Facing forward
Anon is alone in his dream. He has no idea where Luna is but for one reason or another she’s not here. He can only assume she's busy with something dream related. That’s fine by him, seeing as he has a lot on his mind at the moment. A lot happened yesterday and while he hopes that the Bonbon and Lyra issue is officially over, he gets the feeling that it’s only a matter of time until Bonbon contacts him. She’s never been one to give up without a fight.
Though for now it’s not something he should be concerned with. There’s an issue that disturbs him, thanks to one pony. Twilight. Just thinking about her sours his mood. That Cadance pony may just be the first sign of more trouble to come Anon’s way. Should he expect more ponies knocking on his door and telling him of all the woes Twilight is suffering? What if the next time the pony isn’t in the mood for talking? At least he knows that Blossom or one of her guards will be around to protect him, so that’s not something he’ll worry about.
Still, it’s a hinderance to his life. One that he can’t escape. The fact is, even if Twilight wasn’t here to study, he’d run into her eventually. She’s an element of harmony. She’s the student of Celestia. The chances of her and her friends coming to Canterlot for one reason or another is without question. So the idea that Anon could avoid her, especially with her practically living here now, was a farfetched notion to begin with. He always knew it would happen but, in a way, he hoped he had more time.
“I’m sure living with the burden of the past is a tiring venture.”
Cadance was right in that thought. What happened is always on Anon’s mind, weighing him down. Maybe telling Twilight how he feels could help him but it’s a risk. Anon brings up his hand to his mouth as he chews his fingernails in thought. Everything inside of him screams at the idea of being near that mare. Like she’s made of poison. Even though he knows he’s safe, he doesn’t feel safe. Anon lets out a grunt. These pointless thoughts are starting to irritate him.
“What troubles you?” A voice whispers into his ear.
Anon jumps slightly as he looks over his shoulder to see Luna standing there.
“Just some things.”
“Anything I can help with?” Luna wraps her wings around Anon.
“I don’t think anyone can help me with this.”
“Try me.”
Anon takes a moment to think this over. What will really come of telling Luna about what happened? With Cadance, his thoughts on Twilight. Anon shakes these questions away. He promised himself he’d trust the sisters more, so, he might as well tell Luna everything.
“Cadance,” Anon feels Luna’s wings tense up slightly but relax. “She spoke to me about Twilight.”
Luna sneers slightly at hearing that. So her niece is on that ponies side too? Not that she should be surprised. Celestia told her of the relationship she has with Twilight. Still, to think she would talk to Anon about it?
“What did she say?” Luna asks with annoyance in her tone.
“She told me that I was the only person who could help her. That she’s having problems or something.”
“And that bothers you?”
“No, it’s the last thing she told me. She said that I should understand how lonely Twilight feels.” Anon scoffs. “Why should I care how alone she is? Not that she’s actually alone. She still has Celestia and many other ponies too.”
“So why are you upset?” Luna asks.
“I just...” Anon lets out a sigh. “I will eventually run into her. It’s inevitable. I wish this could all be put behind me and never have to see her again.”
“However, she is still close to my sister.” Luna adds.
“Yeah... Even if she wasn’t here studying, eventually she’d come around for one reason or another.”
“And you’re afraid that what happened will continue to haunt you.” Luna says with a deep understanding of what Anon is feeling right now.
“Heh... Right on the nose.” Anon chuckles hollowly.
Luna pulls Anon closer as she holds him tight.
“I too live in the memories of my past.” She admits. “You know this.”
Anon nods. “I do.”
“All I can do is protect you from what hurts you but I have no solution to what ails you. At least, not a solution that is acceptable in this age.”
Anon remembers the whole ‘beheading’ thing. It would solve his problem but also create a lot more than he’s willing to put up with.
“I’m just confused is all. I don’t want to forgive Twilight, I don’t care how much she’s hurting but what happened still haunts me... Could getting that off my chest really help me move on?”
Luna nuzzles Anon slightly.
“My sister would encourage you but I fear for you far more than myself. I worry about all of the things that could happen if you were to do such a thing, thoughts I’m sure we share in kind. However, unlike my sister, I will do whatever it takes to keep you safe, even if it harms others.”
“You don’t need to go that far.”
“I don’t need to but it’s what I would do, for you.”
