partially because my grandmother died of cancer last year during the summer.

The part of the brain that generally controls motor skills is not very close to the part of the brain that controls memory on a human, but I don't know much about the set up of the brains of these homoequestrians. (I like this name for their species)

I did find one very irksome grammar issue, but it is inside of dialogue, so I doubt it matters. Just remember this, just because they have that accent doesn't mean that they talk like idiots. Big Mac states “Oh, Ah’m sorry, Ah’m sorry! Ah weren’t thinkin’.” when he should have said "Ah wasn't thinkin'." It can be attributed to an authors choice if you leave it though.

I am many things in many places. Here I am Not.

:fluttercry: :raritycry::applecry:

Very sad and moving story. Do a follow up, please!


#21 · Dec 2nd, 2011 · · ·

I loved it. (I don't believe cancer is possible in Equestria, but I'll make an exception for this story.)

46908 You hear something new every day...what character, her only lines are muffins (possibility, and....i got nuthin...

Oh mah gah. Thank you so much. :fluttercry:

I watched my parents go though cancer. I watched them promise and cling. I faded into the dark, like Dinky. I loved this fic. It was sad, but it spoke to life and love. Thank you for writing it.

Wow. Excellent work, you got me very emotional. :fluttercry:

#28 · Dec 3rd, 2011 · · ·


I loved this! Goodness, I'd have never guessed that any derpy x mac shipfic would pass up a fluttermac one, but it seems this one has beaten them all, at least in my opinion!

More tearjerkers! That was great. Feel bad for Mac, though :c

#31 · Dec 3rd, 2011 · · ·

You, sir, owe me a new chest cavity. It seems everything in that general region has, quite frankly, exploded. A new set of tear ducts would be good, too, as mine seem to be leaking uncontrollably...

#32 · Dec 3rd, 2011 · · ·

Wow... I have no words. Except to say...


Nah, but thanks! Loved it!

#33 · Dec 3rd, 2011 · · ·

I've only have a few seconds to write this due to my heart's explosion...
Ughh... Not enough time so... :raritycry::fluttercry::applecry:
:heart: In memory of my heart after reading this wonderful story.:heart:

This one hit me so hard, mainly because my dad had cancer a few years back. Excellent work, 5/5

#36 · Dec 3rd, 2011 · · ·

This was really beautiful. The emotions were very real, and I like how you made sure to show how Big Mac was suffering as well.

I honestly think the ending was perfect, even without a follow-up, but I'm sure whatever you'd like to do with it will be great.

That was...Great. I think this is the best fic I've read in months. Jeez, I didn't know it was this hard to type when you're crying.

That was simply beautiful, something that absolutely deserves the five stars I'm giving right now.

#39 · Dec 4th, 2011 · · ·

Equestria Daily. Now!

that was amazing. no doubt one of the better fan fictions out there. and im not just saying that, i mean it. 5 stars:fluttercry:

50134 I will. As I said, this was for a contest with a 7k word limit. Once the contest is decided (probably next couple of days), I will rewrite a bit without the word count constraint, and submit to EqD.

oh god...im at the verge of tears...it was a beutifull story.. and i actually could see myself doing something like big mac...awesome story, very touching, i loved it all the way, thank you for writing this it really touched me :pinkiesad2:

48297 This comment right here needs to win an award or something. :eeyup: :duck:

Ow....my freakin' heart....ow.
This story is the definition of bittersweet.

I was worried you were going to have her lose her fight. In fact I was certain of that fact for almost the entire story. And then I realized you had made it worse. Her dying I was prepared for. I was not prepared for what you did. It was elegant, realistic, heart-wrenching, and perfectly delivered. The real worst case scenario, knowing that somepony loved you and you loved them only to have that part of them stripped out. Far worse then loving somepony and not having them love you back. The stuff of nightmares, nightmares fueled by a particularly conniving subconscious.

My heart is demanding you be lynched for giving her the tumor in the first place. And then on top of such a monstrous crime you put her through a tortuous treatment and then you compound it by have the Pyrrhic "victory." Her body surviving at the cost of her. Fortunately my heart cannot tie a noose, it can only scream at me from the box on my desk.

My head is giving you a dignified ovation. Masterfully done. The result of the surgery is what really brought the piece together in its entirety and is the reason I have favorited this. I am pleased beyond words that you made the ending hopeful. The perfect mix of bittersweet and happiness. Although my heart demands you write a continuation my head knows better. There can be no sequel.

"And the last thing out of Pandora's box was the most terrible of all; a small bird, Hope."

Nikola of Tesla
Head of Applied Magic, Canterlot Institute of Technology

55367 Wow. Thanks for your kind review, as it means a lot coming from a successful writer whose stories I've enjoyed. Even more humbling is the response this story has gotten, even though the contest for which I wrote this is somewhat dragging its feet on judging, so I'm sitting on a revision about 1k words longer that I can't publish until it's decided. Then, straight to EqD (or try, at least)!

Why isn't Tearjerker a tag? Such a good story, bittersweet and adorable yet sad and realistic.

48383 well, i dont noe, i mean maybe its a little condescending of her, cuz by the mlp episodes, it seems like she would be a bit shyer or softspoken? nah, its prolly just me :)

58538 possible i dunno, maybe its just me that shes not...:coolphoto:

Great, emotional story. <brohoof>

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