Journal of David Marshall
Wednesday, Day Four in Equestria, Late afternoon
Current mood: Anxious, excited
Anxious. That’s a good word. I could barely sleep last night, thinking about what might come today. Even though both Princess Luna and Princess Celestia met with me yesterday and reassured me, I can’t help but wait impatiently and wonder. The last three days have been a rollercoaster of emotions and unusual situations. Actually, outside of my anxiety, I think I’m starting to see this all as normal. Perhaps that is what I should be worried about. Let’s put it all aside for now; I can’t do anything more to help my situation.
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Since Princess Luna left me last night, I’ve been trying to distract myself. It hasn’t been easy. I resorted to pretty much the only thing I can do here… writing.
When I couldn’t sleep, I spent the time awake trying to write down what I could remember of Equestria and the ponies from the TV show, as I promised the princesses. Finally, I got some rest. However, when I woke up, I was the same excited mess, so I did the same thing.
It has helped, though, and at least I’ve made some progress. So far, I’ve finished creating character bios for the mane six and the princesses, as well as outlined the basic plot of several episodes I can remember, which seem to be mostly the season premieres and finales. And even though I never really bought into the show, and only saw it when taking care of my friends’ children that were into it, I was surprised by the detail in my memory. Thinking back on it now, and how I’ve started feeling about Princess Luna, actually I wish I would have paid more attention.
That brings up an interesting detail. This morning while writing, I remembered something. I’ve been focusing on what I know about the TV show, but I’ve also heard there were comics and movies as well. Unfortunately, I know very little about either. Thinking back to my talks with Princess Luna, though, even with what little I do know, the comics and movies might be completely unrelated to the real Equestria. There is no knowledge of humans or a portal to another world, and I know that Princess Luna doesn’t have a pet. But like I said, I know very little, so even after I get out of here, I’m not sure I’d be able to confirm my suspicion.
As far as the show is concerned, I’ve just finished writing about my two favorite episodes in detail, “Lesson Zero” and “Luna Eclipsed.” I admit, I’m pretty sure I blushed the whole while trying to remember and write about what happened in Princess Luna’s episode. While I was reminiscing, I really felt like I was connecting even more with her. I know now that she embodies a lot of the same qualities her character did and that she’s really lived the events I’ve seen. I have to remember, that even though the show’s timeline and events actually match her life, the show is still just a depiction, not reality. The Princess Luna I want to know is real; I can see, talk to, and touch her now. She has shown me the reality of this world, and the warmth in the hearts (and bodies) of those I have met. She’s so much more than just a kid’s show.
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Just reading those last few words is a little jarring, though. It’s shocking, really, how little attention I’ve paid to how normal this all feels. I’m here in a land of magic and ponies, filled with mystical creatures and previously-fictional characters, and I don’t seem to mind at all. Even more so, I feel quite attracted to one of them, and our differences—man and pony—seem to matter very little at this stage. I can’t wrap my mind around it.
But… Maybe it’s best not to think too much about it. This is the adventure of a lifetime, and I have even been given a primer for what to expect. I’ve only seen a small fraction of what this world has to offer, but I think I’ve started off on the right foot. I just need to be true to myself and not let what I know ruin things or take over.