Chapter 29
Jax slowly woke up to reality. Another nightmare… not so bad this time though. He focused on his surroundings, his eyes still closed.
He was nice and warm under Luna’s wing, his arms wrapped around her, but unlike other mornings recently, his lower half had decided it wanted some space, and was in fact not pressed against her. Thank God. She couldn’t feel what was going on down there this morning.
He opened his eyes, expecting to see Luna’s relieved face, and was almost blinded because her mane was brighter than usual.
“Damn Luna, you want to blind everybody in town? Your beauty should suffice for that.” He opened his eyes slowly, looking at her between his fingers.
She looked at her mane with a thoughtful look. “I was trying to make it shine as brightly as your smile… I do not think I am there yet though.” She smiled teasingly at him and he felt heat on his face, but he wasn’t out yet.
“I would know if I smiled that brightly by everybody covering their eyes. Seriously though, your mane is beautiful as it is, I don’t think you need replace your stars with suns.”
She looked at her mane again. He was over-exaggerating, of course, it didn’t even shine brightly enough to blind as much as forcing people to squint... except if they just opened their eyes from a nights rest. She adjusted the brightness with a thoughtful frown, muttering “Maybe I went a little overboard.”
“There you go.” He smiled at her.
“AH! Too bright! Must take cover!” She exclaimed, covering her eyes with her hooves, rolling out of the bed, straight down into her regalia.
It sounded painful but he couldn’t help but laugh at her childish behavior. This was an immortal alicorn acting like his smile had blinded her. It wasn’t the first time she acted immaturely, and he had to admit that it was one of the many things he loved about her.
“Aha!” She emerged from the side of the bed with sunglasses on. “Thine smile hath no more pow-“
The rest of the sentence was lost as he collided with her. Normally he wouldn’t launch himself at ponies, but he knew Luna could take it. He landed on top of her, laughing.
“Where did you get the sunglasses from? Was this all some crazy scheme to have an excuse to use them?”
“It may or may not have been.” She answered innocently. “I received them from Pinkie at my ‘Welcome to Ponyville’ party.”
“What? I didn’t see that.”
“You were busy conversing with Lyra.”
“Alright… Well, they may protect you from my smile, but they won’t protect you from… these!” He wiggled his finger in front of her.
“Your fingers? What are you going to-“ She never got any further as he started tickling her sides. She gave a loud squeal and tried to jump away, but she was trapped underneath him, at his mercy.
That, of course, didn’t last very long, as Jax learned some things. Luna was stronger than him, Luna was more nimble than him, and even though her hooves were terrible tickling tools, she had feathery wings and he didn’t wear a shirt. The result? He was quickly pinned down underneath her, laughing hysterically as she used her wings to tickle him.
“No, Lunahaha… Please, I’m dyhahaing! I- I- I surrender!”
She stopped and looked at him seriously, sunglasses still in place. “Say the words.”
“What worhahaha.” She started tickling him again. “Uncle?! Hahah Luna is better than Jax! Hahah Luna is the besthaha princess?!” The tickling continued. “Please Luna, jushaha- I only have three pair of pants!”
“That is infinitely more pairs than me.” She just answered, amusement leaking out of her voice.
“Haha God I’m gonna peeeeee.”
“They can be washed.” She countered.
“You’re my best friend!” He desperately, though truthfully, tried. It worked, she stopped tickling him, a surprised look on her face.
“T-truly?” He didn’t think those were the words she was counting on, but he jumped at the opportunity to make her stop.
“Yes! God yes.” He eagerly answered.
“Thou art…” She took off her sunglasses, and a warm smile spread on her muzzle. “You are my best friend as well.” The warmth in her voice made him feel all warm and fuzzy inside. She lowered herself down in an attempt to give him a hug, with her head on his shoulder. He wouldn’t have minded her weight, since she didn’t weigh as much as one would think, except he had a growing problem in his pants. On one hand, he didn’t want to ruin the moment… on the other, he was fairly certain the moment would be ruined when she felt his erection.
“Luna? I was serious about needing to pee.” He tried
“Mmm” She just responded. She was probably too comfortable to move. Ah… well, he tried. Seemed that they couldn’t really start the day without Luna feeling his erection.
Suddenly, her eyes flew open. She didn’t rush off of him, but she got up fairly quickly, with a subtle blush.
He got up and went towards the toilet.
“… It has been happening more and more recently, has it not?” She said as she followed, ever mindful of his need for her to be near.
