Hey. It's been a while huh?
It's Chris, obviously. I don't even know why I need to tell you guys that every fucking time I post something.
Goddamn, THREE MONTHS?! Long time indeed. It's been hell for me and John...oh yeah and Elizabeth, can't forget about her. Yes, it's true about what "Peter" posted...though I know it wasn't. She's pregnant. I don't understand how he would've known that.
...Moving on, she's about...five months. Man, does she have some fucking mood swings. I'm a patient fellow, though, so it doesn't bother me at all...though it bothers John a fucking lot. That's the weird thing, he's always been as patient as I am. Although, if you go through THIS MUCH HELL, then your patience may run a bit thin, wouldn't you say?
Like I said, it's been a living hell for the three of us mainly. I don't know about Celestia, or Luna. They may be getting the royal treatment, since they're focusing on us right now. So...about the journals.
You know those nightmares that I had a couple years back? Yeah, they're back, but a whole lot worse. They're vivid, VERY vivid. I thought my emotions were completely erased. Nope. Dead wrong. Now I'm afraid to go back to sleep. So, basically, if I don't give them what they want, the nightmares will get worse and worse and WORSE. My sanity is running low from it, and it's changing my personality. I'm becoming more bitter whenever I wake up, and John especially knows how I feel about that. Elizabeth doesn't...at least not yet. She'll know, and she'll know real good. It just hasn't happened yet, and I DON'T want it to happen.
Every time I touch the journals, pain just starts jolting through my body. It's like they put some sort of spell on it so that I won't be able to read it again.
Those posts with the journal entries in them aren't going to happen. I don't want anything worse to fall upon Elizabeth. She's going through enough as it is. She's sensitive, and they know it. That's why they're threatening to take her away from me again. Plus, I'll go mad, and John...I don't want to know what will happen to him. So, all that work is going to waste, and I'm so fucking pissed off about it. I can't believe that I'm doing this...but I have to do this one thing that they say. If I don't...then everyone that I love will die.
I'm sorry, but I don't have a say in this one. It's for the safety for not only for her...but for my son. Yes, I'm having a boy. I'm excited, but at the same time, I'm terrified. I don't even know what will happen when he's born.
...Fuck. I'm about to crash. Here we go again witht eh nightmaers.asddc