Chapter 12: It’s official, I’m an idiot
I walked through the streets. Everypony gave me disparaging looks. I didn’t care. By the end of the day, everything would be alright again. At least that’s what I thought.
I arrived at the library and stopped right in front of the door. I didn’t notice anything about the magical barrier Spike had mentioned, so I guessed Twilight had calmed down.
“Okay, just go in there and admit you’re mistakes. Then you kiss her and everything’s alright again.”
I took a final deep breath and stepped in.
“Twilight I want to-“
I didn’t get any further, because my jaws dropped. There was Twilight...and she was hugging...Big Macintosh!!! Twilight noticed me and gasped. She immediately let go of Big Mac.
“Oh...uhm...Hi, Xenos...we were just...talking about you.” She stammered.
I couldn’t believe my bucking eyes. A few hours ago she had locked herself in her room to cry and now...this. I just glared at them. Big Mac looked as stoic as always, while Twilight seemed to look for words.
“It’s not exactly...what it looks like. It’s-“ She didn’t get a chance to finish a sentence.
“JUST SHUT UP!!! I came here, because I wanted to apologize and all I see is...you and him. No wonder that you locked the library. You two were really busy, I guess!” I growled.
Big Mac just raised an eyebrow, while Twilight’s jaws dropped and her eyes widened.
“You think we-“
“JUST FUCKING SHUT IT! And for you...” I turned to Big Mac. “You just broke up with your marefriend...and what’s the first thing you do? You hit on somepony else’s?”
I saw how his eyes slowly narrowed and he stomped his hoof on the ground. He looked very angry now.
“What do ya know about Fluttershy?”
I grinned evil.
“Oh, I got to know her a little bit more! Let’s just say...she was hit by a motherbucking explosion and I saved her life!” I shouted.
The red stallion turned pale.
“Fluttershy’s hurt? Mah Fluttershy’s hurt?!”
“Your Fluttershy? YOUR FLUTTERSHY??? You don’t bucking deserve her. She deserves better. Do you even know how much you hurt her? Do you know it? I do. BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME!!!”
My heart was bumping at an insane speed now. I felt so much hate for this arrogant stallion. Or did I just pretend to?
Big Mac just looked at me and snorted. Then he suddenly shouted with an extremely angry voice:
“DON’T YA EVER DARE TO SAY THAT AGAIN! If there’s one who doesn’t deserve his marefriend it’s you! What did ya do for Twilight? Nothing! Ya behaved like a complete (I didn’t know that word, but it sounded like a very rough cuss). YOU don’t deserve anypony!”
That was the final straw. I felt nothing but rage anymore. I dashed at Big Mac trying to smash my hoof into his face. However the red stallion seemed to have a little more fighting experience than me. He easily dodged my attack and I crashed into a bookshelf.
“Quit it! Ah don’t want to hurt ya.” He tried to hide his anger.
“That’s too bad, because I want to hurt YOU!” I hissed and jumped at him again.
This time he didn’t just dodge. He ducked and slammed his head into my stomach. I felt the pain and collapsed. I also heard Twilight scream:
“STOP IT!!!”
But I didn’t even think of stopping. I got up again and lost control over my body and mind. I charged a lightning bolt with my horn and aimed for Big Mac. Both he and Twilight looked shocked. I didn’t know what would have happened if I actually got a chance to shoot, but it didn’t happen anyway.
It was Twilight’s reaction that prevented me from making a terrible mistake. She quickly fired a magic beam at me, which knocked me back and smashed me against the wall.
Everything started to turn blurry, so I quickly shook the dizziness away. When I could see clear again I noticed a pretty furious Twilight glaring at me.
“WHAT. WERE. YOU. THINKING?” She shouted.
“What I was thinking? What were YOU thinking, when you and he...” I pointed at Big Mac.”...did...whatever you were doing...?”
Twilight clenched. She looked like she was about to explode.
“WHAT WE WERE DOING??? Big Mac came and asked me for advice. He wanted to make up with Fluttershy again and wanted my help. Yes, I hugged him. To comfort him!”
“Then why were you so surprised when I came in. As if you didn’t want me to see it!” I yelled back.
“Of course I didn’t want you to see it, because I thought you would draw wrong conclusions, which you obviously did! And you know why? BECAUSE YOU’RE A SELFISH, JEALOUS PRICK! And I NEVER! EVER! want to see you again.”
“Oops...”
“I-, I-....”
I couldn’t say anything. She was right. She was right in every way. I was selfish. I was jealous. And most of all, I was real prick. A motherfucking asshole. I went mad at Big Mac for simply hugging Twilight, despite the fact that I actually KISSED his ex-marefriend.
I didn’t know what to say, so I stood up and left the library. I could feel Twilight’s eyes piercing me, so I just looked down. I couldn’t stand her look right now. Outside I just wanted to cry, but couldn’t. I was too stunned by what had happened. I was even ready to kill myself, but how would I do that? Equestria wasn’t the place for suicide, so I dropped that thought.
I needed somepony’s shoulder to cry on, but I didn’t know who I could visit. Everypony hated me and they would hate me even more, when they heard about all this. I couldn’t even face the Doctor now. I screwed it up so badly, I didn’t even deserve any friends.
I decided to go home to hide under my bed, or maybe try to drown myself in the bathroom. I hoped that at least Discord wasn’t at home. Unfortunately he was...
“HAPPY MAKE UP WITH TWILIGHT DAY!” He shouted, when I entered the house.
Everything was decorated. There was even a banner showing a very amateurish drawing of me and Twilight kissing. Now I couldn’t hold back the tears and started crying like a foal.
Discord looked irritated and then his expression darkened.
“You screwed it up again, right?”
I just nodded. Then he teleported to my side and...Slapped me with his paw?
I stumbled back, stunned by the rude behaviour.
“Pull yourself together for Celestia’s sake. You had a chance, but you screwed it up like an idiot. I felt sorry for you the whole time, but now...you’re just pathetic!”
His words were harsh, but true.
“It doesn’t matter anymore. That’s it. Twilight’s never going to like me again.” I sobbed.
“Do you even listen to yourself?! You sound like a wimp. Now use your brain and think of a plan how to make everything right!” He shouted.
“Don’t you get it? It’s over. Forever.”
“What? You’re gonna give up like that? No way. You’re going to your room and work out a great plan how to bring you two together again!”
“But-“
“NO BACKTALK!”
He sounded just like my mother. This eventually made me...do what he said. I went into the bedroom, locked the door and started thinking.
I thought and thought and thought... until I had a plan. Not a great plan, but it was worth a try. I slammed the door open.
“Discord! I’ve got it. I have an idea. But we need a few things for it: First we need a bunch of music instruments, a recording studio, a female singer, a-“
“Wait, wait. I guess you want to record a song, right? Do you have the song in mind?” he interrupted me.
“Uhm...yeah...why?”
“Because...my little uninformed friend...I can record it right from your mind.”
“You can really...do that?” I asked in disbelief.
“I’m the spirit of chaos, I can do whatever I want.” He responded briefly.
“Good then...listen to this.” I said and concentrated to replay the song in my head.
Discord raised an eyebrow.
“Don’t you think that’s a little bit...too cheesy...especially for Twilight?” He asked.
“Oh...it’s not for Twilight. It’s for somepony else. To be exact for two other Ponies.” I said with a grin.
“Now you got me interested. Carry on...”
END OF CHAPTER 12
Author's note: Next chapter will be probably a bit longer. I don't know yet...