I decided to rub up my ideas
I left home for a walk in the park
I was with fear that somepony noticed my depression
Pinkie saw me and started to run at me:
"Hey Dashie! How are you since Tank's..."
"Stop right now, I'm fine Pinkie"
It is so hard to lie to my friends...
"Dashie, me and Twilight are making a lunch in the park
Want to go with us?"
I said yes to Pinkie, in fact I wouldn't said no to her
She guide me to the lunch zone of the park
Twilight and Rarity were preparing everything
"Hi Darling, how are you dear?"
"I'm fine, Rarity, it is hard to me but I stay strong"
"Glad that you are fine Dash" Says Twilight
We started to eat
AJ and Fluttershy join us sometime after
It was hard to swallow all that lies I created...
It was more harder to fake my smile
I started sweating with fear of noticing my sadness
But Twilight saw me sweating....
"Are you really fine Rainbow...?"
"Yeah sugarcube, you look terrible!"
After AJ saying that... I've lost all my soul
"Hum... I'm fine girls... It is just hot here, nothing more"
"But Dashie! It is Winter and is only 13 C° here"
Pinkie Pie is smart... I'm in a big mess
"Rainbow, if there something you need to talk,
We're here to listen all you have inside..."
Fluttershy is a kind mare, but I lied to all....
I lied to myself just for hidding the true me...
"Damn! I'm fine! I thinked that I said this more than a thousand times!"
I was in desesperation and sadness at the same time...
But I decided to run away from the park
I lifted flight and I went to my house
Twilight started to persecue me...
"Rainbow Dash! Why are you flying so fast!"
"Twilight stop! I just need a time for myself!"
"But... you aren't fine!"
I stopped flying and started to cry...
"No... I lied to you... I lied to my friends...
I lied to me..."
"Dash... I can help you,
Only if you told me the truth!"
I was... shocked...
"I need a time to myself, Twilight..."
"Ok Dash, if you need something, go to me!"
"Ok, bye Twilight"
I entered in my house and started to cry in my bed...
I'm a selfish pony...
I need help but I don't want
I can't take the pain alone or with my friends...
Suicide is the only... choice...