“… Yes.” He answered, almost tripping at the comment. He did not like where the conversation was going. Still, it shouldn’t be a surprise. How long had they both just ignored it? Too long. Maybe not long enough. He would prefer if they never had the talk.
“Is it because you cannot… uhm…”
“I can’t masturbate with you there, yeah. I get easily excited now.” He decided to help her out a bit. His face was burning too much for comfort.
He made it to the toilet, with Luna just inside the door, back turned towards him. “Oh. Uhm…” He could almost hear her thinking what to do or say.
While they were on the subject though… “Yeah, it’s also the reason I’ve been… looking at… your flank area.” Might as well get it out there. It was hard for him to say the words out loud though.
He would get everything wet if he tried to pee like this. He sighed. He would have to wait.
“Well…” He could hear her embarrassment. He could imagine her looking down at the ground, with a giant blush on her face. Of course his own face wasn’t fairing much better. At least they weren’t looking at each other. “… It is… a completely natural… act.” He could hear her taking a deep breath. “It should not be a problem if I have my back turned with earplugs in and I use the spell for the smell.” She said in one go. He took a couple of seconds to comprehend it.
“Oh. Well, it’s a good suggestion Luna, and honestly I appreciate that you’re willing to go beyond your comfort zone for me, but I would still know you were there. Also, honestly, I think this whole situation is beyond either of our comfort zones, and I don’t want to make it worse. Slow Healing said that since I’ve let go of you, it shouldn’t be long till I can be completely without you. I think I can wait for that… if you’ll excuse the occasions where I check out your butt.”
He looked back at her with a smile to indicate that he was kidding, and saw her looking at her flank before looking at him.
“Are you going to pee, or are you just going to stand there?” She asked with a slight blush, closing the subject. He was entirely okay with that.
“I’m gonna stand here until I pee” He said as he winked at her.
***
Luna was playing chess with Jax. She was winning again, but she didn’t care about that. She was looking at the human in front of her, running a hand through his brown mane, looking disgruntled. She smiled warmly at the mess of a mane he left behind. He looked up and gave her a defiant look.
“You think you’ll win just because you got my queen? Well, I bet you didn’t see this coming!” He said, using dramatic gestures to castle his king. Her smile broadened at his desperate attempt to draw out the match. She didn’t mind at all, in fact she was happy that they would be spending some more time alone.
She had been having a feeling lately. She could not even remember when she had noticed it. It was a warm feeling, which started from the inside, spreading out until it encompassed all of her, making her feel… Accepted. Safe. A bit giddy, and more than a little happy. Like everything would be all right, her worries melted away by his embrace. As feelings went, this was one of the best she had felt.
Luna was certain now. She was deeply in love with Jax. Ever since that night where she visited him in his dreams two weeks ago, she had felt like she wanted more. She wanted that kiss, the one she had been too cowardly to take. She wanted him by her side, not because they were forced together, but because they wanted to be together.
She reached over, moving her queen into position. “I did indeed not, my dear friend. I do however fear that it will not be enough.”
It made her a little afraid. She was in love. She had never been in love before. She had so many questions. How could she know if he felt the same way? Should she confess? What if she did and he did not want to be with her? Would they keep being friends, or would everything crumble?
She hated that those questions were souring the feeling. She hated that she was unable to admit her feelings to him. He had admitted to checking out her flank! That must mean something. Right?
“Aha! I think you overlooked something there… your queen is mine!” Jax triumphantly said as he fell right into her trap. She was far enough ahead that her queen was worth the sacrifice for his bishop. She would have his rook the next round as well.
“Aww man… Why are you so good at this game?” He said with a smile. The reason she kept agreeing to these matches was that he never angered at his defeat. Sometimes he did not want to play, and that was fine with her, but when he did he took it all with a smile.
“I am an ancient alicorn, dear Jax. My wisdom leads me to victory.” She said jokingly, taking up a posh voice and pose.
He half snorted, half giggled. “Is this the same alicorn that tried to blind the town with her mane?”
“Hush dear, you simply do not understand the value of strategic… strategizing.” She continued with the posh accent of the Canterlot Elite.
Jax was laughing, the sound filling her with glee. She loved making him happy. She could not help but to start laughing alongside him.
When they calmed down, she went over and embraced him with both her wings. She knew he would not mind, that he would even welcome her with open hooves.
It felt so good to be in his presence. She did not want to ever let go of him.
