Through the Looking Glass (revised edition)

by X3n0heart

With Weather Like This

"Please, don't do this!" I cried with an outstretched arm towards Twilight.
"It's all your fault. You did this to yourself." she stated as she glared down at me.
"But I can change. I want to be friends!"
"You will never have any friends!" Twilight yelled as she raised her arms above her head gathering magical energy between her hands.
"Twilight! Please! Help me!" The tears flowing down my cheeks as all I could do is watch her cast her spell before releasing every bit of magic towards me. The last thing I saw was the menacing look in her eyes before bolting straight up the darkness of the room making everything feel very surreal. I sat in my bed trying to get my breathing under control as I clenched my chest, my heart beating a thousand times a second.
It was just a dream... I told myself as I looked over at the clock. It was only a little after five in the morning as I sighed to myself still sitting there in my bed and just as soon as I got my breathing back to normal I noticed some quick flashes outside the window. Hastily throwing the covers over my head and placing my hands over my ears, I waited for the scary sounds to go away. I could still hear the thunder but it wasn't so bad as I hid underneath the covers.
After a few moments passed I got out of bed and started to make my way out of my room towards the kitchen turning on a small light when I got there. Emptying out the coffee pot I added some more water and ground coffee as I started the timer before my eyes fell on the couch and the girl who was sleeping there. A soft smile spread across my lips as I moved from around the counter and gazed at her for a moment.
Trixie was sleeping soundly, not one to be bothered by a little bit of thunder. Lucky girl. Wish I could sleep through anything. It was then that I noticed the sound of rain still hitting the sliding glass door and I went over to look out the blinds. It was still dark out for the clouds were covering the sky blocking the morning sun.
"Well it doesn't look like it's going to let up anytime soon." I sighed to myself as I went back to the kitchen for the timer went off and the fresh pot of coffee was ready. Pouring myself a cup and mixing in some creamer I inhaled deeply, closing my eyes at the wonderful aroma it produced.
"Trixie would like a cup of that." I heard from the couch which made me giggle softly as I reached for an empty mug and poured her some. I heard her sit up and yawn as I fixed it just like I did the previous night and brought it over to her.
"Here ya go. Sleep okay?"
"Thanks. Trixie slept just fine." she replied as she took a sip of the hot liquid. Grabbing my own cup I brought it back over to the couch and sat down next to her.
"That's good..." She must of picked up on the way I said that.
"What's wrong, Sunset?"
"Oh nothing really..." I stared into my cup before continuing. "I just had a bad dream this morning and this weather isn't helping any." Trixie leaned over and slightly bumped her shoulder into mine which made me turn and look at her.
"Cheer up. At least you have some company. It's not like Trixie could go anywhere with it still raining outside." she said with a smile which made my face heat up a bit and brought back those butterflies in my stomach. I did my best to try and hide my face as I took another sip from my cup as she went on. "So what shall we do today?"
"Ummm..." I trailed off as I thought about it. What ARE we going to do today? I asked myself as a few ideas ran though my mind. It wasn't until Trixie spoke that broke my chain of thought.
"Trixie's never seen a book like that before. Where did you get it?" Trixie asked.
"Hmm? What book?" It took me a second to realize what she was talking about and I tried to cover it up as quickly as I could. "Oh you mean the one that was on the table last night? An old friend gave that to me a long time ago."
"A long time ago? Oh come on, you're not that old." she poked at me.
"Thanks." I said sarcastically as I gave her a look. If you only knew how old I actually am...
"Trixie thinks it's some kind of diary and it has all your secrets!" she grinned at me over the top of her cup as she took another sip.
"Well you're half right..."
"Will you show Trixie?" she asked curiously as I just blinked at her.
"Seriously?"
"Yes, Trixie would really like to read through it." she said as she set her cup down on the coffee table. Great...what do I do now? If I show her some of the things in there it would give away where I'm actually from and things about Celestia... I sighed as I looked away from her and back into my cup. I felt her move closer to me and she placed her hand softly on my shoulder which made me turn towards her and the look in her eyes told me that she was really serious about it.
Placing my cup down on the coffee table I turned to Trixie and looked her straight in the eyes. "Fine but on two conditions."
"Okay name them."
"First you have to promise me that whatever you see in there you have to keep it a secret and second..." I hesitated for a moment.
"And that is....?" she questioned.
"I really would like to know why you always talk in the third person." Trixie sat back and glared at me and I quickly started to back pedal. "Well I mean you don't have to...if you don't want to." The look in her eyes softened a little bit as she shook her head in reply.
"No it's fine. I guess that's okay. Everyone wonders why I talk like that and that's one of the biggest things they tease me about." she looked down, slightly saddened by that fact.
"All right then. I'll be right back with the book." I told her as I got up and headed into my room. It didn't take me long to find it for it was resting on top of my dresser where I usually keep it at home. Picking it up I gazed at it for a few moments before wrapping my arms around it and bringing it back into the living room. I noticed it was going on seven o'clock and it was a bit brighter out but the rain still sang it's relentless song outside without missing a beat.
Taking a seat next to her I placed the book in my lap and sat there for a minute in silence before looking up at Trixie. "So this book," I started to explain but stopped before finding the right words, "this book is like an inter-dimensional two way communication device." Trixie kind of gave me an odd look and blinked a few times. "I can send and receive messages like how you can send texts on our phones."
"Oh, I see. But who are you sending messages to? And who's writing back to you?" Trixie asked curiously.
"Well when I first came here I was writing Princess Celestia befo-"
"You mean Principal Celestia, right?" Trixie interrupted.
"Ummm, no." I took a deep breath and steady my nerves for I was about to explain everything to her when the only ones that actually knew where I was from were Twilight and her friends. Trixie just sat there as she waited for me to continue. "Trixie I am from a place called Equestria and I am actually a pony with magical powers."
She didn't really flinch at the explanation but seemed to need more of it. "You see when I couldn't get what I wanted there I left that world and came here through a portal, the same portal that Twilight came through and then defeated me after I turned into that whole she-devil thing and took control over everyone in the school to use as my own personal army to take over Equestria." She was giving me another strange look as I drew her attention back to the book.
"Anyways that's not the point. The point is that this book was a way for me to communicate with Celestia and then Princess Twilight when she helped me see what I was doing was wrong and showed me the good in people." I looked down at the book and slid my hand gently across the cover with my cutie mark on it. "Here, see for yourself." I told her as I handed it to her. Trixie took the book and slowly opened it reading the small writing on the inside cover.

