AUTHOR'S NOTES
This is a little experimental piece I've cooked up over my obsession of 'I am Octavia'. This 'story' comprises of two parts: the dialog before the song, and the actual song itself. The former has been lifted directly from the song, while the latter has been written from Tavi's point-of-view, all from her head. The conversation and lyrics are taken directly from the song, and I discredit any of these as my work, but as the sole property of EileMontyVA. However, I do take credit for the parts in bold, for those are what I imagined Tavi would feel while performing this song.
Enjoy!
Disclaimer: If you still haven't gotten the gist, this is not a story. This is merely a string of thoughts.
"Shyea! This is P0N-3!"
"Hey Vinyl, it's Octavia."
"Oh hey Octy! What's up?"
"I was wondering if you're still coming to my... concert... cause I-I've got a seat saved up for you." *giggles*
"Aw, no... that's... that's tonight? Aw geez, aw geez, I'm so sorry! I totally blanked on this one. I'm actually in the middle of working on a big project with Neon Lights right now. W-we just hit a breakthrough with the... I just... *sigh* I don't think I can make it tonight."
"Alright..."
"I swear I'll make the next one though! Like... I promise! Okay?"
"It's fine..."
"Awesome! Now I really gotta get back to-"
"Actually, no no, it's not fine, Vinyl, cause... you've done this to me before and this... is a-a really big thing for me... and you're not there to support me."
"Yeah, I know, I-I just..."
"I just can't believe you."
"Octy, come on... you know how my schedule can get. Look, after tonight I swear things will be different. We can go to that restaurant you-"
"I don't want your sorry Vinyl."
"Wait, what?"
"Consider this friendship, over."
"Octavia, come on.. you don't mean that..."
"You let me down too many times."
"Wait! N-No! Don't! P-Please! Oct-Octavia!"
"Octavia, you're on in five minutes."
"Oh, okay!"
"Good luck."
"Oh, thanks!"
*sigh*
"Hello everypony, my name's Octavia."
"I comb the crowd,"
This is it... no more me and you.
"But I can't see your face out there, no."
It's all over.
"I'm playing now,"
*sigh*
"Won't wait on-"
...
"Love."
Why? Why did all of this go wrong?
"I'm paralyzed-"
What happened between us?
"From all these whispers-
Tell me.
In my brain."
What did I do wrong?
"I'm focused now."
No.
"I won't give-
It's not me, it's you.
"Up."
It had been you all along.
AHHHHHH!!
"I'm resonant,"
Buck you Vinyl!
"Won't stop for you."
Or your music!
"Playing away,"
I hate it.
"Playing away."
I hate you!
GAAHHH!!
"You play your games."
Why?!
"You bring me pain."
Why'd you do this to me?!
"Playing away."
Buck you Vinyl.
"Playing away."
I. Hate. You!
"You hurt me now."
Urgh!
"But I won't cry."
I won't cry!
"I am OC... TA... VI... A!"
"You hurt me now."
Hmph!
"But I won't cry."
*sigh*
"I am Oc-"
Ta. Vi.
"-A."
...
"Ditch me now,"
Had I been too demanding?
"But it's you who'll have-"
*sigh*
"Lost it all."
Tell me... tell me... was I?
"Lost now,"
Did I... do that?
"And bleeding-"
Wanted too much,
"Love."
And drove you away?
"Rain it pours,"
I'm still here Vinyl...
"But I won't let it bring me down! No!"
I'm sorry... I truly am.
"I'm playing now,"
Help me with myself.
"Won't wait on-"
Help me.
"Love."
It had always been me... and not you.
*sigh*
"I'm resonant,"
Stupid me...
"Won't stop for you."
ARGH!
"Playing away,"
Vinyl... Vinyl!
"Playing away."
W-where are you?
"You play your games,"
I can't h-hold on f-for long!
"You bring me pain."
My h-hooves... they hurt!
"Playing away,"
Vinyl!
"Playing away."
S-Save me from m-myself!
"You hurt me now,"
AHHH!