Sooner or later though, she would have to. She had to go back to Canterlot. She was a princess, she had responsibilities… even if she had thrown all of them over to Celestia just to come here.
She felt guilty about that.
Could he come with her? Did he want to come with her? He did have friends here now… but she was his best friend, he had told her so himself. Could she ask him to leave behind every relationship he had built up here to… what? Wait with her in an empty night-court? Do some paperwork regarding some new law with her? What did she hope to accomplish by dragging him along?
She did not want to feel lonely again. That was why she was considering it.
“Jax?”
“Yeah?” Sounded the happy reply from under her wings.
“Are you…” She thought about how to formulate the question. “Are you staying in Ponyville?” She ended lamely. That was not what she wanted to ask.
“I don’t know where else I would go. Even if there was a place I wanted to go, there is something I need to do here first. Why do you ask?”
“Oh.” She could not quite hide the disappointment from her voice. “I am just wondering about your plans, that is all.” She lied.
“My plans?” He rearranged himself so he could look up at her from between her wings. “Well, I need to repay all the kindness I’ve been shown first. Fluttershy saved my life, what can I do to repay her? I don’t know. That’s why I’ve kinda just been wandering around. Of course there’s also other ponies I want to show my appreciation for, that I’m not quite sure what to do about.” He looked at her thoughtfully. “I’ll figure something out.” He ended with a smile, before burying himself in her neck.
Luna clenched her jaw. He would not be able to go with her. He would stay in Ponyville until he felt like his debt was paid. She took a deep breath.
It would be fine. She would ask him to come with her when he was ready. She could wait. She had all of eternity.
***
Hours after Luna was done beating him in chess, Jax was walking behind her down the crystal halls of the castle.
“Can we discuss this, Luna?” Jax tried again, trying to match her pace.
He and Luna got along well most of the time, but sometimes the wrong words are uttered.
“I am not Nightmare Moon! I am not!” She shouted back, increasing her speed to a fast walk, which for Jax was a slow run. They were walking past guards, maids and butlers like they weren’t there.
“Of course not, and I didn’t say you were! I just said it was a cool villain name. And it is! A mare of the night that controls the moon. Nightmare Moon. It’s a good pun.”
He had to admit he wasn’t being very nice. Truthful, but not nice. It was clear that Luna was extremely affected by everything Nightmare Moon related, yet he didn’t even apologize.
She didn’t even answer him. So he just walked/ran behind her.
Luna must have decided that she needed a walk through town, because that was where they went. Past houses that were actually stores, and stalls that had their wares on view. It would seem that Rarity had successfully worked her magic, because a large part of the ponies they met greeted them cheerfully, fear completely gone.
Of course there were still ponies that gave them a wide berth, especially him, but all in all, the town seemed to have calmed down.
Luna looked over at Carousel Boutique, maybe having the same thought, or maybe considering going in for some delicious tea. She moved on with an annoyed look. Jax liked to imagine she was thinking about Rarity’s overdramatic reaction to hearing him and Luna, for once, weren’t on talking terms.
She moved past Sugarcube Corner as well, probably not in the mood for Pinkie. They ventured on towards Whitetail Woods.
Jax didn’t really mind where she went. He enjoyed the warm sun on his skin, the smiling ponies that weren’t afraid of them, the sounds of the town.
A vendor yelled out about the low prices of quality berries, while another bragged about his party supplies. There really wasn’t any rhyme or reason to where the vendors were placed, as far as he could tell. He liked it nonetheless.
Of course he didn’t have any money to pay for anything, so he just enjoyed the sight of bundles of flowers, and the smell of fresh fruit. Luna normally paid for their stuff, given his circumstances, but he doubted she was in the mood at the moment. Still, he enjoyed the peaceful atmosphere.
He let his mind wander back to his old life. Anything needed could be found on the internet, whether it was a top-notch blending machine, or the dirtiest of porn... He missed the internet.
He couldn’t help but think of his old friends. His new friends were good, great even, but sometimes his mind would return to his first friends. His heart would ache when it happened, but the feeling was numbed down, healed over by wonderful ponies, but still there. Always there.
Max and Lizza. He missed them. He hoped that they were okay, that they had moved on, and maybe even ended up together. One could always hope. They deserved to be happy.
“Heya there, Luna and Jax. How are y’all doing this fine evenin’?” Applejack said from behind her stall.
