Yeah... you see that title?
I mean that seriously.
A... few things happened today. I realized that I would actually be better off dead than not- I actually present a danger to both myself and everyone around me, particularly my family, right now.
That does not make for a suicide risk, because I don't want to hurt them, and no matter how much of a danger I can be to them, my death would devastate them and I'm nowhere near that.