Hearing Luna say that makes Anon feel better. Knowing he has someone he can trust is still something that’s hard for him to come to terms with. Though Luna in many ways is a different story. Unlike Blossom or even Celestia, she’s gone above and beyond to become closer to him. The problem he has with Luna is that she’s willing to sacrifice things for him, while Celestia tries to find a balance. He cares too much for Luna to let her do anything that would hurt her life, even if it’s for his sake.
“Thank you. Let’s just hope it doesn’t come down to that. Still, It’s not like Cadance has suddenly made me realise this... It’s always been a thought, if only a whisper. Just, having someone confront me about it has brought it to the top of my thoughts. Like I said before, Twilight can rot for all I care but I’ve never told her to her face everything that happened to me, how it affected me and how I feel about her.”
“I’m sure the truth will cause more harm to her but in that pain you will lift a burden from your own shoulders.”
Anon nods his head. “Pretty much my thoughts on the matter.”
“I will not keep you from doing what you feel is right. I just ask that you be careful.”
Anon turns around and hugs Luna.
“It’s still a thought but for now I’ll play this close to the chest.”
“Very well. Would you care to learn more about dreamwalking?”
Anon smiles slightly. “Sure, I’ve got the time.”
“Very well, then follow me.”
Anon and Luna have spent what feels like hours walking around and practicing various dreamwalking techniques. It’s been some time since Anon has done such a thing so they did a small refresher before moving on to more advanced things. Such as grasping more information about the dream or even the pony dreaming before entering inside. Anon was able to identify a pony by name, a pony he never met.
It’s fun learning all this dream stuff but as Luna and him walk down the hall of doors, he feels his eyes drift over to one door in particular... Nightmare’s door. He stops in front of it, his mind wondering what she’s doing right now.
“You don’t have to worry about her, Anon.” Luna speaks with some venom. “She will not harm you.”
Anon doesn’t know what to say. He doesn’t believe Nightmare is that bad of a pony, at least from the short amount of time he’s been around her. However, telling Luna that will fall on deaf ears. Still, he doesn’t want to lie to Luna, he doesn’t want to lie to any of his friends. So, with a heavy heart, Anon decides to do something he may soon regret.
“Luna, can I tell you something, something that’ll upset you?” Anon asks never looking away from Nightmare’s door.
Something that’ll upset her? This is a very odd question for Anon to ask.
“What would that be?” She asks confused.
Well, it’s now or never.
“I’ve talked to Nightmare Moon when you weren’t around... On more than one occasion.”
Silence. That’s all Anon can hear as what he says sinks in. All of the fur on Luna’s body stands on edge as she realises what he just said.
“W-What?!” She shouts not in anger but concern. “Do you have any idea how dangerous she is?”
This is about as much as Anon expected. Still, he can’t stop now.
“I just get this weird feeling that she isn’t as evil as everyone says she is.” He lets out a sigh as he finds his own reasons are flawed. “When I first touched her door, I felt something that wasn’t evil and it’s been on my mind the entire time.”
Anon’s vision is turned from the door as Luna locks eyes with him. She’s dead serious at this moment.
“You don’t know her like I do. She is evil, looking for anything to help her escape the prison she’s been locked in. You are nothing more than a pawn in her game and I will not allow you to be played like I once was. So, please, do not enter her dream again.”
Anon can see the pleading look deep within Luna’s eyes. He... He can’t deny her this. The fact is, he knows nothing about Nightmare Moon and siding with her is just plain stupid. Luna’s probably right anyway. Maybe that feeling he had was just her trying to mess with his head? Still, why didn’t she try anything the other times he came to her?
He just lets out a sigh as he turns away from Luna.
“I guess you’re right. Just was odd is all.” Anon looks down at the floor in thought. “For being called a monster... She doesn’t act like one.”
With that said, Anon walks off back towards his own dream door. He doesn’t pause as he walks inside, leaving Luna to do her own thing. All Luna can do is stand there and reflect on what Anon has told her. She knows the whole monster thing is a sensitive subject for him and is perhaps an angle Nightmare Moon is trying to use to manipulate him. Luna shakes her head some as she walks up to Anon’s door and rests her hoof on it.
He’s confused but content with what they’ve spoke of. Usually Luna would be alright with letting Anon do something he believes is right but this isn’t something she’s willing to accept. She knows it would only be a matter of time until Nightmare tried to hurt Anon and she’d never forgive herself if she let that happen. Luna is just about to remove her hoof until she feels something resonating off of his door.