Turning another page she read some of the first few entries I wrote oh so long ago and the replies I received back from Celestia. A few more pages of silent reading went by and I watched her face, studied it to see if there was any kind of negative reaction from her. She skipped quite a few pages to more of the most recent ones and about the things I was writing to Twilight about. When she finished the last one that I wrote she looked up at me and I could tell she probably had a few questions.
"So you're saying that you write to ponies in another world?"
"That is correct."
"And Twilight hasn't written you back recently?"
"Also correct..." Trixie went back to the book and I had a feeling that she didn't believe or want to believe any of this was true but just then on that blank page the book started to vibrate and right in front of her words started to appear in that emptiness.
"W-what's going on?" Trixie was stunned as she watched the words form from nothing as I quickly grabbed the book from her and read the message out loud.

I squeed with joy as I hugged the book to me with the biggest smile on my face. Trixie just sat there next to me still with a look of shock upon her face as I set the book down on the coffee table and faced her. "She finally got back to me!" Trixie seemed to partially recover as she took my hands and squeezed them gently and gave me a soft smile.
"I guess you were telling the truth after all."
"I have no intention to lie to you, Trixie." I told her.
"I believe you, Sunset..." Trixie looked away from me and towards the open book.
"What's wrong?" I asked her as I still held her hands. They were soft and warm and I really didn't want to let them go as I could feel my heart racing a bit faster as I eagerly awaited her answer.
"It's just...nobody knows about my past and it's hard on me to remember it..." I noticed pain and sadness form in her eyes as she spoke.
"If it helps I promise not to tell anyone else." I tried to reassure her. Another loud crack of thunder rang over head which made me jump and tighten my grip on her hands as I shut my eyes trying to push it out of my mind. When I reopened them I noticed she had a small smirk on her lips. "Sorry." I said quietly as I started to let go of her hands.
"It's alright, I don't mind." Trixie stated as she didn't let me go. "It all started when I was a young girl." she started off. This is it, Sunset. Pay attention now and learn everything you can about her! I told myself as Trixie continued. "I used to love magic tricks and just adored their charismatic personality on stage. It made me want to grow up and be just like them, making people be in awe in what they do and just have that drive and attention they get." Her tone shifted suddenly as she went on.
"But then one day when my mom was taking me to go see one of the local magicians in town she had a heart attack and ended up crashing into another car. I don't remember much after that but when I woke in the hospital they explained everything to me as best as they could, probably thinking that I wouldn't understand any of it. The change started a few years after that when I saw one of the younger girls getting picked on at school and I decided to step in. It happened so naturally that I can't really explain it." I didn't interrupt her for I really did not know what to say as I just let her continue.
"I just started acting like they did. I put on a brave face, stood up to those kids and started saying "Trixie" instead of I, or me, or anything else like that. It just felt so comfortable to refer myself in the third person, like I really wasn't there anymore and perhaps all the pain I felt would just vanish away. It became such a staple in my life that I didn't have to think twice about it really and only in times of extreme stress or pain that I actually revert back to my old self again." That's something I have noticed a few times now. I felt her hands tighten around mine as she told her story and I just sat there listening to every word she said.
"So every day I put on this mask of "Trixie" and play the part of the "Great and Powerful" and deal with things as they come. Honestly I'm not as strong as I seem to be, it's all nothing but an act." I could hear her voice quivering slightly as she said that and that's when I finally spoke up.
"No you're wrong. You are the bravest person I know." I told her. "To be that confident in yourself without letting anyone tell you otherwise is true strength. You're a lot stronger than me, that's for sure." Trixie gave me a weak smile as she looked into my eyes. "And besides, I like that side of you. There's just something about it that draws me towards you when you act like that, even if it is just an act."
"Thank you, Sunset." I wrapped my arms around her and gave her a hug as she hugged me back.
"Anytime. Just keep being yourself, okay?"
"Okay. Trixie will be Trixie." she said softly which made me giggle right before another crack of thunder boomed outside and I squeaked, shuttering slightly. She held me close and I could tell she was trying real hard not to laugh at me but as contagious as it is I couldn't help myself and started laughing which made her start and we just sat there on the couch enjoying a good laugh. Who knew being afraid of thunder would be so funny?