I'm Perfectly Normal
Chapter 29: I'm perfectly Normal
"You're lucky Fire found you two. What were you thinking,Chance?" Arrow asked as he was walking me back home. That's kind of a weird though now that I think about it. I haven't really felt at home here unless you count with cherry or here. It's kind of nice to have some place to return to after all that happened today.
"Button got angry at me, and said a few things. I got mad at him and stormed off. Not much else to say" I replied to Arrow. I didn't want to go into exactly what I got angry about because I know how Arrow would react. Well if I told him the exact reason that it set me off, but maybe he wouldn't question it.
"What did he say?"
"He said that I couldn't even remember who I really was. I got angry because...because I'm starting to think you all were right," I can't just suddenly say that I believe them or they'd know I was lying about all of this. If I'm thinking right opening up to Arrow first is what I need to do then he'll tell Insight.
"You really think that?" Arrow asked in both disbelief and I think I could hear a hint of happiness. I really didn't want to use him like this, but I can't have anyone getting in my way of saving Ryan. Not even Arrow.
"I never said I believed those thoughts! I'm just saying hypothetically I might be wrong," I can't just make him say that I'm suddenly thinking 'hey I'm a pony' either. He still had a smile on his face while he replied,
"I understand, Chance."
'maybe we should go through with the mind wipe?'
Oh shit that voice is back and I can't openly debate with it while Arrow is here. I mean If I just start talking to myself he'll think I'm slipping into pure insanity and I'll end up in a mental war.
'Do we even really want to go back? Mom doesn't look at us, and dad left for that whore when we were eight.'
This voice needs to shut the hell up right now! I'm going to get home and mom is going to be so ecstatic that she didn't lose me to. She's going to look at me and stop saying that I should of been more like Ryan. She's going to see that I exists!
We finally reached Button's house where Loving was waiting by the door with a smile on her face. I was a little worried about telling her about today when Arrow leaned down toward me.
"Don't worry. I wont tell her anything,"
"Thanks Arrow,"
Loving heard about the dragon, and Button wouldn't stop talking about how awesome it was to fly in the sky. Loving tried to talk to me about everything, but I just stuck to the story that me and Button had created. He stuck with it rather well so no one really questioned us though Button received a stern talking to about what not to say. I didn't care to do much else that day so I decided to turn in early. Besides I have to talk to Insight tomorrow.
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I was in pitch black room with nothing inside of it. I don't remember falling asleep here.
"Finally we can talk face to face," a voice sounded behind me. Turning around I saw my pony body standing there.
"You know this is a sign of insanity right?" I said when another voice resounded to my left side.
"Indeed it is. That's why this conversation is already over." Turning toward the other voice I saw my old human body standing there with it's arms crossed. "He want's to go home,"
"No he doesn't! Here we don't have to worry about college. We have people that actually see us!" The pony version of me said rather infuriated.
"We finally find Ryan, and all you're worried about is people seeing us! This is bigger than you think!" My human self retorted.
"Let the princesses deal with it! It's not our problem,"
"It is. Ryan, Combo, and Lucky are slaves to that thing and you just want to abandon them!"
"BOTH OF YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I shouted which caused both of them to go dead silent. "We are not having this conversation right now. We are going to help Ryan and Combo, and then I'll decide on what to do,"
The world started to shimmer and break apart with other mes fading out of existence. I guess that I'm waking up now; too bad I couldn't fuck around in one of the only lucid dreams I've ever had.
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"This is going to rock," A hushed whisper came from my side. I could feel something in my hoof and after a moment i believe it was whipped cream. Yep, there was definitely whipped cream in my hoof.
"Is he awake?" I heard another voice ask. Looks like Button and Gibson has decided for pranking revenge; too bad It's going to back fire. I felt them start to tickle my nose with a feather. I made my hoof move a little to make it seem like I was about to do it. They tried again, but instead of swatting my own face Gibson got his face covered in it instead.
"By the way I was awake, Button," I said while smearing more of the cream on Gibson's face. "You two are rather loud so that's what woke me up." That's not really what did it, but maybe they wont try again if they think they'll give themselves away. Getting off the bed I looked toward the clock to see that it was 8:00. Looks like it's time to go meet Insight.
Once I was out the door Arrow was waiting to take me to Insights office in Caterlot. You'd think it'd take awhile to get there, but it is only a half hour ride to and from the city. I swear every time I went to his office I was always on edge because of that mare. I never saw her while I was in that city, but I always felt like I was being watched.