"But I won't cry."
HELP!
"I am Octa-"
No...
"Vi-"
No!
"A!"
NO!
"You hurt me now,"
My hooves... they still hurt...
"But I won't cry."
"B-but I'm not finished yet..."
"I am Octa-"
Vinyl...
"Vi-"
Vinyl!
"A!"
VINYL SCRATCH! W-where are you? I want you! I need you real bad!
"I am Octa-"
Take me back!
"Vi-"
Back home!
"A-"
Please!
"I am Octa-"
Please...
"Vi-"
Plea-
"A."
...
"Born strong,"
I'm at my end.
"Believe none,"
This is it.
"Dying over broken dreams."
I guess... we really can't make it through.
"Born strong,"
I'm sorry, Vinyl.
"And raised with class."
But I'm leaving you.
Goodbye.
"You HURT me now,"
You were never here for me. Ever.
"But I won't CRY."
No more, Vinyl.
"I am Octa-"
It's too late-
"Vi-"
To apologise.
"A!"
It's too late.
"You HURT me now,"
So for one last time,
"But I won't CRY."
Before my time is up,
"I am Octa-"
Thanks-
"Vi-"
For the-
"A!"
Memories...
'You hurt me now,"
Goodbye...
"But I won't-"
Vinyl...
"Cry."
Scratch...
"Thank you... everypony. My name's... Octavia."
...
And in the far corner of the backstage, a pair of purple vintage glasses lays idly in a trash bin.
I red this story to get my mind off of some of the more... disturbing things i found on this site.
I'll admit.. i cried abit...until I ran into one part....
...Fingers?
...Sorry, things like these throw me off a bit...
OH F- LOL
Time to go change that... I forgot. Ponies aint got fingers. Makes me wonder how she holds the bowstring at times.
2494494 As a violinist and having played a cello before i could imagin a few ways. (i more so wonder how she plays a cello that's missing 2 tuning pegs... kinda a big part of the thing) But yeah, do change that it'd be good!
...fan fic reading at 5 Am... Sleep is for the weak!
Ps, you can reply by pressing that blog thing over a persons comment. the >>XXXXXXX Should appear in the thing
2494506 Heh, I forgot. I'm in the midst of doing a quick story before I disappear (if u read my blogs you'd know).
2494515 yeah... of couse i just meet you so i kindn't get a chance to.
Oh, and BTW...you made this derp twice
I"ve been chewed over by my proof readers for errors like these, so yeah.
2494520 ...
Didn't you completely rip this off the I am Octavia song from eliemonty? Like seriously, the picture and the starting part is this whole chapter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gp93CoKICcQ
2494683 ... didn't i explicitly dictate that at the start?...
Well its nice to see a rendition of the songs story i was hoping there would be more.
also why did you make it out that octavia was going to kill herself, or at least that was the feels i was getting.
2494852 Oh oops sorry, but then why post a chapter on it if you already added it in the description? And I suggest you link the song as credit
2496159 I needed to get past the 1000 word limit lol :x shame on me
2495023 if i got the time, maybe I'll figure something out.
I used this description to learn the lyrics.
Yay.
2507050 LOL that's the starting part... painstakingly listened to the audio over and over again to get it right... lol...
Good read. Good start for reading fics on here.
I've got Cuatro by Dirty Bit queued up...That's gonna be fun to read (160k words? Holy saint Celestia.).
Again though, good job.
2551297 oh boy... i cant bear to read such a long thing if it doesnt catch my interest st the description... ive got high standards for stuff to read for long stories... theres too many good ones out there
2551311 it seems very interesting, and I hope it can hold my attention.
2495023 that reminds me i have a sequel now :P links in description
I listen to the I am Octavia song wile reading this
Oh God, the FEEEEEEEEEEELS. They hurt so good!
Right in the feels
This is just like the i am octavia aftermath story in fact ill be back im gonna go and read the sequel and threequeal. Great piece of fic, 7.5/10
the problem for me is no one really covers the selfishness of octavia in the situation.