A trace of magic that wasn’t there before. Luna looks confused for a second until she recognises the magic on his door. It’s not as elegant as her own but instead more forceful. Without a doubt, this was a cleansing spell to remove a nightmare. This was not cast by her hoof and it makes no sense that Anon would clear his own nightmare from outside of his own realm. Luna hesitantly looks over to Nightmare Moon’s door
There is no other pony allowed into this hall of dreams and Luna would suspect no other pony than Nightmare Moon to have stepped hoof here. That isn’t what disturbs Luna. What disturbs her is the fact that Nightmare Moon, for reasons unknown, helped Anon with a nightmare of her own volition.
“This complicates things.” Luna whispers as she turns away and walks back to her throne room.
She has a lot to think about but the sun will rise soon and with that a new day will begin.
Celestia feels that internal clock of hers go off as she starts casting her spell to raise the sun. She lets out a small yawn as the start of another day is before her. However, there’s something different this time around. She smiles a bit as she opens her eyes to see Anon between her and Luna. His back is pressed firmly to Celestia’s chest as Luna is pressed against his.
Celestia rests her muzzle gently on the back of Anon’s head as she takes in his scent. Her eyes fall closed as she allows it to fill her lungs. His natural musk is calming for her. Knowing that he’s here, in her hooves, is enough to ease her worries. Though as her eyes open, she does feel a small twinge in her heart. A blush grows on her face as her mind starts to wander.
She would want nothing more than to tell Anon how much she loves him as he wakes but it’s still too early for her to make that move. She wants the moment to be perfect. Celestia then looks over to her sister. It’s one thing to convince Anon into a relationship but Celestia worries far more for her sister. She has no idea how Anon would react to the idea of a herd but, if she can convince him, Celestia is fine with sharing. In a weird way, it’d actually makes her feel better, knowing that not only herself but also her sister can be happy too.
Though this is all assuming that Anon even wants to go that far in their friendship... For all she knows, he’ll turn them down, just like that Lyra pony. Maybe he’s more interested in Luna? There’s too many things about this that terrifies Celestia in a way she’s never been before. It’s truly the discovery of the unknown for her and she knows that Anon is highly volatile.
Still, even with all her worries, she wants no other than him. She is brought from her thought as she notices Anon start to move slightly.
“Good morning.” Celestia whispers into his ear.
“Morning.” He replies in a grumbly voice.
“Is it morning already?” Luna asks.
“Yes it is.” Celestia states. “Time to get breakfast.”
“Five more minutes.” Luna states as she buries her head into her pillow.
“Mmm? Well I guess Anon and I will be bathing without you.”
Celestia notices Luna’s ears perk up towards her.
“Another bath?” Anon says still in bed. “We took one last night.”
“And it’s the start of a new day.” Celestia replies. “Come now, we won’t be long and the warm water will help you wake up.”
Anon yawns, he’s not going to get out of this.
“Whatever.”
He lugs himself out of bed and walks over to the bathroom door that leads to the bathhouse and walks inside before any of the sisters get out of bed. If he’s going to take a bath, he’s getting in before they do. Celestia watches Anon enter into the bathhouse and looks down to her sister.
“So?”
Luna lets out a grunt. “Using Anon’s body as leverage isn’t fair play.”
“Seems fair to me.”
Luna kicks off her covers and gets to her hooves.
“Well, guess it’s time to start the day.”
“My thoughts exactly.”
With that straightened out. Both Luna and Celestia enter the bathhouse after Anon.
Finally, Anon can have something to eat. He hasn’t noticed it until now but he hasn’t had anything to eat in awhile. He didn’t get anything to eat at the party last night or the “party” Lyra had. He feels fatigued and his stomach hurts. His hands are shaking slightly as he tries to lift his fork to his mouth. Yeah, definitely starving at this point. He’s lucky that neither of the sisters have noticed yet.
His meal is a simple one but he feels content with how things are now. It’s as if nothing has changed. However, that line of thought comes to an end as the door to the dining halls opens. Standing there is Twilight and beside her Spike. Anon’s hands are shaking immensely as he sets his fork down. His eyes are locked onto her as his heart starts to race. Twilight’s eyes meet his, there’s a good level of surprise but she quickly turns away from him.
“Um... Actually, Spike. How about we go out for breakfast?”
“What are you talking about?” He asks confused. “We’re already here.” He then notices who’s at the table. “Whoa! Is that Anon?”
