• Member Since 10th Jun, 2014
  • offline last seen 12 hours ago

Renodil


E

This is a one shot of the emotional turmoil that wracked me tonight as I lay in bed dreaming one of my many stories of a world I know can never truly be. As I lay in bed playing out a new story idea I suddenly felt like what's the point? My negative attitude intruded on my happy story as I felt like it was just a futile attempt to make myself happy in the world we're forced to live in. And the worst part is that when the story is over I feel equally as sad as the story made me happy while I was playing it out.

Chapters (2)
Comments ( 21 )

Ummmmmm 1-800-suicide-watch? (Based off description)

5880015 No I'm not feeling suicidal. I just wish I could live in a happier world is all. A world where it seems so easy to make friends.

5880153 good you scared me a Lil bit and yeah ik the world sucks ass but hey......its our world:moustache:

5880170 Don't remind me. :rainbowwild: Did you read the story?

5880178 naw I avoid human anything just read your description and was curious:twilightsmile:

like if u cry evertim

5880153
I know this struggles with making friends from myself. And this feeling you describe, this scolding oneself for 'living in a dream'.

But, you know what helped me: Stray off the ways. I searched for the nerdy folks. Started larping and P&P-roleplaying. And soon came to the conclusion, that you won't find the most popular people around, but by far the most interesting ones. And this is what matters in the end.

So search for the interesting people ;)

And to your question - the chapter-title - because its not hope which drives us, it was and ever will be dreams of what could and what should be. Hope is just the ingenious little brother of Dream.

5886055 It was the only title I could think of that seemed to fit the story.

5886864
It fits and the story has an interesting concept. :twilightsmile:

5886985 I don't know about having an interesting concept. I basically just wrote what I was feeling. To what concept are you referring to exactly?

5886055 Well I do play RPs on tumblr. Unfortunately I don't know any brony friends in real life so I can't do LARP. BTW what's P&P role playing?

5890340
Writing down this eerie nightmare / turmoil of feelings.

And I don't do MLP-Larp, but 'normal' (what a word for this) fantasy/renaissance/medieval/steampunk/mishmash-Larp.
I don't know how the LARP scene in your area is. At my home its quite developed so far.

P&P - I don't know if this is the correct actual term for it. Pen and Paper Roleplay. Catching a bunch of friends and playing together at ones place. Character-sheets, dice and such things.
D&D may be a known term, or maybe "Shadowrun". There are even some MLP-related games as I know (didn't have the opportunity to play). So maybe check for Ponyfinder (which uses D&D/Pathfinder rules) or there are a Pony-setting for Savage Worlds as far as I know.

This story came close to making me cry. So props to you; not many stories can achieve even giving me the 'want to' like you did.
Honestly, this very concept has crossed my mind many times. What is the point of playing make- believe when all it seems is a temporal escape from the pain we have. And yet, I still do it. Thank you for writing this amazing story.
~Melly~

6065025 Well, it had me crying as it happened to me, so I'm not surprised it almost made you cry. Still though thanks for the praise. I'm not much of a writer but after reading this review I'm going to try hard to write another story I've been thinking of.

6067528 Aw, you're welcome. I totally understand what it is to cry when you write or even when the very thing happens to you. I cry when I'm enacting out scenes that I plan on having in my stories, which sometimes are based on things that happened to me or my friends.
I'm glad that I sort of inspired you to write more. I do hope it goes well. I look forward to reading it.
~Melly~

6067680 Heck I openly sobbed one time when I was playing out a story in my head. Always found it amazing the way I can move myself to tears just from my own imagination.

I didn't cry nor feel sad. Saw no purpose in the dream... and I'm OK with this. You created it - yours to nurture or fade away.

No wrong answer.

6068069
Just thought you'd like to know I finally got a new story up.

Could you please tell me more about this Genie App?

Login or register to comment