I am, Helena

by RowanSkie


1-Short Basis - Helena

Twilight.

Helena Tess Ryder was dreaming.

Twilight, I'm very much sorry.

Helena didn't know who the voice was, why she was being called Twilight, and why she was sorry.

I should've listened...

"No... come back..." she muttered while asleep.

I'm sorry, my faithful student. We'll meet again...

"STOP!" Helena shouted, instantly waking herself from the nightmare.

She looked around, released a breath of relief, and took a glass of water as she took one notebook and turned a lamp on and began to write.

Dear Diary,

   It's been a month since I turned 18 and began receiving dreams about someone who seemed familiar leaving me, or the other way around. However, today, I also felt like being pulled around by some unknown force, which I might resort to magic if all of my experiments fail to explain why this is happening to me.

Before Helena got to sign, the lights came on which momentarily blinded her, and saw her drowsy brother peeking from the bedroom door, causing her to instinctively hide her diary. She faked a smile, then went to him.

"It's okay," Helena replied to the question he was about to ask. "It's just that dream again. Or, nightmare."

"Are you sure?" Her brother asked, and Helena nodded in confirmation. "Alright then, good night sis."

Helena chuckled as she gently pushed him off he doorway, turning off the lights. "Good night to you, my big best brother friend forever."

"You might want to make an acronym for that," Helena's brother joked as he went to her room which was just across the hallway.

As Helena closed the door and went to her diary, she noticed something outside from the window which was beside her study space, and saw a tall pony staring at her. Ignoring it, she rubbed her eyes and went to bed and floated off into her dream world. A world of friendship and colorfulness. A world where she was a Princess ruling aside elder Princesses. A world where she had five friends.

A world of ponies.


Helena woke up and headed to the dining area, half-awake. When she smelled the pancakes however, it quickly woke her up and her stomach grumbled.

"So," her mother said, flipping a pancake in the frying pan, "how was the night? We all woke up after that scream, and well... you know next."

"Well..." Helena began to nom in one of the pancakes in her plate. "Just the dream, only this time I think it was more of a nightmare now."

Her father, a telepath, looked at Helena.

"Still, the voice sounded clearer this time, and who is Twilight Sparkle? Those dreams keep calling me that." Helena added.

The whole household, including the house dog, stopped and looked at Helena, who winced. Her mother told to finish her breakfast, and she'll talk to Helena later after she ate. 'Must be something I said. Huh.' So she continued eating, and flashes of a memory slowly striked her mind, memory of five ponies with her... Helena shrugged the thought and finished the pancake with style.

After she washed her dishes, Helena went to her mother's room, finding that her mother was watching cartoons, and invited Helena to sit beside her. Her mother then switched CDs, moving past Helena's former favorite one, into a pony show.

"You asked about who is Twilight Sparkle," her mother asked, "right?"

Helena nodded.

"Watch the show. If you feel a headache or feel like it has happened before, call me." Her mother then played it from the very first episode, which involved a certain violet unicorn which matched almost all of her traits and favorites immediately. She began to take notes while the show rolled.

"So, Twilight Sparkle is a pony living in a place called Equestria..." Write, snap, swoosh, write. "Cutie mark similar to my signature logo. No, entirely the same signature logo I chose..." At the part where Applejack was introduced, the world seemed to froze.

Helena screamed.

Her mother, Velvet Ryder, ran inside to her room where Helena was.

Her brother ran from his room.

Her father ran from the yard, where he was about to enter his car to his work.

They ran to Helena who was screaming, hands on her head, the CD player broken due to a mysterious force. Her father, also a government agent, knew what he had to do. He holstered his tranquilizer pistol.

"I hope you can forgive me, Helena Twilight Sparkle Ryder."

*BANG!


Twilight Sparkle woke up on the floor of a room, with three humans looking at her. The taller man, glanced at her.

'Why are they looking at me? Where am I?'

"Helena," the female called, "are you alright?"

"Y-yes...?" 'Why is my name Helena Twilight Sparkle Ryder!? What's going on!?

The father's telepathic ability helped Twilight calm down, and sat on the couch to explain.

"You see dear, you were reincarnated, much like your brother here." Velvet pulled out a book. "Here, this might familiarize yourself to the world. I... uh... Helena?"

'Her name's Velvet Ryder. Reminds me of my mom... first mother. Thanks dad.'

Her father, the tall man, winked in reply. Twilight then opened the book, only to find that it was a diary, and she began to read it from the beginning until the last entry in 10 minutes. 'I guess brains are better than any weapon, but me writing a diary? I don't... remember...'

"I don't know if I should do the 10 seconds flat joke," her 'brother' joked, "but she finished the book in 10 minutes flat."

"So... what does this mean...?" Twilight was then engulfed by a ball of light.


Helena. Are you alright?

Helena was sleeping again. Might as well answer. "I don't exactly know, but I dreamed I was this Twilight Sparkle again."

She is you, and you are her.

"How? I'll need proof for that."

You have few of my telepathic abilities, use it.

"I... I have... what?"

Wake up.

Helena woke up at her bed, besides her father who was sitting near her. She looked around, refamiliarizing herself at home, which was odd. She had to ask this. "Why do I feel like this isn't my room at all?"

"Of course darling," her father replied, "last two days, you became your old self for a few hours before falling to the floor."

"Did I say anything at that time?" Helena asked.

"Only mass confusion in your head which triggered the transformation." Helena was relieved.

