The Way I Feel

by kitkat0528


Telling Her

Fluttershy cried in the grass for as long as her body could produce tears. She loved him. She loved him more than anything. She kept staring at the table, waiting for it to do something like Discord's magic would make it. Then she eventually kicked it, and it poofed away. That's something she learned about his magic. If he didn't care about it or want it there, all she had to do was kick it.

Fluttershy moved and got up, slowly heading towards her cottage. She saw the sun going down quickly, probably so Celestia could be with Discord all night and... Fluttershy looked away. She saw Pinkie coming up to her cottage with a cart. That's right, Fluttershy ordered a carrot cake for Angel since he hasn't caused much trouble lately.

Fluttershy sped up and entered her home through the back door. She heard a knock and quickly race to the door, opening it quickly so she could grab the cake, and go back to sulking. Fluttershy sighs when she see's Pinkie's bright face, it actually comforts her a bit. "Hi, Pinkie," Fluttershy says. She's not in a hurry anymore. Fluttershy takes the cake and thanks Pinkie. "It's for Angel, he said he wanted carrot cake so... anyway, how are you doing?" Angel pops up from behind Fluttershy and grabs the cake. Pinkie's face becomes angry.

"Hey! You don't just steal cake!" Pinkie says. Fluttershy waves it off. She huffs, then makes her face bright again. "I'm doing great, Flutters! You're actually my last delivery for the day!" Pinkie says cheerfully.

"Good for you. I'm sure your quite tired. I heard that all day you've been delivering," Fluttershy says. Pinkie nods, then yawns. They exchange goodbyes before Fluttershy closes the door behind her and falls on the floor. "Back to sulking," She mutters.
Fluttershy stands up and almost heads back upstairs, but stops herself. What if I tell someone? She asks herself. What if I tell Twilight? She's in a relationship, maybe she can listen, give me advise. She then rethinks it. no, all I can do is tell her... she won't understand, this hasn't happened before. Fluttershy bites her cheek. Okay, I guess I'll go tell her. But she can't possibly help.

* * * *

Fluttershy nods to the guards as they open the doors for her. They know that she is no threat, she's only Fluttershy. She walks in, hears the doors close behind her, and see's a Twilight with a small hump on her stomach. Twilight looks terribly tired. "Hi, Fluttershy," Twilight says. Fluttershy looks down.
"Hi, Twilight," Fluttershy says. "You look awfully tired. Are you okay?"
"Oh, please, Fluttershy! I'm fine, just a little... well, tired. This foal is taking a bit of my energy, but I'm fine. Nothing I can't handle. What about you? You look like you've been... crying. Also, why come to my castle at night?" Twilight asks. Fluttershy broke into tears. she couldn't help it. Twilight gasps. She comes over to Fluttershy to comfort her. "Oh! Fluttershy what is it? What happened?" Twilight wraps her arm around Fluttershy. Fluttershy sits down and leans in Twilight.
"I'm... so...sorry, Twilight!" Fluttershy cried between sobs. "It's just... I... he..." The thought made Flutterhsy cry even harder. Twilight rubs her hoof on Fluttershy's back.
"Oh, Fluttershy... Please, tell me what it is... I... I can help," Twilight comforts. Fluttershy looks up at Twilight with red eyes.
"Twilight... He... Discord... h-he-he.... Oh Stars!" Fluttershy cries. Twilight gasps.
"Discord! I knew he would do something bad! What did he do, Fluttershy? It looks like he traumatized you!" Twilight exclaims. Fluttershy looks up at Twilight.
"It-it wasn't his fault!" Fluttershy explains. "It was... nopony's fault! Nopony ever did anything... it's just... I LOVE DISCORD!" Fluttershy booms. Twilight freezes in shock. Fluttershy looks away, pulling Twilight's hoof off of her. "I'm sorry-"
"Y-You're fine... I-I am surprised, is all. What's wrong with you loving Discord? Oh wait, I take that back... he's Discord... now I understand, okay, I'm sorry..." Twilight trails off. Fluttershy shakes her head.
"No, Twilight. The problem is that he doesn't love me. He loves Celestia. *Sniffle* H-he told me so. I told him to go tell her and I guess now they are probably a thing... or... whatever. I shouldn't have come," Fluttershy explains. Twilight shakes her head.
"Fluttershy, I don't know if I can, but I will try to help. Listen, you're a great pony, and if Discord doesn't see that, then maybe he's not the one. Meet other ponies, say yes to the love letters," Twilight suggests. Fluttershy looks up.
"How do you know about the love letters I get from colts?" Fluttershy asks. Twilight bites her lip.
"I... can't help but sort you mail when I stay over at your house. You know I have OCD. Your mail pile is just so annoying! It's a pile and of course, I see who it's from, and they draw hearts. Colts draw hearts for you... anyway, let's not talk about that. You should meet some colts, have a little fun with it.