When started writing my Cozy Glow origin story (which went through two title changes) for the Depth in Innocence contest, the deadline was so distant that it kept slipping my mind. On Mother's Day, I checked the contest rules to see how much time I had left, and noticed that the deadline to sign up for the contest had already passed.
Oops.
JK, this is just a regular ol' update. For those of you waiting on the next chapter of Fourteen Years Gone, I apologize for the delay. I’ve been busy with some other things, namely finishing the first draft of my original screenplay 
, but it is now up next on my agenda. In the meantime, you could always check out my other recently published work: Cozy Glow vs Chrysalis. I'm guessing it didn't explode in popularity
Yeah, good times.
Thank god the Season 9 premiere finally jossed that theory for good, because it was actually getting annoying in my personal opinion.
Hey everyone.
I must be on some kind of roll. I began 2020 by posting a new story, Ever After Never Came. It's a sequel to Imaginary, but can be read as a stand-alone. It sadly hasn't been read by too many people, but maybe it'll get there eventually.
Chapter 2 is up and it contains one of the primary scenes I constructed this story idea around. So far, I'm really liking how this is coming together and feel way more confident going forward from here. Enjoy. 
In chapter 12 of my Twinkle Shine story, Twinkle makes amends with Cozy Glow, the monster who haunts her dreams... Since then, I've noticed a distinct change in my thinking and how I view things... All the pain from the past no longer really hurts when I dwell on it because I feel like I've learned to accept and live with it now... What's done is done and nothing could ever change that... I can, however, control how I view it and what story I tell myself. In that way, I can
Well I've been writing on this thing for 6 weeks now. I'll tell you now that this is actually part of my homemade therapy regimen. Between all of the trauma I've experienced and the fact that I am transgender, I really should be in therapy anyway! Regardless, I've been trying to figure out which direction I want to take this story now. Well believe it or not, I actually had no control over the 3 nightmares she had in chapter 4. All I could do was just type about what this filly who represented
I'm taking a little hiatus from my regular writing to read a bit more and consider where I'm at with Cozy during this long day. I know I need to get her to accept her place as a daughter and get her to understand that this is about figuring her out. I intend to do the former in chapter 9 and the latter in chapter 8. How to take it in the right direction seems problematic, but not impossible. I'm thinking I'll start brainstorming on this idea some more and reading a bit of what I already wrote
Many of the transgender allegories used here are fairly obvious. For instance, Twinkle Shine is the name she chose for herself, and therefore, her name is Twinkle Shine now, and not Cozy Glow... Her ghosts are a past reflection of herself, much like my own ghosts are just past reflections of me. They haunt her dreams, and while she cannot get away, she can learn to deal with these nightmares and possibly even make friends with them.
I'm averaging about 2 pages a day because I keep rehashing things in order to word them right. While I have an editor now, I'm thinking if both of us work on it to this end, what gets made should be amazing! However, that's actually not the only reason progress is so slow right now. The truth is, I was talking again about gender dysphoria and what that's like in my story and I really don't like to talk about that. It just makes me think about how awful it makes me feel and I really don't like
Well I finally got done with chapter 6 today! There's a lot of notes and other things designed to help me piece it together at this point and I just gave the pre-release version to my pre-readers. In my process, that's the version of the chapter right before my final edit and publication. Next, I rehash it a time or two while taking whatever they said into consideration.
Cozy Glow comes from the future, where Grogar's alliance won and the ponies are enslaved to his will. Her contacting Tirek and getting thrown in Tartarus was all to win not only Tirek's friendship, but Grogar's attention. Now that she's in Grogar's inner circle, she's gonna try to win over Tirek and Chrysalis and pit them against Grogar.
Cozy's psychosis in my story is in reality, a representation about how I feel about being transgender... I feel like I can't just be like everyone else! I feel like I have to be better than that! I feel like life threw me a weird curve ball there and truth be told, it did effectively end my marriage earlier and created a whole new world of struggle for me. But looking back, it did help shape my character and help me develop empathy. Well, there's good and bad in everything yes? I also have a
In Trixie Interviews: The Cozy Glow Story, being trapped in stone is my metaphor for knowing you're transgender and not being able to do anything about it. When she asks Trixie if she can go back to being in stone again, that was me briefly pondering if I should just stop my transition and go back to pretending to be male again... Well, it occurs to me that that made me very unhappy, but at the same time, at least I didn't have all of these worries and anxieties? But the truth I'm starting to
So Cozy Glow is an allegory for me in the story and I understand that... It has also come to my attention that I appear to be giving her everything I once needed in my life? It's almost like I'm caring for her, well me in the story? Although the latest bombshell I dropped while writing yesterday kinda blew my mind, even though it really all makes sense when I think about it? I mean, I faced that demon alone! I almost didn't make it when I think about it, but my body seems very tough and I have
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