How to procrastinate. Step 1: Have ADHD. Step 2: YouTube. Step 3: I really want some lasagna. Step 4: ...
Forgive me for not posting anything last week. I do have a good reason for missing it though. For one, it was General Conference time, and there were some really good messages from the First Presidency. I probably should have posted something, however. A friend of mine said that I should have just posted a thread saying, "Go watch conference." The other reason I didn't was because the previous week had been an amalgamation of keeping my emotions in, to the point where I had to let a lot of stuff off of my chest or I would have exploded and turned into a messy pile of emotions. So, it wasn't exactly the best time for me to prepare a lesson.
However, I felt that there is a lesson to be learned from me keeping everything in and not talking about it. Now, prepare yourselves, because I am going to go into some really personal stuff. My thoughts are not going to be too clear and concise, because I cannot think straight right now. SO, what have I learned from keeping things in for too long? You feel really... Really sad. So sad in fact, that you can't watch General Conference because you're wrapped up in how you're going to approach your father about your depression and how you need help, but before you can even talk about that, you have to clear up some of the problems that you've had with your father because you're tired of hating it when he walks through the door every day.
And so, I decided that I needed to stop being so prideful, and just sit at the foot of my bed, hang my head down low, and apologize for being a prideful person, admitting that I need Him in my life more than anything.
I feel a lot better now. It helps that I'm working on my relationship with my father, I've apologized to a lot of people I know for the way I've treated them in the past, I've come out with a lot of feelings I've had about people, and I'm working on being a more approachable person. (If you're in the same boat as I am, I recommend smiling a lot more often. Take out your headphones and say hello to anybody that walks your way.)
But the thing that I choose to believe is that Heavenly Father heard me. He offered me some much needed relief after I let everything out of my system. The Lord blesses those who want to improve themselves, were the best words that have ever come out of Jeffrey R. Holland's mouth. And that man has sneezed out diamond encrusted gold.
Improving yourself is a difficult task. Which is why you must ask God for help. You're trying to jump a hurdle that you know is a little too big for you, and you know that you can jump it one day. But after several attempts at trying to jump it, you fall flat on your face every time. And just when you're about ready to lie there for the rest of your life, a gentle hand picks you up off the ground. And when you get back on your feet, you realize that it's Heavenly Father. He's there to help you improve. With His help, you can jump that hurdle. You just have to try harder and harder until you can clear that hurdle like it isn't even a problem.
I'm sorry for getting really introspective on you like that. But I think that the best way for people to learn is for people to learn from the experiences and failures of others. And I am a prime example of what not to do.
I'm sorry to hear that you're in a rough patch, but it's heartening to hear that you're heading out of it, especially with Him by your side. So often I've wished that acquaintances of mine going through hard times knew to turn to their Heavenly Father, or that I at least knew them well enough to suggest it.
How to procrastinate. Step 1: Have ADHD. Step 2: YouTube. Step 3: I really want some lasagna. Step 4: ...
Forgive me for not posting anything last week. I do have a good reason for missing it though. For one, it was General Conference time, and there were some really good messages from the First Presidency. I probably should have posted something, however. A friend of mine said that I should have just posted a thread saying, "Go watch conference." The other reason I didn't was because the previous week had been an amalgamation of keeping my emotions in, to the point where I had to let a lot of stuff off of my chest or I would have exploded and turned into a messy pile of emotions. So, it wasn't exactly the best time for me to prepare a lesson.
However, I felt that there is a lesson to be learned from me keeping everything in and not talking about it. Now, prepare yourselves, because I am going to go into some really personal stuff. My thoughts are not going to be too clear and concise, because I cannot think straight right now. SO, what have I learned from keeping things in for too long? You feel really... Really sad. So sad in fact, that you can't watch General Conference because you're wrapped up in how you're going to approach your father about your depression and how you need help, but before you can even talk about that, you have to clear up some of the problems that you've had with your father because you're tired of hating it when he walks through the door every day.
And so, I decided that I needed to stop being so prideful, and just sit at the foot of my bed, hang my head down low, and apologize for being a prideful person, admitting that I need Him in my life more than anything.
I feel a lot better now. It helps that I'm working on my relationship with my father, I've apologized to a lot of people I know for the way I've treated them in the past, I've come out with a lot of feelings I've had about people, and I'm working on being a more approachable person. (If you're in the same boat as I am, I recommend smiling a lot more often. Take out your headphones and say hello to anybody that walks your way.)
But the thing that I choose to believe is that Heavenly Father heard me. He offered me some much needed relief after I let everything out of my system. The Lord blesses those who want to improve themselves, were the best words that have ever come out of Jeffrey R. Holland's mouth. And that man has sneezed out diamond encrusted gold.
Improving yourself is a difficult task. Which is why you must ask God for help. You're trying to jump a hurdle that you know is a little too big for you, and you know that you can jump it one day. But after several attempts at trying to jump it, you fall flat on your face every time. And just when you're about ready to lie there for the rest of your life, a gentle hand picks you up off the ground. And when you get back on your feet, you realize that it's Heavenly Father. He's there to help you improve. With His help, you can jump that hurdle. You just have to try harder and harder until you can clear that hurdle like it isn't even a problem.
I'm sorry for getting really introspective on you like that. But I think that the best way for people to learn is for people to learn from the experiences and failures of others. And I am a prime example of what not to do.
I will not get that personal again.
-Joe
I'm sorry to hear that you're in a rough patch, but it's heartening to hear that you're heading out of it, especially with Him by your side. So often I've wished that acquaintances of mine going through hard times knew to turn to their Heavenly Father, or that I at least knew them well enough to suggest it.
Thank you for sharing, and take care