The whole reason behind this is the way I feel. I can never see myself as a true hero or even honorable in the right eyes. I know I'm slowly bring honor back to my fathers name but it all doesn't matter to me. Don't get me wrong I love my mother and sister, but the true person that mattered in my life is long and gone. I will keep on the path that I made myself through the swampy hell I call my life. Its said if you run in to a Y in the road go the path less ran. I shoved the sign over and used it to clear my path.
'Being a hero is not what you did, but rather making a split second choice and giving something up to do so...' My father taught me that and I have yet to do so. Till that moment comes I shall slowly bring back honor and pride to the family name. I seek to restore what was a honorable military name and I'll have my chance soon. Till than I shall right wrongs and create more problems than I should ever have. See you can change the past but you can alter the future. My past is a dark one and y'all can call bull if you may.
Never judge a book by its cover, for it may be your own. Live and let live, smile and be joyous of the days you have to come. For them may bring their own battles, but not ever war is won by a single day. It will bare fruits of your labor... May not see it till later in life but for now know life will always have its silver lining. Look to the sky and that is what you are worth. Everything but in the same idea nothing. You have to truly think about it as is the glass half empty or half full. For those who take this as they are nothing the air around you is what keeps you living. In means you make people live another day. Nitrogen, oxygen, and trace gasses help you live to see another day. Now see the glass half full and know you can reach far past the starts. Know that you can make a change and make things right in this dark place we call life. Know that you help those who see life as a half empty glass. You are what makes the glass truly full and no longer a fight.
Take my words as you wish, but know the glass is never empty, nor is it full. Rely on humanity to make the glass complete.