I Want it to be Done
Rarity sniffled and wiped the tears from her eyes. She took a deep breath and raised her head, looking around at her gem filled basement. She'd have to start cutting these ones soon.
But that didn't really matter.
Sweetie Belle knew. Sweetie Belle knew everything. Annie had told Sweetie Belle what she had done all those years ago. Rarity got to her hooves and slowly walked up the basement stairs to the main floor. Sweetie Belle wasn't on the main floor, so she was probably still in her bed. Hopefully she was sleeping, dreaming of a world where she didn't have a murderer for a big sister. Hopefully she would rest through the night. She didn't need reality right then.
Rarity went towards the kitchen, but she was stopped when she heard her doorbell go off. She grimaced, but trotted over to her door. Igniting her horn, she opened it, revealing Cheerilee and Pinkie Pie on the other side. She gave them a weak smile and stepped aside to let them in.
"Good evening," Rarity whispered, a sob in her voice.
Cheerilee and Pinkie Pie both smiled sadly and each wrapped a hoof around one of Rarity's shoulders in a hug.
"How are you doing, Rarity?" Cheerilee asked. "I know that today is hard for you."
"Yes," Rarity said quietly. "It's been difficult to deal with, especially today..." Rarity leaned in against Pinkie Pie's shoulder. "Annie. Annie came to the forest as I was laying out my roses. She told Sweetie Belle everything."
Cheerilee and Pinkie Pie both gasped and tightened their hugs on Rarity.
"Rarity, I'm so sorry!" Cheerilee cried. "She shouldn't have had to go through that; not at her age!"
"She shouldn't have ever had to go through that." Rarity whimpered. "I-if you think about it, this is all my fault."
"Nuh-uh!" Pinkie insisted. "I can't say that what you did was any good, but they hurt you, Rarity! You didn't know what else you were supposed to do, and now you're really sorry! You wanna take it back! It's Annie's fault that she told Sweetie Belle just to hurt you!"
"But there would have been nothing to tell if I hadn't done what I did!" Rarity flattened her ears and lowered her gaze to the floor. "I hurt Sweetie Belle just as much as Annie did, if not more! She lost so much trust in me when she found out. If she found out that I'm hiding this, then she can't trust that I'm not hiding other things!"
"I know it's going to be hard for her, Rarity," Cheerilee said, "but you love her dearly and would do anything for her. She'll come to regain all of that trust. You know that you have no more secrets to hide. You've never hurt another pony in your life, and you've never wanted to do it again. Sweetie Belle will come to understand that very soon. I have no doubt about that."
Rarity sniffled and began walking towards the kitchen, followed by her friends. The three of them sat down at the kitchen table, and Rarity laid her head down, allowing Cheerilee and Pinkie to put a hoof on her back.
"It's..." Rarity took a deep breath. "I just..." Rarity began blinking back more tears. "I just want it to be done. I don't want to live under the shadow of what I've done anymore. Eleven years and almost every day since has dealt with what I've done. Ponies stare at me on the streets, I'll go to sell some gems and the buyer's friendly smile isn't quite as wide as it normally is, ponies come into my shop f-for something and they whisper about me, or sometimes they come in to see me like I'm some kind of freak. One horrendous choice in my life, and I'm not Rarity anymore. I'm that filly who murdered two of her classmates!" Rarity sniffled as her tears dripped onto her table. She wiped her eyes, but they kept running down her cheeks. "I just want it all to be over. I just want to be Rarity again. I don't even want my friends to come over and have reasons to talk to me about how I slaughtered two of my classmates! I want to erase that day from the minds of everypony in Equestria!"
"I know," Pinkie said, giving Rarity a small nuzzle, "and we're both sorry if we came in here and upset you more by talking about it, but you seemed really upset and, well, I know it's not a good thing to be alone when you're upset. You've been alone today for every day since you've gotten out, right? Well, maybe it's a good idea to talk to somepony about it."
"I've been talking to ponies about it for almost as long as I can remember!" Rarity snapped. "I was locked away in a place where I did nothing but talk about what I had done for six years! I can't have another day to have that day in the woods rule my life!" Rarity looked up at her friends who had started exchanging nervous glances. "I want nothing else to do with that wretched day!"
"So does that mean that you don't want to lay any more roses next year?" Cheerilee asked. "You're done with that?"
