I really need to write, and I intended to do so, today, at the time of going to bed last night. But things occurred, and now I am in a rather crappy mood and have lost interest in doing so.

It sucks, because I’m well aware that my deadline for getting the next chapter posted is rapidly approaching. I hate working to a deadline, it stresses me out and can really kill my mood. I’m sorry, I don’t really know what I’m doing except venting.

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yes, you heard that right. My mom forcefully deleted my Twitter, even though I am a legal adult. She's got good intentions, but I am very upset. I was going to use twitter to build my career as a writer.

Ugh!

“So you have been experiencing… problems in life recently, have you not, Chris?”

The man shifted on the sofa he was lying on. “Well, yeah. I guess you could say that.”

“And would you mind sharing with me what these problems of yours are, Chris?”

“No, not at all. I mean, you’re paid to listen to my problems, right? O’ course I’m gonna vent a little bit.”

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So I saw the unfair side of the internet some today. I usually do a pretty good job of keeping my nose out of trouble, but it seems like I didn't this time. I was on a subreddit for DC comics because I really enjoy them recently, but anyways there was a thread about an article on the upcoming Harley Quinn project: Gotham City Sirens movie. I mentioned, like others did, concerns about them race swapping characters since Hollywood does that. I went further and mentioned how they will also

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I've never gone from "hell yeah, I love working on this" to "fuck this story" as quickly as I have with Nothing Without Me.

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Know the dentist appointment I mentioned previously? The one I'm bad-ish enough to be looking forwards to?

Didn't get a reminder today, and my dentist has an automated system for that. Thus, worried, I checked my papers for the booking from last time.

It's... not August 8th. It's September 8th.

I somehow totally miss-remembered the damned date with a whole month.

See: Title.

Hey everyone. It’s about time I say this. Please read the entire thing.

I’ve.... haven’t been feeling like myself lately. And it’s been getting in the way of things, like Fimfiction.

I know I promised updates for A roof over your head, but.....I decided something. I’m not gonna work on any of my old story’s.

Yup. New day same life will still be getting updates, but Best friends have consequences..... I might need a helper on that one.

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I've been on and off here for a while, leaving reviews here and there. Pretty standard stuff. But I feel a bit unsatisfied. Not because of anything that you guys have been doing, in fact, that's the only thing keeping any of these projects alive.

I'm disappointed in myself.

I've made promises, and I know that this is just a silly website dedicated to stories of ponies, but I haven't kept up with any of them.

For example:
1. Canceled my self-insert because I didn't like it.

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Wish me luck I have $15 to last me the next week until I get my paycheck so tomorrow I'm going to start busking playing piano on the street for the first time in over a decade

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Yeah guys, this probably isn’t very surprising - but I think I’m gonna quit writing. If the beginning of the end wasn’t already outwardly apparent for you, I can summarize.

Keep in mind - friend, the text in red does not reflect how I currently think and feel about you. This is just me switching tones in order to convey my mentality at the time. You’re an awesome friend and an awesome person!

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Do you ever have those days when you see your favorite character paired up with another you hate? And you can't help but feel this... seething burning hatred flaring up in your chest despite the story or whatever being rather innocent and even good in terms of quality and content?

I get that a lot, I hate it.

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I know this happens a lot and wanted to explain what I feel my issue is and it all connects to my depression. because I've had it for a long time untreated it has really muddled my interest in a lot of things which makes it very hard to wanna indulge in my own ideas since I can't really feel much from them anymore along with the fact I have a wandering mind because I love so many different fandoms my brain can shift to another one very fast if I get new inspiration elsewhere and things stop

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August has not been a good month for me, despite the fact I turned 25 on the 1st.

In the span of this month, I have lost a friend from middleschool to his own hand, and I have lost my grandfather this morning (August 26th).

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Registered for 10th grade just a couple days ago and I'm feeling semi-unconfident about it. I was in online school for my freshman year and worse my schedule this year is all over the place and it's a REALLY big school compared to what I used to go to, and there's so many halls and students and it's just really overwhelming.

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College has been dragging me through the dirt and off a cliff.

Me: I want to write-

College: A long essay? Exam? Poster? Project?

Me: -my stories?

College: All of the above it is!

Me: Whyyyyyy

Okay I know a lot of people aren't really making stories which is totally cool because I used to just read too! But oh my god, I don't think is just me but if you do write, do you ever get the feeling what you write might seem like a copy to someone else's work?

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Read this previous blog to get the full context.

I've blocked this person on 5 websites in response to not allowing me to interact with Balan and NiGHTS fans who share the same interest in NSFW content.

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I want to write

I need to write

I find it hard to write

Why is it so hard to write? It used to be easy before

fuuuuuuuck

what do I do

I like to write stories, yet at the same time it drives me crazy. Especially when other people actually like what I write.

It's a bit of a contradiction. Because I write to, hopefully, entertain people. And it feels good when it does. But at the same time it's terrifying. Because if people like it, then they will expect you to keep a certain standard in your work. Which is hard to maintain for an amateur like myself.

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I just needed to vent.