"So, how can I 'transform' back?" She was answered by silence as she noticed her father's gone. "I guess I'll have to find a way."

"Shining Armour's going to be pissed."

Helena flinched as an alicorn pony appeared right in front of her.

"Who the!?" Helena swallowed the lump in her throat. "Who are you?"

"Nice hands by the way, and I am you."

"You are me...? You're..." Helena gulped as her everything connected and fell into place, those good-bye dreams more or less comeback dreams. She was confused, and was about to hyperventilate when she used deep breaths. Twilight couldn't been anymore happier.

"I guess... I'll have to take over my body when we come home..." she mused.

"Home?" Helena asked, "this is... my home, while yours is at..."

"At Equestria, I know... Just when I was about to prepare myself to introduce normally to our parents..." Twilight replied.

"Why don't you... use your own body?" Helena suggested.

Twilight shook her head. "Nope, I won't risk myself being seen."

"Oh. What do you lastly remember?"

"Disaster. Me sacrificing for Equestria. Something like that..." Helena noticed Twilight frowning. "A happy death of old age with my friends..."

"Would you want to go to Equestria?" Helena offered, instantly turning Twilight's frown upside down.


A few days later, Helena had actually just discovered a crystal mirror to Equestria, and much to Twilight Sparkle's enthusiasm, she jumped only to come out as the familiar alicorn with a phoenix facing the left instead of the starburst cutie mark. Helena also noticed Twilight merging with her, a gentle voice of consciousness who once bore the Element of Magic. And, much to her surprise, Helena saw Twilight's friends, no, her friends waiting and was surprised.

"Twilight? Is that you?" Fluttershy asked. "Why is your cutie mark different?"

Helena looked at her flank, and was surprised. Using her best imitation of Twilight's accent, she said, "I don't know." She looked around and pulled everyone to a group hug. "I missed all of you."

Princess Celestia was watching, and when Helena had let go, she called her for a private talk in her room. Helena was surprised by the looks of the room. She guessed her design wasn't that bad... if Helena did try to draw Celestia's room a long time ago.

"So, Helena," Celestia said, the lavender mare flinching, "it took you long enough to respond."

"Uh... why?" asked Helena, "I'm no longer the pony they expected, you expected, your... majesty."

You didn't have to do that, Twilight whispered.

"Please, call me Celestia and," Celestia took a diary from a drawer, "this must be yours."

Helena took it using her magic which felt natural, and flipped it to the last page.

One, two, buckle my shoe.
Three, four, shut the door.
Five, six, pick up sticks.
Seven, eight, lay them straight.
Nine, ten, begin again.

"Well..." Celestia smiled.

Helena looked up and hummed a tune which Celestia didn't recognize and responded, "It's... really Twilight's stuff... right? Or... she knew about this... uh... she foresaw the future and wrote this to mock me... or something."

"It is also a spell to modify the crystal mirror's destination point, so it seems," Celestia commented.

So it was on purpose! Helena thought.

Hey, I just came to investigate new worlds, not be reincarnated as you! Twilight excused, You should've asked your mother.

Celestia watched at Helena's expressions changed like somepony was talking to her and decided to interrupt. "Let me talk to my former student."

Helena flinched and muttered a few words neither the ponies understood and fainted.


Twilight woke up on four hooves, and stared at an eye-widened Celestia. Twilight tapped around and stretched, re-adjusting to the muscles. She then wondered how being on fours was natural for Helena, and swiftly looked at her flank and had her eyes widen.

"Helena Ryder," she said, "the phoenix in the cutie mark shifted."

I was expecting a purple-orange yin yang mark. Celestia stared and investigated Helena/Twilight's cutie mark closely. The cutie mark was a phoenix facing right instead of left. It was also in a slightly different color, being more lighter than before.

Twilight visibly snapped as she glomped Celestia, causing Princess Luna, who just passed by, to be startled by the action. She was about to check on them after all, but the events were as fast as lightning.

Remind me to add this to my diary, which you might already know. Helena mentally chuckled. This is going to be epic along with my show, which is, don't be surprised, about you.

Shut up for a second, please?

"Twilight," Celestia said, "will you stay?" Twilight stepped back to let Celestia stand again.

"I..." Help. This is your body... "Helena might..."

"Disallow?" Celestia raised a brow. "Would you if you were her?"

Helena didn't respond, but rather has been busy planning causing Twilight to worry.

Twilight then fainted as Luna bursted into the room. Good job, Luna.


"And then... uh... oh. Oh!" Helena immediately hopped into an attack stance. "Five and Six! That makes absolutely perfect sense!"

"Uh... what?" Rainbow Dash.

Helena blinked and looked around before she summoned a frying pan and began to hit herself with it until her head bleed then she counted the drops before firing a healing spell to herself. Luna smiled as she solved what she meant.

"By doing so," Luna said, "thou cast a curse by yourself with blood magic?"

"By Freddy's Hat, yes!" Helena manically chuckled. "Nevermore, I'll have to use it against who I was. The curse... of death"

You're serious, right?

Relax, I saw the moon. We can perfectly escape this event by stopping you from even touching home. By that, I'll never be you, and you're still you, alive. Helena mentally shuddered. Unless you tell me that there was a woman with MPD who tried to stop.

I guess? I'm... feeling like fading away.

Oh. See you then, if we're successful. Only a glance of a hand will make you remember this.

Helena lit her horn and vanished in a smoke of purple which dissipated.