So....this has no meaning of being here really....I’m not much a part of this community....all I really do is post stupid fucking stories.....

I don’t know why I’m really doing this...for attention, for clarity, for support or comfort. I hope for the latter.

I’m not gonna bore this with quotes or some random bullshit to pull from my ass. Heck I don’t even know what to say other than to tell myself sorry for not talking more to him yesterday, even though I didn’t know it was his last.

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From 169, my weight is now 168.8 lbs and my BMI is 24.9. I'm so proud of myself and I can definitely say that the workout today really paid off. However, I will not rest on my laurels. I will continue on my weight loss/maintenance journey while the quarantine still goes on.

You can prepare all you want, but lack of experience will betray you every time. Read chapter 66 here. Next Friday: In Bah Harbor, Mane, Starlight uses seduction to fight. Any port in a storm, right?

So just under a week and a half ago, I decided to get back on the wagon and begin intermittent fasting again.

I woke up today, and felt absolutely awesome when I had my first weigh-in since starting, and I'm down six pounds.

Then, I got called into work for an extra six hours on my next check.

So all in all, it's been a really freaking good day.

Just finished with meal prep for the rest of the week. Because what's better than frozen TV dinners?

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Well, I reckon everyone is probably wondering what I've been up to ever since my last update. Been awhile since then. I was hoping to have this posted several days ago, but several ongoing things have happened since then...

...Anyway, turns out that things have been a bit difficult here lately... Everyone has things pop up from time to time. Many of these things cause issues that can become chaotic, and can last for quite awhile depending on how big of a mess the chaos makes...

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Little Mister No One
By Jaydove

Little Mister No One
Wandering around
Little Mister No One
Is lost and nowhere bound

Traveling the world and
Nowhere to be seen
Looking for his girl
Saying "where's my Eveline?"

Living in the embers
Dying in the flame
Wait til he remembers
His life is Heaven's game

Searching for tomorrow
Finding yesterday
All his pain and sorrow
Will never go away

Little Mister No One
Falling underground
Little Mister No One
Has no one else around

Quarantine has lessened my food cravings, which has taught me self-discipline, which helped me on my weight loss journey through exercise. My previous weight is 176 lbs. Now, I weigh 169 lbs. and with a height of 5'9", my BMI is at 25.0. I'm almost there to achieve a normal BMI. ✌️

Obviously, I feel fucking awesome about that.

It's largely due to intermittent fasting for the past 24 days, where I've gone anywhere from 16 to 21 hours without eating every day.

That and meal prep, and tonight's cooking is for the next few days.

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This week has been so weird. I've been suffering from insomnia the whole Summer and for some reason, this week things clicked after I'd once again been awake for something like 30 hours... and I felt like writing. Then I noticed I'd posted a full fic in just a few hours. And the next day, I felt like something was missing, and continued writing, adding a sequel

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I don't usually make blogs about my personal life, but this is something I had to get off my chest, almost literally. And there may be something extra in it for you. I hope so, in a way, but I mainly hope not. Feel free to read, regardless; I'll try to keep it entertaining.

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Hey guys so just recently my dad came home from work early to tell me and my twin brother that our grandmother from our Mother’s side had passed away, the cause was both of old age and she was also in pain. My Mother and her two sisters were with her at the hospital so who knows what’s happening with them, my dad said that whilst sad she apparently had dementia so she probably wouldn’t be the same if we had gone to see her one more time and she was in pain so at least she can rest easy now.

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Eight kids losing a mom isn't the best way to face the holidays.

anonpencil is requesting donations for her good friend's brother-in-law and their family. Please consider giving something if you can.

(And yes, I'm still sick, but I can't visit the doctor again until Tuesday because of deadlines I have to meet.)

I suppose everyone reaches a point in their life where everything seems to peak before consistently and persistently trailing downward in a spiral that never ends. For me, that spiral started in mid 2018 and has never let up. And anyone who has kept up knows what the highlights of that descent has been.

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As you probably noticed, I posted a new story for the first time since late 2014, and let me tell you, it feels damn good. 2015 was terrible for me in pretty much every way, so getting back in the saddle is like kicking that year's dust off my shoes. As for the story, you can find it here:

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The pairing that started it all

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I wrote recently about being on a diet and losing a lot of weight.

I mentioned that I had a digital scale that was only accurate up to 333 pounds. For any weight over that, it would read “EEEE.” I was on the diet for several weeks before I could even see a number on it, and that number was, of course, 333.0 pounds.

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Sprocket Doggingsworth has lost most of their belongings in a flood.

Any help you can provide, or else a boost, is surely appreciated.

(As for me, I'm doing well. Faculty has been super-supportive about the thing.)

Just when I think things could be looking up, another tragedy hits.

My half sister's son died today. He was fourteen.

God.

I've only met her a few times in my life and I've only met one of her kids but this shit hits differently when you're a mom. I found out when my dad was crying and my mom was hugging him in the kitchen, and Mom tells me that his grandson passed away. I've only ever seen my dad cry maybe six times in my life, and it just really shook me.

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