"Applejack was right. It only hurts me when I go back to that place. It only hurts me, and today it hurt Sweetie Belle, and that I cannot accept. I... I can deal with being hurt by what I've done. I've been hurt for eleven years, but she cannot be hurt by my actions! Today I saw firsthoof how me not letting go only hurts her. I can't hurt her anymore. I never will again! I don't matter as much as she does. Even now, after finding out about me, she's still relatively innocent. She's only heard about the horrors of life, but she's never experienced them. She was too young to fully comprehend what it meant to see me in that place; what it meant for me to be in there." Rarity gave Cheerilee a small smile. "You're right, Cheerilee. She can learn to trust me again. I know she can. But I don't think that she can until I move on. Until I learn to... forgive myself. Until that happens it can never really be done, can it?"
"No, it can't," Cheerilee muttered. "And I think it's really, really good that you've decided that you need to move on. I know it's not going to happen overnight, but now that you've decided not to let it rule your life, well, I think you're going to be a lot happier, especially with Sweetie Belle here to help you. Speaking of Sweetie Belle..." Cheerilee motioned in the direction of the stairs. "I think she needs you right now. I think she needs her big sister to explain things to her; to really have a heart-to-heart with her. She needs to understand."
"Yes," Rarity said with a sigh. "Yes, you are right, of course. Sweetie Belle will probably be up soon, if she isn't up already." Rarity got to her hooves, an action that Cheerilee and Pinkie Pie followed. "I need to talk to Sweetie Belle. She needs me. I'll speak to your girls later, okay?"
Cheerilee and Pinkie Pie nodded. "Of course, Rarity," Cheerilee said. "You know that we're always here for you whatever happens. You're our friend. Whatever you need, just let us know."
Rarity smiled as she walked the two to the door, giving them both tight hugs when they reached it. "I don't really know what I'd do without you girls, I really don't. You two and Applejack have helped me more than I could possibly say."
"What are friends for, Rarity?" Pinkie said with a grin. "We'd do it the same way all over again. We know you're not a bad pony. You never were."
"It's taken me a long time to believe that, Pinkie. A fair portion of Equestria has told me differently." Rarity looked over to the stairs leading up to her room. "But I need to make sure that Sweetie Belle isn't one of them."
"Well then we'll leave you to that," Cheerilee said. "You let us know how it goes, if you need to, alright? You know where to find us."
Rarity nodded and gave the two a small smile before opening the door and letting her friends out. She watched the two of them walk away from her home for a few moments before taking a deep breath and shutting the door. She lowered her head and turned to the stairs. Hopefully Sweetie Belle had calmed down a little. Otherwise the talk could go very poorly. But she had to come to trust her sister again. If she didn't trust her sister, the pony who loved her more than anything... Rarity shook her head and began walking up the stairs. No, Sweetie Belle would come to trust her again, even if it took more than this talk, and it undoubtedly would.
Rarity reached the top of the stairs and slowly walked over to her room. She pressed her ear to the door, listening for any indication that her sister had awoken, but the room was silent. She straightened up and ignited her horn, slowly pushing the door open and walking into the room.
Sweetie Belle laid on her bed with her back to the door, just where she had left her several hours ago. Rarity flattened her ears and approached the bed as quietly as she could, but even so, the noise of her hooves caused one of her sister's ears to flick, and Sweetie Belle turned around to face her sister. Rarity held back a whimper when she saw that her eyes were puffy and red from crying.
"H-hi, sis," Sweetie Belle croaked.
"Hello, Sweetie Belle," Rarity said quietly, walking over to the bed and sitting down on the edge. She reached out a hoof to pat Sweetie Belle's head, but she flinched back, causing Rarity's hoof to place it on one of the pillows instead. "How are you? Did you get a good nap in?" Sweetie's gaze traveled down to the bedsheets, and she subtly shook her head. Rarity gave a barely perceptible sigh and ran a hoof through her mane. "I'm sorry for that."
"'S okay."
"No, Sweetie, it isn't. Nothing about it is okay. I hurt you, and that is completely unacceptable. I never wanted you to be hurt by what I'd done. I knew that one day you'd find out, but... well, obviously I did not intend for you to learn about it that way." Sweetie Belle gave another tiny nod. "So... what are you thinking right now?"
"Dunno," Sweetie Belle muttered.
"Did... did learning about what I did scare you? I know it can't have been easy."
"I guess." Sweetie Belle curled up under the blankets a little more. "That mare was really scary too, Rarity. She said she wanted Princess Celestia to chop your head off."
"Yes, but that didn't happen, nor will it. Princess Celestia would only put me in jail again if I hurt another pony, and I have no desire to do so! I will never hurt another being, and that's a promise!"
"I'm scared that mare is gonna hurt you," Sweetie whimpered. "She was really angry at you. What if she hurts me to hurt you?"
"Darling, I assure you that you are safe with me, and safe from that mare. Nopony in Ponyville would let her hurt you. If she so much as gave you a scraped knee, she'd be in big trouble."
"Would you hurt her if she hurt me? Would you... k-kill her?"
