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To Live is to Love - Lenora Goff



It hasn't been long since the Gala, but Rainbow has a lot on her mind. With any luck, maybe she'll be able to get some advice.

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Chapter 5

-Rainbow-

I looked over to Fluttershy, a smile on my face. This might not have been the date that I wanted, or had been somewhat looking forward to, but this was better in its own way. I didn’t have to show any specific side, I didn’t have to spend the night getting to know somepony who might not even like what I had to show. There would be no pretense, there would be no possibility that I could over-think any of it.

It was just going to be me, and Fluttershy. Two friends going out, getting some salad, we were going to spend the time talking about a lot of things.

“I’m kinda glad it turned out like this, ‘Shy.”

-Fluttershy-

Those words brought me back to reality. It wasn’t that I wanted to ignore Rainbow, I would feel absolutely terrible if she thought I had been ignoring her. I should probably apologize, I’m sure she’d understand if I told her that I was still thinking about what had been going on in the boutique. Rainbow has always been my best friend, even if I never got to spend as much time with her as I should have.

Perhaps if I did, I would have been able to understand what she just meant.

“But … wasn’t Rarity going to help you out with your problem? I mean, this is one step away from you being able to find that special somepony.”

Was I really talking about her, or me? I had never thought of Rainbow as anything bad, but right now I just wanted Rarity to be here with me.

-Rainbow-

“It’d be awesome, but there’s nothing I can do about that.” I flashed her a smile, the thought ot the prank coming back to mind. I had almost been afraid that Fluttershy would have ruined the prank. She was always a dependable friend, but that had been pushing the envelope. That was the sort of thing that separated good pranksters from great ones.

“Besides, I should probably talk to Rarity a bit more. She seems to have the …”

-Fluttershy-

“Wrong impression?”

I hoped that I finished it correctly, and it turned out that I did. It seemed like she had the wrong impression for me as well, thinking that I had a crush on Rainbow. “Don’t get me wrong, Rainbow, you’re an amazing friend. I don’t know where I’d be right now without your help. But I don’t see you like that, you’re more like family.”

-Rainbow-

“And I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

I turned, and looked at the diner. It looked like a good enough place, and it did have some good salad. This had to be the one that Rarity had meant for us to go to. Even if it wasn’t going to be a date, it was going to be good, “Listen, ‘Shy, I’m really sorry that it didn’t turn out the way that it should have. And if there’s anything I can do to help, I will.”

There had to be a way that I could make this up to her, I just had to think about it. I had to come up with something. As I mulled the thought over, I opened the door.

“After you.”

I watched her go in first, waited about ten seconds before I went in as well. There was always the chance that she would just stop, and running into Fluttershy’s flank was something that had happened far too many times before I started to create a system. Ten seconds was enough to make sure that I had time without making it seem as though I had abandoned her.

With that, her sudden stop didn’t end with me slammed into her.

She always stopped when somepony spoke to her, even when they simply said they were going to be showing her where she would sit. A place for two, that was what I heard her ask for.

Two friends, but nopony would do anything other than assume. I didn’t care, though, they could assume all they wanted. I wasn’t going to let them ruin my night.

-Fluttershy-

Rainbow seemed awfully quiet. I knew that she tried to give me space, physically, but it seemed as though she was going to give me space to think as well. I didn’t know what to say about that, since I knew she was likely trying to think about some way that she could help. That was the best part about her, she was always trying to help.

The only upside was that she wasn’t telling me how she was about to be able to join the Wonderbolts. As much as I cared about her, I was starting to think that it might be possible for me to know too much about the aerial team. I would never say anything to her, though, this was her dream.

As soon as we were brought to our table, I put on a smile and looked at Rainbow. She wasn’t going to be the only one who helped her friend tonight. I was going to get the full story from Rainbow, what she hadn’t told me yet. I knew she was hiding something, but sometimes I knew that she had to be left to figure out things on her own.

Tonight was not such a night, and this was something I somehow knew I had to help her with. “I was wondering … that is if you don’t mind … if you could tell me about what you told Rarity to get her to help you I would be thankful.”

-Rainbow-

What could I say?

I could face down a dragon, I had done it before. I had faced down a manticore. I had faced down Nightmare Moon. When it came down to it, though, this was something that I couldn’t face down. I couldn’t just sit there and tell lies to Fluttershy. It could have been that expression, that hopeful expression, or it might have been the way that she said it.

“Okay, but listen up. I don’t wanna repeat it.”

Then I told her everything about that night. I told her everything about how great it had been to spend some time with the Wonderbolts, and how I had hoped to spend more time with them even after that night. I told her about how I had been let down, a dream shattered because Soarin hadn’t been the pony that I had thought it was.

It hurt less this time, when I brought it up.

It was still a sad moment.

“The reason I went to talk to Rarity about it is because … well … I thought she had dealt with the same thing.” I saw the confused look, so I continued. “With Blueblood, that is.”

-Fluttershy-

I didn’t know what to say.

Part of me wanted to go over and give Rainbow a hug, even if she never seemed to want any part of those. Another part of me wanted to say something about how she could have come to me. I might not have had the same problem, but it would have been good to not be left out. The only thing that came out of my mouth was something a little more helpful.

“Why do you want a special somepony all of a sudden?”

-Rainbow-

That was a question that I hadn’t thought of.