It was a short walk to the train station, but something was off about Arrow's walk. He was walking almost as if he was worried about something.
"What's up Arrow?" I asked in hopes that he might tell me.
"Nothing," He quickly said. Alright something was definitely off here and that has me worried. Arrow is always calm and collected so if something has him like this it had to be bad.
When we got onto the train he tensed up even more. The ride itself was relatively boring, but Arrow was just acting more and more strange the closer we got to Canterlot. Was there something going on there or something? I couldn't think of any other reason for Arrow to be worried about us going to Canterlot.
"You really are coming around right?" Arrow asked me out of the blue.
"Yeah, Why?" He sighed before speaking up.
"Insight sent me a letter last night. He wants to go ahead with the mind wipe. He said not to tell you, but you deserve a choice in the matter," Insight was going to do it anyway? I wanted to be angry at him, but that'd only serve to make the mind wipe seem like a greater option.
"Thanks Arrow. Do you think you can convince him to not do it. I'm kind of...I'm kind of scared of it. What if I forget about you?" I was genuinely worried about that idea actually. Arrow had been with me since the beginning and to just forget him like that it's just not right.
"I'll try, Chance. Just tell him you're coming around and he might can the idea,"
"I hope so," I said as we finally pulled into Canterlot station. I didn't even notice that we had been talking that entire time. Whatever was going to happen today was going to change everything so I better be careful. I can't forget about anything that I found yesterday because If I mess up me and Ryan are both doomed.
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Dude slow down with the uploads I'm having trouble keeping up. Just kidding upload whenever you want, I'm too tired to read your new chapter right now though maybe a little later.
Sorry for missing the last chapter, I had a lot of things to do that day.
This was an other great chapter One of the Crowd and that I ma looking forward to more great chapters in the future,seeing how the story is evolving so well. The last chapter was a great way to make the transition between two story arcs and to show that Chance has at least the bare bones of a plan to get himself out.
Also, I find that Insight desire to get Chance trough the mind wipe procedure is much too insistent and drastic in my opinion. I could imagine this treatment as viable for extreme cases for Equestria, as an absolute last resort, and I can think of many other treatments that Chance should go through before resorting to it, like medication for instance. But, I think that most ponies would agree that tampering somepony’s mind like that is wrong, and I don’t see why Insight would resort to this so soon. Scratch that, I perfectly understand were Insight is coming from. I believe that he think that Chance’s mind is irrevocably damaged. He see the fact that Chance’s insist that he is anything other than a pony, refuses to acknowledge the possibility that he is a pony, that he can’t seem to interact with anypony in any meaningful way, might mean in his professional opinion that Chance might as well start over completely; sense the “original Lucky Chance” can’t be restored in any meaningful way and can’t seem to move on from what happened. The fact that Chance, seem to have made a lot of panic attacks, as well as being in the middle of much destruction of property, escaping his foster family ,harming himself, only compound the situation he is in fact a that there seem to be no other recourse left for his situation; for his wellbeing.
I believe that the problem is that the readers have a hard time understanding the situation in any other point of view other than that of Chance’s. I think that Insight point of view as well as that of Princess Celestia is actually valid and perfectly justifiable, in this circumstance it’s just that it hasn’t been properly explained by the writher (Sorry One of the Crowd). I could imagine how every pony else see Chance just being a broken foal how mind was tortured by a crazy pony and that they all actually pity him. They just want to see his nightmare end for him…
We also have to think what we human would normally do with such self-destructive individuals in hors society, and that the general answer would be juvenile detention centers or mental asylum, which is hard to get out of once you’re in.
I could also imagine that they may also what to accelerate Chance’s treatment because they have Identified Chance as that of the original owner that the Equestrian might know as being a dangerous colt and that they may also have thought that sense he seem not to remember how he was mean that there was a chance that they could leave him alone. But seeing that he still seem to have his dangerous streak to him and that they want to make sure he never comes back.
I think that this point of view should be clearly explained in the next chapter, so that the reader can clearly understand the Equestian point of view, on the matter of the mind wipe and that the decision is not made lightly or in any arbitrary way.
I think that the two voices inside Chances head is a great idea, and that they represent in one part Chances stubborn desire to free Ryan ant Combo and the other represent his doughts of success, a form of desire to just put an end to the pain of all his struggles, and move on and be happy with his new life. I don’t think that either is necessarily bad just that they expresses his internal conflict about himself.