"I..." Rarity's response died in her throat, and her ear flicked. "I... I don't know, Sweetie Belle. I wouldn't kill her, I know that, but I would do what I needed to to protect you. I would primarily try to get us away and find help. That way I wouldn't have to hurt her."
"But what if you couldn't?"
"Sweetie Belle, I don't want you to have to worry about that. She is not going to hurt us, I promise. She'll leave us alone."
"Okay."
"But that aside..." Rarity moved her hoof down and gently placed it on her sister's head. Sweetie Belle flinched, but made no effort to move it. "I want you to know that I will do whatever I need to to fix what happened today. Big sister isn't going to go into the woods anymore. I've let my past control me for too long, and it hurt you today. Big sister never wants to hurt you. Ever. I need you to understand that. I know things can never go back to the way they were before. I know that you can never unlearn what that mare told you any more than I can undo what I did, but I don't want it to damage our relationship beyond repair. Do you?"
Sweetie Belle paused for a moment before slowly shaking her head. "You're my big sister, and I love you. I don't want that mare to hurt you, but I'm scared that you did something like that."
"So am I, darling. It's ruled my life for eleven years, but I don't want it to rule it for a moment more." Rarity scooted an inch closer to her sister and gave her a small smile. "Did you know that before you were born, when I was in the institution, I had accepted my fate? I had come to terms with the fact that I'd spend the rest of my life in one of those places. But then Mother and Father came in one day, about five years after I was committed, and told me that Mother was pregnant with you." Rarity's smile widened a little more. "And from that moment on I resolved to get out of there any way that I could. I realized that I couldn't spend another moment more than I had to in that dreadful place. You gave me a purpose. You gave me a drive to get out so that I could be a big sister to you. Less than a year later it happened. I got to come home with you."
Rarity gingerly reached forward and scooped her sister up. Her heart soared when she didn't push away, but instead leaned against Rarity's chest. "If it weren't for you I don't know where I'd be. I know that I wouldn't be in as good of a position. I love Mother and Father, of course, and they have supported me every step of the way through this ordeal, but you got me out of the rut I was in. Do you remember that dress? The first one that I made for you when you were a newborn foal?" Sweetie Belle nodded. "The very first thing that I did when I found out that you were coming was design that dress for you. I promised you that I was going to get out of that place and make it for you, and I did. I had motivation for the first time in five years, and you did that for me just by being you."
Sweetie Belle whimpered, but slowly reached out and wrapped her forelegs around Rarity's chest. Rarity smiled and leaned down to nuzzle the top of her sister's head.
"Oh Sweetie Belle," she said softly, "I promise that I will never, ever hurt you. Do you hear me? Big sister will never, ever hurt you."
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Oh my God yes! I just now found this on the Feature Box, and I can't wait to delve into this! Too bad it's not already completed like how I found the rest of the series, but I will eagerly await each and every update. I love this series, can't wait to read this through.
Haven't read (and out right Refuse to) read the source material, but this looks good.
Annie is probably going to see Rarity getting on with her life as the greatest slight of all and start planning some kind of horrible revenge. Probably involving foalnapping Sweetie.
Oh, and I'll also predict that Twilight will know damn well who Rarity is when she arrives for the Summer Sun Celebration and will freak the f**k out at her being responsible for decorating an event the princess will be at.
LOVE IT.
*angelic chorus*
Nice call-back there.
Rarity's a damn fool if she honestly believes that.
Cannot believe I didn't see this story here before! I read the others about 6 weeks ago, and then I notice this one and I'm like
5158544 i agree with you!
Ohhh, that sounds interesting(plus she's have plenty of places to hide the bodies, and the fertilizer they make would certainly help those apple trees of here)
But you still haven't finished the killer Fluttershy one though :/
Finally gonna do Killer Applejack? Neat. I'm sorry if I ever kept on bugging you about it dude I really am and I hope you actually enjoy writing it.
Hhhhmmm, normally I would say that these past few chapters have been lighter than previous ones and predict something horrible that might happen, though this one seems to be following a different pace than it's cousins.
I'm sorry to do this but I waited to long for this chapter.
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What's up with the Killer Fluttershy fic? And Killer AJ might be interesting to see.
Fuckin' beautiful.
Now, when will everything go to shit?
5159388 a story where applejack uses dead bodies to fertilize her crops is already done
Sorry to leave another comment but was that a reference to the original fic at the end?
5160247 I'm not surprised.
I was just pointing how easy a time she'd have hiding the bodies what with living on such a large farm. Plenty of space to bury them.
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Don't question. Just know that it is the eventuality.
There is no way Annie is going to let this end here. I doubt she's ever going to let Rarity off, unless she ends up broken or dead. It'll be interesting to see how all that plays out.
