The Way I Feel

by kitkat0528


What to do

Fluttershy nervously brushes her hair. She stares at herself in the mirror. She repeats the same words in her head. I'll be fine. just a date. Fluttershy said yes to one of the love letters, now she's ready for the date... or, almost ready. Fluttershy tries to shake her nerves away, but she can't. She also can't shake away the feeling that this is wrong. That she can't-shouldn't do this.
A knock interrupts Fluttershy from her thoughts. She puts down the brush and sighs. "Here goes..."
She opens the door to a red colt. Fluttershy gasps. "OH MY- I-I mean... your the colt?" Fluttershy asks. Big Macintosh nods and smiles brightly.
"Eeyup!" Big Mac replies. Fluttershy smiles at him. He is rather hansom, and he is a very sweet colt... no, Flutttershy has to see where this is going, you don't know a colt before you get to really know them. Fluttershy sighs.
"Um... Okay, you get to choose where are we going," Fluttershy says. Big Macintosh smiles even brighter.
"Ah already have it planned out," He says. Fluttershy nods, surprised to hear him say more than just 'eeyup' or 'nope' or in the Apple Bloom cousin voice. It's quite different than what Fluttershy's used to. Big Mac offers an arm, and Fluttershy takes it. He closes the door behind her, and leads her away from the cottage. They had an un-awkward silence while they walked.
When Fluttershy realizes the place they're going is Sweet Apple Acres she becomes happier; she doesn't have to in front of everyone, with eveyone talking about how Fluttershy and Big Mac are a thing. Well, it will get around eventually, but by the time it will, everyone will already know that Fluttershy and Big Mac aren't a thing. Well, Fluttershy hopes this. She didn't really want to be a thing with Big Mac, he's nice and all, but she just doesn't want this. She's doing this more for Twilight than anything else. Fluttershy smiles at this thought. She can kindly say no about it once the date is over, and they won't ever speak of it again. Fluttershy liked this plan-
"Fluttershy?" Fluttershy jumped.
"Oh, Big Mac, um... sorry, lost in thought," Fluttershy says. Big Mac nods.
"Well, we're here. Have a seat," Big Mac says. Fluttershy blushes. She looks at the what is set up and gasps. A blanket, with a picnic basket open. The basket has wine and panini's in it. A candle it lit. "Wanted to keep it simple."
"Big Mac this is wonderful," Fluttershy replies. Big Mac nods. Fluttershy sits on the blanket while Big Mac follows. Big Mac takes out two glasses from the basket and pours wine in them. Fluttershy thanks him.
"So, you hungry?" Big Mac asks. Fluttershy nods. Realizing how hungry she actually was. "Here," He hands her a panini.
"So... how's your family?" Fluttershy asks. Big Mac laughs.
"Fine, Fluttershy, they are great... um, how's yours?" Big Mac asks. Fluttershy sighs.
"Dead..." She mumbles. Big Mac's eyes widen, then he shakes his head.
"Um... what did you say? Ah couldn't hear you," Big Mac tries. Flutttershy sighs again.
"I'm an orphan. I don't have a family, my dad left my mother when they found out that she was pregnant and she died in child birth," Fluttershy explains. Big Mac rubs his neck. "I found out who he was, then found out he burnt in a fire when I was six."
"Eeyup... Ah-Ah'm sorry to here that. Um, different topic..." Big Mac sighs. "Ah didn't make the panini's? Eeyup, that's works."
Fluttershy laughs. "I love your choice of topic. Who made them?" Fluttershy asks. Big Mac thought for a moment.
"Ah don't actually know. Apple Bloom gave these to me and said they'd be good for the date. She heated them up before we got here," Big Mac explained. Fluttershy smiled. An awkward silence took over for a few minutes as they chewed their food.
"So-" They said at the same time.
"I-"
"We-"
"You-"
"Um..." Awkward again. They stop an just ate silently for a while. Each finished their panini's. Big Mac took maybe a small sip of wine, Flutterhy didn't have any at all of hers. They eventually stood up and started t walk towards Fluttershy's cottage. Silence then too.
When they got to Fluttershy's house, Big Mac started the conversation.
"Um, Fluttershy, Ah'm sorry, for tonight. Don't hate me but, Ah just don't think that tonight went well. I think that, it just wouldn't work." Fluttershy smiled.
"I actually agree. You're not a bad colt, but I don't think it would," Fluttershy says. Big Mac nods.
"Well, Bye," He says. Fluttershy waves goodbye.
"Bye." Fluttershy closes the door behind her and see's a mad Angel Bunny. "What's your problem?" Fluttershy asks. Then she winces. Discord comes flowing back.
"SWEET CELESTIA! WHEN WILL IT STOP!"