Twilight can’t pull Spike away. He’ll question why. So, Twilight does the only thing that comes to mind. She puts on a fake smile for Spike.
“I guess I should’ve made that suggestion before we got here.” Twilight giggles hollowly. “It would be rude to leave now that everypony knows we’re here.”
Both sisters are looking at Twilight. They forgot she was even here, seeing as being close to Anon has clouded some of their thoughts. Now their gaze moves over to Anon as he keeps his sights on Twilight. Anon can’t look away from Twilight in this moment. It happened so quickly but to Anon it was as if time slowed for him. At first she was genuinely surprised, then her feelings mixed. Pain, regret, sorrow. She didn’t want to be here but then Spike spoke.
That’s when it happened. All of those emotions, gone. A response Anon recognises all too well. That plastic smile, her hollow laugh. Even the way she holds herself is reminiscent to a marionette doll, as if she’s being strung along by an unseen force. To anyone else, she’d look normal but to Anon he can see far more and it’s disturbing. She’s now trotting towards the table and every step he can see how she flinches, like her body is fighting her. Spike is right behind her, oblivious and even the sisters appear to be none the wiser.
Twilight has her eyes on Anon the entire time. Before, everything he did felt like a mystery to her but now she can actually see something deeper. Each step she takes causes him to flinch away, his grasp on the table turning his knuckles white as he fights to keep himself from moving. His face blank but his eyes showing far more emotion than she’s ever realised.
It hurts so much. Each step fills her body with pain. She would cry in agony if it weren’t for Spike standing beside her. This is the closest she’s been to Anon since what happened in Ponyville and it’s unbearable. This again, reminds Twilight what Anon must’ve felt like during his time in Ponyville. In a weird way, feeling this pain makes Twilight feel better. She takes her seat at the farthest end of the table, away from Anon.
The entire room is filled with silence. Not a single word being said. Celestia can see that Anon is fighting to stay in his seat and his gaze hasn’t once turned away from Twilight. She decides to try and keep everything civil.
“Um... Good morning, Twilight. Spike.”
“Morning!” Spike says with glee.
“Good morning, Princess.” Twilight speaks calmly but decides to not look Anons way.
Luna rests her wing around Anon in an attempt to calm him. It doesn’t help, he’s completely focused on Twilight right now. Spike continues to look oblivious to everything that’s going on as he turns to a waiter.
“I’ll have a bowl of amethyst, please.”
“Just some oats for me.” Twilight adds.
Twilight notices the look Luna is giving her. It’s enough to run a shiver up her spine. Was this another aspect Anon dealt with? When the entire town thought he was doing awful things... Twilight winces on the inside. He had an entire town hating him, even though he did nothing wrong.
“Where have you been, Anon?” Spike asks. “I only seen you that one time when Twilight and I were heading to her parents house.”
Twilight perks up a bit hearing this... Wait, when was Anon there? Spike was with her the entire time and she doesn’t recall seeing him. Then she remembers, when she was reading that book and the scent. So that was Anon? Twilight looks over at Anon and notices his eyes are still locked on her. The look he’s giving her, it’s as if she’s a dangerous animal that will attack if he were to look away.
“Had to help with my store.” Anon answers calmly. “You know the candy shop?”
Spike taps a claw to his chin. “I’ve hear ponies talk about it but I haven’t been there.”
“Well, everything’s in order. I suggest you try it sometime.”
“That sounds pretty good. Right, Twilight?”
Twilight looks down at Spike with a smile. “Y-Yeah... How about we visit after eating?”
“Awesome!” Spike says as the waiter sets down their meal.
Anon can’t keep doing this... He hasn’t eaten and if he misses this meal then who knows how that’ll affect him? Everything about this situation is screaming at him to leave but as long as Twilight stays on her side of the table, he’ll keep acting as if nothing is wrong. He grabs his fork, his hands shaking uncontrollably but he ignores that as he starts eating, still maintaining eye contact with Twilight.
Twilight looks away from him as she eats her meal. It seems that Anon will tolerate her for the moment. She will admit that she feels exhausted having to keep up this facade. Yet Anon looks as if this is normal for him... Then again, his hands are shaking as he eats. Twilight can’t hold back the physical wince she does, it’s hard for her to pretend like this. Anon notices that slip of her mask. He doesn’t think too much on it as he tries to finish his meal as fast as possible but not fast enough to draw attention.
“So, Anon.” Celestia decides to try and draw his attention. “I was wondering if you would be interested in helping me today?”