6445221 I always feel bad when I can't address everything you point out. I might as well answer the most prominent thing that you bring up though. While it is my intention to make the treatment seem hasty in Chance's eyes due to him being the narrator is what I wanted I suppose I'm missing the equestrian point of view. I'll remedy this in the next chapter the way that I normally do to get another person's perspective. Thanks for all the help mix-up!
6445329 thanks. I also think that Chance will have to build up a case for himself to show to Insight that he is integrating well in Ponyville. It doesn't need to be elaborate, just that he shows that he is interaction with the foals, having fun with them, making friends with them, playing with them, laughing with them, pranking with them, interacting well with his foster family all the things that they usually do. The most important part is that he would need to show to Insight that that he is looking forward to be with them and that he talk about them in a enthusiastic/passionate tone, that he is happy to be with them. Chance could also laying it a little thick
, like saying that he is starting that he think he may have started to have feelings for one of them, that he would like to have a fillyfriend 
I wander who he would chose, the Apple bloom, Sweety Bell, Scoodaloo, Diamond Tiara, Silver Spoon, Dinky, Twist
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I vote for Twist.
For reasons
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Holy crap
that's deep man
and very insightful (no pun intended)
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so do you think the next chapter will be all from everyone else's perspective?
6446082 The next chapter wont be from everyone's perspective, but we're going to see the thoughts of two prominent ponies. Chance still has his time, but the majority of the chapter wont be for him.
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May I ask for these reasons?
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Signing: Radio and Twist are siting in a tree k.i.s.s.i.n.g.
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Thank you Radio, for the complement, but to be honest I’m really not that good at writing, it takes me a lot of time to write and I recheck my drafts many times before I am reasonably believe that my idea is well communicated, spelling and syntax notwithstanding. Sa for the in-depth analysis, that you talk about, well I have only developed through practicing on commenting on chapters such as these and my exchange of ideas and point of view on the matters discus on the site. It is thanks to people like you, that I enjoy interacting with so passionately, that have helped me develop my writing skills so well in such a short time and in ways that I honestly didn’t think that was possible for me to even achieve, much less actually enjoy. So in short you only have yourself to blame for all my sudden increase in long winded explanations and ego stroke. Actually I’m Just kidding, I love writing with you guys.
Before that I stated commenting so often and in length on this story, I had always thought that I did not have much to contribute in my comments, and that they could only serve to encourage the writer to do more, by stroking their egos or to use comments to gage to see if there story is going well or not. In fact, it took me nearly a year on this site to just have the nerves to comment on any stories. I didn’t think that writers could interact with their readers so often, much less be influence or coach by them. But when I started to discuss more at length about the problems that foresaw in their story or the possibility at how it was going to progress, like I started with IMN on From Biochemistry with Love and that the writer actually responded to them, then it made me realize that it was possible to get feedback from the writer, made the experience of commenting more enjoyable and engaging. But it was only until that I commented to One of the Crowd on this story and that he responded so well to it, that I really started to feel that I wanted to improve on the quality of my comments. There is also the fact that One of the Crowd updates his story so often that made me compelled me to keep on writhing, made the improvements so noticeable. I wouldn’t forget either that discussing or debating with other reader like you Radio have also help a lot too, and I thank you for that.
For me writhing has always been very difficult for me to do, because I have many ideas going around my head simultaneously that I had a hard time putting them into writhing in a coherent manner and it was always a pain to starting it out. The fact that I am Dyslexic and an Asperger along with a minor form of A.D.D., plus I my native tongue is French, really have not made the proses of writing enjoyable for me in any shape or form in my life. So seeing myself actually not just enjoying but being egger to do it, has made wanders to my general outlook on the matter, giving me hope that I can actually overcome these disabilities, and see myself be capable of competing like everyone else on even grounds.
So in short it thanks in part to you, Radio, as well as One of the Crowd, that my in-depth comments are getting so good, and that I am striving to become better at writing them. It is making me happy to do it and as made wonders to my self-confidents.
So lets keep on disusing together, so that that we can all improve together
I think you made a typo with the word creamy. A nice chapter all in all funny how Button and Gibson's prank backfired but I felt like you could've made it a little funnier. I feel like the doctors (or psychiatrists or whoever) trying to help Chance are taking things too seriously but I probably feel that way because I'm rooting for Chance and I know what he's going through but the doctors don't. I'd say that's a sign that you're doing a good job. All in all good chapter.
6447465 That is the point. To make it seem like they're being extremely hasty, but in the next chapter we're going to be switching views for a bit. By that I mean Chance is only one of the three people that we're going to be seeing the minds of...I could of said that better, but whatever.