“Hello Applejack. I’m fine, thank you, hope you are also well, have a nice day.” Luna politely answered as she moved past. She obviously wasn’t in the mood to talk with anybody. Jax gave Applejack an apologetic smile, but kept moving behind Luna. He saw Applejack raise her eyebrows at them before giving a small smile and focusing on work again.
They entered the woods, and Jax took in the new sounds. Birds singing a pleasant melody, the wind rustling the leaves on trees, their own steps on the dirt road.
There was something calming about walking through woods. The air smelled of grass, the view of the blue sky and warm sun through green leaves was amazing… he wondered what Luna thought about it.
“I’ve always liked walking through the forest. It’s nice.” He told her. No answer. She must have been angrier than he thought. Maybe he went too far? It wasn’t a big deal to him, just another pony pun, but to her, Nightmare Moon represented her biggest failure. Maybe that was the problem? Even an innocent comment about how good of a pun the name was, hurt her.
He would have to do something about that. Not apologize, that wouldn’t help her.
They walked around in the peaceful forest for some time, while Jax thought about what to say to her when she finally decided to stop the silent treatment.
He almost walked into her, so lost in thought had he been. She was looking back at him, sadness clearly reflected in her eyes, a frown on her face.
“I… may have overreacted a bit.” She admitted, turning all the way around to face him. “I apologize.”
He bend down a bit to be approximately in eye-height, and put a hand on her withers.
“Indeed you did.” He told her with a smile. She tried to look away, but he guided her head back with a hand, becoming serious. “Luna, let me tell you something that is going to sound a bit mean…” He took a calming breath. He didn’t want to see her sad, but… “Ponies think that you were Nightmare Moon. And they aren’t going to forget about it, especially after Twilight released her book.” Luna closed her eyes, but not before he caught the sadness in her cyan eyes. “I think the one who will have the hardest time forgetting about Nightmare Moon though… is you. You never did forgive yourself did you? That’s why it hurts every time you hear that name.”
With her eyes still closed, she took a shaky breath. He could tell she was on the verge of crying. He looked around, but luckily they were alone.
“Thou art correct.” She said before going back to modern English. “I never did. Not even after I talked with my sister. How could I? An apology does not make up for all the pain I caused, for the disaster I would have wrought if Celestia did not have the strength to banish me.” The tears finally broke through, making a path of wet fur. Her voice sounded so small and frail. “How can I forgive myself for giving in? I do not deserve… I feel so guilty, Jax. Every time I have a minute to think, I hear the song Celestia sang to me upon my return, and the guilt just gnaws at me. Every time I hear the words ‘Nightmare Moon’, I remember what I did. How I failed. I am the worst princess to ever sit on a throne.” She ended with a sob, her entire posture telling him how defeated she felt.
He gently pulled her into a hug and started stroking her mane. She didn’t resist, but she didn’t put neither her hooves nor her wings around him.
“Where I’m from, we have a saying. ‘I’m only human.’ It means that nobody is perfect, and everybody makes mistakes. Even pony princesses. You need to forgive yourself, Luna. Nobody can do it for you.”
“It is not that easy!” She broke the embrace and gave him a fierce, yet weirdly begging look. “If it was I would have done so long ago. Most ponies see me as a monster, and some days I am afraid… that I will become Nightmare Moon once again and prove them right. That the Limelight will find me, and I will not have the will to fight it, and everything will repeat itself.” Her voice almost broke. Her tears were falling faster now, as her confessions came out. “I do not want that to happen, yet the guilt and fear keep returning… and I do not know how to stop it… Except being in your presence.” This time she pulled him into a tight super-hug, with hooves and wings embracing him.
He started stroking her again. It felt nice to know that he was helping her just by being there, but he held no illusions that he could be with her 24/7 as he had the last two weeks.
He took a deep breath. How could he get her to forgive herself? …Maybe he should start somewhere else.
“They see you as a monster because they don’t know what really happened. We will make them see. Tell me, Luna… have you ever tried writing a book?”
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Well, I think this was a chapter. It had some words, and some punctuation too.
Lol, good chapter. Although, I'm not sure how masturbating would keep him from checking Luna out, but hey. Just blame it on nature.
If I wasn't already hooked, I'd say you got me now. I think Jax would probably go with Luna if he knew that was what she wanted. One question that this chapter brought up is, what is Jax going to do for work?