“Sure.”
Blunt, cold and serious. Celestia can tell that Anon doesn’t like the fact that Twilight is here right now but she can’t tell her to leave either. There’s much for her to learn before she can go back to Ponyville.
“There’s day court.” Celestia lists feeling uncomfortable with the unbreakable gaze Anon has on Twilight. “Then after that I need to head out into Canterlot to check on a few events coming up.” She looks over to her sister for help but her sister is looking at Twilight as well. “The last thing is a meeting with a few leaders that want to negotiate a few things. You don’t need to be there for all of that but it’s my schedule for the day.”
“I’ve got nothing better to do.” He answers as he pushes his empty plate away. “I’ll be waiting in my room when you’re ready.”
He doesn’t say anything else as he gets up from his seat, gives Twilight a wide berth as he walks around and leaves the dining hall. Once again everyone falls silent.
“Y-You seem pretty busy.” Twilight remarks. “I guess there’s no training for me today?”
Celestia lets out a sigh. “Yeah... For now, you’ll spend some time studying with Spike.”
“Perhaps I can be of assistance.” Luna comes in. “I have no plans and if you’re taking Anon with you then I might as well fill my time with something.”
Celestia can tell that her sister doesn’t like Twilight. That much is clear but she also has no reason to deny her request either. It’s true that until the meeting, Luna won’t have much to do.
“I guess that’s fine.” Celestia clears her throat. “My sister will be helping you today.”
Twilight shrinks some in her seat.
“O-Ok...”
Celestia look to her own empty plate, happy to not have to deal with this awkward situation anymore.
“I better go help Anon get dressed. We need to look our finest today.” Celestia gets up from her seat. “I’ll see you all later.” Celestia stops and pats Spike on the head before she passes. “Bye.”
Once Celestia is gone the table goes silent. Now there’s only Twilight, Spike and Luna. Twilight looks down to her bowl, most of it still full. Spike’s is completely empty.
“Um... How about we head over to that candy shop Anon was talking about?” Twilight urges Spike.
“Don’t you want to finish your meal first?”
“Yes, Twilight. I’m sure you’ll be needing all the energy you can get.” Luna remarks.
“I-I’m fine.” Twilight gets out of her seat. “I had a big meal last night and I don’t feel very hungry.”
Twilight pulls Spike out of his seat and places him onto her back. She quickly trots to the dining room door but stops when she hears Luna speak.
“I want you back here by lunch for your training.” Luna says with authority. “Don’t be late.”
Luna watches as Twilight runs out of the dining hall. Anon doesn’t have to worry about that mare, Luna will make sure of it.
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Luna
Wat r u doin
Luna
Stahp
I like the progress.
fate loves fucking with people, and i love reading about it!
It was a surprise to see everything has changed.
Now I am more anxious of what will happen next.
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Last phrase is really ominous, when Luna is one saying it.
Man Luna has no loyalties to the ones who freed her from the nightmare .... She's a hypocritical b**ch ........ how many were hurt during her possession.... or killed ..... yah she made a mistake and let the nightmare in but she can't say she was completely not at fault. It's also her sisters mistake on how twilight was raised and I don't see her blaming celestia. Twilight wasn't raised as a foal should be raised she was raised to be a weapon to stop nightmare moon by celestia. Hell she even got manipulated into making friends with the other element bearers. So excuse me if she has the social maturity of a lemon. Maybe if she attended regular school where we get alot of social development and had her made friends then she would have known how to deal with others instead all she was taught were spells and arcane knowledge. Thanks to sunset shimmer we know She's an inept teacher who doesn't pay enough attention to her students and that she was only after results to save her sister. She's mentally abusing twilight to the point where we might eventually get to see nightmare twilight. Then anons gonna know true despair along with the princesses when corrupted magic/loyalty/generosity come for them and against all of them cause you know twilights gonna empower them both that the princesses wont stand a chance. Muhahahahaha.
im guessing whatever luna does she will regret it when Twilight attempts suicide (let's face it we all know hats where this is going.)
The dynamic Nightmare, Anon, and Luna have is interesting to me as while I'm certain Luna/Nightmare dispise eachother, Anon really does get to see Nightmare in a way Luna doesn't and it generates some uncertainty of if Luna's experience with her is actually the whole of Nightmare's character in this story.
Also I can't help but wonder if any form of corruption would even work on Anon from Nightmare even if she tried simply due to different psychological makeups of equines and humans.