6446893 I didn't really think I had that much of an impact on you guys. I knew you guys liked talking with me, but I didn't think that I helped you at all with that. Now I feel all warm and fuzzy inside and it's nice.
I think you'd like to know that you're not the only one who's confidence has been boosted by this.
It took me two years before I finally decided to star an account here so I could write. I was so nervous because I thought that I couldn't provide anything anyone would like. Then you and Radio showed up. You both have given me ideas, and told me ways that I could improve the story as I wrote. With both of you helping me this story has changed drastically from what I originally thought it'd be and I'm happy about it. You both have made this story far more interesting than I originally planned, and have helped me improve my writing to a whole other level. So thank you for all you've done mix-up, and you too if you're reading this Radio.
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that feel when you thought you were just writing for fun, but were also making a positive influence on someone else's life
6448382 Exactly!
6448813 How has no one pointed that out yet? Thank you for spotting it.
6448876 I got a proof reader at about chapter 24 I believe. I know I messed up a lot with the capitalization and thing early on in this. Thanks for helping spot all of this for me by the way.
6449008 Are you binge reading this? sweet.
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Yeah, the jacket nothing doing
6449210 It's a little late to be fixing these things you know. I'm glad you're pointing it all out for future stories so I can improve, but I wish you could have come here sooner so I could of avoided all these problems.
6449306 Thank you for finally giving me an answer to that question! It's been bugging me for awhile.
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No problem.
Incidentally, if Equestria's legal system is anything like those of Earth, Insight has no legal power to do anything to Chance without the consent of his legal guardian. This would actually be Loving Care and Open Seas in this case, as they're his foster family. The only other alternative would be Arrow. Incidentally said guardian also has the right to specify the therapist, and if they don't like Insight for any reason, could choose another one.
Also, more than 3/4ths of this story is Adventure, rather than Slice of Life. You might get more readers if you advertise it as such.
6449330 I know. I originally planed it to be all most entirely slice of life, but then I have ideas. As you could probably tell while reading I would implement these ideas rather often since most of this story is basically free written. I appreciate your help in pointing out errors and answering that question that has bugged me for so long. Hopefully I can at least fix some of the story as it goes on. Thanks again.
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It's only illegal if the law says so or that you don't the license to use it. That and what the Sun goddess says is law apparently. I don't agree with the ethical use of a memory wipe spell, as there are too many ways that it can be abused, but you got to admit that it doesn't sound as horrible as what we have come up with for people with mental illnesses, like electroshock frontal lobotomy, chemical castration, and lets not forget get effects of prologue staying in a mental asylum. There a still a lot of controversy at how patients in these centers are treated, like cases of unsanctioned experiments on patients.
I'm not sure what I make of this story. I find it interesting but there are a few things that bother me. First was Celestia's slight tyranny with regards to Chance's actions to defend another. This is probably my criminal law class talking but there is a defense of others statute with as a subsidiary of self-defense. Thus, Chance's actions in defending Fire Catcher would be legitimate because Celestia was the person committing murder. However, apparently battering or assaulting a princess is a serious offense, thus tyrrany because the same law and legal consequences do not apply to them.
The second is the mind wipe. I'm very sensitive about the mind and any type of mind magic. What the psychologist has to claim in order to go through a mind wipe is that chance is such a danger to himself and/or society that we are justified in killing him. No matter how damaged he is, he still functions. Even if he has what people consider false beliefs, he is the sum of those experiences. Further, I find it hard to believe no one has noticed his amount of intelligence. Why has no one tested him in order to determine his grade to begin with? Similar stories have pointed out how the outcome would easily seem to corroborate his story more. How does a person know up to Algebra 2 or trigonometry (or even Calculus if they take AP calc in high school), as mentioned before about different political sciences such as governments, and other scientific knowledge (assuming similar physics and chemistry) while knowing nothing about history not send up flags?
We are the sum of our experiences and environment. He has a troubled past, flashbacks, and other troubles but he is still his own person who may do great things in SPITE of his past or maybe even because of it. To murder a child because of these false beliefs rings false. What happens if he clings to these beliefs as a defense mechanism because of his age? They seem to believe he is the age he appears as, mind wiping a youth seems much worse. Killing a child, seems like such a horrible thing.
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Saying I agree with every word you wrote there is a pretty huge understatement...
Kinda hoping Chance destroys the weird demonic creature, takes it's power and delets the Tyrant Celestia... With fire...