The killer-AJ fic sounds interesting as well. I'll be looking forward to seeing that.
5160247 Fertilizer? Is that the limit of your imagination?
5160428 course not
Meat apple pie anyone?
5160428
Should we be concerned about your mental health?
5160721
October brings out the best in me!
Great job can't wait till the next one hope it's soon
Any idea how long till the next chapter
5161413 Hopefully not long.
Oh, this is going to be fun...
Killer Applejack? My collection of "Murderous Six" will finally be complete.
Love the chapter can't wait for the canon to happen.BTW for future idea's have Rarity and the other five with Celestia with the press and an audience with them shocked and horrified that one of the elements of harmony is a killer, and have Celestia try to defend Rarity as well as the others but the crowd reacts negatively before jeering and calling Rarity a monster again.Finally Celestia losses it, shouting "SHUT THE FUCK UP" while engulfed in flames.When she finally calms down have her drop a bombshell as admits that during her life time she has secretly killed 100 people in her lifetime, most in self defence but a good few times she purposely killed, from preventing those for their selfish needs to for example after the events nightmare moon she is got into a heated discussing with somebody and when they said the wrong words she killed him.Then to finish it off have her talk about the 300 year ago murder saying that while there hasn't been a murder since it only means that it's the last RECORDED murder where the murder got CAUGHT,meaning between the 300 since there could still have been killings going on, just that no ones found the body or simply the killer got away before saying that in the 300 there have been 10000 unsolved missing cases which theoretically there have been 10000 murders since the last recorded murder. I hope you like this idea and you can adjust it if you want, can't wait for the next chapter.
Hey I had an idea for you to continue the secret life of rarity what if you did a short story where in the equestria girls she didn't get caught because there wasno twilight to find out until she comes to the school. This is up to you but I just thought it could continue the story further
I sense darkness rapidly approaching...
Also, I don't know if it was your intention, or just coincidence, but I feel there are some similarities(perhaps this could even be a lead in) to lil' miss rarity
I sense darkness rapidly approaching...
Also, I don't know if it was your intention, or just coincidence, but I feel there are some similarities(perhaps this could even be a lead in) to lil' miss rarity
I sense darkness rapidly approaching...
Also, I don't know if it was your intention, or just coincidence, but I feel there are some similarities(perhaps this could even be a lead in) to lil' miss rarity
5178494 Lil Miss Rarity, or The Secret Life of Rarity?
Oh dear... I feel a lot of jinxing coming from Rarity's words.
How much longer till next one
Gonna come out in the open and say I didn't enjoy the time skip. Your skips usually work so well, but I felt there was more you could have got from Rarity adjusting to life outside.
That said the following chapters were pretty solid, and I just know there's some dark shit to come, so I'll forgive you!
Hey how much longer I don't want it to take as long as the last one but I don't know how long it takes to write a story
5197082 Hopefully today. I was working on it last night.
Yay
So much sadness in this multiverse you've built!
>Killer Applejack
Oh yeah. Here we go lol.
That's an interesting task. AJ has always been the most stable and level-headed of the Mane Six. The best of them, really.....
5178504 Lil' Miss Rarity. And I also misspoke, I meant it could sort of be a lead in to lil miss rarity, i meant it could be a lead into a similar sort of story perhaps, with trying to balance the madness that surrounds her (or maybe that would fit better for the original story where she wasn't found out till much later
) what say you; and did you get some inspiration from that story for this one and the original?
5201154 No. My Killer Rarity-verse had no inspiration from Lil Miss Rarity. I don't even like Lil Miss Rarity, other than the song and a few pieces of artwork.
5202022 Ok, I was just curious and meant no offense by it. Also, what song do you mean, the only "version" of it I'm familiar with is/was the tumblr account "ask lil miss rarity"?
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5202482 Ah ok, thanks. Also, the only story i found in regards to it was one involving the princess and twilight delving into rarity's mind to try and pull her out of the madness and find its origin. Was there more then that written that you know of, or was that it?
5203565 I've never read any Lil Miss Rarity stuff. I only have my Killer Rarityverse stories. I've read some Dressmaker Rarity stories (where she kills her friends to make dresses out of them) but none of them are any good, and they're all the same.
5203633 I've read a couple of those too and I agree with you. This one is more interesting and more plausible then them as it is, but I suppose it depends on what kind of horror you prefer. Realistic horror like this is my fav, but I do enjoy the more supernatural kinda of horror every now and then, like lil' miss.
how much longer!
5205751 Yes, sorry. Soon, I hope. I had intended it to come out a few days ago, but then I realized I had a 8 page rough draft of an essay I needed to do. So yeah, that kind of took front seat...