6296860 Oh... Words... and punctuation too?? Amazing XD
He is adjusting ^^ He needs a reason, there will be more on that later :b
Good, good :D Be more hooked XD
He is going to do... something... probably XD
My girlfriend wants to know what the numbers in your name mean. We're guessing that 1993 is your birth-year, but what does 729 mean? XD And are you a Dj? XD
6296895 Lol, I'm surprised I don't get this question more. So, not long after we got our first computer, in 98 or 99, we got a Hot Wheels game for it. You had to put in a name. Now, keep in mind I was inly five or six at this time. My real name is Josh, and diamond has some significance for my family, so my dad sugested DJ, short for Diamond Josh. I am not a Dj, although my dad was before he met my mom. His degree is in broadcasting. Haha, I'm actually a mechanic irl. Well, technically I'm an ASE certified Master Automobile Technition and a shop manager.
As for the numbers.... Soñ the first real account I created online was for Neopets (well, aside from email, but fortunately my parents helped me create one that was professional there). Go figure, the name DJ was already taken. So, as site do, it suggested it with a bunch of random numbers after it. Like I was going to remember that. So, the first string of numbers that came to my brain at the time was my birthday, July 29th, 1993. As I got a bit older, I realized it probably wasn't the brightest idea ever, but I didn't feel like changing it. I use that name on pretty much all of my non-professional accounts.
That's about it. I can't remember when I stopped capitolizing rhe 'j'. Lol, nice thing about having seven numbers after it, I don't have to worry 'bout the name being taken anywhere.
6297015 Wow, long explanation XD Thank you for taking the time to sate our curiosity... Diamond Josh ^^ We would have figured 729 out ourselves, we think, if we didn't live in Denmark where the dates are written with the day before the month ;)
My name is Damian, I like dragons, normally my username is Dragon1600, but at some point I made a youtube account and that name was taken, so I called it Dragonalias instead. 'Cause my alias is a dragon? I thought it was nice to be without the numbers, so I used it here as well, and I'm using it more and more ^^ There, now we know stuff about each other and why we chose our usernames XD
6297255 No problem. Yeah, written, it makes more sense that way. It's the only thing I can think of where the units are out of order. If America was smaller, we probably would've changed already. Takes a long time to turn a big ship. I am curious though, would you say "twenty-nine July" or "July twenty-ninth"?
Cool. Yeah, if I had run into that issue, I probably would've dropped the numbers too.
6297347 we say "twenty-ninth July" ^^ Before you change that, you should probably change to the metric system! XD
Yeah it was the first time I ran into that problem, it was weird for me XD
6297393 I have no objections to the metric system. I used to, before I started working on cars. Now, if for no other reason, I'd take metric just to get rid of fractional. It's extremely frustrating to measure something like hose diameter in decimal inches, then have to round/convert it into 16ths, 32nds, or sometimes 64ths. Most of the time, I end up just grabbing a wrench instead. That, and a consistant base would be nice. Although, whoever decided a thousand kilograms ought to be called a tonne was an idiot. What was wrong with megagram?
Well that was a nice chapter and I guess we're moving towards soon with him being able to get around without her. So I do wonder what will happen after that, I also wonder if you keep bringing this Limelight creation of yours up more often for a reason. I'm also wondering if things like the cross species will be something they think on or not to mention that Luna if she does this she'll have to be prepared to outlive him. Something I wondering if she'll think on or if someone else like her sister will bring up.
6297450 Ha! well except that tonne thing, metric makes a lot more sense :b
6297786 I thought about all of this, you will get answers in later chapters :)
This chapter and the breather chapters were really nice to have. It makes me see a more peaceful life to Jax which he couldn't experience and then now the arc of Luna with her Nightmare moon failure. I really am enjoying this and the romance and the scene of friendship between these two is really nice. I would like to see some more interactions with the mane 6 maybe Applejack as she has hardly any screen time with Jax. Great chapter and I look forward to the next one. Please let it be soon.
6313905 Thank you for the comment :) It's nice to know people still enjoy my story :)
Hehe yeah, things will start to happen soon though :) I did plan on having Applejack and Jax spend some time together and become friends as well, I just need to... you know, find the right moment ^^ same for the rest of them. I guess I'm just really focused on Luna right now, but that will change soon :)
I am having some difficulties with the next chapter, I had a mild case of writer's block, but I think it's over now XD I try to update once a week, normally Sunday, but recently I've been doing it Saturday ;)
I'm impressed they managed to get through that whole exchange without laughing, because wow that's corny.