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I have a sneaking suspicion that maybe, (bear with me here it's a little far fetched,) Luna might go a bit too far with whatever she's gonna do with Twilight.
Maybe.
Truthfully, while the change surprised me, it does make some sense. The whole forgiveness thing has been playing the main theme and the romance has been developing in the background. That said, my rooooommmmmance!!!!
Then the fire nation attacked!
Hymn dislikes does the truth hurt .... that Luna in this story anyway is a sadistic b**ch .... luna still best princess to me show wise love you lulu... her insecurities fears and anger created the nightmare she fell to then she has the balls to torture it .... hymn my foal turned into a jerk because how i raised it so lets beat the kid ....good thing anons there to try to befriend it. I still hope twilight doesn't try to kill herself but your right the writings on the wall. Thats when her dark half will probably strike when she's swinging or falling. Also spitfires a inept captain anyway so her not allowing RD to be a wonderbolt is probably due to her fear of being outshined then RDs ignorance to anons non resistance to lightning.... don't get me wrong RD needed a wake up call about her attitude but never being allowed to be a wonderbolt is to harsh. Hymn... is it canon or fanbase that RD never finished flightschool to stay with fluttershy in ponyvile. Her punishment coulda been to finish flightschool a full grown mare attending foal classes would definitely be humbling. Instead now they got a Pegasus with nothing left to lose and a extreme hate of anon when it's spitfire and the princesses she should hate. Plus now if discord acts up she'll tell them to piss off. Rarity a manipulative bi**h nuff said. lol . What she did to anon coulda got him enslaved or killed. Unlike RDs ignorance I can't defend her actions. I mean if she was willing to display her friends awful gala dresses she'd be more concerned over him then how his clothes would make her buisness soar. But I know we needed a way to hate her but that just made me go ... huh.... ok .. But that's just how the story goes. Who could stay mad at pinkie ^^ and I hope they neutered angel that little fkr... what happened between him and fluttershy was angels fault. AJ attacking anon was out of character but again we needed a reason to hate her but she's one of the girls I could see getting back in anons good books if she tries.
Excited for more.
I'm getting a suicide attempt vibe of Twilight in the near future. Perhaps that'll make sure Anon wakes up and relises he's become even worse then here.
Tragic stories are better than romances
Look I love Luna, but I’m bout ready to smack the color out her coat if she does what I think she’s going to do
"Oh sh!t" is all I could think of at the end of the chapter. Twilight is having these little epiphanies. While they are eye opening and depressing to her I doubt she'll try to kill herself. I'm glad to see that Anon is learning to trust the sisters. I look forward to the next update. Thanks.
Am I the only one that really wants to see how things in Ponyville have been since “the trial”? Like, I wanna see how everypony has absorbed what happened when the Princesses came to town; is there guilt for how they treated Anon? Disgust at how the Elements acted, how they acted?
And what about the rest of the Mane Six? Have they fully let it sink in that they made the entire town turn against Anon because of their actions? That they made him out to be the bad guy, even though he hadn’t done anything to earn that title and it was all them?
I just really want a follow-up to how things are in Ponyville.....
Heh, and neither does a sociopath seem dangerous until they ask to borrow the butterknife for their bread-- then ram it through your eye, hitting the knife's butt until it knocks against the back of your skull from within. Is Nightmare really using him to escape her prison? Maybe. Or maybe she's desperate for company that doesn't have preconceived notions of her evilness. Not like anyone can just read her mind to find out her true motives.
I'm not terribly worried Luna is going to traumatize Twilight. Cold logic says at the end of the day, Twilight is still more important to Equestria than this random human. Luna knows this. Oh, I wouldn't be surprised if she tried acting like a cat, hackles raised with a hiss and a token swipe of claws, as if Twilight was going to try and steal her man. It is rather curious that Luna hasn't kept tabs on Twilight's dreams however. If anyone can help clear this bad blood between Twilight and Anon, it'd be her. Besides teaching Anon advanced dreamwalking techniques, could she not also be allowing Anon to covertly sneak a peek or two at Twilight's dreams? Dreams which are probably more dark than ever as she punishes herself day after day. Since Anon is apparently determined to not allow this enmity to die between them, he could at least use it as an opportunity to condition himself so he's not a quivering wreck in Twilight's mere presence.