“It isn’t all of a sudden, I’ve put a lot of thought into this.” I looked up, and closed my eyes. “I always saw that look, from cool-mom and awesome-mom, whenever they were around each other. It was as if nothing could take away their happiness when they were around each other.” This had to be the most uncool thing I had ever said, but I had to finish. “They found their special somepony.”

I opened my eyes, and looked at Fluttershy. Those weren’t tears from what I had thought, I just had closed my eyes for too long. My eyes were trying to stop themselves from becoming too dry. That sounded like a reasonable enough explanation, one even Twilight wouldn’t be able to argue against.

-Fluttershy-

Had she just said she had two moms?

Did that mean she was a baby born of the magic of love?*

That was likely not a subject that she wanted to talk about, and it wasn’t a way that I was going to be able to help her. “That’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever heard.” I saw her scowl at me, but I couldn’t help but chuckle. Rainbow didn’t like to show her feelings to anypony, though that would likely turn into a problem later on.

“Okay, I’m going to try to help you out.” I saw her move, to object, but I put a hoof up. “I can help by listening. Tell me about your perfect somepony.”

-Rainbow-

This was a better way of helping than a blind date.

I hoped this would work better, anyway.

A waiter, who had been standing behind Fluttershy for the past couple minutes, cleared his throat again. Apparently, we had been ignoring him. “Oh, sorry about that. We’ll both have spinach salads.” It was something that I liked, and Fluttershy really liked. If this was going to be a good meal, this was definitely what we’d have to get.

That, and we’d have to get some cupcakes from Sugarcube Corner later.

“Well, he’d have to be cool. I mean, ya gotta be cool if you wanna hang out with me.” I heard a chuckle, so I cleared my throat and continued. “But beyond that, he’d have to be thoughtful, and wasn’t self-centered. I mean, I could get just about any of the self-centered ponies around here to notice me.” I smirked. If I had been looking for just anypony, they would have been found.

Who wouldn’t notice Rainbow Dash?

“I’m not saying I want them to have their lives focused on me, but…”

-Fluttershy-

I secretly hated spinach salad, but she had already ordered. I was going to tell Rainbow eventually, but tonight didn’t seem like the right night.

It seemed like I was going to be finishing her sentences a lot tonight. I just felt like I knew what she was going to say, because I felt the same way sometimes. “You just want to feel special. You want to know that somepony out there cares about you like you care for them.”

-Rainbow-

Was I that predictable?

“Yeah, ‘Shy. I want to know that I’m loved.” That L-word was one of the most overused things I had ever heard. I didn’t like it, but it was the best way to describe what I wanted. “And he’d have to be really nice, kind of like you are with that demon-spawn.”

I saw a slight glare sent my way, she knew who I was talking about.

-Fluttershy-

I had to get those two to get along eventually.

“Angel-bunny is not a demon-spawn. He’s just … different.” I didn’t know why those two didn’t get along. They both had the same goals, they both just wanted to be there for their friends. Even if they went about it in different ways, they should have at least been able to get along because of that. But unless I planned on her dating Angel-bunny, I should probably be focused on what she was talking about.

I didn’t know what to say about this problem, though.

I didn’t know who would have been best for her.

“We’ll find you a special somepony, Rainbow. Trust me.”

-Rainbow-

I trusted her, but part of me didn’t want her to try.

This was my problem, I had to be the one to solve it.

“Thanks, ‘Shy, but I don’t think there’s much that anypony else can do. This is a problem that can only be solved by me.” I knew she would protest, so I had to think of a subject to change it to. “But enough about me, I thought you had sealed the deal. I mean, you were finally going to get a date with Rarity.” That probably hadn’t been the best thing to bring up.

“I’m going to make sure your next little dinner is that date, by the way. All I have to do is figure out how.”

-Fluttershy-

Why did that have to be the topic she brought up?

The two salads were brought out, sat in front of us, and I set down the bits. “I’m suddenly not feeling very hungry. We’ll have to do this some other time, Rainbow. I think I’m going to take some medicine and head to bed.” I had to come up with some excuse. “I think one of my animal friends passed something on to me.”

If she didn’t believe me, she didn’t show it.

Either that, or it might have been because I didn’t give her a chance to say anything before I left the diner. I didn’t want to let anypony see me cry, and as I left a couple of tears dropped. Tonight should have been a great night, with a good friend, but I just couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that it should have been Rarity on the other side of the table.

I fed Angel-bunny, then went to bed. Tonight had been a disappointing night.

-Rainbow-

As soon as she moved to leave, I felt like I had been hit by a dragon. It didn’t take a genius to realize that this whole thing was my fault. I had said the wrong thing, and now my good friend was heading back to her house. She hadn’t even eaten.

“Give it to those two hungry ponies out in the alley. I know they’re always there.”

I suddenly didn’t feel hungry either. All I wanted to do was head back to my house, after I paid, and get some sleep. And that was just what I did.

Tonight had been another night of me shoving my hoof in my mouth.

Author's Note:

* This seems to be confusing a lot of people. The magic of love happens when there are two mares that really love each other and produce a foal. It's as simple as that. For anyone who thinks it is similar to the Winningverse's idea, that's because I got the idea from there. They deserve all credit for making me realize that it's the only way that a society that is dominated by females could continue to exist for more than a couple centuries without the concept of males being used to procreate with as many females as possible.

As for how the mechanics work, it is almost impossible to explain. We're talking about a universe where you can feed off love and love magically makes you not tired anymore. It isn't one based on logic and reason.