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MA Research Student and former teacher. Part-time tutor, part-time bartender. Full-time writer and MLP: FIM researcher.


Pinkie Pie has been depressed for a long time. Her business has failed, she is out of pocket, about to lose her house and feels abandoned by her friends. In a moment of desperation, she tries to take her own life, only to be saved at the last minute by Rainbow Dash.

As Pinkie continues to battle with her depression and suicidal feelings, Twilight, Applejack and especially Rainbow Dash, must deal with the fallout of her suicide attempt.

This is a tale of sadness, pain and hope, one that focuses on the impact of our actions on others.

Chapters (14)
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Comments ( 144 )

This is well-written and well-developed. I loved the way you hugged so closely to the Mane Six's personalities, and I am certainly going to keep watch for new updates and chapters. Keep up the good work! :pinkiesad2:

Thanks for that, it's my first time attempting to write a fanfic. Normally stick with academic writing :)

My god, you write well. This is a magnificent piece of writing, and I want it to continue. Keep it up, and I swear to Celestia's Tiara you'll be a featured author on Fimfiction. :twilightsmile:

One pony raised his hand and said β€œShe gets sucked in.”

I think you meant hooves.

Wow. WOW. Amazing. I can't believe this.
I just can't believe how wonderful it is. :raritystarry:

You know, there are a few misprints,(like hands instead of hooves) but I was able to overlook them easily because I love this story so much it makes my heart hurt. :pinkiesad2:

I can really relate to some things in this story... It brings back painful memories but it's an amazing story so far.

Holy sh:yay:t that was amazing! You wrote it so well (THANK YOU FOR USING CORRECT GRAMMAR!) and expressed depression (victims? I really don't know what to call them anymore) perfectly. I wouldn't be using that particular photo though for two reasons:

1) It depicts Pinkie as sad (Pinkie's Pride) but she still partially has her floofy hair. This shows that she still has some hope left where in you (frankly awe inspiring) story you depict Pinkie as a depressed, hopeless pony that can't go on with her life. I would have used something like this or this. Eh, you get the point. Something really sad.

2) Why the blood on the picture? Pinkie hasn't cut herself yet, and unless she already has and you haven't written it, it makes no sense. Also, the blood just doesn't fit with the picture properly.

Other than that, OMG THIS IS BUCKING AMAZING AND YOU ARE AMAZING AND :pinkiegasp::yay::rainbowkiss:

Thank you for your kind comments.

Fair point about the picture. it doesn't really do much for the mood. I've taken it out.
As for grammar, I'm a grad student in English :)

What. I... I think I feel... an emotion?

I'm rather intrigued by this story though I don't often look for stories that refer to this topic mainly due to the depressing mood I can get in after I read them. I'd like to ask without spoilers if you plan on making this ending maybe a happy one or if you do have something planned to make the ending less of a downer then say if she understands what she did wrong and finally proceeds to heaven leaving us with a understanding or at least end of a good note. Feel free to message me if you'd prefer people that read the comments don't get any spoilers for this.


More I want more!

Glad you enjoyed it - give me a day or two to finish off and it should be completed before the end of the week.

Ah, I am about to delve into the depths of this little Pinka-cide story.

Depression and sadness, do your worst. :rainbowdetermined2: :pinkiecrazy:

I am routing for Dash hardcore right now.

I don't want to see pinkie in anything more than one piece. :pinkiesick:

Pinkie stahp! You da beeeeeesssssssttttttt! :fluttercry: :fluttercry: :fluttercry:

Keep writing dude! My passion has been writing since the day I was born!:raritystarry::pinkiehappy: Also it's a real good story I favorated it!

4232966 Ditto! :pinkiehappy: But you spelt favorite wrong. . .:unsuresweetie:

Well pinkie's dead. Wanna play poker?

i love it when it goes from sad to *LETS FUCK PEOPLE UP!*

It's Rainbow's way of dealing with it. My question is: do you still like her as a character even though she has murdered a diamond dog in cold blood?

I seriously want to cry after reading this.

yaaaa I'm not good at spelling. :twilightblush:

This chapter almost made me cry... :fluttercry:

4233752 Are you young, like me?(Even though my grammar is nearly flawless.) Or an immigrant? :unsuresweetie:


Pinkie's the last person I would think to have depression that would lead to suicide (Pinki-cide?)

Which is exactly what makes this story so great :rainbowkiss:

Thanks for the comment :)

It's not that hard to believe! Some of her conversational undertones and song lyrics suggest that she has depression or has suffered from it in the past. Pinkie is quite black and white - things are either SUPER-DUPER GREAT AND AWESOME!! or they are terrible. That in itself is how quite a lot of people who are prone to suffering from depression seem to think.

Don't blame me, Pinkie wrote it :)

great story man i want more as well

I'm sorry but I detest Dr. Shetland. In my opinion, he is a moron. Suicide isn't a way to get attention, it is a way for people to finally stop the shit they have and Rest In Peace. The way he talks to Pinkie makes my blood boil. Apologies if I've hurt anyone. It was unintentional.

Very interested in this story, its well written too. I'm eager to read more :scootangel:

4235131 Hey, psst. . .I'm only a year younger. :scootangel:

4235173 What school do you go to? We might go to the same one. Pm me the answer! :pinkiehappy:

4243287 We don't go to the same school. :applejackunsure:

4243547 Ok. If we did we could meet up and talk about ponies during middle recess. There are only 2 pony liker's in my school and I'm one of them... :fluttercry: I'm so alone... :raritycry:

I am dripping with a strange liquid... it is coming from my eyes... what is this liquid...
I shall call it liquid sorrow..
You have made me...feel..an...emotion?
I have heard of those...


No, I do not think that murder is good.


What are these "emotions" you speak off.

I am getting a "spirit Detective" sort of vibe here. It may not be an influence on this story but for some reason it reminds me of this one story...


Well, I couldn't bare to let Pinkie Pie get killed off for good. The whole point is that suicide leaves a lasting impression on those who care about you. Pinkie doesn't get off that easily.


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