After all; Fear is the mind-killer
I'm interested to see where the next chapter is going. Though it seems Luna is slightly desiring to push Twilight into suicidal thinking,
and Anon? Except for a few curt words and threatening to break the table with his fingers, he doesn't seem to really care that she's dead inside. I want to see what happens next...
*grinds teeth* this is making me want to stab luna so much even if she's my favor princess
grrrrraaagh i feel the roles of luna and nightmare are starting to reverse if this continues where looking at a pony with blood on there hooves
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As much as I hate to admit it, this portrayal of Anon and Luna isn't as bad but certainly close enough to the other story "Lunar Guardsman". In that fic, NightmareMoon is nowhere to be found, but Luna and the human male are extremely volatile, seeking the destruction of the Elements. Not the ponies themselves, but the jewels, because Luna's terrified of them. Not only that, both she and the human are plotting to take over Equestria from Celestia, not in Nighmtmare's version, but their own, as they see it as a only good solution. This feels too close to that, though they are way to focused on breaking Twilight here...
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And? Why should Anon care? Twilight fucked up in every sense of the word on almost every spectrum and she’s paying the price for it; I, honestly, am a little ticked at how she’s acting. She’s obviously remorseful, she seriously regrets what she did and I can respect her for that. However! Instead of going “You know what, I messed up in a horribly disgusting way and I know I can never be forgiven, I will go on with grace” and just move on, accepting this....she’s throwing herself a pity party.
If she really wants to show she’s learned anything, Twilight has to respect Anon’s choice of never wanting to see or speak to her again and go on with her life.
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You're sounding way too close to a certain mindset. A mindset that sees a soul so far gone with regret, and not realizing the big picture. More in line with seeing someone extremely depressed, wanting to do anything to be forgiven, and you simply shrug and will smile if she actually goes through with thoughts of suicide. "Pity-party?" Actually read deeper into the context than just see her saddened and brush it off as she needs even more hatred and anger heaped on her. What she did was criminal, yes, she was punished,
and while it's agreed it was a bit lenient, this is Twilight Sparkle we're talking about here. She'll take the smallest thing, and expound on it to the very highest level. I wouldn't be surprised if she thought that her actions deserved her own horn sliced off, a horn with bundle and bundles of nerves as sensitive as the shell of our ear. And your reaction is what: "She's having a pity party, ho-hum."
This isn't good. Luna is going to do something that everyone will regret isn't she?
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Maybe. We'll see how the author plays this out...Hopefully, ponies will possibly pull Twilight back from the edge before she's either shoved over, or jumps herself
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I like you, always nice to see some comments on here that are sympathetic towards Twilight, this chapter has probably produced the most pro-Twilight comments I've personally seen yet.
But yes I agree with you, she's clearly mentally and emotionally distraught by the knowledge of what she's done and how it seems to be an unforgivable offence. And, she's usually reigned in and supported by her friends, who obviously aren't in too much contact with her as she's in Canterlot, so she's just spiralling down towards self-destruction without many supportive influences besides Celestia and Cadence.
Even though she's hurting deeply, I think it's unfair to call it a pity party, because she's obviously trying to put a brave face on around the others, especially Spike, which still shows a degree of selflessness, as opposed to wallowing in pity and letting everybody know about it.
Once again, I, as a paragon of virtue and decent morality on fimfiction.net, state that I support Anon forgiving Twilight.
Thank you.
Story's changed, I see. No more romance with Celestia. That's moderately depressing.
How many chapters will it take for Twilight and Anon to kiss and make up?
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Yea
With the first edition this was anon doing his silly little spice thing but I guess with the name change it’s going to be focusing more on reparaations of relationships as forgiving
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I honestly hope never. In anons position I would have shanked twilight earlier on just for half the stuff she did
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Telepathy.
Not that there couldn't be a magic version, that's just the name for you
Luna....... Why do u do dis?
So with a new title, picture, and direction I'm wondering what else will be seeing. Since the story is now centered on forgiveness instead of love, I wonder if Twilight won't be the only one showing up now? While she was the main one for Anon's misery, she wasn't the only one. And since Anon has already forgiven Pinkie Pie and Fluttershy, there are still three ponies that haven't been accounted for. When will we find out about what's going on on their end and when will they interact with Anon?
…Um… Is this some kind of sick joke? I had this series in Read Later list, but now I'm not sure if I trust it. Who can guarantee it won't be retroactively turned into "How many genocides have you made today?!" or something?..
Yes......
Dude i would give you some money but being a student i can't..
But i will eventually...
Otherwise this FIC is great.
Did you change it from 'how many lovers?'
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Everything has been detailed on my blog post here.
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Seeing as you haven't even read my story, you have no real right to say anything about its name change. A lot can happen in almost 100k words and as stated above. There's a blog post detailing the change. If you actually read the story and were on the current chapter, you would've seen the A/N at the top of the page.
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I can assure you that Twilight is the only focus.
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The story will end in about 4 chapters.
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I've played with the idea but currently there are no plans for something like that. Maybe some day.
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Eh, suicide is too... Predictable.
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good riddance.
Twilight and anon just need to forgive each other and get on with their lives living in constant hell isn't good for either of them no matter what they did
Man, keep up the awesomeness! Wonder what moon cheeks has in store?
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I won't give a monkey's left nut if i see someone that's made my life miserable begging for a few nickles in the streets,desperate to eat.I don't enjoy it,i just don't care.
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i don't know what world you live in..... but facts are that Twilight kidnapped him, held him captive, and submitted him to both mental and bodily torture.... just because she wanted to know more... that is something that can not be forgiven, no matter how sorry she feels
Nightmare is gonna save Twilight from Luna, isn't she?
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Then I assume you're in the same boat as certain others? She's not only feeling sorry, but is not even bothering to try and make amends. Instead, she's pulling Lesson Zero in the worst possible way. That being, that even if Anon did the exact same thing as she did to him, she'd still consider it light punishment, and find ways to punish herself even more darkly. And yet a few of you sit there all happy with how horrible she feels, and basically are egging her to jump to her death. Of her own volition.
The way I'm seeing the last chapter go is this: Anon has fear and PTSD around Twilight. Understandable. Not one of us would ever be any different for what she put him through if she did it to us. Was her punishment justified? Yes. Was it too light? Possibly. But take in other key factors that are added in, not just how bad she was. Basically, Twilight's own parents all but disowned her, the first people she loved and tried to proof herself a good filly to. Her brother himself tore himself up giving her her punishment.
And let's not forget what I said before; that this is Twilight we're talking about. She'll see a problem that needs fixing, and will go to absolutely ANY length to do so, so it is not hard to guess that self mutilation, or suicide is present in her mind in order to gain forgiveness.
And yet I'm disappointed in a few commentators here. They see a girl/mare on the brink of doing something drastic and desperate to search for forgiveness, and all they have to say is "good riddance". Where the buck is anyone's heart at this point in the story? Because all I'm seeing except for me and a few others, are hearts of obsidian stone.
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Mental conditions are always a hard thing to properly react to, due to the wide variance of context required. Most people tend to lean towards a 'white and black' outlook instead of seeing all the grey, to put it more simply.
Seeing someone steal a loaf of bread= They're a bad guy. 'Stealing is bad.'
Knowing that person is a single mother who is desperately trying to make ends meet and only stole that loaf of bread because her children were starving= She's a saint, people should feel ashamed for ever thinking bad of her. 'Stealing is okay if you have the justification.'
Same start as the last line= She shouldn't have kept her children in the first place if she wasn't able to provide for them. She's a horrible person for putting children in this sort of position to start with. 'Stealing is always bad, regardless of the contextual justification.'
Moving on from the mired mess of human mentality, we also have to keep in mind that these are different societies that Anon and Twilight come from. Both with their different social structures, and underlying mentality there of. No one from Equestria expects Anon to act how he does, and no one from our world would look at Twilight and immediately think 'suffering victim that NEEDS help'. Just given the information at face value most people are going to take on a 'hardass' persona, saying she should 'just move on and stop moping like a baby'.
It should be blatantly obvious why this type of response doesn't work. You can't just pick up someone suffering from depression and shake them by the collar, telling them to 'stop being sad'. Or just to 'get better already'. This type of input doesn't help the person and usually will only serve to convince them that they're all that more alone than they already were. Its hard to judge any kind of correct response for this kind of situation, even for trained professionals of the mental field. For regular shmoes?
We just stand and stare uncomprehendingly as the broken husks pass by. Questioning why, but never truly hearing the answers.
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Best answer I've heard all week!
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i never said that now did i? just because i said that what she has done is something that can't be forgiven, doesn't mean that i don't feel bad for her as well, believe me i do.... but for Anon to forgive what she has done to him, and then perhaps start to becoming her friend....
would you be able to just forgive and befriend someone who did all those things to you?